A/N: Well hello there kittys it's been a while eh? *scratches back of head* ya its been a hell of a long time. I wont babble on about my huge writers block and such but it was there for a long time. I want to say thank you to the people who have read this even though it hasn't been updated in god knows how long lol and also a special thanks to my beta Tiana Misoro for helping get me back into the groove with this story ^^ This will be updated when I have the time or the sudden flare of inspiration so don't expect updates to often. Well now that that's done on with the story!
Warnings: Drama and a little bit of smut, hope ya like~!
The music that pounded around me seemed to set my body into motion, making me want to move along with the large mass of people who danced against each other on the dance floor. Hips swaying to the deep beat that streamed through the speakers in the club, I tried to find my boyfriend who had gone to the washroom almost twenty minutes ago. Flicking my eyes through the crowd I searched each person, quickly becoming annoyed with the fact that it was much too dark to exactly pin point where Kaien was or if he was even back yet.
Did he die in there or something?
I thought to myself silently as I lifted my drink to my lips, gulping back the fruity blue liquid that remained in my glass, I got up finding myself swaying on my feet and my vision suddenly blurring at the edges. I can't remember how many of those flaming Lamborghini drinks I had but they were good and strong that's for sure. I certainly wasn't aware of how many of those blue things the bartender had given me, did it really matter? I was here to have a good time so screw the amount I induced and besides I needed it to be able to face those two that I also hadn't seen since we arrived at the bar.
"Need fresh air." I grumbled out making my way towards the exit of the flashy club.
My head seemed to dim slightly the moment my body made contact with the fresh air, filling my lungs to the brim with the crisp night air I let out a deep groan before stumbling against the brick wall behind me. Sliding down onto my ass I let out a stream of giggles not really caring who the fuck heard me, my body felt light as a feather as well as my mind and I was currently on cloud nine. I hadn't felt this relaxed in so long and I didn't care if it was from the alcohol or not, it was still nice. I had yet to really wrap my mind around the fact that Grimmjow and Shiro were here at my school, we were together again and I was assuming we were going to try and start over and give ourselves a clean slate. Personally I wasn't sure if that was such a good idea, seeing the two again brought out a bunch of emotions that I haven't really been able to place, that's probably why I drank so much tonight.
"Soooo stupid." Letting my head press against the cool brick I closed my eyes, letting my thoughts begin to roam, that was until I received a rough push to my left shoulder effectively knocking me over and I opened my eyes to glare at the perpetrator. I unexpectedly came face to face with sparkling golden orbs that seemed to make my stomach do flip flops and I had to shake my head to lose the feeling. I quickly came to my senses and found that shaking my head may not be the best idea in my condition.
"Oh god so dizzy." I whined as I continued to lay on the most likely dirty sidewalk as I allowed my head to stop spinning. At least now I had something else to focus on besides the flip flops my stomach wanted to make.
"Are you drunk?" I hummed my approval at the albino's question, chancing another glance at the man who chose to take a seat next to me I let my heavy eyes roam over his lithe form, almost instantly feeling my body heat at the alluring sight before me.
"Here." Grabbing hold of my arm he gave me a good pull a little too hard and I ended up practically falling onto his lap. The scent that attacked my senses had my eyes fluttering closed and my mouth letting out a small groan, he smelt so fucking good, too good right now.
"God how much have you drank Ichigo?" Rolling my body so I lay on my back, my head in his lap I found him giving me a question glance.
"Dunno but I do know tha' your comfy and smell really good." I slurred out, bringing my hand up to lay against Shiro's chest I felt his breathing hitch before levelling back out.
"Where's your boyfriend Ichigo?"
"Hmm wha' ya don't call me Ichi no more?" I asked with a firm pout and I watched him mirror my face perfectly and I brought my hand up slowly, pressing my palm against his cheek.
"I missed ya, why'd ya have to just up and leave me?"
"God yer so drunk right now it isn't even funny."
"No I'm not!" I practically whined out, only confirming his words even more seeing as how I only whined when I was horribly drunk and wanting my own way.
"We should find your boyfriend." Grabbing my hand and pulling it Shiro began to pull me to my feet only to have me struggle out of his grasp and land on my ass, once again.
