Disclaimer- all characters belong to Stephanie Meyer obviously XD

Three days that's how long it had been. Three long painful days, Bella spent all of that time in bed claiming she was ill. Her 13th birthday she woke up to her mom singing happy birthday to her, Bella had started crying. This was just the beginning and she knew that, she felt her body rip again and again each time she tried to stand, all because of him.

Bella lay there wondering to herself why? Why would he do this? Didn't he love her? No, no he didn't otherwise he wouldn't have done any of it. She hoped there was a possibility of him being drugged or something but she knew he was the one to blame. He knew what he was doing and he knew how to trick her.

James, he was the one that made her feel like shit, made her feel as if she was nothing. Nothing to this world, she would have to live with the humiliation if letting it happen for the rest of her life.

''Izzy sweetie'' her mom called after finishing her melody of birthday cheer, as she knocked on her door.

Bella flinched at the name she never wanted to be called again.

''Happy birthday, are you getting up today?'' Renee her mother, young at heart walking in her room asked Bella.

'' No.'' Bella moaned pulling the bed covers over her head wincing at the pain.

''You still not very well baby?'' Renee asked her

''No mom I still feel ill and my stomachs hurting still'' Bella said as she winced at the name again

'' Oh ok sweetie well you sleep, I'll bring you something to eat in a bit'' Renee said shutting her door.

Bella lay there thinking over and over how to get it out her mind or whether to tell anyone. At all, or should she just forget it after all, James loved her right? And she still loved him there was no doubt about that. It was nearing three in the afternoon when she decided to attempt going to the bathroom, carefully she crept across the room her legs aching at every move. She opened the old creaky door and moved onto the landing where the floorboards squeaked as they hit the floor, she stopped at one creak hearing her mother and father talk over the telly.

''I'm telling you Renee something's not right. She hasn't got out the bed except go to the toilet since New Year's Eve.'' Charlie asked his equally worried wife

''I don't know Charlie maybe she's growing up we just don't know.'' Her mother sighed.

She couldn't face them, couldn't bare for them to know the truth the humiliation it would bring to her family in this small town. So she moved quickly to the bathroom where her legs gave way and she sunk to the floor crying, she was afraid of her own father.

Her own blood he brought her up you would think she could trust him over everyone, but no this was different she couldn't even think about going near him. She wanted to scream out loud for the world to hear but she didn't, she sat against her door sobbing no sound escaped as she clapped her hands over her mouth.

After a while Bella managed to get over to the toilet it was here she threw up, once again she found herself on the floor drained. She started to move again when a knock came at the door;

''hey Izzy you in there?'' Her father's voice came from the door.

Bella moved quickly getting up and flushing the chain, she got over to the sink looking in the mirror. She flinched at the sight, her hair was greasy matted it looked like a haystack she had black eyes from the makeup that she hadn't took off, her lips were chapped from her biting them to stop the noise coming out.

'' Izzy?'' He knocked again.

Bella flinching as she sipped water from her cupped hands,

'' Yh?'' She weakly replied

'' Are you alright?''

''Yeah'' she whispered

'' Don't think your having a day off tomorrow.'' He replied in an assertive tone.

'' Course not dad'' she looked away from the mirror at her hands.

Her hands were covered in scratches, she was shaking and found she couldn't bare that losing control of her thoughts was bad enough but to lose control of her actions, never again. At this she ripped her top off along with her pyjama bottoms off and got in the shower. She scrubbed and scrubbed till she blood smeared over arm. That scared her enough to turn the shower off and go back to her room; it was there she spent the remainder of her birthday staring at the wall. It was nearing 9o clock at night when her brothers turned up downstairs in from staying out with 'his' friends, she could hear her mom and dad telling them how she'd been acting,

''Start of the teenage years'' her mother mentioned to her brothers.

'If this is the start when is the end?' Bella thought.

It wasn't until she heard her brother coming upstairs that she decided to look busy she grabbed her hair brush and turned her straightners on she had just put the plate on her hair as the door opened.

''Hey Izz! Happy Birthday!'' Her eldest brother Sam cheered. She flinched causing the heat to burn the side of her hair. '' Oh shit sorry Izz didn't know.'' He apologised

''its fine'' she replied her voice cracking, she put down the straightners and stood up.

Sam was staring at her scrutinising every move she made and it made her feel uncomfortable;

'' Stop staring at me''

Sam looked at her shocked before looking away.

''Happy birthday''

'' Thanks.'' She replied again in a dead voice. She had no right to be happy her mind thought, 'not worth it you useless slag.' The thoughts James had put in his head she wanted to scream she shut her eyes for a second as the thoughts crept in. Sam looked at her worried and scared, she could feel his eyes on her and to her it felt like his eyes boring into her. She froze still, not moving she could hear her brother call her mom and dad but she couldn't move.

