Chapter title are lyrics from – Deadly Weapons by: Eyes set to kill

Chapter four: Confessions aren't at rest

He kept his arms enclosed securely around her, his eyes rested, as he snuggled into the crook of her neck. This was not supposed to be happening he thought. He'd never, throughout his seventeen years alive, ever saw himself holding a girl, with no sexual intentions. But he felt comfortable, and right.

Clare rubbed his arm gently, before carefully pushing him off and sitting up. Eli was slightly crestfallen, from the heat loss of her body. He frowned.

"I just remembered I was supposed to get changed, and meet the girls in the swimming pool." She assured him with a smile.

He objected and pouted, wanting to be with her, but instead Clare asked him if he wanted to join her; he told her he'd meet her downstairs so he can get changed. He put his hands on the small of her back to nip her lip and give her the sloppiest kiss before disappearing out her hotel room.

Clare quickly got changed, slipping into her leopard print bikini, and put her dress back on, leaving the heels behind. She grabbed a towel, and headed out. Clare thought about what she did with Eli. It wasn't completely wrong, but she couldn't help but bring herself to wonder what's going to happen next? Were they an item? She hoped she wasn't being used.

Peers from the football team and power squad soaked in the indoor chlorine lagoon; others sat by the edges, or lay in beach chairs, unwinding from the long day. Fiona, who just finished slapping a colorful beach ball, turned around and waved merrily to Clare.

She dove under water, swimming towards her direction. She popped out of the water, her drenched long black hair stuck to her head. Fiona rested her chin on her folded arms by the rim of the swimming pool.

"It's about time! I was beginning to worry you had gotten eaten or something"

Clare's cheeks became a little flustered from Fiona's ironic choice of word, considering what happened between her and Eli not too long ago.

"I uh, got lost on the way there." She tried coming up with an excuse. "Such a big hotel" She laughed nervously, as she slipped quickly out of her dress revealing her two piece bathing suit. Fiona obviously didn't buy her lame explanation, but didn't sweat it either.

Clare unfolded her lime green towel and spread it by the pools frontier. She situated her bottom on it, dangling her feet along the edge letting her smooth legs adjust comfortably, and feel the water.

Clare gently kicked her half covered legs in the water, while chatting with Fiona animatedly. Fiona instantly laughed when Clare shrieked, because someone accidentally splashed water on her.

"So not funny" she rolled her eyes, attempting to be intent. Fiona continued her snickering, until they both guffawed. If anyone saw them, they'd think they were on something.

"Eli, over here!" K.C shouted from the pool. Clare paused her laughter and turned around immediately at the sound of his name. She couldn't help but feel completely drawn to his heavenly half naked profile.

Eli found Clare's eyes, which were staring at him, and he smirked. His emeralds burned her azures for a moment longer before walking towards the opposite direction to his friends. Clare bit her lip, looking away shyly.

To Fiona, Clare wasn't all that hard to read.

"Am I missing something?" Fiona smiled sheepishly. Clare couldn't lie, she wanted to tell someone. She nodded her head. Fiona's eyes grew wide, with a grin on her face. "Spill"

Clare exhaled excitedly. "Me and Elijah…you know" She maneuvered her hands suggestively.

Fiona's jaw dropped in confusion. "You guys kissed!"

Clare nodded her head. "Yea, but like…a little more than that" Fiona instantly knew, and was shocked.

"Ok, you're like a legend or something, because if it were any other girl, he wouldn't even waste his time if she didn't give him any."

Clare shrugged her shoulders. "Maybe he's not always like that."

"Please" Fiona sneered. "Half of the girls that have lived to tell know exactly how horny and inconsiderate he can be."

Clare grew slightly agitated, not expecting Fiona to say that. She wasn't with Eli to see the desperation, and sincerity he showed her. "Key words: can be. He wasn't like that with me. He's not all that bad you know."

"So one hookup and now your team Eli? You basically hated his guts this morning."

"I never said I hated him."

Fiona was about to reply, when Eli appeared taking a seat on Clare's towel next to her. He smiled at Fiona before flashing Clare a smirk, which made her heart flutter. Fiona gave Eli a dirty look.

"I guess this is my cue to leave." Fiona looked over at her friend, whom she was only concerned about. "We'll talk later" She said before pushing herself up, and out of the pool.

Clare was upset. Just because Fiona didn't trust Eli, didn't mean she could belittle Clare, making her feel like she was trash because of what she did with Eli.