"I don't wan' to find him and I don't need your help! You'd jus' leave the moment I found 'im anyway."
"That was the plan." Shiro quietly mumbled but I heard him quite fine and he noticed right away due to that hard glare that I was now shooting his way.
"Fuck you Shiro, this is god's way of kicking ya in da ass for being a wimpy bitch. I may have wanted ya before but fuck knows I will never wan' ya again!" I practically screamed out making golden eyes widen in shock but I didn't stick around long, I quickly turned on my heel and made my way in the opposite direction.
Hoping of course that this was the right way to my house I began to stumble my way home, completely forgetting that I had driven there, not that I really cared at this point. My mind buzzed with the sudden emotion that began to drip out from me, the anger that I held towards the two men seeming to spill out of me like I had just turned on the tap full blast. Most of the anger was directed at Shiro, he was the cause of all of this from the very start. He did all of this, he left me high and dry with not even a goodbye. We went from being best friends to strangers in a matter of a day and it just wasn't fair.
"Yo kid!" Letting my gaze fall from the gray street in front of me I lifted up my head to view the taxi the sat beside me on the road. Cocking an eyebrow I watched the silver haired man wave me over.
"Ya need a ride bud, ya look like you're ready to fall over."
"I don't got much cash, only debit." I slurred and watched him shrug his shoulders before speaking.
"Where do ya live, if it's close by I'll give ya a lift for free. Better that then finding out ya got mugged and killed on the twelve o clock news."
"I live right next to ZT university." I mumbled as I stood next to the cab, and the man nodded for me to get into the back, so I did.
The entire drive home I made mumbled conversation with the cab driver, not really caring how drunk I sounded or how stupid I did. My eyes were heavy and my mind buzzed with alcohol and anger, the only thing I had on my mind was getting home and going to sleep and not waking up till I felt absolutely nothing towards the white haired bastard.
"You good to get in?"
"Ya I'm good, thanks man." I announced with a quick wave without catching the man's name, or maybe he had given me his name. Either way I didn't remember and didn't really care. Making my way up the steps to my house I carefully placed my key in the lock, after about four or five tries of course I was able to unlock the door and slip inside.
Making my way up stairs I instantly noticed one of the bedroom lights were on and I stumbled my way over, stubbing my toe on the side table that sat outside one of the rooms, having yet to be put inside. Cursing softly, or what I thought was soft I creaked the door open to find Grimmjow lying out on his bed, shirt off and in nothing more than his boxers and I found him eyeing me curiously.
"Ichigo what are ya doin' home so early?"
"I could be askin' ya the same thing." I announced before stepping into his room, tossing my coat onto the floor as I made my way over to his bed to collapse onto the soft surface.
"What the fuck are ya doin'?" Letting out a low groan I raised my head from the comforter to view him.
"Stop with the questions, I don't like to sleep alone when I'm drunk." Watching teal eyes roll I propped myself up to get a better view of the man before me. Strong muscled arms lay rested behind his head, showing off the mouth-watering body to me perfectly. A tan sculpted chest rose and fell as the man breathed deeply, a sleek black panther was tattooed on the left side of his stomach, clawing into his rib cage and I didn't think twice before reaching over and tracing the detailed ink with my finger.
"Beautiful." I spoke quietly as I watched his muscles tense at my touch making me pause before continuing the action.
"Why'd you leave?" Glancing up I found teal eyes simmering with a deep heat, plump lips parted and looking all to inviting in my hazed state. There was one problem that I had when I was drunk, I love to kiss people, and anybody would do really as long as they would kiss back I was happy.
"Because I was bored, drunk, horny and couldn't find anybody tha' interested me, why'd you leave?"
"Yer so blunt." Flopping back onto the bed I quickly shut my eyes to get my mind off the gorgeous man beside me. The heat from his body was almost too hot for my liking and I decided groggily that maybe a cold shower would make me feel better.
"Where are ya goin'?" He questioned in a low tone that seemed to wrap around my body, mostly my lower half it seemed and had me shivering at the sound.
