Authors Note: I am so sorry that I been a horrible person and not update in forever. I hope this makes up for it.
Disclaimer is i sadly don't own swac :(
Chapter 5
Here I was alone at last. Tawni said she had to a date with hot European from the foam party we went to last week. It was then Chad and I left at Einstein's until he said he had to go do something leaving me alone at the table. I have been a little off these past few days, James and I have been fighting a lot. Last week I told him that I thought it was best we went on a break to clear our heads. Now here I am back in my room finally alone and able to just cry. Tawni and Chad don't know about our fighting and the break. I decided to log on to Tumblr and vent. Yeah another thing I been hiding my two best friends is I have a private Tumblr where I can vent and not have them worry about me. I waited for the screen to load before I clicked the text button and just typed my heart away.
"I finally had a room to myself with no possibility of someone walking in on me crying. At the time me and James were on a break because I didn't want to know anything about him. But that night while I was alone sitting in darkness looking out my window I cried. I cried cause I couldn't talk to my best friend and share my heartbreak with him. I was ready to tell him everything, of course me being me I did it through email. Almost forgot. This was like at 3 a.m. I was ready to send it when I decided it was best I didn't so I cried a bit more. But i felt a bit pressure off of me even though I just erased the email.
The following day James called and told me we needed to talk. At first I ignored his call but then he texted and said we had to talk. I told him I didn't want to, that instead we talk face to face. Long story short we talked the day after when I got back home. We talked everything out and he told me the usual thing when I'm insecure. Ever since that day we hadn't talked except maybe a few texts. We were still on a break because we both still needed it.
But today that changed. I started to feel again but not in the good way. I saw him and he was with another girl and I could tell he was flirting. When I went up to him to see what was going on he told me that they were hanging out cause he wanted to fix his car I was whatever at first. Then he started to call just to "keep me posted". It started to bother me a bit. Then he asks help for his English paper, which i helped write a page, and I noticed what was happening. The one that finally hit me was when I texted him about some bad news I got. How does he respond? With a whatever respond. He knew how much I stressed and cared about it all year. And he responds like if it was nothing. I wanted to kill him and just let things go downhill. But of course me being stupid as always I pretend like it didn't happen, that I was over analyzing it or what not. On Sunday he texts me asking if he can have a hug. I told him of course. He comes over and we hug. Then he tells me his issues. Not once in all those times did he ask me if I was or if there was anything new. Not once did he ask me if I was ok. I'm tired of chasing him. I don't care if he likes it but I'm tired, I really am. But here I am crying as I type this and refusing to be alone. Until another day my lovely followers"
I closed my laptop and just cried on my bed hugging my Teddy tight. It was going to be a long day but thankfully there were no classes today. I'll just make something up to Tawni and Chad, they'll never find out.
After a while of Sonny lying in bed she drifted off to sleep. A few minutes pass when there is a few clicking noises at the door. It was the door being unlocked. Sonny was deep in slumber so she didn't hear the door open. There at the door was Chad; he had an extra key to the room. Chad stood at the door and saw Sonny and knew she had been crying again. He caught her a few times crying but she would always say that it was the A/C or there was something in her eye or it was just his imagination. But Chad knew better and would just let it go. But as he saw her in bed in fetal position with mascara under her eyes he knew what he had to do. He closed the door and walked over to her bed and sat by her. Staring intently at her, Chad lifted her head gently and laid it on his lap. He started to play with her hair and soothed her in her sleep. Sonny started to stir in sleep, after a while she opened her eyes to be staring at Chad's oceanic blue eyes. They stared at each other slowly getting closer to each other. Chad and Sonny were close to each other that anybody that walked in would think they were about to kiss.
"Sonny I think…"