Author's note: So I got a lot of review asking for some Pucktana so I added a little bit in this chapter. There will be more to come as I try to please everyone. If you have any ideas or suggestions for the next chapter, please let me know when you review! Happy reading :D DON'T OWN GLEE!
"Hey San, can I talk to you for a minute?" I asked the next morning. We both figured we'd make breakfast while Rachel slept in, she had been tossing and turning all night.
"Sure what's up?" she asked.
"I just wanted to give you a real honest apology for what happened. The last thing I wanted was to hurt her and you know that. I know she says she's okay with the situation, but I know she's gotta be pissed. I basically ripped her dreams out from underneath her. I mean you and I graduate in a couple months, but Rach still has two more years to go. How is she gonna finish school with a 2 year old on her hip?" I asked.
"We're going to help her" she said simply. "Look, Puck I know you don't want to hear this, but I seriously think you guys should look into adoption" she said.
"No" came a low voice.
We both whipped our heads around to find Rachel standing in the doorway in my shirt and Santanna's Cheerios shorts. "I'm keeping my baby" she said making her way over to sit in my lap.
"Will you at least think about it? This is going to change your entire life baby" Santanna said reaching for Rachel's hand.
"No I won't. This is my baby Santanna. I'm it's mother and Noah is it's father. I won't let someone else raise my child and let them think that I never wanted them. I know more than anyone how that feels, why can't you just understand that?" she asked wiping the tears from her eyes.
"Santanna just let it go. This is Rachel's choice and I'm supporting her no matter what" I said, kissing her on the head.
"That's only because you knocked her up at 16" she snapped at me.
At this point Rachel was sobbing into my chest and I had no idea how to make this better.
"Babe look at me" I said wiping her eyes and tilting her chin towards me. "Tell me why you're upset right now" I said rocking her back and forth.
"I want you to be happy for us" she said to Santanna. "You said we were a family and that you loved me and now you're going against everything you said. Do you really think I'll be that terrible as a mother that I should just give my baby away?" she cried.
"Baby, that's not it at all" she said reaching for her again.
"Then what is it Santanna?" she sniffled.
"I'm jealous" Santanna said so quietly, I almost didn't hear her.
"What?" I asked, almost dropping Rachel on the floor.
"You two are going to have some kind of special bond through that baby and I'll be left out" she explained.
"Babe can I talk to Santanna alone?" I asked Rachel as I unwrapped my arms and kissed her before she nodded and walked into the bedroom. I rubbed my hand over the back of my neck, hoping to relieve some pressure.
"What don't you understand about the fact that we love you?" I asked.
"We?" she asked quietly.
"Fuck San, yes we as in me and Rachel. We've been together almost everyday for the past two months, did you think I wasn't gonna fall in love with you too? You're more than just my best friend and you know it. I believed we could have never be anything before, but after this whole baby drama thing, I realized I was wrong. I would never leave you behind or make you fell unwanted" I said wrapping her in my arms.
"I know, but I just can't help but think that she loves you more. You're the one that holds her at night and she always runs to you for comfort and that upsets me. It makes me feel left out" she said into my chest.
"Santanna, I had no idea you felt that way" I said forcing her head up to look at me.
"Well I do, and it doesn't matter how much I love you guys, I just can't shake that feeling" she said with tears in her eyes.
"Santanna, I love you" I said, pressing my lips against hers. I could relate to what she was feeling. No one likes to see the person they love run to someone else for comfort.
"I love you too" she mumbled against my lips.
"Oh my god" Rachel gasped.
We quickly jumped apart. This could not be good.
"Babe, listen we just got caught up in the moment. It won't happen again" I swore.
"Oh that's too bad, I was kinda hoping it would" she said walking towards us.
"What?" I asked. I was so sure she'd be pissed.
"Seeing the two people you love the most loving each other is really important to me. I was hoping you two would fall in love as well. Besides, that kiss really turned me on" she said running her hands down both of our chests.
"You see what you created" Santanna smirked, kissing Rachel hard on the lips.
"If I recall, this was your idea" I said, sucking on Rachel's neck.
"Yea, but you dated her first" she shot back.
"Would you just shut up and kiss each other!" Rachel yelled a she pushed us together.
