"Bella, where is Renesmee?" I asked nervously. She looked over at me. "I thought Rosalie had her Edward." She replied. I shook my head and listened carefully, trying to hear Renesmee or Rosalie. "Well, do you hear them?" Bella asked. "Let me check the foyer." I walked towards it and found them playing together. I let out a sigh of relief. "Renesmee are you okay?" I asked her. She held her hand up to my face and I leaned down so that she could touch it. She let me know she was fine. "Alright darling." I simply told her.
I walked back to the couch where Bella was reading. "How about we go for a walk?" I posed. She looked up from her book and raised her eyebrows. "Sure, why not." She placed her book on the table and stood up. Looking at her made me guilty. Seeing the woman that I'd been lying to all this time made me hurt. "Bella," I stopped myself. "Edward what is it?" She quickly asked. "Nothing." I lied, more.
She walked out in front of me. My intention was to ask her how she would feel if I told her that everything she knew about me was a lie. But I know that that was absolutely idiotic and would just make things harder. "So, how're the new senses?" She looked at me weirdly. "They're fine, quite interesting actually. I thought I would be an evil monster drinking the blood of any living thing. I'm glad that's not the case." She innocently answered.
"Bella, I love you. I want you to know that." The words rolled out rapidly. Truthfully I did love her, it just wasn't the love that she had for me. Yet, here I was making it seem that way. I should have never started this mess. The only problem was that I didn't know how to get myself out of it. I doubted there was even a way to escape.
"Edward, is everything okay?" She looked at me with concern. "Of course, I have you and my beautiful daughter. How could anything possibly be wrong?" She smiled. "How about we go to the cottage? Get some privacy before we have to go back home." She pushed herself against me and I shuddered. "Uh, okay." That was all I could manage to say. She took my hand and sped through the woods.
Once we got to the small cottage I nudged her towards the bed. I laid on my back and put my hands behind my head, staring at the ceiling. Bella came crawling in next to me, ready to pounce. "Do you miss it? Being human?" I hesitated. She sighed heavily. "I mean some things I miss, but not enough for me to regret changing for. If me being a red-eyed vampire means spending an eternity with you, then I am happy."
I rolled on my side, facing her. "I'm sorry Bella." I apologized sincerely. And before she could respond to that I pulled her close. She wrapped her legs around me and the rest was a blur. As usual once she had her way with me I felt more horrible. "We should get back." I urged. She nodded. "Yeah. I guess so. Renesmee will probably need to eat soon." She said.
When we returned everyone was in the living room playing with Renesmee. She was laughing and being adorable as normal. She was the one thing that took all my guilt away. My precious baby girl was the one thing that I did not regret. She was a miracle. I went over and picked her up, twirling around. "Daddy!" She giggled. I smiled when the words left her mouth. "I love you." I kissed her forehead. She was the only one I didn't have to lie to.