English Dreams-Chapter Five-

BPOV

-I kissed Edward with such passion it shocked me. My heart was pounding as Edward reacted to me and held me close to him, kissing me back with such force, I had to constantly remind myself to breath. Through my nose preferably. Definently preferably, considering I didn't want to ever let go.

My hands traveled to his hair and I tugged on his locks. Hard. Shivers went through me as he moaned. Oh god! How could someone's moan be so sexy? Then, again this was Edward. I felt more goosebumps travelling up my body as his hands traced lines on the sides of my stomach. Fuck.

"Edward..." I moaned, opening my mouth to give him better access and I think my heart nearly failed on me as he slipped his tongue inside my mouth and I gasped as our tongues began a sexy tango dance.

Soon, too soon he pulled away and my lips felt swollen. Shit. Edward murmured my name as my heart continued to pound loudly. Oh god. What was I thinking? This-he-I-! Fuck, this was my teacher! I couldn't...

"I'm sorry, Edward. I-I can't do this! You're my teacher, for fuck sake! I- Ohmygod! What the fuck have I done!"

By the time I was halfway through my rant at myself, I was in the middle of the room, and leaning over a table in defeat. I am SO going to hell for this. Surely. No, without a doubt I am! I groaned, my face in my hands, as I turned over and sat on the desk.

I heard footsteps coming towards me and looked up at Edward's concerned - concerned! For me! - face. I didn't deserve his symapthy! Damn, I didn't deserve that from anyone, fuck, I had just practically cheated on Jasper! That thought brought me to what Edward had said. I cleared my throat and looked at Edward properly.

"Did-did Jasper really ask me out for a-a joke?" I winced at the last word and looked down. I was such an idiot! I knew someone funny was going on when I heard Emmett and his gang laugh as I walked away.

I heard Edward sigh, and he nodded as he looked me in the eye after lifting my chin so that I would have to look him in the eyes. Woah, he had amazing eyes. I bit my lip as a blush crept up my cheeks. Oh God. Edward leaned in once more and softly kissed me. Oh Christ, help me. Why did all else fly out the window when he touched me? I couldn't ignore the way he made me feel, could I?

"Bella..." Edward whispered against my lips and the sound sent shivers straight through me. Oh god... I really needed to get a hold of myself. I ran my fingers through his hair and nodded my head, encouraging him to continue. Please, please, speak with your magnificent voice.

"Please come home with me..." Edward continued as he left trails going down my pale neck. What-? No, no, no... I can't do this, not at all, what, who would I be if I went that far? Not me, and Edward was...my teacher. I had to remember that!

Stifling my moan that was about to burst out my lips, I pushed Edward off me and stumbled backwards into the wall. I was now panting and watching Edward's face which now had the expression of hurt, confusion and 'what-the-fuck-ness' upon his beautiful face. Crap.

Swallowing the bile which had rested in my throat, I bit my lip and nodded to myself once more and took a deep breath. Come on, Swan, stop being a little pussy. Say it. Say you want him, say you need his dick in your pussy, talk!

I shook my dirty and totally truthful thoughts away and bowed my head before bringing it back up.

"Edward, I c-can't. You're my teacher. And I'm with youyour student. Nothing can happen and nothing will happen. I-I'm sorry, ok? But I like Jasper and what happens between him and me is between him and me. If we end, then we end. But that wouldn't mean that there would be an open spot for you. Dammit, I think I'm in love , I'm more than just attracted to you and there's nothing more I want than to have you fuck me. Hard. But, we can't... I wish we could! God, I REALLY wish we could, but it'd be wrong. So, so wrong. My works on the computer. I-I have to go. I'm sorry."

I bowed my head, to hide my watering eyes and grabbed my bag before making a swift exit out the door. I practically ran to the car park and I was met by Alice who smiled at me then frowned at the sight of me running with no intentions of stopping until I reached my destination: Alice.

I halted just in front of Alice and in less than a millisecond, Alice had already started talking at a high-speed. Damn, it was a really good thing I was used to her being like this already or I'd be seriously damaged. I smiled and climbed into the car while Alice rabbited on.

"Oh my God, Bella! Have you seen Jasper Hale? He is so fiit! I-hey, does he go out with anyone or something?" Alice looked at me briefly before nodding her head to "Good Girl" by Alexis Jordan which was booming through the radio.

"Yeah. Me."

I smiled meekly and looked at Alice who had the most dumbfounded expression ever and then I giggled at her.

"Shit, Bella! I'm sorry! I didn't realize that you two were- God, this is why you need to tell me things! Right, we're having a girly day tomorrow just so that we can catch up and have a good laugh while .. SHOPPING!"

You could see her face literally light up at the special 'S' word. God, how this woman become so obsessed with shopping I had no idea. Then again, she'd been wearing designer clothes since she was six months old so it was second nature to her.

