A/N: Hope you all enjoy the chapter.

Chapter 9

My lips were still pressed against Dak's. I slid my tongue against his bottom lip asking for entrance, but I was surprised when he pulled away from me, his eyes wider then I had ever seen them. I felt the rejection rush over me and I knew that the waterworks were about to start again. "Dak..."

He looked away. "Logan, can we talk about this when we get back to the apartment? I need to think before I say anything."

I nodded sadly. What does he have to think about? How to let me down easy? Because clearly he doesn't want to be with me like that. He pulled away from me. That rejection was enough for me to get the big picture.

The ride back seemed to go on for hours. I was racking my brain for what to say to him. I didn't know what that kiss meant. It just seemed like it was the right thing to do. It felt like it was perfect. The silence was extremely awkward and I didn't know if I could take it anymore. I sighed. We were finally pulling up to the Palm Woods.

I saw Jo sitting in a chair and I glared at her. She met my gaze and stood to walk up to me. "Logan..." She stopped and had a pleading look in her eyes. "I didn't mean for what I did to cause you all the pain it did. I was jealous and I wanted Kendall back. I didn't know that he would take it too far. I'm so sorry."

I glared at her. She had been the reason Kendall had beat me so bad. That picture she sent him had caused me so much pain. "Jo, you try and come off as a nice and sweet girl. But in all actuality you're not. You're a conniving, mean, bitch." She seemed taken aback that I would be so mean. "You knew what you were doing. You had seen his temper, were you hoping he did that to me?"

She had tears in her eyes. "No! I swear." She was desperate at this point.

Dak finally stepped in. "Logan, that's enough." He pulled me to the elevator, but at that point I looked back and saw Jo silently crying to herself. I felt horrible. I didn't have to be so mean to her, it wasn't her fault that Kendall was so unstable. "What was that?"

"Kendall had told me before that he lost control in front of her, she knew what he was capable of, yet she still sent that picture to him." I said softly. "She knew what she was doing and now she just wants to clear her conscious."

"Be that, as it may, you still shouldn't have been so harsh." Dak said softly.

I felt myself slowly losing it. I had lost Kendall, I had been hurt and now I had been rejected by the only guy who seemed to make me forget about Kendall. When we walked into the apartment, I walked in slowly.

"I'm sorry, I kissed you. Had I known you didn't want it, I wouldn't have done it." I said, my tone was a lot sadder then I had meant it to be.

Dak's face got a panicked look on it. "NO! Don't apologize, I wanted to kiss you back Logan. Believe me I did. But you had been crying over Kendall not even a minute before you kissed me. You are hurting and you still love Kendall."

I looked down. "I know. I shouldn't have done it."

"I just don't want to get wrapped up in you right now. If Kendall has changed I couldn't take you leaving me for him. It would destroy me Logan." Dak said, staring at me like I was the most interesting thing in this world.

"So you are afraid I will hurt you?" I asked.

He nodded slowly. "But its not only that. Logan you had no interest in me before, I know you didn't. I just am afraid you are mistaking feelings of gratitude for love and that will only make your suffering worse."

I knew that he was right, I wasn't sure if I had feelings for him. I just knew that he had been there for me. "I'm sorry. I shouldn't have kissed you. You are right, I think I am mistaking gratitude for feelings."

Dak got a pained look on his face. "Let's just give it time. Let's see what happens with Kendall. Then why don't you make a decision."

I nodded. I was thankful to have him as my friend. I knew that he would always be there for me, no matter what. I avoided him the rest of the week. I couldn't face him. I was sitting across from my therapist right now. It was a woman in her thirties, her name was Emily.

"So have you seen Kendall since he's been out?" She asked.

"Yeah, but only once. It was at the studio I didn't say much to him though." I said.

"Did you two talk?" I thought back to when Kendall had talked to me.

I nodded. "He told me that he was going to give me space to get over what he had done to me."

"Well that isn't easy to do. How is the progress coming?"

"I don't know. I love Kendall, and I feel like I am coming to terms with what he did to me. I think that is a step. I want to forgive him and I honestly feel like I could if he changes."

"Lets talk about Dak."

"I kissed him. I regret it because he likes me and I don't think I return the feelings. I love Kendall too much. I think I kissed him because of how much he has been here for me."

"I think that is true. You need to figure things out with Kendall before you can move forward with Kendall or anyone else for that matter."

My session ended shortly after that. I walked out and back to the apartment.