"Shower." I explained just about reaching the edge of the bed before I was pulled back on and down onto the mattress, Grimmjow now holding my arm above my head with a tight grip making me furrow my brows in question.
"Ya never answered my question."
"Wha' question?" I began to wrack my mind for what he had asked me, not being able to come up with an answer and only seeming to freeze up more when the bluenette moved closer to me. A heavy scent of alcohol washed over me along with a spicy scent of his cologne, his lips becoming more and more enticing the closer he came.
"Grimm yer drunk." I whispered, licking my lips as I spoke, trying to figure out what exactly I meant by that statement, talk about calling the kettle black.
"So are ya Ichi." He practically purred my nickname that seemed make my skin tingle in excitement.
"I missed ya, even though we never really got ta become close I still missed ya." Whispering softly as he leaned into me. I listened to a low, tiny voice in the back of my mind that was trying to scream to me to stop. To remember the fact that I had a boyfriend and even though I was drunk and so was Grimmjow this was wrong but that voice was just so tiny I didn't care.
"I missed ya to." Surprisingly soft lips met mine, shooting sparks in every which direction of my mind and practically blasting that tiny voice back where it came from. The one hand I had free shot directly into his hair, threading through the soft blue locks and I almost melted when a moist tongue peaked out to ask for entrance. Letting out a deep moan I allowed it, my body and mind becoming feverish with want while I began to react to every touch I received. He tasted like rum and something all Grimmjow, the taste had my body crying out for more.
"God." I groaned out between our kiss, the small gasp for breath was taken before we dove in for more. The world around me seemed to become white nose and the only thing that mattered was the warm muscled body above me.
"So good, ya taste so good." Grimmjow murmured against my lips before making his way down my neck, placing soft nips and kisses against the tan column, his right hand gliding up my shirt to find my nipple and tweak it, making me arch into him for more.
"Fuck, it's so hot."
"Then take it off." Even though he had told me to do it, Grimmjow didn't think twice before tearing off the thin material of my tee shirt and I quickly found my eyes moving down his body to find his boxers now forming a nice big tent. Reaching down I gave his member a firm stroke, electing a deep growl from the action.
"More." We both seemed to breathe out together and I could feel his hands fumbling with the button on my jeans, my hand easily slipping into his boxers and listened to him let out a deep moan at the contact.
"You want it?" He mumbled into my ear, making my eyes flutter closed and my grip tighten around his thick length.
"I want you inside me." The words left my mouth before I knew what I was saying and I watched him pull back from me, his eyes shining with heat and desire and I brought my hands up his chest and around his neck, pulling him closer to me.
"Why can't I get enough of you? I try to forget you, to not want you but you're like a god damn drug that I'm addicted to." Grimmjow panted against my lips and I moaned at his words.
"I need my fix Ichigo."
"Let me become addicted to you Grimm, make me break."
"I'll make you mine."
XXX
Bright light streamed through the window that sat to the side of the bed and I let out a small groan, my eyes blinking open in confusion as to why the hell my curtains weren't closed. Rolling over onto my side I came face to face with a sleeping Grimmjow, making me yelp and jump back only to connect my head with the wall behind me. This instantly had me cupping my head in pain while a dull stream of ringing echoed throughout my brain with a wave of nausea rolling its way up my throat and I had to take a deep breath to try and settle it, talk about a hangover.
"Fuck." I grumbled out as I tried to gather my bearings as to what the fuck I was doing in Grimmjow's bedroom, trying my best to remember my night last night but coming up empty after I had started drinking heavy.
"Ichi?" Pulling my hands away from my face I met the confused gaze of my newest bed mate, following his gaze that drifted down my body and it was then that I realized that I was butt ass naked.
"What the fuck?"I hissed out, trying my best to tear the sheet off of Grimmjow and onto myself only to realize I wasn't the only one naked, along with this movement came the sharp pain that ran through my ass and up my tail bone making me groan out in pain.
"God dammit my ass, what the fuck happened?" Even though I asked this I already knew the answer, I mean common it doesn't take I rocket scientist to put the pieces together and even though I didn't remember it I knew that without a doubt it happened. I could feel it on my skin, between my thighs and on my chest, could practically taste him on me and not to mention we both reeked of sex.