"Alice, it's fine. I-I'm dumping him, anyway. You can have him. He-it's not working so... Yeah."

"Really, Bells? I dunno... Well, ok!" Jeez, this one bounced back fast. It was good that I knew she was a true friend considering we had been attached at the hip since we were three, ever since her and her mum moved to Port Angeles next door to me and my aunt Irina. Despite our total differences, we were friends for life and I couldn't imagine life without her.

I sighed and looked out the window, resting my face on the palm off my hand. I barely said anything as Alice babbled about the day, moaning about having a mininum of two weeks to create a new outfit for her fashion assessment, laughing about Mike Newton who was a total dork and of course swooning about Jasper. I smiled at her. I really didn't care anymore. But of course, it was inevitable that I would think about Edward, about how I felt with his arms around me and his lips on mine.

I shake my head for the thousandth time that day and try to get those images out of my head. I really don't need those images. Not now. I hug Alice briefly as she pulls up outside my house and we do our special handshake. Boom, boom, boosh! Despite it all, we both giggle and I run to the front door.

"Don't forget about tomorrow Bells! Shopping, woot woot! I'll call you, you better be ready for half nine or else bitch!" I laugh and nod as she drives away with her stereo blasting Jessie J's song, "Do It Like A Dude". Damn, she loved that song.

I let myself into my house and drop my bag at the bottom of the stairs, then plopped down on the couch. I groan and lean my head back onto the soft cushions. Fuck. No wonder I had a bad head. I glanced at my phone and bit my lip with guilt. Jasper.

I dialled his number and winced at the happy tone of his voice. He didn't like you anyway, remember Bella? I arranged for him to come over in five minutes. I didn't want to end it in a text. I knew how much that hurt oh so well.

Within minutes, there was a knock at the door and I sighed heavily, keeping back the tears at what was going to happen. I opened the door and smiled at Jasper who walked in, pulling me in for a hug. I bit my lip and pushed him away as I shut the door.

"Bella? Are you ok? You seem...weird." A frown was playing on his forehead and I wanted to kiss away the crease that had formed between his eyebrows but that was the last thing I should be doing right now.

"Jasper, I-it's...over. I know you asked me out to prove that you didn't want Rose to Emmett. Ok? I really like you, I do, but I don't want to get hurt. I just..."

My voice faded away and I looked down after glancing at Jasper's face which now had an expression of surprise and mild shock to it. Oh god. What was he going to say? What was-? My thoughts were interrupted when his warm arms enveloped me into a hug. I sighed deeply, and gave in letting myself be hugged.

"Bella, I'm sorry, ok? I don't want to hurt you either, and it was just for a dare and I hate to be cliche but ever since our first date I've begun to fall for you a bit. But whatever, it's for the best, right? Friends, yeah? Anyway, your mate, Alice? Hell, girl..."

I laughed and looked up at him and his smirk that was playing on his lips. Such a guy.

"You are such a guy!"

"Hey, better than be a woman in secret, coz that would then make you a lesbian. Ah, Bella, see? Not so smart, are ya?"

Jasper winked and I laughed.

"I'll get some beers. Sit on the couch. I need to relax some tension..."

Jasper gave me a suggesting look and I flushed bright red when I realized what he meant.

"OhMyGod, Jasper! No! A massage would be nice, no?"

Jasper laughed and winked at me.

"Ok, but if things progress from a simple massage because you seduce me, then just remember you asked for it!"

I rolled my eyes and winked at him before going to grab some beers. Thank god things turned out the way they had. I'm glad I have Jasper.

I plopped down on the seats inside Burger King that me and Alice had found. It was now half two and I was starving. Shopping with Alice was hard work. It was a week since I had broke up with Jasper that we came to the mall to some shopping because Alice had to cram for a test last weekend so it was postponed til now. The week was hard, trying to ignore Edward and despite the looks he gave me which screamed "I want you so fucking badly", he seemed to semi-ignore me.

"Ok, Bells, spill. I know Jasper is your ex, but are you sure that it's ok for me to make a move on him? I mean... Ok, truthfully...? I don't like him anymore. There's this guy, Jackson. A new one in my catering class and he is daamn hot, plus we are kinda going out, yeah? Ah! What a man!"

I laughed and rolled my eyes. Me and Jasper were on good terms and hung out every other night at either mine or his place. His place wasn't that bad and he was such good fun, but him critizing everything I watched on TV was annoying. BUT his massages were AMAZING.

"Alice, it's fine! We're just friends now, ok? Jackson Stewart? Wow. He is hot!" I laughed.

But it was shortlived when I saw something. Someone. Him. It was Edward.

Fuck.

A/N

Again, this chappie is very much dedicated to my beautiful English Dreams obssessive who keeps threatening me with a shovel to complete the chappies: Veddy. The one and only... LOL

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