I do NOT own these charecters…and I'm emo sad about it…but hey Stephenie Meyer owns them…..so I'll live!
Carlisle POV
"Damnit Bella you…will..live!" I screamed down at her.
And with that I ran into the woods. I was going to save her…I had promised Edward..I had promised her…..and I just couldn't lose her…because…because…oh god I just couldn't lose her…..but was I too late?
No…I had to stop thinking like that. I would keep my promise….. She will live! I had to run….I had to run faster….I had to make it home…. I knew as a doctor what she would need in order to survive…..I began to make my mental list. Blood….lots of blood…fluids, stitches, antibiotics, pain killers, and…..and….dammit Carlisle think…you're a doctor…THINK! It was then that I realized that I was near my house…..not my home….as it never would be home again…..not after tonight. I could hear the slow deep breaths of Charlie….the heavy footfalls of his pacing…he was worried….but not for all the right reasons. He had no idea that I carried his daughter…broken and lifeless in my arms…..no he had no idea and he must never have any idea.
I jumped quickly into my window and placed her lifeless form onto my bed. I removed my hand and noticed that my venom had stopped the bleeding and started to heal to severe cut, but it could only do so much. I had to get my black bag out of my office. Seeming to know my thoughts I heard Alice excuse herself again and dart up the stairs. She knocked lightly on the door and I heard the plop of my bag hitting the floor. I opened the door and quickly retrieved it, giving Alice a quick wink, and darted back to Bella's side.
I quickly set her up with two I.V.'s one to run her some fluids and the other to run blood. Thank the heavens for my pixie like telepathic daughter, she knew exactly everything that I would need and therefore saved a lot of time. I took her temperature … 96.3.….damn that was low. I took her pulse…it was low….extremely low. God how was she going to survive this? NO she was going to survive this… I knew it…she had to! I quickly pushed away any thoughts of her departure from this life as I could no longer think like that…she needed me right now…she needed my doctor side.
After giving her a dose of morphine and antibiotics, I flushed her wound and began to stitch it up. I couldn't help but wonder how anyone could do this to themselves…. It must have been so painful and usally the human mind shyed away from that much pain. Stopping itself from causing any further pain…..it was a basic instinct….it would shut it self down…cause her to pass out. I realized then that she must have felt every single second of the pain before lack of blood caused her to pass out…..God Bella why?….why did you do it?
I cradled her in my arms and began to rock her ever so gently back and forth. Looking at her innocent, yet troubled face I knew she wanted death, she wanted to leave this place…this her own personal hell….she would hate me even more now…but I would have to make sure that she understood that I just couldn't let her go…she couldn't take herself out of our family…not without a fight.
It was then that she started to squirm, she began to moan and whimper, she started jerking violent little jerks as if fighting someone, her eyes screwing tight and releasing. She was having a nightmare. It was then that I remembered what Edward had told me once…
*flashback*
"Son? Are you sure that it's the best idea that you stay with her every night if you find her blood so tempting?" I asked of Edward
" She talks in her sleep. I find her interesting, the things she says, she calls my name in her sleep. I can't stay away and I can handle the scent, I will never hurt her." he answered.
"Well, son, I understand that you believe that you can handle the scent, but are you one hundred percent possitive that you wont hurt her?" I raised my hand to stop him as he was about to protest, "I'm not saying that I doubt you son, I know you would never willingly harm her, but her blood sings to you, I just want to make sure that you are sure."
" I am sure. She needs me. It's the only thing that helps her to sleep throughout the night, you see she has vivid dreams. I wish I knew what they are, but I can't read her mind. She has a lot of nightmares as well, and even though I worry that they are about me, I found that if I'm with her and I hum her lullaby they stop or don't come at all. It's as if her subconscious knows I'm there with her, that I'll protect her. I love her Carlisle, she is my life, she is my soul, I will never hurt her." he said with a certainty and pride that reassured me that he spoke nothing but the utmost truth.
I remembered the pride that I felt for my son that day. I knew at that moment with the utmost certainty that I had made the right decision that day, all those years ago, back in the hospital, as Edward laid there…dieing. I knew how Edward would stop her terrors, but would it work for me? I began to hum her the lullaby that Edward had written for her. At first she jerked harder and her eyes screwed even tighter shut, she moaned louder, pain evident in her face. I hummed louder and she began to relax then and her face fell back into an almost calm front, she smiled and rolled towards my chest and as I tightened my arms around her delicate frame she whispered his name….