"Well you see Ichi when to men become horny-"
"Don't even start Grimm because your sarcasm is not going to help this at all." Watching blue eyes roll, I gave him a dark glare before letting my thoughts sink in.
"I can't believe this happened, I don't cheat, I'm not a cheater so why the fuck did this happen."
"Because you wanted it and you're not as into your boyfriend as you think you are?" Giving him a hard push, Grimmjow fell off the bed and onto the cool wood floor below and I quickly grabbed my pants that had been discarded next to the bed before quickly slipping them onto my body and making a break for the door.
This did not happen, this is not happening
I continued to chant in my mind before making a mad dash for my room, more than thankful that no one was awake yet or at least not in the house. When I came into my room I quickly shut my door, my body running cold at the thought of what I did, who I did it with, of all people it just had to be Grimmjow and drunk to top everything off. Back in high school I always imagined that if Grimmjow wasn't straight and wanted me that our first time would be special, amazing, the best sex of my life and yet it was this. Something I couldn't even fucking remember and it wasn't even real sex! I wasn't with him, I had cheated on my boyfriend with him when I was drunk, so drunk I didn't even know or care what I was doing.
A low groan that sounded from my bed had my head snapping up to view a sleeping Kaien. To all my horror he was cuddled into my bed almost hanging off of it while being fully clothed and he moved onto his side, moving further from the edge to snuggle his face deeper into the covers.
Oh. My. God! Is this god punishing me for my wrong doings? To come into my room and find this, what the fuck do I do?
Giving my head a good shake I silently made my way over to my bathroom, closing the door with a soft click I went over to the shower and turned it on, quickly discarding my pants before hoping into the steaming shower. Allowing the water to warm my tense body seemed to relax me a little bit, yet it did really nothing to help make the situation at hand go away. I knew deep down, having buried it there that my feelings still stirred for Grimmjow and even Shiro. I tried, I really did to make my feelings go away and everything was going pretty well until I saw them, everything I had worked hard to flush away came floating back to the surface.
"Fuck my life." Apparently my drunk self had no intention of pushing those feelings away, in fact he seemed to want to take a hold of them and have his fun with them and personally I couldn't blame him. At the moment I didn't know what twisted my gut more, the fact that I had cheated on Kaien or the fact that I had had sex with Grimmjow and can't remember.
Finally finishing up in the shower I lazily and quietly made my way out into my bedroom, trying my best not to disturb my sleeping boyfriend. Finally pulling out a pair of boxers, sweat pants and hoodie I threw my clothes on before giving my hair a quick towel dry and slinked out of my bedroom once again, this time in search of some much needed advil.
Making my way down the stairs I headed through the living room, coming to find that most of my house mates hadn't even made it up to their bedrooms, thank god. The only one who seemed to be missing was Shiro which had me wondering if he had even come home last night. Stepping into the kitchen I opened the cupboard for the tin of coffee to start my hangover breakfast.
"Ichi?..." Letting out a loud yelp I dropped the coffee tin before spinning around to view a very groggy Shiro who had passed out on the kitchen floor from the looks of it.
"Shiro what the hell are you doing in here?" I questioned while watching him struggle to get to his feet, finally I went over and helped him.
"Thanks." Heavy golden orbs viewed me with something along the lines of anger and I watched him stumble out of my grip, almost crashing back onto the floor.
"Shiro are you still drunk?"
"Wha' the fuck do ya care?" When exactly did he leave the freaken club?
"Shiro common let's get you to your room." Nothing was said as I led him up to his room, not remembering the last time where Shiro had actually been so drunk that when he woke up from passing out he was still drunk.
"There now take these and sleep it off." Handing him a couple advil and water I watched him take it before falling onto his bed.
"You good?" I waited but received no answer, figuring he had either passed out or was ignoring me. Letting out a small sigh I grabbed his blanket and pulled it over him, making sure he wouldn't get sick.
"Ichi are ya really over me?" Glancing down at Shiro I found his eyes still to be closed and I furrowed my brows in wonder.
Where the fuck is this coming from? He really is drunk.
"How does that matter Shiro if-"
"Jus' answer it!" Golden eyes flashed back at me and I just shook my head.
