Heh heh… Soooo, yeah… I done goofed. Well, not really. I just got incredibly busy and didn't have time to update. I've had this chapter written for a while, but never typed it up. Wait… So I guess I did goof… :I

I'm sorry! I hate having to wait for my favorite stories to update! Wow, that sounded uppity. I'm not saying that this story joins the ranks of the many other ones that are amazing, I'm just saying… You know what? Nevermind. I keep digging myself into a deeper hole. Please, loving readers, find it in your heart to forgive me! Please!

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Alright. Enough from me. Here you go.

Our lips whispered against each others and our fingers were tangled in hair. Jasper moaned in my mouth and I took the opportunity to deepen the kiss. His mouth tasted like blood and cinnamon. New memories clashed with ones from my past, when I ate toast with cinnamon sugar, watched my mother take a pinch of the spice and put it in her famous apple pie and enjoyed a bowl of cinnamon ice cream on a hot summer day in Chicago. They melted with memories of my first hunt as a vampire, tackling a majestic buck, tasting mountain lion for the first time. But above everything else, my thoughts swirled around Jasper. My senses were overloaded with everything that was the golden haired man I was currently kissing. He tightened his grip in my hair and yanked my head back so he could lick along my jaw and neck. I gasped and shivered, never wanting him to stop. Jasper chuckled and kissed the sensitive flesh at my neck's juncture before speaking again.

"Are you okay now? Do you want to talk about anything?"

I sighed and pulled his face up to mine. I placed light kisses on his full lips and whispered, "I'd rather just do this."

He kissed me back a few times more, but pulled back.

"Edward," he said sadly. "Will you talk to me about why you were so upset? I felt everything you did, and I feel so powerless as to how to help you. Please. Please,

Edward. I can't stand you being in pain."

"You're helping me right now," I whisper, folded him into my chest, his face nestled against my throat. His fragrant breath tickled the electrified skin there. He let his mind wander, mostly dwelling on my agony and then turned to the events preceding him coming here.

Fuck… What am I going to do about Alice? I need her to sign the divorce papers…

"You and Alice are getting a divorce?" I yell.

"Um, well, I want to… she won't sign the damn papers…"

My still heart shattered. I was tearing the family apart. I was an awful excuse for an existence. My stomach lurched and I felt like I would be sick. Jasper grabbed my face and forced me to look him in the eyes.

"Edward, you didn't do anything! I don't love Alice. I have never loved Alice. I've never felt anything for her other than indebt to her for finding and saving me." He sighed loudly and closed his eyes sadly. "Before she found me, I was contemplating suicide. I was going to see the Volturi and beg them to end my life."

"Jasper! How could-? Why would-? I… I…" I couldn't finish my sentence. My chest burned at the thought of not having him in my life. How he could've died before I had even met him. He placed a hand on my face and sent me a wave of calm.

"Edward, I'm happy now. Do you know why that is?"

I shook my head. He raised an eyebrow.

You.

I stiffened, and Jasper's face contorted into fear.

Oh God! I fucked up! Shitshitshitshit!

"Edward, I'm so-"

I rammed my mouth onto his. It took him a second to respond, but he finally relaxed and reciprocated with unrivaled fervor. Teeth tugged at lips and tongues crashed against another. The need for another sexual release was tangible. Jasper pushed me to my back, splashing mud and rain onto both of us. He straddled my waist, never leaving my lips. The air around us crackled and sparked and was filled with the sounds of passion. Jasper moved his hips in slow circles, eliciting such sweet torture on my body. Soon, it became too much to bear. Utilizing my vampire speed and strength, I knocked Jasper to his back and leaped on top of him before he could register it. I licked and sucked on his neck, drawing unabated growls from him. I palmed his erection through his dirt covered jeans before replacing my hand with my own groin. Jasper practically roared, and I could tell he was as close as I was.

"Sh-shit… E-Edward! Gonna… Oh god… I'm gonna-"

I silenced him and swallowed his moans as he came. I came not a half second later and we road the waves of ecstasy together. We panted unnecessarily and breathed through each other.

