... I know. It's been far too long, especially as I just started! I tried to put it up a few days ago, but it was being silly. These past 2 weeks have been hectic, with study and spending time with my gorgeous girl before she leaves for 3 weeks, not to mention this huge writers block I've been fighting. Figured I'd be better off waiting to put up a half decent chapter rather than putting up something not worth posting. Once again thank you all for the reviews, it's great to get input and ways to improve, you're all amazing!
So here it is.
Enjoy, much love 3
Previously…
"Callie? What are you doing?"
"Oh I was just-I needed supplies." She went to leave, but when she turned the handle, nothing.
"Can you please just leave?"
"I… I can't… the door won't work." Arizona jumped off the table and flew towards the door.
The door handle wouldn't turn, it was jammed shut.
"Don't even try Torres. You two are stuck in there until you work this out."
'Mark?" They both yelled, it was one of those jinx moments.
"Arizona I'm sick of you being upset, I'm supposed to be the moody war stricken one!"
"Theodora Altman! Unlock this door NOW."
"I can't hear you. Mark can you hear them?"
"Not a thing. Wanna get a coffee?"
"Sure. You two work this out."
"It's been half an hour, I'm pretty sure this is illegal." It was the first thing anyone had said since Teddy and Mark left.
The blonde sitting on the table looked terrible.
"Please don't cry Arizona"
She laughed bitterly. "I thought you didn't care?"
"Arizona," it was almost silent, but there was a plea in her voice.
The blonde finally met her gaze. She hadn't wanted do this, but looks like she had to.
"Arizona I think it's best if we stay just friends."
She had tears in her eyes now. "You were never just a friend Callie."
"Well I'm sorry you feel that-"
"That's crap Callie and you know it. You're too scared to be yourself, because you think everyone will resent you for it."
It was sometime close to 1am, but Arizona really didn't care. She and Teddy had saved a 14 year old girl from Cystic Fibrosis with a Lung Transplant; it was 2 years of heart ache finally put right.
"To amazingly amazing surgeries!"
"To being Awesome!"
They both took less than elegant gulps from their drinks, not for the first time that night. The bar was surprisingly full for a Tuesday, the first and only person Arizona had noticed was Calliope Torres, in a booth with Mark Sloan. She had kept her eye on her all night, to watch her dance and grind on Mark, and supposedly kick his ass in darts.
Arizona's thoughts were interrupted by her best friend.
"You should just go over there."
"I'm sorry, what?"
"You've been eye fucking Callie all night."
"Don't be ridiculous, she's straight."
"Oh yeah? Then why does she look at you differently to me?"
Arizona's thought process was somewhat slower, but she wasn't stupid.
"Don't be silly Teddy."
'She's staring at your ass right now."
Arizona was silent for the first time tonight, she had always had an attraction to Callie, even if they never were anything other than friends. Sober Arizona would not have even considered anything with a straight woman, but Arizona was certainly not sober, and Callie was hot. Very hot. And funny. And incredibly talented with her hands.
"Look, I'm going over there to talk to Mark, either come with me or sit here by yourself."
They stared each other down.
"Fine, but I hate you."
"You'll thank me one day Robbins."
Arizona mumbled as she followed Teddy over to the booth.
"Hi guys, mind if we join in?"
Mark looked up at the brunette, with the usual predatory glint in his eyes.
"Not at all what's the occasion?"
"Arizona and I saved one of our long term patients today."
Callie cut in "Really? Well done Teddy, Arizona." She threw the Blonde a steaming look, the woman really was beautiful.
Arizona loosened up at that, maybe teddy was right.
"Thank you Callie, that's a beautiful dress, if you don't mind me saying."
"Not at all Arizona."
Teddy sat back and watched her best friend flirt shamelessly for the next hour, and surprisingly, Callie flirt back. The group had split in two, Callie and Arizona in their own little world, while Teddy took Mark up on his Darts challenge.
While Callie was taking a sip from her glass, and Teddy and Mark were distracted by their second game, Arizona leaned in to take her shot.
The blonde whispered in the brunette's ear, "Doctor Torres, would you like to walk me home? I don't live far from here, but I definitely think I need you to hold my hand." She wasn't sure what she was doing, but she didn't care either.
