Right as Rain-Adele
Rachel looked at Santana as she sang her heart out, the intensity of her stare made the other girl turn away. Everyone including Finn thought she had been singing about him and he frowned. He knew things had ended badly but he didn't realize he hurt her that much.
Only the Latina knew exactly why and who Rachel was singing to. She frowned her eyes watching as the diva belted out her feelings. Things had gotten out of hand and it made her heart hurt to see the tiny girl so upset, plus the prospect of never getting to touch her again made her feel a funny feeling inside her chest. She couldn't quite put her finger on it.
In Your Eyes(Acoustic)-Sara Barielles
Santana got in her car and just started driving, no clear destination in mind, she did this often. She was getting so tired of hiding, she never thought she would see the day she was actually considering letting go of her secret and just being honest.
She stared up at the house in front of her, she had been there many a time in secret. She watched as the light in the far left of the house turned on, she smiled at herself as she heard the familiar startings of whatever song Rachel was working on that night.
She didn't know how it started but she knew the small diva was the reason she didn't want to hide anymore, it was the way she looked at her with such hope and and love, it made Santana want to be a better person.
Starting her car she knew what she had to do.
Rachel was online when she got a series of text messages telling her to check jacob's blog. Fearing the worst she quickly logged on and when she read the top story her jaw dropped and tears started to well up in her eyes.
She clicked the video and her heart stopped. There was Santana sitting infront of her webcam, smiling softly.
"So I'm tired of lying all the time and making the one person I care about the most feel like crap for having to hide, If any of you have a problem with me or the person I'm singing to after this, I will not hesitate to rip off your balls and feed them to you"
"In your eyes…" Santana sang the whole song and then she looked directly into the camera.
"Rachel Berry, I fucking love you more than you will ever know"
And with that she had thrown herself out of the closet, knowing everyone at school would know tomorrow where her heart was.
My Same-Adele
You said I'm stubborn and I never give in
I think you're stubborn 'cept you're always softening
You say I'm selfish, I agree with you on that
I think you're giving out in way too much in
If
Santana laughed as the girl started singing the song and dancing around her. This song was so perfect for them she had to laugh at her girlfriend. The rest of the glee club started getting up and dancing with them. Santana mused on the fact that a year ago if you had asked her if she would be here watching Rachel freaking Berry belt out this song to her she would have threatened bodily harm and laughed at you. But somehow that girl had weaseled her way into the Ex-Cheerio's heart and the song was true they were so stubborn and selfish that they almost didn't make it, but I guess love is a funny thing because it changed everything for the Latina.
Walking with each other, think we'll never match at all, but we do
But we do, but we do, but we do
Where I Stood-Missy Higgins
Santana watched as Rachel leaned into the other girl and laughed at something she said. Her heart broke watching the other girl stroke Rachel's hand as they intertwined their fingers. Waiting for Mr. Shue to show up. On the outside Santana was cool as a cucumber, but on the inside she felt like dying. She knew the other girl could give Rachel what she so desperately wanted, not to have to hide her love, to be out and proud to be on the other girls arm. But that didn't mean it didn't hurt to watch it happen, to know that the girl she had loved so badly was happy, and it wasn't with her. To watch the blonde touch the spots she had touched a million times, to stroke the path that had been inked into her memory permanently. She knew it was her fault, her inability to accept who she was and her fear of the unknown that brought them to this place. But that didn't mean it didn't hurt.
Crazy For You (Acoustic)-Adele
Found myself today singin' out loud your name
You said I'm crazy, if I am I'm crazy for you
Sometimes sittin' in the dark wishin' you were here turns me crazy
But its you who makes me lose my head
Rachel stared at girl in front of her smiling as she sang the first verse of a song she knew by heart. She had sang this song many years before to the very same girl okay woman sitting with her now. She had sang it then to get the other girl to open her eyes and admit her feelings for her. Now however she sang it so that the tiny baby in her wife's arms would fall asleep and to make her very tired wife feel better. She felt bad that she had to work that day and leave her alone to her own devices.
And every time I'm meant to be acting sensible
You drift into my head and turn me into a crumblin' fool
Tell me to run and I'll race if you want me to stop I'll freeze
And if you and me gonna leave just hold me closer baby
And make me crazy for you, crazy for you
Santana smiled as she heard her wife sing their song, and thought back to that day almost 12 years prior….
Santana had been sitting in the glee room waiting for everyone to settle as Mr. Shuester walked in. She watched as Rachel raised her hand and asked to sing a song she prepared. Mr. Shue nodded, while the rest of the club groaned halfheartedly knowing whatever the diva would sing would be good.
Rachel stood up and stared directly at Santana, and sang to only her, leaving the club to stare in confusion as they listened to the words of the song and Rachel's almost tunnel like stare on Santana.
Lately with this state I'm in I can't help myself but spin
I wish you'd come over, send me spinning closer to you
My, oh my, how my blood boils a sweet taste for you
Strips me down bare and gets me into my favorite mood
Rachel smirked as she watched the different emotions flicker over her secret lover's face. Confusion, anger, happiness, desire, and most of all love.
I keep on tryin' fightin' these feelings away
But the more I do the crazier I turn into
Pacin' floors and openin' doors
Hopin' you'll walk through and save me
Because I'm too crazy for you, crazy for you
At the end of the song she walked right over to the Cheerio and kneeled down in front of her and smiled staring into her chocolate orbs.
"So here's the thing Santana, I'm done hiding and trying to fight what I feel for you because let's face it, I'm already crazy as it is and this whole dancing around each other has made it worse, just ask the rest of the club. So I'm done playing games, I'm in love with you and sincerely hope you reciprocate that love and will just be with me because honestly I don't think I could handle another day of not being able to love you." Rachel stated as she tucked a hair behind Santana's ear and stroked her cheek searching her eyes for an answer.
All she got was one of the most amazing kisses she has ever had. She knew in that moment everything would be okay.