"Edward…" she whispered.
Bella's POV
I was in hell, I knew it, I was surrounded by my family. I was in the middle of the meadow… the light of the sun warmed my face as looked out across the field , once covered in tall thick grass and wildflowers, but now it was dead and brown. I saw them, all of them, my family…only they were dead…all of them….lieing motionless and beheaded scattered all over the ground….even Charlie and Renee. I knew that I caused this, it was all my fault, I had killed them. My mere existence is what caused them to die. I broke down, falling to my knees amongst all this death….death that was mine and mine alone. I was so alone. I wanted nothing more then to wake up from this nightmare.
I was so wrapped up in my own endless sobbing that I almost didn't hear the sound of someone approaching me…..with a shock I looked up to see Jane crossing the meadow…she had a sickenly horrid smirk on her face as she approached me. She stopped directly in front me as I rose to look straight into her evil eyes….she quickly looked around and with a giggle she said "oh, what have you done Bella? Tsk….tsk…you truly don't know your own strength do you? You….a mere human…..had the power to destroy an entire coven and oh…..lookie…you even destroyed your own mother and father." That was it… I felt such a surge of hate and power that I struck out…I punched that evil lil bitch straight into her horrid mouth! We began to fight….to scratch, claw, punch, and tear at each other. I had the power within me to hurt her, it surprised me but not enough to distract me, and with a final blow she was down. I stood over her and felt a snarl curl my lips, she looked horrified. I found pleasure in her terror, and I felt myself giggle at her, it was then that I reached down and beheaded the lil bitch as if I was simply pulling a pumpkin off the vine, just a little twist and pull, and there she lie….dead.
With that I looked back onto the field that surrounded me, I remembered why I was here and felt the need to escape…I had to run….far away…and so I did. I ran into the depths of my own dispair… faster and faster…..farther and farther…. I ran. I found myself running into the blackness that could only be my own personal hell. I felt the air rushing past me, it did nothing to dry or soothe the tears rolling down my cheeks. It was then that I stumbled, I began to fall, to plumit, the darkness overtook me then and I couldn't find it in myself to care….I wanted the darkness to find me and take me. With a sudden jolt I discovered I wasn't actually falling I was floating now…I opened my eyes to see the light…a brilliant, radiating light…..
Heaven…..Oh this must be heaven…..I can hear it…my lullaby. Edward must be close, he must be waiting for me, calling me to him, humming to me….where is he?…..I cant see him….I cant see anything….I called to him then…..
"Edward…." I called out.
It was then that I felt him, his cold arms tight around me, holding me to him forever. I never wanted to be let go, I would stay like this for my entirety in heaven. I knew we were in heaven, Edward could never be damned to the pits of hell and somehow I had been granted the grace of joining him here, although anywhere with Edward holding me was heaven. I looked up to see him, to once again hold his angelic features in my eyes, only I couldn't find him. I felt him….he was holding me…..I was sure of it….I knew he was here…..he was humming to me. It was then that I began to search….my eyes wandering over my surroundings….so bright….so beautiful…but none of that mattered anymore…I had to find him.
As I turned my head to search further I felt a jab of pain, it was sharp and hot, It stung like nothing else I had felt. It was then that I finally saw him…he was far away…..off to the side….he was smiling that little grin that I loved so much….I strained to reach him. I ran towards him. But he did not reach out for me. I begged him to catch me… " Edward, my love, catch me." He just smiled brighter and even though his mouth never moved he spoke to me in the recesses of my mind " Oh, my beloved Bella, I can finally read you! I will never let you fall my love. You will be kept safe, that I can promise you. But Bella my love why did you do it?…Why? You cannot not exist , you must stay with them, you must make my family….our family….whole again. I love you so much Bella, and as much as it truly pains me you cannot join me now, but know this. I Edward Anthony Masen Cullen will always love you and I will always be with you," he reached out and placed his hand upon the center of my chest directly above my heart, his hand was warm now and at first it shocked me but I realized that as I looked into his eyes they were once again green, he was human again…in heaven "in here. I will always be in your heart as you will always carry mine within yours. Please, Bella, keep it safe, keep your heart safe." With that he started to back away. I reached out for him again, sobbing, I begged him to stay, to take me with him if he could not, I tried to reach him but felt myself being held back by some cold, strong but gentle force. I realized then that even though he was gone I could still hear my lullaby. I had the feeling that I was being tugged back….back into the realms of reality again…..and I didn't want it.