"Thinking about me?" He asked

Clare drifted from her mind. "Don't get your hopes up" She teased. Eli let out a phony cackle, and Clare slapped her hands over the water to sprinkle some on Eli.

"Hey!" Eli, splashed her back, with more water and she squealed. Eli oddly enjoyed her adorable girly reaction. Eli had the sudden urge to kiss her but he held himself back. As if Clare read his mind, she too was compelled to lean in for a kiss. Eli, strangely avoided her actions and she was taken aback.

"There's people around" He said coldly, looking around anxiously.

Clare scoffed. "And?" Was he ashamed to kiss her in public? She thought.

"And we should go somewhere private you know? Just me and you"

Clare wanted to protest, wanted to question him, but he was just very persuasive with his seductive, tempting looks. Even though they fooled around not too long ago, she couldn't get enough; they both couldn't.

Without words, she got up picking up her towel, and dress. She walked towards the exit, but stopped in her tracks to shift her head back. She spoke with her eyes, and in a blink of an eye, Eli shot out of the water, and followed not too far behind.

Clare was immediately shoved up against the wall once the stepped into the hall. Eli coaxed her mouth to open, and plunged his tongue right in. His wet swim trunks rubbing against her allowed her to feel every hard shape of his body. It felt extremely good.

Out of habit, Eli began to untie the back of her bikini top. He went for her neck, nipping and biting, exploring her most sensitive spots. As much as Clare liked it, she had to ask.

"Eli are we.."She breathed, trying not to moan. "Does this mean we're together?" Eli, didn't respond, instead he roughly shoved his fingers behind her bikini bottoms, rubbing her clit graciously. Clare bit her lip hard, trying to keep quiet. After all, they were in the middle of a hotel hallway, where anyone could walk by at anytime.

She tried desperately hard to resist him enough to push away, but the pleasure over came her. She'd ask him tomorrow she thought.

Morning

Clare was dressed and ready in her tight cutoff shorts and her red tank top. She folded her last piece of clothing in her only bag, and zipped it up.

Fiona comes out of the shower, in shorts and a tank top as well.

"Clare, I'm sorry if I like, overreacted or whatever last night" Fiona walked over to her bed and sat down. "I just don't want you to get hurt. I've seen plenty of girls devastated over him."

Clare smiled apologetically. "It's okay. I understand, but I'll be cautious I promise. And if you want, I'll let you kick em' where it hurts if he does pull something on me." Clare joked.

They both gathered their belongings and headed out. They took the elevator downstairs and walked to the lobby where most students were already waiting. Coach Armstrong did an attendance check twice, to make sure no one was left behind.

A little after, the buses arrived and were soon enough on their way back to Toronto. Clare looked behind her, and saw Eli, whom she hadn't seen since they left. She greeted him with a smile. He ignored her, looking away and beginning to talk to his friends. Clare's face fell.

They finally pulled up into the Degrassi parking lot, and everyone began unloading themselves off vehicles. Clare still hadn't forgotten about the previous night and waited for Eli to get off.

She grabbed him by the arm immediately when he stepped onto the concrete.

Eli pulled back reluctantly, but saw the clouded hurt in her eyes. He took her hand and brought her away from the students, behind the school bus. Clare realized this is the second time he's isolated them when they were together.

"I'm getting the vibe you don't like being seen with me."

"Clare it's not that. I just think whatever we do should be our little secret."

Clare's jaw fell agape incredulously. She should've known. "Excuse me? I'm not anyone's toy, more specifically yours. "

"Look, I really like you and-"

"Eli? Why are you behind the bus…with her?" Her voice went from jolly to jealous.

Eli turned back to see the only blonde to be on his case, and his eyes widened in realization. "Oh crap" he muttered. Jenna put her arms around Eli, making him shuffle uneasily.

Clare looked at both of them in disgust, but was more disgusted with herself. "Oh, now this makes more sense." Clare said with a hint of anger in her voice. "Don't talk to me ever again." She directed it towards Eli. She felt stupid, dirty, silly for believing he was different. It was all in her head she thought. She shoved past him, making sure she didn't touch him, and he automatically picked up her scent, already missing it.

"What were you doing talking to her?" Jenna questioned him.

He moved himself away from her grip. "That isn't really any of your business now is it?" He spat maliciously.