Callie almost choked on her wine. She turned to face the gorgeous blonde, rather hesitantly. Arizona looked confident and not at all shy, but neither was she arrogant.
What the hell.
Callie smirked and grabbed her bag, while taking Arizona's hand in hers.
The Latina couldn't say anything and seconds passed. It made Arizona furious, the blonde jumped off the table.
"Why did you make me fall in love with you, if you didn't feel the same way? Why beg me to stay all those nights after you used me? Just so you didn't feel alone? You, Calliope Torres, are a selfish, heartless cow that only thinks of herself." She stared directly at the Latina, with fire in her eyes.
Callie couldn't take it anymore. She pressed her up against the door and kissed her with everything she had. After the briefest second, Arizona was kissing her back with just as much passion.
A second later, Arizona was pushing Callie away.
"No. You don't get to do that. You made your choice Callie." She pushed passed the taller woman to get to the door. Arizona was in tears again.
"Of course I love you!" It was pure desperation.
Arizona had forgotten what she was doing and turned to face the other woman.
"Why else would I keep seeing you? You're amazing Arizona, you really are. And you make me feel amazing, like I'm the prettiest girl you've ever seen. You're so kind no matter what I do to you. But you deserve better than this. I make you confused and angry and sad, and get you locked in exam rooms. But I can't break it off with you because I can't go without you. I truly am a selfish cow, you were so right. And even if I could make you happy, who knows how long it will take me to feel comfortable with you in public. Who knows if my family would ever be okay with this? It's just easier if we forget this ever happened."
An awkward silence fell as Callie regained herself.
"What… What does all that mean?"
"It means… I really do want to be with you but I'm not sure how." She leaned back against the table and closed her eyes behind her hand.
"Oh Callie." Arizona joined the brunette on the table.
"When it's just us, it's perfect. But then we leave the bedroom and it all seems impossible. I love spending time with you, more than anything. It's okay for you, you've been gay since day 1. I married a man Arizona. What are people going to think?"
"Oh Callie." She didn't know what to say. Arizona didn't give a damn what anyone else thought, but Callie did, and that sucked.
"If we could just exist as you and I, without anyone else, would you still have doubts?"
Callie thought.
"Of course not." She stared into her hands in her lap, she knew she didn't deserve Arizona.
"Then we can work it out." Her heart was hurting for the Latina; she hadn't known just how bad she was feeling. She took Callie's gorgeous tanned face in her hands,
"Callie. It'll work out."
'I'm going to hurt you."
Callie had tears running down her face, but Arizona didn't believe that for a second.
"Give yourself a break, you're a better person than you get credit for." She gave her one of her super magic smiles.
Callie looked into Arizona's bright blue eyes, really looking for the first time.
"Okay?"
"...Okay."
Arizona kissed the brunette with everything she had, setting off fireworks in the small room. Taking the lead, Arizona pushed Callie back to lie against the table, straddling the other woman's hips, kissing her like it was the last time.
Arizona broke the kiss.
"Oh my god… Does this mean… I think this means we can leave this damn room!"
Callie laughed, all of her tension pouring into that laugh. "I think so." Neither moved from their position in each other's arms.
The door opened, and there stood their best friends.
"Took your time Torres."
Both women's attention shot to the door.
"Mark! You were listening to that?
"How else would we have known if you really sorted it out?"
The Latina walked over to him and punched his shoulder. "You're an ass."
"Oh yeah, the chief wanted to see you, I told him you were busy with a… consult. You'd better go."
"Ass." She turned to Arizona, "I'll see you later?"
"Definitely." The Blonde was beaming. They left Arizona and Teddy still in the exam room.
A comfortable silence passed.
"I told you she was just processing." Arizona looked at her best friend, shocked. "I wasn't listening at the door, I swear."
Arizona just smiled.
"Ass."
Yeeeeeahh. Not 100% sure on this one.
I'll probably just do an epilogue after this, with some possible smut. I don't like to see fic's stretch longer than they need, long drawn out storylines that contain nothing are Shonda's thing!
Thanks for reading! xx