Many orgasms later we collapsed on the floor in a sweaty heap.
"Wow" Rachel gasped.
"Yea, wow" Santanna agreed.
"Damn I love you guys" I said, pulling Rachel into my chest while Santanna took her usual position behind her.
"So what are we gonna do for the rest of the day?" Rachel asked.
"Actually I was thinking we should-" I was cut off by Santanna.
"Rachel you need to tell you dads about the baby" Santanna said quickly and sternly.
"I know" she said slowly. "But don't you think we should wait a little longer?' she asked.
"Baby you're already 8 weeks along and you're going to get bigger and bigger. The doctor said you would be showing in no less than a couple days based on your size, how long do you wanna wait?" she asked.
"Just one more month. Let's just wait until I start my second trimester" she begged.
"And what are you gonna do when people start to figure things out. You puke every day during lunch, you're extremely emotional, you're falling asleep in class, and Quinn's already on your ass for gaining a few pounds" Santanna said.
"Look just chill San. How 'bout we tell my mom first and then we'll wait awhile and see what happens. How's that sound babe?" I asked rubbing her belly. It still amazed me that there was a kid in there. On that I made and was part me. Quinn never let me be involved in anything when she was pregnant so I was determine to get the most out of this pregnancy. I wanted to know my kid.
"You would do that for me?" she asked.
"Course, you're my baby mama" I said, bending down to kiss her bellybutton.
"Are we going today?" she asked.
"Don't see why not" I said.
"Are you coming Santanna?" she asked.
"No baby, I'm not. I think this is something you and Puck need to handle on your own, besides Puck's mom hates me" she said.
"That's true" I said.
"Why don't you two go take a shower and get ready. I'll go get us some dinner and a couple movies so when you guys come back, we can relax" she said placing her hand on top of mine on Rachel's belly.
"Can you get ice cream?" Rachel asked.
"Yes I can, anything else baby?" she asked.
"No, but I want double chocolate chunk" she said, kissing Santanna on the lips before dragging me to the bathroom.
"See ya later" I said, kissing San one last time.
I was happy that we were all comfortable with what the direction our relationship was taking. That was the first time I had touched her while I was making love to Rachel. I wasn't really sure how far she would let me go, so I stuck to rubbing and kissing and it worked out fine.
"What are you thinking about?" Rachel asked as I pushed her under the water.
"You" I said kissing her lips. "And our baby" I added, kissing her belly.
"Are you really okay with keeping the baby Noah?" she asked.
"Hell yea. I was going to get on my hands and knees and beg, if you decided on anything thing else" I said.
"Was it hard to give up Beth?" she asked rubbing my arms in a way that made me feel all tingly inside.
"Yes and no" I answered. "Yes because she was mine. I helped make her and I promised to protect her and then she was taken away." I explained. "But then it also wasn't hard because I wasn't in love with Quinn. We would have fought all the time and been terrible parents. I wanted to do what was right for my daughter" I said, rubbing circles over the baby.
"You would have been a great father Noah" she said, kissing me softly.
"I know, but not with Quinn. But me and you, we're gonna be great parents. Between me, you, and Santanna this kid is going to be beyond spoiled" I said.
"You think we can do this?" she asked wrapping her hands around my neck.
"Of course we can" I said.
"No, I mean without help from our parents" she said.
"Yea..why do you think we'll be on our own?" I asked. I knew my mom would be pissed when she found out, but she'd be so happy about her Jewish grandchild she'd probably suffocate it.
"I don't think my dads are going to be okay with this" she said softly.
"Why do you think that? Sure, they'll be disappointed but no one wants their kids to become parents in their teens, but I don't think there gonna hate you or anything. They worship you like the air they breathe babe" I said kissing her lips.
"Noah my dads have trusted me with everything. They've given me anything I've ever wanted and supported me my entire life and they only ask one thing of me and that's to respect their morals and not have sex until marriage. If I tell them I'm pregnant then they'll know I've been having sex and that I've been dating you behind their backs and they'll never trust me again" she said lowly.
"Babe, I know I'm not your dads biggest fan with the whole slushy thing freshman year, but I highly doubt they'll be unwilling to accept you" I said.
"I hope your right Noah, I seriously hope your right" she said sadly.
