A/N: Well I finally know where this is going and how many chapters it will be. Only two more after this. =) And I just started a new fic named Southern Belle, i would greatly appreciate it if you would read it and give me some input on it! Enjoy.
Chapter 12
I looked at Carlos who was dragging me to a place unknown. Two months had gone by, Kendall and I had been broken up for three months now. Today would have been our one year anniversary, and I couldn't help but feel miserable because we weren't a couple. I felt Carlos cover my eyes when we got to the pool.
He guided me to where we were going for a few more minutes and then finally he stopped. I still couldn't see. "Keep them closed." He said.
"Carlos, where did you bring me." I asked impatiently. I had been getting to the good part in my new book when Carlos had practically kidnapped me.
I felt someone grab my hands. "Open your eyes, Logie." I heard Kendall say softly.
I did. I was at the park and in front of me was a picnic basket and a blanket. I smiled at Kendall. "Why didn't you just bring me here?" I asked.
"Well, I wanted you to be completely surprised and I didn't think you would take too kindly to me kidnapping you." He said with a chuckle.
"Probably not." I looked around and Carlos was already gone. I sat down on the blanket and went to reach for the basket.
"No!" Kendall said, it made me jump. "Sorry, I just want to give you something before we eat." He reached behind him and showed me a bouquet of lilies. I smiled at him and took them. There was a card attached to it. Now that we are friends again, its time for me to win you back for good. I love you Logie.
I knew that I wanted to be back with Kendall but I wanted to make him work for it. I didn't want to just give in as easily as he wanted me to. I smiled at him. "Thank you." I said while smelling the lilies.
I saw him reach into the basket. He pulled out a case of california rolls, my favorite chips, lemonade and a cake. I smiled, these were all my favorite things to eat. "The cake is carrot cake too." He said with a smile on his face.
"Thank you for doing this, but you didn't have to." I said with a smile. I was wondering if this was all coincidence or if he knew what today would have been.
"I wanted to, I wanted to be sweet to you like I was when we first started dating. I realized it has been a while since I have done anything like this for you."
We made small talk and we shared smiles and laughs with each other. He told me to close my eyes again, and I did. "You know, I'm tired of having to close my eyes." I said getting annoyed.
"Just keep them closed." I listened and did what he wanted me to. "Open them."
I looked down at the cake in front of me and it read, "Happy one year."
He did know what today was. I looked at it for a few minutes before I was able to look up. I knew that I was close to crying. Today should have been a happy day for us, had he not hit me we would be happy right now. He handed me a card. I opened it. It was blank except for the inside which he had written a note in.
Logie,
This last year has been hectic, but regardless of what I did and everything we've been through. I love you, I always have and always will. So one year later, I want to ask you the same question I asked exactly one year ago. Will you be my boyfriend. Will you be mine?"
Love Always,
Kendall
I couldn't hold them back anymore. I finally let the tears fall from my eyes and I didn't even bother wiping them away. "Kendall, I don't know. I'm sorry though, I'm so sorry!"
I stood up and ran away trying to get myself together again. Of course, Kendall was secretly a helpless romantic. Of course he would ask me out again today. I want to be with him so much again, but I don't know if I'm ready. Why does all this have to be so confusing?
I sat at the bench away from Kendall and just let my tears fall. I felt a hand on my back and saw James standing there. "I was watching, we were all hoping you would say yes." He said softly. "Kendall is still there crying. Logan, I know that I will never understand how you feel but he loves you and you two are kissing and laughing like you are together."
I knew he was right. Anyone who looked at the two of us would think we were back together. But we hadn't mades it official yet. "I'm scared." I finally admitted to him and myself.
"You have every right to be, but you have to realize that it isn't just this relationship that that is going to be scary. I was talking to Dak, I know that you don't really talked to him anymore, but he was telling me that every relationship he has been in since Tony he has felt scared. He has been scared that they are going to do what he did to him." He said.
I knew that he was right, that I was going to be scared for the rest of my life. I just needed to decided whether or not I could put the fear behind me to be with Kendall. "I just need to think." I said softly.
"Well, Kendall had a full day planned for the two of you so don't be surprised if he drags you off somewhere else." James said before he stood up. I followed him back to the apartment. When I walked in I thought that my jaw was going to drop. I took in the sight in front of me.
Kendall had on a pair of skinny jeans and button up. He was absolutely gorgeous and I had to resist the urge to go wrap my arms around him and have my way with him. He had his guitar around his neck as if waiting for me.
As soon as he saw me he started strumming and singing.
