Once Alice and I were outside she looked at me angrily. "Tell me Edward why did I see you breaking up with Bella?" She growled. I let out a sigh of relief. "Oh Alice, my mind was just wandering, you know I wouldn't do that." I lied skillfully. She gave me a weary look. "Edward, if you're not happy then why'd you even start anything with her?" She asked. I huffed. "You know I love her Alice. No doubt about that, so I don't know, I guess my mind just wandered into the 'what if' section." I added to my lie.
She shook her head. "Leave it to you to wander into unnecessary mental scenarios." Her worries were now gone and she was leading the way back into the house. That had been a close one. I needed to be more cautious around Alice and her visions. One slip up and she could see anything I think about doing with Jacob.
Bella came over to me once I got back inside. "It's getting dark, I guess I'll go hunting soon?" She asked indirectly. I nodded. "Sure, I'll be here." She kissed me and I had no choice but to kiss back. It was becoming harder to keep up the cover and continue to sneak back to Jacob. "You alright?" Bella asked, uneasiness behind her words. "Of course love. I'm fine." I kissed her forehead. "Is Renesmee awake yet?" Alice asked from behind us.
"No, but she should be waking up soon." Bella answered. "You and Alice should go spend some time with her while I hunt." She said aloud. "Alice can play with her because I have to go to the store to restock on some food for her." I sped into the kitchen and opened the empty fridge. "See, it's completely empty." I showed her. "Well okay, but don't be too long okay?" She told me. I gave her a knowing glance and she understood.
I put on my coat and walked out the door. I sped, as always, down the road and called Jacob. He picked up the phone, "Hello?" His rough voice responded. "Hey Jacob meet me at the apartment now, I'm on my way." I said. He didn't answer right away. "Alright I'm on it." He finally said. And then he hung up. "I need to get him a cellphone." I noted out loud.
I made it to the apartment in twenty minutes tops. It would take Jacob a little longer to get here from La Push. I unlocked the apartment door and turned on the lights, walking into the bedroom and making the bed. About ten minutes later Jacob walked in. "How'd you get out this time?" He had a halfway grin.
"Grocery store." He looked concerned. "Edward you know soon we are going to have to stop lying to everyone." And when he mentioned this I remembered Alice's vision. "I know. Earlier Alice saw me breaking up with Bella. I told her my mind was just wandering, but I don't think she completely believes me." I told him. He took a deep breath. "I haven't shifted in months in fear that the pack will read my thoughts and figure out what we've been doing." I could tell he was bothered by this.
"Maybe we should just stop then." I suggested. "Is that what you want? Do you want to stop Edward?" His voice quivered when he said the words. I grabbed his upper arms. "Of course I don't want to stop Jacob, but there are others involved other than you and me. I see how you look at Renesmee. I know it hurts you to think of breaking her heart in the future and I can't let you do that to yourself or my own daughter." I reasoned. He didn't argue.
"I just wish I hadn't imprinted on anyone." He grumbled. "Yes, but you did. And now there is no way around it." I told him. "What if there is?" He began thinking of a plan as usual. "No Jacob. This is how it is. And I'm not sure we can change that now." I looked at him with desire. "I'm sorry." I apologized. He pushed me on the bed and began kissing me. "I don't want to lose you." He whispered in my ear. I grabbed onto his back.
"Remind me of why I lie for you." I challenged. He pulled my pants off in an instant, followed by my shirt and underwear and all of his clothes. He flipped me over and began thrusting passionately. "Oh Jacob." I moaned, in my own personal heaven. He quickened his pace and I moaned in pleasure. Once he was almost to his breaking point I took over and thrust myself into him. "Edward, yes." He started moaning. I was going as fast as I could, Jacob screaming my name and I exploded, as did he. I kissed his neck and then his mouth.
We lay side by side exhausted. "I should go get those groceries before I get caught." I said abruptly. "Edward, is that the first thing on your mind after you fuck me? Hey I enjoyed the sex, bye." He was pissed off again. "Look Jacob I'm sorry, but I told Bella and Alice I was running this errand for Renesmee. I have to do it otherwise they will become suspicious and you know it." I explained. He began pulling on his clothes angrily.
"Fine Edward. Leave. It was nice for the hour it lasted." He spat out. "Jacob stop." I begged. He ignored me, gathered his shirt and slammed the door shut behind him. He went out the front door and got into his car. He peeled out and I felt terrible. "Dammit." I growled. I could hear his thoughts while he was dressing and the first thing that popped up was disappointment. It was difficult. I wanted to bring him back and just tell him I was sorry. The thought before he walked out of the door was pain, from his feelings on our relationship. I was guilty of hurting him. And now I wasn't sure how to fix it.