"I dunno why you have to ask, when did I ever say I was?"
"Last night ya told me ya would never want me again." Letting out a sigh I made my way over to his door, feeling that if I stayed any longer I would probably dig myself into an even deeper hole then I was already in.
"Yeah well I said and did a lot of stupid shit last night Shiro don't take any of it to heart okay?" A small mumble could be heard from the drunken albino before a low snore sounded from the bed making me smile. Shutting the door with a soft click I was suddenly brought into a warm embrace, tender kisses were planted along the side of my neck making my body stiffen in shock.
"Where'd ya go last night Ichi, ya just left me." Kaien's voice wrapped around me, smooth and light with playfulness and felt guilt begin to bubble through me.
"I-I don't really know, can't really remember what happened after I started drinking those blue things." I mumbled out as Kiaen turned me around so I was now facing him. Cool turquoise eyes gleamed with mirth while a small smirk played on his lips.
"Aww did my little kohai drink too much last night?"
"Oi what did I say about calling me that?" I grumbled out which only had him pulling me in closer till our noses were touching, rubbing our noses together in a cute fashion that had a small blush rising into my cheeks.
"But you're just so cute I can't help but tease you Ichi."
"I am not cute, I'm a man for god sakes!"
As we bickered back and forth I began to think about what had happened last night with Grimmjow. Was it really cheating if I had no recollection of it, knowing I would never do it with a clear conscience if I was sober? I mean I obviously wasn't in my right mind at the time and yes I do admit I do still have feelings for the two but I'm working on that, trying to get over them with Kaien, so would it be wrong to pretend it never happened? I didn't want to hurt Kaien, that was the last thing I wanted to do, plus there was also the fact that that little tidbit of information that could also leave me homeless. Sorry but I had no intention of getting kicked out of my house when I had just moved here, call me selfish but I just couldn't afford it. This way Kaien didn't get hurt, I got to stay with my boyfriend and continue on with how things had been going and I get to stay living here, it all worked out.
"Hey you know you left your car at club right?" At the sudden information I couldn't stop my eyes from forming to the size of dinner plates.
"Holy fuck, oh my god we need to get it right now!" I called out while turning Kaien around and pushing him in the direction of his bedroom.
"You need to take me so I can get it right now, what I someone stole it or did something to it, fuck I can't believe I did that!"
"Calm down Ichi it'll be fine okay now go grab your keys and I'll take you right now and then after we can grab some food, sound good?" With that he brought me in for a kiss, pulling me against him till our bodies pressed together and I listened to him sigh when I threaded my fingers through his hair.
Kaien was good for me, he was strong, intelligent and understanding, what more could I ask for? It was good being with him, it made sense and it could work as long as I kept my distance between Grimmjow and Shiro. It was obvious that being friends with them wouldn't be easy, I couldn't really avoid them but that didn't mean I had to be best friends with them either. I could stick to my school work, focus on my relationship and my friends that I already have and I would be good. Why sit a worry over something I couldn't even recall? Everything would be fine, just like Kaien said.
"Mmm a little more." Kaien murmured against my lips making me chuckle softly at his sudden want. Letting my tongue slip into his mouth I hummed in pleasure at the soft flavour of citrus toothpaste that flavoured his mouth. I could feel his hands running down my back, moving teasingly slow until they came to rest on my ass, giving it a firm squeeze causing me to moan into our kiss. Suddenly I was gasping in shock when his hand quickly slipped under my pants and boxers. His long fingers slipping between my ass cheeks and giving my entrance a teasing prod.
"K-Kaien w-what are you doing?" I stuttered out as I pulled away from our kiss and leaving him grinning from ear to ear.
"Don't worry, everyone's still asleep."
"That's beside the freakn point, what if someone did wake up?" I hissed out only making him chuckle as he suddenly pushed harder against the hole causing my back to arch against his body, his one arm holding my body in place against him.
"S-Stop Kaien I'm serious, didn't you learn anything from before?"
"He has a point senpai, not to mention I don't really want to have to walk through the house worrying that I might see my best friend with his pants down." Renji's voice came from the stair case causing us to jump apart and me to punch my idiot boyfriend in the head.