Cause the world stops when I put my arms around you, around you. (oh woah)
And nothing even matters (eh)
And nothing even matters. (eh)
It's like one for the haters,
two for all of those who try to shut us down.
They don't really know.
There ain't nothing they can do that can tear us apart.
No. I don't care about the money, don't care about the clothes.
When we're together, baby, anything goes.
We don't even need to prove what we feel in our hearts. No.
This wall we built together, there ain't no way of knocking it over.
We'll be here forever, getting closer, and closer baby.
Cause the world stops when I put my arms around you, around you. (oh woah)
And nothing even matters. (eh)
And nothing even matters. (eh)
They can all talk, say what they want about us, about us. (oh woah)
And nothing even matters. (woah)
And nothing even matters. (eh)
It's like the sound goes off and the people all freeze.
They disappear and it's just you and me.
Anything you want to do, anything that you please. (oh woah no)
Forget about our problems, forget about our past.
I've seen the future and I know we're gonna last.
Every second I'm with you just goes so fast. (woah oh woah)
This wall we built together, there ain't no way of knocking it over.
We'll be here forever, that I told you, that I told you baby.
Cause the world stops when I put my arms around you, around you. (oh woah)
And nothing even matters. (eh)
And nothing even matters. (eh)
They can all talk, say what they want about us, about us. (oh woah)
And nothing even matters. (woah)
And nothing even matters. (eh)
Nothing even matters. (woah)
And nothing even matters. (woah)
We don't even need to fight.
Everything will be alright. (oh yea)
Nothing even matters, but you and I.
Cause the world stops when I put my arms around you, around you. (oh woah)
And nothing even matters, nothing even matters.
And nothing even matters. (wooaah)
They can all talk, say what they want about us, (Say what they want woooah) about us. (oh woah oh)
And nothing even matters. (woah)
And nothing even matters.
(They can take my money, take my cars. Oh woah oh woah)
Cause the world stops when I put my arms around you, around you. (oh woah)
And nothing even matters, nothing even matters.
And nothing even matters. (Baby)
They can all talk, say what they want about us, about us. (oh woah)
And nothing even matters. (woah)
And nothing even matters.
He finished strumming and smiled at me. Carlos and James were there and singing back ups while he was singing. I smiled at Kendall, they had all even made up a dance to the lyrics. I was trying to hide a laugh. Carlos and James hadn't made up the usual dance moves for it, it was a goofy one.
Kendall was looking at me with pleading eyes. "Did you write that?" I asked.
He nodded. "I've been working on it since I was in the hospital. I've written a lot of songs, but I wrote this one for you. It took me almost two months to finish it. I needed a lot of inspiration." He said with a smile.
"I loved it." I said softly. "I loved the fact that you pretty much captured everything we have been going through."
He smiled. "I was hoping you would say that. I worked really hard on this, now that this is out of the way. I wanted to ask you something." I got nervous again, he was going to ask me to be with him again. I took a deep breath. "Will you have dinner with me tonight? I have already made reservations."
I nodded. "But…James said that you were…" I started before James finally cut in.
"He got Carlos to help him, didn't you think I would be helping him too? We had a feeling you weren't ready to be with him again so we planned this." James said again.
I looked at Kendall. He had put so much thought and effort in behind everything he had done so far. I knew that I had a lot to look forward to with dinner. "Make sure you dress really nice, Logie. Oh and be ready in an hour." Kendall said before he went up and closed his door.
I looked at James and Carlos who were both smiling. "I don't know what I am going to do. I love him, I do. But I don't know if I can be with him again." I said softly.
"You can be with him, because you've practically been with him since you moved back in." Carlos said, confirming what James had said earlier. "You just have to man up and admit it to him but most of all yourself."
"Now, you have an important date, go get your ass ready!" James said with a laugh.
I nodded and ran up to the bathroom and closed the door. I turned on the water and let it run, feeling it with my hand until it was the perfect temperature. I stripped down and then stepped in. Are James and Carlos right? I have been pretty much dating Kendall again, I just need to make it official. If I can let him kiss me and cuddle with me, I should be able to be with him again. Besides…I miss Kendall more than anything in this world. I should just be with him.
But something in the back of my head was telling that I was rushing things, that I should follow my head this time, not my heart. I finally snapped out of it and started rubbing some shampoo through my hair. Then I washed my body quickly. I turned off the water and then grabbed a towel and rubbed it through my hair. I wrapped the towel around my waist and starting walking to my room.
"Ow, Ow!" I heard Carlos yell.
James was whistling at me. "Well hey there baby!" He joked.
