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Bella POV
I had just arrived at Edwards house when he suddenly appeared in front of the driver door with probably the biggest smile I have ever seen on his face. I couldn't stop myself from giggling at his expression.
"Why are you smiling so big?"
"It's a surprise my love." I thought I saw his grin change to what looked like an evil smirk... did I imagine that? He turned around and his usual lovely smile was there. I must be more tired than I thought. I smiled at him, he held out his hand for me and we made our way into the house. I wonder why he's so happy. Oh God, I hope he didn't get me any presents, he knows that I hate when people get me anything let alone him. His gifts are always so extravagant. I mean I understand that he has a lot of money, especially with Alice around to predict the stock market, but I don't like him spending any of it on me. But of course thats never stopped Edward before, hes always seemed to do the complete opposite of what I want. Although its annoying as hell I can't seem to be pissed at him for long. I've always found it wierd how I can be completely and utterly angry at him, but yet somehow later feel like I was being stupid for ever feeling anything other than love for this perfect being next to me. I guess it's true what they say, you can never stay too angry at your soul mate. I love him so much... I do, don't I? Of course I do... Jeez what's wrong with me today. I need to clear my head, I'm with Edward, I shouldn't be thinking things like that.
Just as we walked into his house he looked into my eyes, his own eyes slowly change from their beautiful honey color to grey with gold flecks in them... 'mesmerizing, absolutely breath taking'... my brain starts feeling a little pressure and a haziness comes over me... 'he is everything to you, without him there is no reason to exist'... He is the only thing in my world, I never want to lose him. My life is nothing without him... 'you would do anything to keep him'... yes I would do anything... My body hums with love and devotion, I felt myself leaning in towards him to kiss him, but he put his finger on my lips to stop me.
"Do you love me Bella?"
His question took me by surprise, I shook my head to clear it of the strange hazy feeling. I put my hand on the wall to balance myself... what's with me today? I shake my head again, this time his question registers. What the fuck? Did he seriously just stop what could have been a great kiss just to ask me if I loved him? Have I not told him over and over that he was my world, that I love him all my heart? If I'm not mistaken, I believe everything I have said and done for him should prove that I love him.
I didn't say anything and just continued to stare at him. I wonder what was going on with him.
He must have taken my silence the wrong way because he released my hands from his, and turned his back on me walking towards the living room. I just stood there confused as to what just happened. What the hell, I came here to be comforted and instead I get what I'm guessing is now the silent treatment.
I guess I should try and fix this. Sighing I walked the rest of the way to the living room finding Edward on the couch flipping a little black box around in his hand. My eyes got wide. Oh no, please no. That can't be what I think it is. Please tell me thats not what I think it is...
Edwards POV
As we were walking to my door I began to think about some of the conversation that I had with Jasper...
"Edward, you and I both know that she doesn't love you for you, in fact the only reason that she even thinks that she might love you is because you continuously glamour her. To be quite honest with you I don't even think that you love her for that matter. I think you only love to glamour her what with her being your singer and all I don't think that you want her to go anywhere. With the glamouring you can keep her near you without dealing with true emotions..."
He was right, I did love to glamour her, but I also love her. Bella was my world, she's my everything, and I was not about to let my asshole of a brother take her away from me.
Just as we entered the house I turned Bella to me and stared deep into her eyes, I needed her to love me, if glamouring her was the only way for that to happen then thats what I'll do. As I began to glamour her she started to lean in for a kiss, but I put my finger on her lips to stop her. I couldn't kiss her, not now, I needed to ask her something, and I needed her to say yes.
"Do you love me Bella?"
She pulls away from me, breaking my glamour gaze, shaking her head. Her silence surprisingly doesn't break my dead heart, in fact there is no feeling except the incessant need to make her mine. I leave her to her thoughts, this would be one of the many times that her silent mind annoys me thoroughly. I wish I knew what she was thinking, usually I welcome the silence but on important days like today all it does is make my skin crawl with annoyance. I look down and notice that my hands have balled up into fists due to the slight tremors coursing through my body. If she is ever to be mine I have to maintain control, her scent, her blood, everything about her, my singer, calls to me. She will be mine, there is no other reason for her being my singer, my forbidden fruit if I cannot have her. I will not allow her to be anyone elses.
I take a deep breath, then another, and another... good, I'm calm enough to sit down and wait. Although unnecessary deep breathing is useful to relieve some stress. I reach into my pocket and pull out the little black box smiling to myself. This will work, if I have to glamour her in the end I will. She will be none the wiser, it's for her own good. She's never been one to truly know what she wants, I just help her along. Jasper has no idea what it's like being with a human, they are so fickle and indecisive. So what if I glamour her and enjoy it, no harm no foul. She always ends up happy with the end result.