"What the fuck did I tell you, idiot!" Glaring at the red head who let out a loud cackle of laughter I walked past the now blushing male to my bedroom in search of my car keys.
God what is with me and liking idiots?
XXX
Flinging open Shiro's door I gazed down at the still past out albino, flicking my gaze over to the time I found that it was actually six o-clock at night. Rolling my eyes I jumped onto the man's bed, effectively shaking the man awake and making him groan out in frustration.
"I swear to god if that's anyone with half a brain they'll fuckin' run." Shiro growled out from under his pillow, refusing to bring his head out of the cover.
"Sorry I lost it the moment I met cha." I shot back and the moment he heard me a low groan sounded from his chest and I watched him toss the pillow away from his scowling face.
"Wha' the fuck do ya want Grimm, it better be good."
"It is good and interesting and I'm sure you'd love to know that I fucked Ichigo last night and have absolutely no memory of it what so ever, the only reason I know is because I woke up butt ass naked with him in my bed." Golden eyes started blankly at me, blinking repeatedly and I began to fidget in my seat. Suddenly Shiro let out a soft snort and I cocked a brow in question only to watch it turn into a full out blow of laughter.
"Uh dude, ya okay?" I was trying to figure out what exactly Shiro was thinking at the moment, I mean did he think I was joking?
"I-I'm sorry it-it's just so funny!" Shiro gasped out between loud spurts of laughter and I watched him wipe away tears from him eyes.
"First time ya ever kiss him ya jerk 'im off after he tells you no like fifty times, such a gentleman I might add and now ya had sex with 'im and ya can't even remember it? Tell me Grimm, your secretly a romantic at heart aren't cha?"
"Oi shut the fuck up it ain't my fault I was drunker then shit and it just happened…" Shaking his head Shiro propped his chin against his hand as he stared at me, a small smirk on his lips.
"No Grimmjow nothin' with ya just happens, ya still have feelings for 'im don't cha?" His words suddenly had my stomach dropping and it was then that I turned away from the albino.
I had gotten over him hadn't I? I had fucked people till the fuckin' cows came home, dated around with some to pass the time, worked my ass off at the shop and did my best to patch up my friendship with Shiro. Where in any of that had Ichigo entered my mind, not once…..Okay I'm a fucking liar, I thought about him a lot, more than a lot and every damn time I saw him at school it was like a nail in the chest not being able to talk to him. I had made a promise to myself that the moment I got to university things would change but now Ichigo's here and as much as I want to try things with him again I just can't do it without screwing up again.
"Fuck Grimm it's only been one night and ya already fucked 'im, at least I kept it together."
"Shut up I'm not the one still sleeping at six in the freaken evening."
"Ya never answered my question but I already know that answer so it's fine but now I gotta ask, what's goin' on with 'im and the douche?" Giving a soft shrug I pushed myself up against the head board of the bed.
"I caught the making out so I'm assuming he didn't tell him shit, maybe he thinks it doesn't count because he can't remember it or something."
"Ooh we should totally fuck with 'im." Cocking a blue brow I waited for Shiro to elaborate.
"While I mean think about it, he cheated on Kaien with ya and we both still have feelings for 'im and I'm sorry to tell ya man but we gotta face the music. Unless were somewhere far away where we can't see 'im or talk to 'im these feelings aren't goin' away, so why don't we do somethin' about 'em." I couldn't help but shake my head at the albino, as much as what he said was true I still didn't understand where the fuck he was going with this.
"I don't get what you mean, you mean we both go after him? Shiro that's just going to end bad."
"Not if we share 'im." The grin that Shiro was wearing at this very moment was in danger of tearing his face in two. Allowing his words toss around in my mind for a bit I couldn't help but be a little curious as to what my idiot of a best friend was getting at. Letting my trade mark grin spread across my face, showing Shiro that he had my finally caught my curiosity.
"So tell me, what exactly did you have in mind?"
A/N: Well I hope you guys like it *coughs* I mean the idea of a crackish story where the two both get Ichi, you'll either love the idea or hate it so let me know ^^
XoXoXo-Caitie