"Ungh… Edward… I lo-"

Our eyes flew open and suddenly I was airborne. I flipped and landed on the balls of my feet. Jasper was nowhere to be found. He almost said it. Those three words… Three words that could change absolutely everything.

Three words. Three syllables. Three pauses:

I love you.

I didn't know what to do. I sure as hell wasn't going back home, though, I did need clean clothes. Mine were soaked with mud and rain. In fact, I was absolutely filthy. My head whipped back and forth, searching for Jasper.

"Jazz?" I whispered.

Silence answered me.

My shoulders slumped and I looked wistfully at the ground. The area where we were lying was very muddy, the grass pulled out in some places due to the intense friction. It was a giant mud pit and I cringed at the thought of just how ruined my clothes were.

Shit… Can't believe I almost said that…

Hearing his thoughts, my head whipped to gaze at the edge of the clearing.

"Jasper?" I say again, this time louder.

"Um, yeah… Just had to get us some clean clothes…"

Fucking wet shit… Clings to him the right way… Turning me on again.

He emerged from the shadowy trees. The sky was dark blue, getting progressively darker. The stars shimmered brightly and reflected in Jasper's fluid amber eyes. I melted a bit on the inside at the sight of his perfect face. I noted that he was wearing a different outfit already and avoided my gaze as he handed me mine. I thanked him and went to a thicket of trees to change. Even if I wasn't a mind reader, I would've felt his stare on my back. But, I was myself retreating through his thoughts, particularly the way my pants clung to my rear. Smiling to myself, I tried to find a place where he wouldn't see me undress. I was slightly self conscious. A quick scan through his thoughts told me that I was hidden. I finished quickly and went back to him. He looked me up and down, a small smile playing on his lips.

Damn… I miss the way the wet clothes stuck to his body.

I was very glad I could no longer blush.

"So…" I rocked back and forth on my feet.

"So," he repeated.

We looked everywhere but each other. Jasper exhaled loudly and groaned. I peered at his through my lashes to see a pained expression on his face and his hands buried in his muddy curls. My stomach lurched and I had an unbearable desire to touch him. My hand went to the back of his neck.

"Why are you…?"

He squeezed his eyes shut and said, "Can we just forget what I almost said earlier? Please?"

He opened one eye hesitantly, so I nodded.

"Thanks," he breathed. "So, um, do you want to talk about why you practically killed me earlier? Your sadness and rage… It almost choked me."

I pinched the bridge of my nose before beginning.

"Well, I went to see Bella…"

Damn bitch.

"I must've been ignoring her or something, because she was kind of anxious and upset. She started to cry and I got flustered, so I kissed her."

"Doesn't sound like you had a problem," Jasper all but snarled.

"Let me finish. So, I kissed her, but I kept getting frustrated, because it didn't feel right. I guess I lapsed in control, because I ended up ripping some of her hair out and kissed her so hard that she cut her lip on one of her teeth. " I buried my face in my hands and mumbled, "I'm a fucking monster."

Jasper's soft, yet strong, hands tugged at my wrists. I resisted, but ultimately, he was able to pull them away. He was much stronger than me. He clasped my face between his hands. Mine were wrapped around his wrists.

"Edward. You are not a monster," he whispered, looking deeply into my eyes.

"Yes I am!" I snarled.

His grip tightened on my face. "Edward, no you are not. A monster is not kind, loving, passionate or caring. You are. Edward, it was an accident. They happen to everyone."

"Yeah, but I could've killed her! I could've tasted her blood and drained her!" Thoughts of what I COULD have done swirled around in my head, and I thought of the thousand other ways the day could've ended tragically.

"But you didn't. And there are so many things that could have killed her. The van? James? Me? Anytime she comes over, it's hard for me not to kill her."

I looked into his vacuum eyes. They swirled like melted butterscotch. He was completely sincere. We stayed silent and looked into the others' eyes.

Jasper spoke softly. "Maybe we should go. You know, just get away from all this stress."

He brought his face closer to mine and kissed my forehead before speaking again.

"I want to run away with you, Edward."

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