I shot them a glare. "Shut up!" I shouted and then slammed the door to my room. I pulled out some boxers and put them on and then threw the towel in the corner. I started looking through my clothes. I opened the door. "How dressy is dressy?" I asked. "Like suit or something less dressy?"
I heard James walking up the stairs and then come in. "Here, let me pick something out for you since I know where you are going. This way you don't choose the wrong thing." He said.
"Thanks." I said softly. I was nervous. I looked at the clock, I had thirty minutes left until Kendall and I were leaving.
James set out a pair of black slacks and a belt to match. He went to the closet and started running his fingers over my shirts. "So, have you thought more about what we talked about earlier?" He asked.
"I'm still confused." I said. He nodded and then set a white shirt down, with a black tie and a black vest.
"Hold on." He sat there thinking. He took back the slacks and pulled out a dark pair of jeans instead. "Leave the shirt untucked. Its casual dressy, I'd say."
I listened to him. I looked in the mirror after I was dressed and I had to admit I did look pretty good. "You know what James, when Big Time Rush breaks up you could be a stylist." I said with a smile.
I walked out to the living room where Kendall was already sitting, ready for our date. He stood up when he saw me walking down the stairs. He was wearing dark blue jeans, a black shirt, silver tie and a black jacket to top it off. I admired his beauty for a brief moment before I walked towards him. His normal hair was actually somewhat combed back. He never combs his hair, this must be a big date.
We were in a limo heading somewhere Kendall still hadn't told me. "So how long have you been planning all this?" I asked finally.
"For about two weeks. I had this reservation made the day I thought about all of this." He said with a smirk. The limo door opened and we walked out to a restaurant named Mesa Grill. It was a new one that had opened up and Bobby Flay was the owner. I smiled at him.
"I remembering you talking about wanting to try this place out when it opened. So I thought that it would be perfect if I brought you here." I was looking at him with amazement in my eyes. "Do you like your surprise?"
I smiled. "Of course I do."
We walked in together. The hostess was there. "Reservation for Knight." Kendall said smoothly. She looked at her notebook in front of her and then grabbed two menus and instructed us to follow her.
When we sat down, our waiter came and took our drink orders. I ordered a water and Kendall ordered a coke. I was looking at the menu and everything was expensive. "Kendall…"
"Get whatever you want. Don't worry about the price, I can afford it. I promise." He said with a smile. I looked at the menu and was looking through all the things that I thought sounded good, there were so many.
"I'm really glad that you agreed to come with me tonight." Kendall said. "I was afraid you would decline and I would have to cancel our reservations."
I smiled at him. "I figured since you had put all the effort in I couldn't say no."
Our waiter was back. "Are you gentleman ready to order?" He asked.
"Yeah, I'll take the black angus new york strip steak. Medium please. And with the carrots and mashed potatoes" Kendall said with a smile.
The waiter turned his attention to me. "And I will have sixteen spice chicken and mango with the garlic sauce. And same sides as him." I said.
Our menus were taken. "That sounds good, I'm just in the mood for a steak." He said with a smile.
A half hour later our food was brought to us and I felt like my taste buds were in pure heaven. I had never tasted something so wonderful. Kendall watched me as I closed my eyes. "I'm assuming that it is good?" He asked with a smile on his face. I nodded. "Good, I am glad that you like it."
We got a poached pear buttermilk upside down cake for dessert. Kendall smiled as I savored each bite. "Thank you for bringing me here. This was amazing." I said with a smile on my face.
"I am glad that you have enjoyed yourself." The check was brought to the table and Kendall put money in it. "So, there is something I want to give you." Kendall said with a smile. He fumbled in his pocket and then pulled a ring out. "I want to give this to you. If you accept it then I will know we are back together. If not, then we aren't. But this is a promise ring. It's my promise to you that I will never hit you or cheat on you or even hurt you for that matter."
I looked at him for a few seconds. I took the ring from him and put it on my finger. It fit perfectly. "I love it." I said with a grin.
"So that means…" He said waiting for me to finish his sentence.
"This means we are back together." I said with a smile on my face.
We were back in the limo. "I'm glad you said yes. I wanted us to start dating on the same day we originally started."
"And why is that?" I asked curiously. "Is it because you are a hopeless romantic?"
He laughed before his answer. "Well yes, that is true. But also I'm horrible with dates. At least this way I will never forget our anniversary."
I laughed and then gave him a gentle kiss on his cheek.
End Chapter
A/N: So I kind of wanted to make Kendall jump through hoops to get Logan back, and I wanted to show a sweeter side to him. I hope you all enjoyed.
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