I was now sitting across from him at the dinner table. "Look, Logan. You don't have to avoid me, that kiss wasn't that big of a deal and I don't want it to ruin our friendship."

"I know, I was and still am embarrassed. I just feel like an idiot." I said softly.

"Well, don't. What do you say we go and see a movie tonight? The Mechanic just came out." He asked enthusiastically.

I gave a grin. "Jason Statham? Who can say no to going and seeing that sexy creature." I said.

He laughed at me. Dak ran upstairs and grabbed a hat and a pair of sunglasses. If we went anywhere he had to have those on. I laughed because the hat had a blonde wig underneath it to disguise his dark hair. "What are you laughing at?" He asked with his eyes narrowing.

"Nothing, nothing at all, blonde." I said with a smirk.

"HAHAHA" he fake laughed and then got a serious look on his. "Go fuck yourself."

I forced a hurt look on my face. "Ouch, Dak that hurt me…that hurt me right here." I said while pointing to my heart.

He smiled. "Ah, I'm sure it did."

I laughed at him. I felt like I was my old self again. Being away from Kendall was definitely helping me. Gustavo had decided that we wouldn't be going back to the studio until next week, but he warned that we would be working twelve hours a day to catch up.

We were in his Beemer and we were driving to the movie theatre. When we got there I bought the tickets and we walked into the theatre. "Want some popcorn and sodies?" He asked.

I frowned. Kendall called them sodies too. "Yeah, I'll take some. And some chocolate covered raisins?" I asked hoping he would say yes. He nodded and we walked to the concession.

We ordered our snacks and made our way to the theatre. I saw him, I saw Kendall standing outside the movie theatre laughing with James and Carlos at something Carlos had just said.

I stopped dead in my tracks. "We can go see another movie." Dak suggested. Kendall looked up and met my gaze.

"No, he's already seen me. Besides I got my hopes up at seeing Jason Statham shirtless." Dak chuckled at me. "I'm gonna see that sexy british man, dammit!"

I laughed with Dak and tried to ignore Kendall and the others. James and Carlos were walking up to us. "You guys seeing the Mechanic too?" James asked.

"Yeah, who can say no to seeing Jason Statham." I said. Earning another smile from Dak.

Carlos laughed. "That was exactly what Kendall was just saying."

I glanced past them to look at Kendall. He was looking at me but when he saw me look up he suddenly looked down at his shoes. "He looks good, like he is back to his normal self." I said.

James was quiet. "I haven't seen this Kendall in months. He is finally back to being our fearless leader."

I looked at them. I knew that for James to say that it must have been true. James could read people. Sure he may not have been the brightest but he was a good judge of character. Well most of the time. I smiled thinking of when a fan had locked him in a cage full of dog bones.

"It's nice, we've been playing dome hockey but its just not the same with three of us." Carlos said sadly.

"Maybe, I'll come play with you guys tomorrow. It might be easier in the studio if I get use to being around Kendall again." I said softly. "Would you mind sitting together?" I asked James.

"No, we can put you and Kendall on opposite sides if that makes you more comfortable." James suggested.

"Okay, but I sit by Dak and Carlos." I said. Dak was looking at me funny. "Carlos makes any movie funny with his comments." I explained.

We all watched the movie and I laughed at all the comments Carlos was making. "Man, even I would go gay for Jason Statham." He whispered very loudly. He earned several dirty looks from people sitting around us. I couldn't help it, I had to laugh, I held my mouth to keep my laughs surpressed.

It was at the end, and it was revealed that Jason Statham's character hadn't died. The movie was over and everyone in the theatre heard Carlos yell. "That wasn't surprising. You can't kill Jason, he's a bad ass!"

That comment earned a few cheers. I laughed as we all walked out of the theatre. When we got to the outside I hugged Carlos and James. "Well, if you guys are down, I'll be over tomorrow around noon to play some dome hockey?" I asked while looking at Kendall.

He smiled back at me and nodded. "See you then, Logie." He said softly, I knew that I was the only one who had heard it.

Dak and I were back in the car. "Are you sure you are ready to be around him?" Dak asked.

"I was around him tonight, wasn't I?"

"Yeah, but not really around him." He reasoned.

"I'm ready." I told him. I pulled out my phone and found the contact I was looking for. Are you sure you don't mind if I hang out with you guys tomorrow? I sent this to Kendall.

