Hello again, thanks to those who have reviewed means a lot…

This is the second chapter; hope you enjoy it!

Disclaimer – again; not mine, wish the characters were though… they all have brilliant personalities.

-Charlotte (Peeta'sTwilight)

2. Feelings

I stared at her, not knowing what was going on… she must have noticed my absent mind and lack of communication. But how could I explain to her that I was feeling so confused and bewailed like someone I thought I could even handle. It was always different with Bella; I could control myself, I knew Edward was competition I could manage to get over as you could really see the love between, and all the time I was wishing I had the same feelings I had with Bella as I knew I didn't love her the way I thought I did and more to the fact that feelings aren't natural. Not at this stage anyways.

I remember the day that I had first told Nessie we had a special connection; she was about three quarters of the way through her growth and I knew she would understand more than most people in this world, at least I hoped she would… there was a bond between us, so powerful that not even a vampire could process the types of emotions. I guess that's why it was so difficult for Sam when breaking up with Leah and leaving her for her cousin Emily. I had offered her 3 main choices in which she could chose in order to still keep me in her life;

"An imprint is someone who's meant for you, like a soul-mate but more… with a bond so strong you can't break without breaking the other person physically and mentally" I replied "I will give you three choice's that you can consider and tell me who you want me to be in your life." I took a breath and looked her in the eyes again; "So I can be your brother, best friend, lover and protector." I said as I was kissing her cheek, and holding her hands close to my chest waiting for an answer.

"I don't know what to say this is a bit of extreme information… please just give me a minute to think!" I looked into her chocolate brown eyes, searching for hope I guess, but I could feel her seeming a little tense and nervous at the same time.

I laughed at the deep concentration in her eyes, her face shot up looking at me with confusion…

"When did this happen, I mean the imprint? I know we have been close but I don't think to realize there was some sort of connection such as an imprint…?"

In that moment I guess I had to explain the whole story, so I started off on how Bella and I were close before she was born, or even conceived, telling her the truth of our relationship and in between how much Nessie really meant to me, even that I wasn't keen on Bella keeping her, but then the précised moment when she was in Rosalie's arms with her cooing over the blood-monster in her arms, I explained how much the power of the imprint made me forget the anger that filled me up when believing Bella was dead… how much she drew me to her, like a moth to a flame. Her eyes were wide after all of past I had told her, she then placed her right palm to my skin showing the picture of me looking over her in Blondie's arms that day we first imprinted. I simply nodded, making sure she understood the moment that had changed both our lives.

"I need to talk to you, you seem a little depressed back there," Nessie stated whilst walking towards the meadow where we fought against the Volturi and the newborn Vamps many years ago. The sense of Deja vu came right through me as the sense of betrayal and heartache came into mind, from the moment before when standing in this exact spot hearing her words of not wanting the same as I would in the future;

She looked up into my eyes with worry written all over her face as well as disappointment, confusion, anger, possibly love? All the different emotions flooded through her warm pink coloured cheeks as she answered me finally with a touch to my fevered skin; pictures of us together being friends, me being a role model; looking after her when she was sad; every moment of us together were swimming through her memory.

"Oh," was the only word I could say; although she couldn't speak the words to me, the silence filled the air with the distraught feelings I had inside the pit of my stomach. I could feel a break in my heart emptying any hope I had of us being together; at this point Nessie was looking nearly 15 years of age and 2 more years she would stay the same 17 model of perfection. Just like Edward… and Nahuel! I gritted my teeth at the thought of HIS name. He always made me angry. Too angry.

Once in the meadow; the golden sun was setting after a long day with Charlie; though I don't really notice the difference when stuck inside all day clouded by my own thoughts. I had been in the same empty shell since that night a year before. The sun reflected off of Nessie's skin like tiny diamonds; I become mesmerized by her beauty. She looked so different from when she was young. Her heart shape face completedthe beauty of her long bronze ringlets that hang down to her waist. Her 5ft 6 structure and pale white skin…

Nessie stopped suddenly in the center of the meadow, and turned to face me. Her eyes sparkled like her skin; and a huge cat smile spread across her face. I took a breath and walked to her rapidly with my heart in my throat.

Okay this is it, just confront him. Ask him why he is being all weird and silent the past year. I nodded to myself at the thought. I'm really confused.

I could see him walking slowing across the meadow; where momma and dad spent most of their time. I could tell this was their special place; circled by trees in a distance from the woods, with wonderland full of beautiful purple and blue flowers scattered throughout. It was like a dream. I stopped my daydreaming and glanced up to the shape shifter, werewolf in front of me. His dark mysterious eyes locked with mine.

"So why did you pull me away out here then, from all the fun at Charlie's?" Jake questioned, with a small smile at the corner of his lips.

"Well… I need to talk to you about something," I said, looking into his eyes for any hesitation, but there was only confusion. "You've been quite distant recently, not the usual Jacob that I know but I love…"

"Love?" Jake asked, with a surprise expression on his face, "Do you love me?"

I hesitated, how I could possibly say to him I love him after I turned him down a year ago.

I remember his face turning down after my hand fell from his face, my heart beating faster than hummingbirds' wings…

I looked into his gorgeous eyes and said, "I love you as a friend, a brother. I feel I haven't had a chance to witness those kind of emotions since my birth 5 years ago. Every moment of my life you have been there and I can see from what you told me it felt like destiny. But I need to discover myself before I can settle into something that might be more."

After I said these words I tried to believe them myself, but I knew that they meant nothing and I was hiding my own feelings for Jake.

His face dropped, I could see the pain that I have inflicted upon him. As guilty as I felt,I was sure I wasn't positive about dating anyone at that moment, but I couldn't understand my heartache after speaking the words after which I seem so young.

Jake mumbled an 'Oh,' very silently again, I could tell this wasn't what he was expecting, but we had time to understand one another properly.

The other matter of my decision was my thoughts upon Nahuel. I like him. He was just like me and I could respond to him naturally, but I really didn't understand the fact of the ache for Jacob…

With the flashback fading from my vision, Jacob's eyes were once again laid upon me searching for an answer.

I spoke the words I was thinking slowly, in order for them not only to sink into this mind but also to relieve myself over my heart speaking. "Yes I love you Jake, you're everything to me and over the past year I have realized that with you being linked to me, I can't control my emotions over you. What I'm trying to say is that I was wrong last year, when you told me the truth of the connection between us, I was just so terrified I would lose you if I came too close and I also had to get over the fact that we are meant to be enemies as you being a werewolf and all, but as the truce is strong between our families, I am just glad to have you in my life. You mean the world to me. Forgive me?"

With the lack of speech coming from Jacob's mouth, I had to do something. I wasn't sure what, but how could I say this again in a way that wouldn't put him in complete shock?Ah come on Jake, nothing still nothing… Suddenly I feltJacob's hot feverish lips on mine, kissing me gently. He wrapped both arms around my waist, holding me so close to him that the nervous feeling I was witnessing had evaporated from my mind.

I felt Jacob pulling away, but still holding me close to his chest.

"I love you too, for the first time I can admit it. And it feels good Ness, it really does." I looked into his eyes and stayed gazing into them. Nobody can ruin this moment for me. I thought smiling to myself.

Well that's the end of the second chapter :D

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-Peeta'sTwilight.