I hear her walking into the living room, but keep toying around with the little black box. Her footsteps stopped a couple of feet away from me and I figured that she'd seen it.
"Edward?... What is that... in your hand?"
I slowly get up and walk torwards her while holding the box tightly in my hand. This is it this is my moment to prove my love for her, not some glamour infatuation.
"I love you Bella, and I want to be with you forever. I really hope you feel the same way." I kneeled down on one knee, "Isabella Marie Swan will you marry me?"
Her eyes widened, and she tries to speak but nothing came out. She clears her throat and takes a couple of breaths before finally answering.
"Edward I love you with all my heart, but I'm sorry I can't marry you..."
I stared at her and started to get up, keeping my eyes on her the entire time. The anger starts building back up again, along with another emotion that hasn't reared its ugly head against her in a while... hate... This human is toying with me it seems... NO she's not. She just needs a little push...
"Your screwin' with me right? If you love me then why not marry me? Am I not the one for you? Do you love someone else?", I could feel the anger pulsing through my body. She was supposed to love me, even without the glamour. She was supposed to say yes! What's happening? This wasn't the plan!
"Edward, I do love you, you know that. But I don't want to marry you. You know that I hate the institution of marriage, I told you that when you brought it up last time. I'm happy that you love me enough to want to marry me but... I'm not quite sure I feel the same way. Please don't take this the wrong way. I want to be with you more than anything in the world, but marriage? That's one step I'm not ready for and I hope you accept my decision. Just leave things the way they are." She smiled and stepped closer filling in the space between us, "Why can't we just be together the way we are now? You know we are going to be together forever, so why bring marriage into it? We love each other, isn't that all that should matter in the end?"
She kissed my lips, but I didn't kiss her back.
"Dammit Edward! What's wrong with you! I'm trying to kiss you and you just stand there like a fucking statue!"
An irritated huff escaped my lips.
"You know what's wrong with me Bella so stop acting stupid.", I gave her a hard look. I noticed that the slight fog from the glamour disappearing her pupils begin to clear... Shit! She must be more angry than I thought... Fuck!... Alice warned me that if an emotion is strong it will over-ride the glamour... It's only happened once before with her, I didn't think it would happen again.
"You know what Edward this is bullshit! I didn't come here to be scrutinized just because I'm not doing what you want! It always has to be about you doesnt it? Because apparently if its not then you get pissed off and act like a fucking child! I'm so sick of this! I'm so sick of YOU! You act like you own me but you don't! You're so controlling and demanding! I can't go one day without you making MY decisions, or telling me that you are doing it all for MY own good! I wish you would act like my boyfriend instead of my goddamn father!"
Her tone and her words clicked something inside me, something that has been dormant since I chose to be with her. I closed the space between us, my face an inch away from hers,"Who do you think you are talking to? I hope you remember that I could kill you in a second, snap that tempting, pale neck like a twig. Do not EVER take that tone with me again. I highly recommend you talk to me with respect. Is that understood?"
She was silent for a moment then gave me a challenging smirk, "Oh yeah? What are you going to do exactly? Sparkle me to death?," I stared her down, attempting to fight the urge to sink my teeth into her neck. I couldn't do that to her, I wouldn't. I need to stop my tremors, they are getting worse. Her blood calling to me is not making the situation easier, I can smell her fear, her anger, it's causing the venom to pool in my mouth. She inhales deeply and steps back away from me, "I think that this is a sign that we need a break. I will not be forced into a marriage that I do not want. I will not stand here and have you threaten and belittle me. A part of me has no idea why I never noticed your possessiveness getting worse. I love you Edward, I really truly do, but I can't do this. Not now, I need some time. You want something from me that I'm not wanting to give, and I don't know if I will ever be ready for marriage."
Not ready for marriage? A break? She has to be joking. Shes mine, and only mine. Nobody elses. This is NOT how today is going to end. She will be mine again, I don't care what I have to do to get her, but she must be out of her mind if she thinks she can just walk away from me. Fuck this, all the pretending, all the fake smiles, shes mine. I feel all my anger rushing through me, I hate that she can do this to me, I hate that the fucking glamour wears off, most of all I hate her. No matter how much I may hate her, she is my singer, I will make her see reason. She will NOT leave me.
I suddenly appear in front of her, her surprised look amuses me, before she can speak I grab her by her arms roughly and force her against the wall. Her fear becomes more potent overcoming my senses, delicious. I will not taste her though, not yet. I begin to glamour her, pushing my will through her mind, that powerful yet weak mind... fickle human... she will learn though.
I feel a new presence in the room, before my senses can pick up who it is I feel an unbelievably strong force rip me away from Bella. My body get slammed into the floor and all I see are hard, granite fists flying at my face hitting me at a fast pace. The blurriness from my eyes clears only momentarily... Jasper?