"Well you are my boyfriend, so I have the right to be in your business" She said completely fed up.

"I am not your boyfriend Jenna!" Eli burst. "Now can you please just…stay away from me" He seethed, before taking off as well.

He combed his fingers dramatically through his hair. Does Jenna need to ruin everything? He didn't really care about her though. He was just…afraid of Clare. She wasn't scary, or potentially harmful. She was just, too good for him. But she was good for him. The feelings were foreign to him, and he couldn't understand them.

vVVv

"You were right Fi, I should've listened to you. I'm such an idiot. You may go rip away his manhood if you'd like now." Clare said dully. It was Monday morning at Degrassi , the bell rang signaling second period was over. Clare saw Fiona in the hall and informed her about the little incident that had taken place the day before.

"Don't be so hard on yourself. It's not all your fault. Guys are just guys. On the Brightside, at least you didn't sleep with him." She tried to lighten her up.

"You're right… but he's the first guy to ever touch me." Her voice was pained, and disappointed. She wasn't even in a relationship with him, and she let him do that. She felt so naïve. They walked to the next class they had together, which was History. They both took a seat adjacent to each other.

"He's not worth your time." Fiona said simply.

Clare sighed, helplessly but thought Fiona was right. She didn't need any of that. The bell rang, and students began filling up the desks.

The class went by smoothly, and was almost a success for Clare until the last ten minutes of class, when an unexpected, unwanted new student was presented.

"Mark-"

"I prefer Fitz"

"Right then, Fitz, please take a seat anywhere you'd like." Fitz gave the teacher a nod, and quickly took a seat by the nearest desk.

Clare turned to Fiona. "What the hell is he doing here?"

Fiona looked up from her paper, not sure how to answer her question.

"I left my school for a reason. I come here, and see Jenna which is okay, but Fitz…that's unpleasant." Clare whispered obviously very crossed.

Fiona put her pencil down, and folded her arms on her desk. "You know him?"

Clare said with shame in her voice. "He's my ex boyfriend."

Fiona was shunned. "Oh he's the one who-"

"Yes he is, save your breath." Clare didn't need her repeating what he did. The bell suddenly rang, and Clare briskly got up from her seat, dashing towards the door. She tried going unnoticed by Fitz, but failed. He noticed her since he walked in.

Clare walked Fiona to her next Class since she had gym, and didn't need to be there on time. She took her time going to gym. Once she was there she went to the girl's locker room, changing into a pair of sweats and a shirt.

Mr. Armstrong warmed everyone up with pushups, jumping jacks, and stretches, before allowing them free time. Since K.C was in her class she decided to join him in shooting some hoops. She thought he was the warm hearted one between him, Drew and Eli.

K.C bounced the basket ball to Clare when he challenged her to throw it from the three point line. She accepted, and positioned herself there. She threw the ball, and barely made it when bounced off of the rim.

K.C laughed. "Nice try"

Clare motioned for the ball and K.C pounced it to her again.

"Now this time, try to line yourself up with the basket." She obliged and shot, successfully making it in.

"Told you"

Clare rolled her eyes and switched places with K.C. He bounced the ball a few times, before making a perfect shot.

"Nice. Mind if I try?" A voice sounded. Clare sighed annoyingly, that she had another class with him.

"Sure" K.C handed him the ball. "I don't think I've ever seen you here before."

He dribbled the ball, and threw it making it in. "I'm new here."

"Cool, I'm K.C, that's Clare"

"Fitz"

Clare crossed her arms, aggravation evident. She couldn't believe he was here. "Can I talk to you?" She dragged him by the bleachers.

"What are you doing here?" She seethed.

"Physical Ed of course." He stated obviously.

She cocked her head to the side impatiently "Ha-funny. You couldn't at least warn me that you were coming?"

"The last time I tried to, you hung up in my face"

"…"

"But that's not the only reason why I called. I wanted to apologize." He continued.

"Apology accepted, now if you'll excuse me" Clare tried walking away, but he grabbed her.

"Clare, please. I messed up big time when I cheated on you." His blue eyes, darker than hers stared at her, it gave her goose bumps. "I want a second chance." He finished pleadingly.

Her lips parted, nonplussed.

A week later

"I can't believe she's dating that loser. " Eli leaned against the lockers watching Clare and Fitz hold hands. Clare hadn't immediately taken Fitz back, that same night they stood on the phone for hours trying to reconnect, and Clare looking for answers. Their chemistry was obviously not there anymore, but she gave him a chance.

