So, I had a hard time writing this chapter… Hope you enjoy it. Just letting you know it`s M rated!

VI.

Luckily for Emma, that night there was a football game on TV and every one in Limas was going to be in their houses. It was the perfect opportunity to try Dr. Begler`s advice and go exploring. So she grabbed her coat (a very discrete one), her purse and drove straight to a gallery in town. Streets were almost deserted; still she hurried up to go into the hidden shop. She opened the door and entered and she was glad to see there was nobody in, except for the woman behind the desk.

"Hi!" she said happily, "how can I help you?"

Thank God it´s a she. Emma thought. "Uhm… I don`t know" she confessed looking around and trying not to blush. "I think I`m gonna have a look.. I´ll ask you if I need help; thanks."And she walked in feeling a little embarrassed. She stopped in front of the condoms. You don´t need any condoms, Emma Pillsbury! So she kept going and from the distance she saw the dildos: as she approaches to that section she was a little amazed for all the sizes, colors, materials, functions, shapes and textures she found around her. I don´t know if I'm ready for one of these.

She dared to grab one of the packages and exanimate it.

"That`s a good one, you know?" the employee let her know, "It works with batteries and it has different levels of vibrations… And the good thing is you can use it in your hot tub, it has a silicon device which…" the little bell hanging on top of the door rang when someone came in, "BRB" Emma nodded in silence, not knowing exactly what to do. That was definitively too much for her. And if she was up to this, she needed to start from the basics; and buying a dildo was for pro. She hanged it back and walked a little further. Suddenly she remembered why the woman had left. There was someone more in the store. She started to panic as the person was talking to the employee. It was a man´s voice. Running away as she wanted so bad was stupid, so she stayed and suddenly she saw the lubs and took one. Why not? I might not even use it, but what if a do? She took it between her hands but didn`t move. She wanted the man to leave before she`d approach to the lady, pay for it and get the hell out of there. She walked quietly through the section, as she tried to keep her head out of sight. She peeped over the shelf but the man wasn`t there anymore. That was her chance to pay for her purchase and get home right away. But when she turned the corner, she crashed against someone.

"Oh, sorry I didn´t… Mrs. Pillsbury?"

Oh my God…. "Hi, Kurt…." He was blushing even more than her and he was holding some magazines and a package Emma didn't dare to look.

"Ok, this is awkward…." He declared looking at the ceiling. She glanced at him, not knowing what to do.

"Maybe… I should go, Kurt. It was nice to see you… it`d have been nicer if it was somewhere else" she smiled at him, trying to act natural, but the truth was, she didn`t know where she had she taken that confidence from.

"Yes… and Mrs. P...?" he called her once more, "don`t worry about … you know, this…" he moved his hands theatrically. She grinned at him and then walked straight to the lady to pay her.

Back in her apartment she collapsed on the couch laughing loudly. Of course he could be there! He doesn`t even like football! She started laughing again as she stood up to hang her coat and purse. It was fun, very awkward and uncomfortable, but also exciting and challenging. It was true, she didn`t get herself a dildo; but experimenting with something like that was beyond her imagination and her body.

-xx-

She got into the hot tub later that night, trying to relax and to give this a shot. The true was, Emma was nervous because she didn`t know if that was going to work; and because there were going to be a lot of germs involved.

When she got out, she wrapped her body with a towel and went to her bedroom. Suddenly, the phone rang.

"Em?" a familiar voice called her name when she picked up the phone

"Hi, Will" she greeted him, "how are you?"

"I`m fine… hope I´m not disturbing you"

"No, just came out of the shower" He doesn´t need to know that!

"Oh…" she could tell he was smiling on the other side and she felt her stomach tickled.

"Did you enjoy the game?"

"Bleh… got bored…."

"William Schuester got bored during a game!" she teased him, while she searched for her under wear; she had dropped the towel some seconds ago. "You must have too many things in your head…"

"Hmm, yeah, you could say that" he answered vaguely.

"Ok, I`d say that…" Emma Pillsbury are you flirting with him? She cleared her throat "how are you, Will?"

"I`m ok… I`ve been resting and trying to relax, as you told me, but it`s been a little hard. I can`t seem to loosen myself up"

"Maybe you just need a relaxing bath, you know with bubbles and stuff"

"You mean, like one of yours?" he teased her unequivocally. She blushed and blinked once, not believing what he just told her. But she didn`t hold back and replied with a wide grin,

"I'm pretty relaxed right now", this is not going to end well, she thought as she dried her hair with the towel.

He chuckled and without thinking he declared, "It`s settled then, I´ll need one of your baths". Emma was astonished and giggled shyly so he didn´t freak out. But the truth was she was freaking out a little, but she also liked it.

