chapter two: Hikaru's feelings
hikaru
i watched him there. sleeping. he seemed so fragial. almost like a china doll, that could chatter at any moment, with the slightest touch. His body was pale under the moon light, streaming in from our window. Kaoru was there, next to me. Him being so close to me sent electricity up and down my body. His hair looked a Strawberry blond in the small amount of light, and his lips looked so thin and cute. his golden eyes were closed, seeing a world of dreams only he could see. I slowly reached out and gently put my hand on his cheek, and began to swiftly stroke it with my thumb. His skin was so warm and soft. We may be identicle, but im POSITIVE that my skin doesnt feel that soft, or look that beautiful.
Suddenly, Kaoru flinched, and a small cry escaped his lips. i quickly pulled my hand back and proped myself up on my pillow with my elbow, looking at my other half. I smiled at him. Kaoru's dreaming. I layed my head back down onto the pillow and looked at Kaoru, who made little squeak noises as his body flinched. he reminded me of a puppy. Then Kaoru cried out. i quickly sat up and looked at him. He was shaking very hard. his body had curled up into a ball and his fists were clenched. He was breathing heavily, and his eyes were shut tight.
"LET GO OF HIM!" he shouted. i flinched and continued to watch, a little scared.
"HIKARU!" he shouted. this time he said it through cries. he started crying in his sleep! he was crying feircly too. what the hell was he dreamin about?
i couldnt watch him any more. i reached my hand a out and put it on his shoulder and shook him a little bit.
"Hikaru! there trying to take me HIKARU HELP!"
he exclaimed as i shook him. i gently pulled him up and shook him by his shoulders. i called his name. he started crying harder.
"KAORU!" i yelled as i shook him harder. he gasped and opened his eyes. they were soaking wet with tears and his skin was wet for he had started sweating. i looked at him with concerned eyes and he looked at me back confused. suddenly his pupils got small and his eyes filled with terror. he started crying. i got up and sat down, my legs in front of me. i pulled him close and stroked his hair, trying to calm him down.
"sshhhhh its okay Kaoru it was just a bad dream. dont cry." i said gently and i continued to stroke his hair. he cried into my chest. But it wasnt like an "oh it was just a dream" kind of cry it was a "IT WAS SO VIVID I THOUGHT _ REALLY HAPPENED TO YOU WAAAAAAAAAA!" sort of cry. he cried and then looked up to me with red, wet eyes. i smiled at him and hugged him tightly, returning him to my embrase. i know this isnt the time to be selfish but, him being so close to me, made me feel like a thousand bubbles. he smelled so good. like strawberries and the starbursts we had shared earlier that day. i feel like kissi-...no...i need to focus on whats wrong with kaoru! how messed up in the head am i?
i pulled kaoru away just a little to were i can look at him. his hands were by his eyes, wipping away the river of tears running down his cheeks.
"whats wrong kaoru? what was your dream about? was it about me?" i asked him in a quiet, what i thought was a soothing voice. he took breaths in, trying to catch his breath. he couldnt talk he was crying so hard. he shoved himself into my chest and hugged me so tight i couldnt breath. but it was okay. i hugged him back and we stayed there for a while. finally i think his tears were running low because he wasnt crying anymore. he was just trying to get air and letting out little sobs. i gently layed him down back in his place in the bed. then i myself went down. i pulled him close to me. he wrapped his arms around me and snuggled into me, taking quick breaths in like you do when you have beem crying so hard you cant breath.
"Kaoru its okay im here. i wont let anything get you i promise. try to go to sleep okay." i said looking down at him as i ran my fingers through his hair. he loved it when i did that. I found out it was the only way to get him to fall asleep after he had a nightmare or something. His breathing finally went steady after about 10 minutes. even though he was asleep, i continued to play with his hair. everytime my fingers left his hair a scent of our strawberry cream shampoo would come out of his hair and fill the air. it was wonderful. Soon enough though i fell asleep, still hugging my brother. I dreamt of me and Kaoru, madly in love and dating, soon to be married. if only my dreams could become a reality...