Things were going alright between the two, but it never changed Clare's hidden feelings for someone else.

"Get over it dude." K.C said shutting his locker. Fitz pecked Clare on the cheek before heading to Class. "You screwed up"

Clare walked their direction, and Eli knew she was going to her locker, because he was right in front of it. She stopped directly in front of him. The sight of her being so close to him again made him shudder.

"Excuse me Elijah" He always found it annoying when she said his full name, but he liked it too.

"I bet Fitzy boy's a real dreamy kisser." He said before moving to the side.

Clare rolled her eyes, and opened her locker. "Oh he is. Much better than you" She said devilishly hoping to get under his skin.

It did. He clenched his jaw, not wanting that image in his head. Then a sly smirk appeared on his face. Clare wasn't prepared for what he said next. "That's not what you said the other night" He said all too loudly, knowing people could hear.

Clare looked up furiously. "Don't you dare…"

"What was that Clare? Oh you don't remember? How you were moaning and begging me for more?"

People gasped, and whispered. Eli knew more than enough people heard him to pass around what he just publicized, and was quite pleased with himself. Clare frowned.

"I hate you" She said, and shoved his chest, walking away. He soon resented saying what he said, because such words never made his heart ache so much.

Eli looked over to K.C who was still standing there. K.C shook his head. He knew Eli just really liked her, he was just afraid to accept it.

K.C went to class, while Eli decided to skip. He went into the room, where the picture of J.T Yorke, and his honorable memory was engraved. He sat down and slammed his head back against the glass, while he shut his eyes.

"Skipping class Goldsworthy?"

Eli lifted his head and was not in the mood for who appeared. "Go away Julia"

"What? You don't want me." She asked innocently. Eli ignored her, and threw his head back again. "I was only joking. I heard you broke up with Jenna, and I'm not too happy."

"Oh don't come with that 'you hurt my friend' bull crap, because you should be the last person talking."

Julia took a seat next to him, keeping her distance. "No, I just expected her to be mad at me and not you. Jenna's not the most loyal friend around, and I wanted to give her a taste of her own medicine."

Eli looked at her, shocked from her bluntness. He thought she was demented or something. He didn't say anything.

" Jenna's spread some nasty rumors about me in the past"

Eli chuckled "Yea like how you sleep with old men for drugs." He remembered the lie that was spread around last year. It was funny, but he never believed it.

Julia gave him a serious look, and he stopped his laughter. "I'm sorry, but it was pretty funny"

She shrugged her shoulders, and it fell quiet for a moment.

"Look, you didn't hear it from me, but Fitz is cheating on Clare again."

Eli's head shot up suddenly intrigued. "Again?"

"They dated in the past, but that's not important. What's important is who he's cheating on her with. And I know you care about Clare."

Eli begged anxiously. "Who is it?"

Julia waved her finger back and forth. "If I tell you, I want something in return."

Eli's Adam's apple bobbed when he swallowed nervously.

vVVv

Spirit week: Approximately two weeks after the Dinner.

Final Exams were finally over, and the girls were happy to get focused on Power Squad again. It was also the Final home game for the Degrassi Panthers, and the spirit was charged with posters and support from the student body.

Friday was the game, and the players were practicing hard non-stop.

"Okay team! This is our last practice before the game on Friday. I expect you all to get some rest this week Ok" Eli yelled at the team. That's the way he pep talks the team.

"Ok" The guys said weakly.

Eli yelled again. "I can't fucking hear you!"

"OK!" They exclaimed higher.

"That's what I'm talking about; now get the hell outta here!" He shouted playfully. Eli grabbed his helmet and water bottle, and followed the guys out the field, into the boys' locker rooms.

He stripped off his uniform and showered quickly. He stepped out the shower with the towel around his waist, walking to his bag.

"So is it true? You actually did the impossible and got it In with Virgin Edwards?" One of his teammates-Owen asked.

Eli sighed, shaking his head regretfully. He shouldn't have said what he said to Clare not too long ago. She's made sure to not cross his path since then, and it kind of pained him.

He slipped on a pair of Black skinny jeans, along with a grey V-neck shirt, and a tie. He put on his sneakers and looked at the time.

Cheer practice was over by now, so he went through the doors that led to the gym. Fortunately Clare was there, which is who he was looking for. There was no sight of Fitz, or Jenna, which made everything better. He snuck up behind Clare who was busy fondling with her phone.