"Babe, even if I'm wrong we're still gonna make this work. No matter what we got each other, and Santanna, and in a few months we'll have our baby" I said kissing her roughly. I hated that she was feeling so insecure about telling her dads.
"You're right. I know we'll get through this" she said kissing me back. "What do you want the baby to be?" she asked rubbing her hand over my chest.
"Hmm a boy would be sweet that way I could teach him to be all badass and stuff, but then again I kinda want a girl. A little daddy's girl you know? Cause her mommies will drive her crazy when you fuss over her and she'll come running to me. Yea, I wanna girl, I wouldn't have to even worry about her dating some loser or anything cause Santanna would probably rip their balls off before they even got outta the car. Yep we're gonna have a girl" I said smiling and rubbing the hard spot on her belly.
"Hmm..I honestly don't care what it is, as long as it doesn't have my nose" she said burying her face in my neck.
"I love your nose, how many times do I have to tell you that? It's what makes you special" I said kissing all around her nose.
"I love you" she said pressing her lips hard against mine.
The kiss turned passionate and after a few minutes her hand was wrapped around my dick and my fingers were pumping in and out of her.
"Noah..please" she moaned in my ear.
"What Rach, tell me what you want" I whispered as I curled my fingers, rubbing quickly on the rough patch inside her.
"There!..Oh god" she yelled, throwing her head back as she climaxed.
I didn't waste anytime getting inside her because I was seriously about to explode. I quickly wrapped her leg around my waist, backed her into the wall, and pushed into her tight channel.
"Fuck you're tight" I groaned.
"mm..Noah..please I need more" she gasped.
"S'that good?" I asked rubbing my hand over her swollen clit while I pumped into her.
"Yes!" she yelled as she came again, dragging me along with her a few seconds later.
"You ready to tell your mom?" she asked, once she could breathe normally.
"Yea, I actually think she'll be happy after she gets over the initial shock" I said reaching for the soap.
An hour later we were kissing Santanna goodbye and pulling into my driveway.
"Hey Ma" I said as opened the door. "Sup shortie?" I asked my little sister, ruffling her hair.
"Hi honey" she said, "did you have a good time at practice?" she asked. Yea, she thought I was at practice this Saturday and every Friday night I was supposed to be at Mike's house.
"Uh, yea. Look Ma can I talk to you for a minute?" I asked grabbing Rachel's purse and setting it down.
"Oh my goodness, Rachel! I haven't seen you in ages" she exclaimed throwing her arms around her. "How have you been honey?" she asked in a motherly voice.
"I've been better" Rachel said, returning the hug.
"I hope my son has been treating you well" she said giving me an evil eye.
"Oh yes Ms. Puckerman, he's been a wonderful boyfriend" she said.
"Oh well, that's great. Are you guys hungry? I was just about to serve lunch, how does baked macaroni and cheese sound?" she asked.
"That sounds delicious, I'm actually really hungry" Rachel said.
"Alright, go have a seat and I'll get it out of the oven" she said, pushing us towards the couch.
"Well so far so good" I said, pulling her down in my lap.
"Yea, I can't wait for lunch. I'm starving" she said.
"That's because you threw up your breakfast" I pointed out.
"Oh" she giggled.
"You're so cute, you know that?" I asked squeezing her tight.
"If you say so" she said quietly.
"Alright, are you guys ready to eat?" my mom asked, busting into the room.
"Yea Ma" I said trying to get Rachel to sit a little while longer before she practically jumped outta my lap.
"This smells delicious Ms. Puckerman" Rachel said, dragging me to the table.
"So how are things working out between you two and Santanna?" she asked.
"They're great" I said. "We've become closer than ever". It was true, this baby was bringing us closer together.
"That's good. You know I wasn't so sure about this relationship in the beginning, but now I'm really glad you guys are there for each other. It's like you have your own support system" she said.
"Uh..yea" I said. She had no ideal how much support we would really need in a few months.
"Rachel honey what's wrong, don't you like the noodles?" my mom asked.
"Uh..no that's not it at all, I'm just feeling a little sick that's all" Rachel said, taking noticeable deep breaths through her nose.
"Are you sure dear, you look a little green?" she asked before Rachel jumped up and sprinted to the bathroom with her hand over her mouth.