She felt an arm grab her and she screamed her body fell to the floor curling in on her. The feelings dragged her back to that night, 3 nights ago he had ripped her innocence away it made her skin crawl the thought he could still get to her, he could still do this again. It was enough for her to scream out loud, she sobbed till her tears fell no more. Her brothers had no idea what to do along with her parents they were all stumped as to why she was acting this way, she had never reacted to anything like this before and were all confused at her actions.

'' She's just doesn't want to go to school, you will be going even I drag you there myself.'' Her father thundered as he stormed out the room.

Renee walked over to Bella and sat next to her on the floor laying a hand on her back; Bella flinched and whimpered for her to get off. Her mother removed her hand as if she had been electrocuted, rejected by her little girl she left the room unable to deal with the hurt she felt from the denial of looking after her.

It was then her brother Jake who grabbed and turned her round before she could move, Bella froze and her body went limp. Jake looked at Sam his elder brother for guidance, Sam was clueless he had no idea what was wrong with his baby sister. Jake lifted her up and put her in bed so she would relax but before he could move away to put the blanket over her she had curled up with sobs racking her body. Sam and Jake had no idea what to do she had always told them what was wrong it had to be something big for her not to.

It could have been 10 minutes or 10 hours for all Bella knew she was trapped in a nightmare that she couldn't wake from. In this dream she relived the night cursing her stupidity for going with him, for trusting him she knew she couldn't and yet she still believed he had changed. The difference in this dream was the surroundings the past two nights had been about what he had done now she shut off from that looking round reliving the pain and she could see a shadow in her dream, a blind spot if you will she had no idea what that could be.

It was at that she jumped awake confused. She reached over for her alarm clock it read 4.30am, she flopped back the pain in her stomach had gone relieved she gently moved her leg to check if it had of gone there she winced as she moved it , the throbbing pain was still there. She pinched her arm trying to relieve the pain from her legs and made her way to the bathroom. It was there she looked in the mirror properly her long brown hair was still matted and her eyes looked red raw. She leaned in closer to the mirror and saw her mouth the first layer of lip had cracked, teeth marks dug deep into the lip it made her cringe at her hurting herself.

An hour and half later she was still in the bathroom making herself look presentable, it took 3 layers of make up to cover-up her bruise on her face. She put her hair to the one side to cover the bruise that lay on her shoulder, with one last sigh in the mirror she went back to her room. Jumping at the creak her parent's bed made, she quickly leaned her back against the closed door of her bedroom and told herself 'it wasn't him' she closed her eyes she knew today she had to face him. Today she would have to face her demons, today she knew it'd be hell if he had said anything the whole school would be on it but she doubted it he wouldn't have the guts to say anything in front of his friends' she shook her head from the thoughts and decided whatever comes she'll deal with it. She put a long white sleeved school shirt on over the top of her plain black bra along with her blue school jumper with the badge on her left side of her chest, this would be ok as it was winter and knew that she would be cold at her school and today she felt the need for comfort. Over the top of her matching panties she put the standard black trousers on with black knee high socks, the round toe dolly shoes she wore were black too. The tie that went around her neck was worn low and the knot was short, the navy blue and silver tie was standard at the school and most pupils wore it the exact way she had it. Today she needed to feel normal, today it was utmost importance that she didn't stand out that no-one could tell anything was wrong she needed to blend in with the crowd luckily the crowd she hung round with, not one of them cared for each other you were on your own and that was the way it would always be.

By the time she had finished putting her clothes on and had her bag ready, it was 7.55am she heard the knock on the door it was her friend who lived in the same street. Her name was Jessica she was a self centred person and didn't care for anyone else; Bella opened the door and let Jess in,

''Morning, oh you look nice. Oh my god I have so much to tell you!' Jessica said sitting down in Bella's small living room on the edge of her seat

'' hello Jessica'' Bella replied '' and thank you''

''seriously you remember mike right? Well he text me the other day...'' Jessica continued talking without stopping, Bella stood there staring into space when Jess stood up and came towards her.

Bella backed up against the wall jumping into the conversation to what Jess was saying.

''Are we going to school today or not?'' Jessica said

''um yh'' Bella grabbed her coat sighing relieved that nothing was going on. She grabbed her bag with the food her mother had done the night before for her to take to school and shouted ''goodbye'' to her family that was asleep. She slammed the door behind her and Jess, preparing herself for a day of lying to close friends that she knew wouldn't understand what had gone on.

Author's note- sorry for the slow updates it's taking a while to write, hope you have the patience to carry on. Please read and review thank you xx