"Hey" He said nervously.

She looked up, and he's never seen such an icy glare "Can I help you?"

He gulped. "Clare I know you're mad at me, but there's something you should know about Fitz."

Clare's arms crossed in front of her chest waiting for the magnificent news, sarcastically of course.

"He's cheating on you"

Clare rolled her eyes."And I'm an alien in disguise"

"I'm serious; he's probably in the boiler room right now."

She eyeballed him up and down. "You're pathetic"

Clare turned around, leaving the gym. She wasn't heading home though, as much as she wanted to disregard Eli's accusations, she just wanted to be sure, because it wouldn't be the first. Eli of course had ran right behind her.

Clare was now in front of the boiler room afraid of what could possibly be behind the door. Eli made it there and watched as Clare slowly turned the knob. But she didn't have to do anything more. The noises and pleas confirmed everything.

"Jenna you selfless whore!" Clare pushed the door open; Fitz and Jenna immediately pulling apart.

Clare knew she couldn't just blame Jenna, but the blond bimbo seems to always target Fitz only when she was with him. Clare immediately tried to clash her fist with Jenna's face, but arms wrapped around her waist holding her back.

She kicked and cursed, saying just about every sinful word there is under the sun. "Let me go!" She screamed, tears threatening to fall from her eyes. Eli reluctantly let her go trusting she wouldn't try to kill Jenna.

Clare fixed herself, and flattened her hair. She glared at both of them "Fuck you Fitz, we're done." And she walked out with her head down. Eli gave them both a disgusted, loathsome look, and turned to leave, but looked back when he remembered something.

"Hey Jenna, I just wanted to let you know, Julia-your best friend, gave me the most mind blowing blow job I've ever gotten."

He was slightly amused by her horrified expression. "Oh and one more thing, I cheated on you…with Clare." With no more words he walked out arrogantly and muttered. "Paybacks a bitch."

He ran into the hallway, searching for Clare, who was slumped down on the floor against the lockers. Eli walked over to her and stood in front of her as she let very little tears fall down her face. "I never thought I'd live to see Clare Edwards cry." He tried to make her feel better, but to no avail.

She wiped her tears away, and he sighed, dropping down next to her. He wasn't really experienced with this kind of stuff, so he had no idea what to say. He just put his arm around her, pulling her in.

She finally spoke after almost half an hour of silence.

"Why are you still here?" She said softly, with a sniffle Eli found horrifically cute.

"I'm trying to console you…or whatever"

Clare giggled, which made him smile. "Well, you're doing a terrible job of consoling me or whatever"

"Yea well I'm not good with this kind of stuff, since I'm…" He stopped, not wanting to admit he's done that before too. But Clare didn't mind it too much right now.

Clare tilted her head to the side looking up at Eli, his arms still wrapped around her. He smiled a bit faintly, and closed his eyes. He wanted; needed so badly to kiss her. He missed the feeling of her mouth against his. And to be completely honest it was the cheesiest thing he's ever thought.

Without warning he pressed his soft lips against hers sharing a much sweeter loving kiss. Clare pulled back and sighed contently.

Eli, unwrapped his arms from her, and stumbled while getting up. He held out his hand to help her up too. "You should probably head home." He whispered.

Clare didn't want to; she wanted to be with him. Somewhere in her heart, told her to just go with him. Maybe it was because of what happened with Fitz. Whatever it was, she wanted him.

"I don't want to go home." Clare said.

Eli looked at her confusedly before asking. "Then where do you want to go?"

"I want to go wherever you're going, to be with you."

Eli opened his mouth then closed it. He wasn't sure if he was dreaming, but he knows what he heard. Deep inside of him was still the hormonal crazed teen, but he also felt an alter with his intentions, which indeed intimidated his emotions.

But he couldn't resist her baby blue eyes, or her almost perfect shaped lips, or her stunning shapely body that drove him insane when she was close. He couldn't deny her.

Eli stretched his arm out, opening his hand, and Clare slipped her tiny hands with his. Their fingers intertwined with each other fit perfectly unlike Fitz. "Okay." He swallowed hard looking into her eyes. "My place it is."

BAM! Next chapter will probably be the last. I'm going to stir up maybe a tad bit more drama, but not as dramatic. The last chapter will mostly take place at the Football game finals.

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