"Noah, is she okay?" my mom asked me.
"Yea, Ma she's perfectly fine" I said, filling up a glass of water and heading after her to the bathroom.
"Noah please tell me it's not what I think it is" she said shaking her head.
"That depends on what you're thinking" I said, taking off after Rach, but not before I heard her whisper "please god, tell me she's not".
"You okay?" I asked, pulling her hair out of the way, while she dry heaved into the toilet.
"Yea, I guess the baby doesn't like mac and cheese" she said sipping the water.
"Rach, this is insane you're not keeping anything down" I said, rubbing her back.
"I just haven't found anything that he or she likes yet, that's all" she said rubbing her belly.
"Rach, I think it's more than that. When's you next appointment?" I asked.
"4 weeks, it'll be our first ultrasound" she said excitedly.
"Maybe we should let the doctor know" I said.
"Morning sickness is completely normal in the first trimester Noah" she said, standing up.
"Yea but gaining weight and then loosing it almost instantly is not" I said. It seemed like every pound Rachel put on would go straight to her middle and the rest she would loose when she threw up.
"I'm fine, now let's go before your mother really starts worrying" she said flinging open the door.
As soon as we opened the door ,my mom was standing outside motioning for us to follow her to the living room. As she sat down on the couch I tried to read her face. She looked disappointed, concerned, happy, and mad at the same time.
"Look Ma, it's completely my fault" I said as I pulled Rachel into my lap. "I was being stupid and forgot to use protection".
"And as a result?" she asked, looking me dead in the eyes.
"Rachel's pregnant and we're keeping the baby" I said confidently.
"Oh Noah, how could you let this happen again?" she asked in a hurt tone.
"It wasn't his fault, I was aware of the consequences when I decided to become sexually involved with Noah. I love him very much and I love my baby and I know we can make this work" Rachel said, lacing her fingers with mine.
"Are you sure you're going to keep this child?" she asked.
"Yes" we both said in unison.
"Well then congratulations" she said happily. "Just to clarify, this child will be raised Jewish correct?" she asked.
"Of course" Rachel said smiling.
"That's all I ask" she said, pulling Rachel into a hug.
"You're not upset" I asked.
"No honestly I am not. You've been through this before and I know how much it has changed you. I've also noticed how much you've changed in the last two months and I know you two will be responsible adults and take care of your child. I'll be there if and when you need me" she answered.
"Thank you so much Ms. Puckerman you have no idea how much this means to me" Rachel cried into her shirt.
"Oh hush dear, it's what Grandmas are for" she said. "So when can I be expecting my grandchild?" she asked.
"Well Rach is around 8 weeks, so in about 7 months, around February" I said proudly.
"Oh well we have plenty of time, do you know where you'll live?" she asked.
"I haven't told my dads yet, but I have a feeling when I do, I won't be living there very much longer" Rachel replied.
"Oh honey, you know you're always welcome here" My mom said, giving us our last hugs goodbye.
"Thanks Ma" I said kissing her on the cheek.
"For what?" she asked.
"For being so supportive. Rachel is feeling really insecure about this pregnancy and your help means the world to us right now. I love you" I said sincerely.
"I love you too, I wish you could get your head on straight sometimes, but I'm extremely proud of the man you've become Noah" she said kissing me and handing me Rachel's uneaten mac and cheese.
"She'll be hungry later" she said simply. I guess she would know better than me.
On the way back to Santanna's, Rachel spent the entire time babbling and passed out after she had eaten the entire carton of ice cream and all of the lac and cheese. By the time I had gotten her into her own bed, it was only 9:00 and I was too bored to go home, so I decided to get to know my kid.
"Hey you" I said rubbing her belly. It wasn't very big at all, but it was slightly rounded and very hard underneath her bellybutton. "I'm your daddy and I'm gonna make sure you're the most badass kid there is. I'm gonna teach you how to be cool and studly and the most awesome kid ever. Your mommy Rachel is gonna teach you all about feelings and shit and she'll probably make you listen to musicals, but she'll make you a good person I promise, she's the one that's carrying you. But your momma, Santanna is gonna teach you how to kick someone's ass and how to stand up for yourself" I said rubbing circles around the hard spot before giving it a quick kiss and ducking back out the window.