I tapped my fingers on the door waiting for an answer. I got it almost immediately. I don't mind. I miss seeing you. Things aren't the same with the gang unless you're there. This is the first time they had as much fun as they use to.

I smiled at my phone. I could feel Dak's eyes on me. I don't think that was because of me, I'd give the credit to Carlos for all his hilarious comments.

"Are you texting Kendall?" I heard Dak ask.

"What? No, of course not, why would I-" But I stopped once I saw the look he was giving me. "I'm just making sure that he will be okay if I go see them tomorrow."

"You shouldn't worry about that. He is the one who screwed up, he should be the one texting you seeing if you are okay with it." He seemed to be disappointed that I was talking to Kendall.

My phone buzzed again. Yeah, did you see the looks from the people in front of us, when he made the gay joke? But I will see you tomorrow at noon. Have a goodnight Logie Bear.

I frowned. I didn't want the texting to stop. I had tried to ignore it, but I couldn't anymore. I missed Kendall. I missed him holding me and I missed him kissing me. I wasn't ready to forgive him yet, but I did feel that maybe soon I would be ready to move back in with him and the others. I typed back, You too Boo Boo.

I laughed when I wrote that. He called me Logie Bear and I called him Boo Boo, it was mainly because Yogi Bear was our favorite cartoon growing up.

When we got back to the apartment, I decided to talk to Dak about what was going on inside my head. "Dak, depending on how tomorrow goes and when we are back in the studio, I think I might be ready to move back with the guys. I would ask if James or Carlos would mind switching rooms, but I think I'm in a much better state of mind."

"Logan, I think you are moving too quickly. You need to pace yourself. You need to make sure that you are really ready." He said. I saw a pained look on his face.

I frowned. "I'm not, I think that I will be ready soon, but I can't be sure. I'm not rushing it or even trying to."

He just said okay and then went up to bed. The next day it was almost noon so I walked up to apartment 2J. I hadn't talked to Dak, by the time I woke up he was already up and had left for the studio. I knocked on the door anxiously.

Kendall opened the door with a smile. "Hey Logie." He motioned for me to come in. I walked into the familiar apartment and walked to the orange couch and sat down. "James and Carlos will be down in a second. James hogged the bathroom all morning and Carlos just got out of the shower and James said something about having to comb his hair for another five minutes for it to be perfect?"

I laughed. Of course James had to comb his hair. "So did you enjoy the movie last night?" I asked trying to make conversation.

"Yeah, it was good. And hearing Carlos make his comments all through it just made it that much better." He said with a laugh.

"I'm surprised we didn't get asked to leave. We were loud the entire time." I said.

I heard another laugh. "Yeah and then I'm sure mine and James' popcorn fight didn't help things too much."

Whenever we had left the back row of the theatre was completely trashed. I couldn't help but feel sorry for whoever had to clean up our mess. I looked at Kendall for a few moments. He seemed like he was on edge and he wasn't looking at me.

"How are you with everything?" I finally asked.

"I think that I have changed, I realize now that what I did to you wasn't right. I was so scared that you would hurt me. I felt like I wasn't good enough for you and that you were cheating on me. Even though I know you would never do that. I think that's why I did what I did. But I still know that isn't an excuse."

"It's not. You didn't have the right to decide if you were good enough for me. That has and always will be my decision. And if you can change and show me that you have changed then you are good enough for me." I said.

He was hesitant. "I want you in my life in the meantime. Even if its just as my friend for now."

I smiled at him. I knew that I needed Kendall too. "I think we can do that. I was thinking about moving back here soon. BUT, I want to room with James or Carlos. I don't think we should room together."

He looked sad but then I could see that he understood. "Okay. I understand completely."

We all spent the day playing dome hockey and then we were at the pool. I enjoyed for the first time in months being able to go in the water with them. I was no longer covered in bruises. We took turns dunking each other, but I noticed that Kendall never tried to dunk me.

When we got out we walked to the apartment again and sat down and enjoyed some chicken dinosaurs that Mrs. Knight had made us. I watched as Carlos and James made their dinosaurs attack each other. "Oh no! Its the James-asaurus rex." James screamed and then devoured the two chicken dinos in his hand.

I laughed at them. "You guys are too much." Kendall laughed, "Isn't that right, Logie?"

I nodded in agreement. Kendall smiled at me and I couldn't help but smile back. No, I can't fall back into this again, this quickly!

End Chapter

A/N: I hope you guys enjoyed it, granted there isn't as much drama but I hope you are still enjoying it!

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