"So, how can I help you, Will?"

"The kids want to make a final rehearsal in the auditorium tomorrow and they say I'm not trusted lately… So, do you think you could come and maybe give them some support..? They´ll be more relaxed"

"Sure, is 4 ok?"

"Perfect… I`ll see you tomorrow, then"

She hung up and sat on her bed, thinking about what she just did. Telling him she had just come from the shower was pretty daring, but also fun. She pictured Will`s smiling when hear those words and couldn`t help to feel a little curious. She bit her lip wondering what he would be thinking about right now. She leaned over the bed and sighed while she rested her hands on her abdomen. She wasn't dressed yet, but she was comfortable with her naked body, feeling a soft breeze on her skin. Emma scratched her neck and left her hand resting there, and by feeling her own touch and remembering Will`s voice her mind took her to another place, another time when he had kissed her. She evoked their first date, the way he looked at her, the way his hands hold her waist; the way his lips kissed her… she felt a sudden heat invading her low abdomen and unconsciously her hands traveled through her bare skin. She closed her eyes and suddenly, it was Will`s hand stroking her belly. Emma´s breathing went heavier as her hand kept travelling south and reached her panties. Before continuing, Emma grabbed the lub and poured a few drops on her fingers; slowly she took her hand between her thighs and caressed her most sensitive spot, increasing speed as seconds passed. She moaned in pleasure as she bit her lip not to keep in low. She couldn`t help to imagine it was Will the one who was touching her and in the moment his image accessed her mind her body trembled and her fingers sank deeper inside her. She let out a gasp and her free hand placed in her neck and stroked her skin firmly. She turned her neck to a side as her body vibrated under those new sensations and fed his imagination as she reminded over and over again Will` moist lips. Emma could feel her inner muscles tightening around her fingers and her body reached an unknown peak which she never experienced before and then she let out another moan as her body relaxed and released the tension that had accumulated. Emma remained on the bed as she tried to recover her breath and studied ell the sensations her body had. She smiled, not believing what she had done, not believing it could be so pleasant. And she imagined how much more pleasant it could be with someone like Will.

-xx-

Next day, Emma went straight to the choir room. She hadn`t seen Will in all day and she was wanted to. Even if she wasn`t going to admit it to herself.

"Am I to late...?" she asked Will while she walked through the sits in the audience. The kids were on stage, talking to each other, adjusting some last minutes details.

"No, just on time… how are you?" she smiled gently, "I´ve missed you today". Emma blushed lightly and sat next to him

"I´ve missed you too… I'm fine, just tired"

"Well, relax and enjoy the show. Kids! Why don`t you start? Mrs. Pillsbury is here!"

"Oh, hi Mrs. P" the kids greeted her, tho they couldn`t see them.

"Ok, let`s do this!" Rachel exclaimed exciting

The music started playing and Rachel began her solo, while the other kids danced in the back. After some minutes, Will looked at her and whispered in her ear, "thanks for coming, Em, this means a lot for them". She turned her face to look at him and found his sweet and kind eyes looking straight to her. She found him irresistible and she also found very hard to push last night thoughts away.

"You`re welcome"

When Mercedes and Kurt Puck sang their ballad, Will leaned on the armrest and came closer to Emma, again. "Do you think they are ok together?"

"What do you mean?" Emma asked him taking special attention to their clothing.

"Isn`t Puck´s voice a little unbalanced with Mercedes´?" Emma could feel his breath on her skin, "Listen". And she did, while she turned her face to him, meeting his eyes again.

"I think they sound great, the imbalance is what makes them great" she whispered softly. Emma´s breathing become heavier again and she caught Will glancing to her lips and quickly returning to her eyes.

"You have a point" he declared not moving an inch away from her.

That`s enough, Emma. This is not what you`re supposed to be doing. So she took her head away and focused on the kids, for a change.

-xx-

But the truth was she didn't feel good when she did that that afternoon in the auditorium, because she could feel Will´s hurt when she pull him away.

"I feel I'm making some progress but I'm not taking the benefits of it."

"Why is that?" Dr. Begler asked her, knowing the answer to that question

Emma shook her head, and closed her eyes, knowing what she was thinking it was wrong. Because she was supposed to be concentrate in herself.

"Don`t make me say it. You know as I do, that what I'm doing with Will it`s wrong".

"I`m not saying that. You´ll know when you`re ready, Emma.".

And in that moment, Emma got even more confused about what she was supposed to do, because even when Will made her feel as if things between them were like they used to be, a concern of being hurt again to grow.