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I had the feeling that I was being tugged back….back into the realms of reality again…..and I didn't want it.
Carlisle POV
God….when was she going to regain consciousness?….She's been out for 3 days now. Alice had figured what to do about the whole Charlie thing, it wasn't pleasant, but it was the best that we could do considering….
~*~flashback~*~
Charlie had fallen asleep on the couch holding Alice's hand. She had pretended to fall asleep herself knowing that if she had, he would fall asleep too. Once he was totally immersed in slumber she gently and quickly removed her hand from his grasp and darted up the stairs to meet with us and check in on her best friend and beloved sister.
"How is she Carlisle?" She asked nervously.
" She'll survive, but I'm not sure about her mindset. It takes a lot of pain to inflict this kind of wound to ones self, and to stay conscious while doing it," I said shaking my head " all I know is that we're lucky she's alive." I answered.
"My poor baby sister," Emmett said as he approached her looking sad. "She has known worse pain then this."
It never ceased to amaze me how amazingly brilliant and deep this man, my son, could be. On the outside he was a big goofy teddy bear, always so strong. Yet when it mattered he was one of the deepest and amazing hearts you would ever have the pleasure of experiencing.
"Yes, yes she has and Carlisle…I'm not sure how much more I can take." Jasper said suddenly.
"What's the matter Jazz?" Alice asked.
"I…..I…I don't know how describe it Alice my love. What she's going through…in her mind…her emotions….I….I….I just cant…." Jasper said as he grabbed fistfuls of his hair.
Resting my hand on his shoulder I said "Son, its ok I understand. I don't expect that anyone with your gift could handle the emotions that are floating around right now. If you must leave for awhile then I will grant you your absence and trust that I will bear you no ill will."
"Thank you Carlisle, its hard but I have to be here. I have to stay to help Alice and Bella. I'm trying to send Bella positive feelings but its not working, but I will stay. She is my family too." Jasper said with a certainty.
I knew how much this effected them all and there presence is the one thing that kept me sane. I knew that Jasper would suffer more then the rest of them, but I was beyond the realms of glad that he was willing to suffer the pain.
"Thank you again son." I said with a smile. "But that leaves us with the issue of Charlie. Bella wouldn't want her father to know what she's done, and neither would I but…..I left a mess behind me there and she lost a lot of blood on her bed. I have no idea what we are going to do." I said looking down onto the floor, screwing my eyes tightly closed, trying to erase the horrible memories of that scene.
"Well I have played a lot of different scenarios in my head trying to figure out our best route." Alice said.
"Oh Alice I will never be able to tell you how grateful I am to you and for your gift." I sighed.
"Well lets have it, what are we going to do?" Rosealie said suddenly.
"Well there is a lot of blood as Carlisle said, so Jazz your going to have to stay here, but that's a good thing because your going to be busy hacking into email accounts…" Alice said.
"Hacking into email accounts?" Emmett questioned.
"Yes before she did this she emailed a letter to everyone." Alice said looking pained.
"A letter?" I asked looking at every one of my children's faces already knowing the answer.
"Yes Carlisle, a goodbye letter."
Suddenly the room fell silent and very still, I saw the pain that crossed everyone of their faces in that moment.
"I understand." I said with a nod for her to continue.
"Well Jazz, you're going to have go in and erase the emails she sent to her mother, Charlie, Angela, Mike, and Jacob. She sent one to each of us as well but we can take of that ourselves. As for myself, Rose and Emmett we will take care of the house and we will leave a note of our own…in Bella's handwriting…telling him that she couldn't take the stress and decided to go on a long road trip to try to heal her mind. We will tell him that she will call him every so often. We will also leave a note for him to pass to us apologizing for leaving and not being able to stay but of course we will understand." Alice said.
"Brilliant!" Emmett and Rose said together.
Clapping my hands together I said "Ok Alice. Rose and Em, you three get to work on Charlie's house and Jazz you can quietly use the computer in my office."
With that they all sped off in different directions, to do the best possible thing that they could in our current situation. I felt the horrible pang in my dead heart knowing that this would be the second time this night that they would have to make up a scene of a horrid event.
I turned then and reentered my room. I stood for what seemed like an eternity at the door. I waited for my children to return from their grim mission. I just stood and waited…watched….and hoped that Bella would come back to us, to….me. God, what did I do to deserve this hell? What did my family do to deserve this? What did the angel laying on my bed do to deserve this? She isn't damned….she is perfect…she is an innocent…God I believed you to be a truly just and honest god and yet you found it in your self to punish this amazing angel….for whom never did anything to deserve your unjust wrath…..you have punished the wrong one. Looking to the sky I fell unto my knees and began to pray.
"Take me, God, take me. Do not do this to my family. Do not do this to her…..she is one the purest and most amazing souls I have ever encountered. If your looking to punish someone then by all means punish me. If you are truly a just and honest God then take away all their pain this night and take me from their world. Let them awake in the morning to find this all to be the most horrid nightmare." dropping my head into my hands and leaning forward to place them onto the floor I begged " I'm lost. I don't know what to do. Please forgive me for questioning you God. I just do not know what I am to do now. Please I beg of you to help me to help them. Please. Take me…just…take me."
Just then, as if in answer to my prayers, I heard Bella's heart rate increase. She arched her back up off the bed a little and let out a huge breath that somehow she must have been holding. It was as if I was being sent a reminder of my purpose. I had to stay …..alive…if that is what I am…I had to protect her….keep her safe…keep her heart beating….I had to …..keep her.
I raced over to the bed then and took her wrist in my hand to check her pulse, it was good, and steady. She sighed suddenly and took my hand into hers, tucking it ever so gently under head, she smiled slightly. She looked then that she was sleeping instead of recovering. I looked to the heavens then and thanked God silently for reminding me of why I should never question him or his methods.
Looking back to the angel on my bed my eyes swam in the venom that would never nor could ever fall from them. I felt it then. What did I feel? I'm not perfectly sure. But I felt something, something I couldn't describe, but it was amazing and kind of like an electric jolt that passed through my entire system. What was that? I have never felt or known to have any other of my kind feel something like it. I decided then that I would leave those questions for another time and place and just be here for her when she returned to us.
~*~end flashback~*~
"Alice dear, do you see anything about when she will regain consciousness?"I asked her for what must be the thousandth time.
"No, Carlisle I don't. I'm sorry but I'm unable to see that as it isn't conscious decision. I do believe it will be within the next day or two but I can't be certain because her future is soo hazy."
"It's ok dear, I am sorry to keep bothering you with this." I said.
"Carlisle, you need to hunt you haven't moved from the spot in three and a half days, I can watch her no problem, and of course if anything changes or happens I will call you immediately." Rose said entering the room.
"Not to mention that we have a viewing and funeral to attend tomorrow." Emmett added.
Looking back to Bella I said "Yes, I know I need to hunt however I find it an impossibility to leave her side."
I heard a sudden and quick gasp from Alice then. Knowing her as I do I knew she was having a vision. But if I was being honest with myself, if it didn't involve Bella, I frankly didn't care anymore.
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