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wickedtomboy
Don't Go
Chapter 6
"Cut! Alright, that's a wrap! Great job girls!"
Ryan yelled as he got up to go give instructions to Lea and Cory. I walked out of the choir room set, heading to Julie to get my make-up redone. Heather and I just got done filming a pretty emotional scene. The scene, however, is only in place to lead up to an even bigger event that we film next week, yeah… that should fun.
I made my way to the trailer, stopping occasionally to talk to different members of the cast. Thanking God that Heather had to work on a scene with Damian and would not being getting her make-up done. Once I finally reached the trailer, I stepped inside and saw Dianna sitting in a chair waiting for Julie. We were getting ready for our next scene with Idina.
I sat down next to Di, turned to face the mirror, and took my hair out of the ponytail, getting it ready for Julie. An awkward silence falls over the room. Dianna doesn't approve about how I have let Heather treat me. However, she has at least been civil to me. How she treats Heather is… another story.
"So," she says, clearing her throat, "how have you been?"
"Alright. You?"
"Alright." The awkward silence is back. "You…um…you did a good job filming today. I know it must've been hard."
"What is that supposed to mean?" I asked, turning to look at her.
"I'm just saying…since…you know." I turned my look into a glare and she noticed. "Oh, come on Nay! It was an emotional scene and I'm just telling you that you did very well for someone in your…situation."
"I'm not pregnant, Di. Besides…it's not even a 'situation' anymore." I said turning back to the mirror.
"What?" She asked, sounding shocked.
Great, this is not a conservation I want to have right now. That seems to be happening to me a lot lately. But, I knew she had the right to know. And to be honest, I'm glad I had someone to talk too. No one else knows because, well, that's what Heather wanted.
"I ended it." I said simply, knowing very well that whatever this was, it was not simple.
She waited a while before responding, expecting me to say more. Once she realized that I was done. She said, "That's all I get?... I mean don't get me wrong, I'm glad you finally came to your senses. But, I expected more details."
"I just…blinked…and then I saw that I loved her and she didn't love me. And if she wanted to have a relationship with me then she would have to prove herself." I said, surprised that the words came out of my mouth.
"I'm…speechless. I never thought you would finally see the light. But now that you did, I'm proud of you."
"Thanks. Not only for that comment but for being there for me. I means a lot Di."
"I will always be there." A comfortable pause fell over us as we waited for Julie. Then Di broke it, "So, when did all of this happen?"
"Two day's ago, she hasn't really talked to me since." I replied, looking back on the memory. We would just film our scene and go our separate ways. I didn't know if that was a good sign or not. After all, I am the one that asked for time.
"So that is why you two have been acting weird lately." She said, I should've known that the rest of cast would start to notice. Just then I felt my phone buzz, I pulled it out of my pocket and looked at the screen. I felt myself smile and blush slightly.
Sydney: Hey! I hope you are having a great day. Can't wait to talk to you again ;)
"Who is that?" Dianna asked teasingly, seeing my facial features change.
"Sydney, the girl I met at the bar."
"So does Miss Naya Rivera have a girlfriend?" Dianna asked, raising her eyebrows.
"No, not yet anyway. We have only talked on the phone, no dates yet."
"Why not?"
"I don't know, it would feel…weird I guess. Like I'm using her. It's not fair to her if…if my heart belongs to someone else."
"Naya, Heather hasn't even talked to you. It's been two days! What if she doesn't fight? What if she doesn't want to prove herself? Then what? Who does your heart belong to then? I say you go for it." I never thought about what would happen if Heather didn't try or if she didn't want to be with me. I didn't want to think about that thought. It was too painful. But Dianna was right. It was time to face reality. And reality sucked. It has been two day's and nothing, nothing at all. I wonder if that is what I really meant to her.
I opened my keyboard and typed: Actually, do u wanna go out 2morrow night? I know a great place…
I paused before I hit "send" wondering what in the world I was doing. But I need to move on. So I pressed my thumb down on the button.
"Good for you Nay, trust me on this. It may even cause a little jealously." I have to admit, that thought felt good. Just a little jealously, just a little pain. Maybe now she will know how it feels. Maybe now she will finally experience the same pain I do when I see her with Taylor.
I felt my phone buzz again.
Sydney: Sounds great!
I replied: It's a date! Pick u up at 7. Can't wait 2 c ur curves move again ;)
I hit send again. And an unknown feeling came over me. I felt guilt and heartache. And then this big weight disappeared from my shoulders. Moving on hurt but it also granted me freedom, in a way.
I was brought back from my thoughts when Julie entered the room.
"Hey girls!" She said brightly as she went straight to work on Dianna's make-up.
"Hey!" We both replied. Then we all fell into the comfortable realm of small talk.
I made my way back to my trailer after filming a scene with Cory. It had been an emotionally draining day for Santana, which meant it had been a long day for me. Putting everything into a character takes a lot of heart. I approached my trailer door, opened it, then stepped inside. Immediately stopping at the sight before me.
Heather was sitting on my couch, curled up in a ball, sleeping. She must've had a long day too. I forgot that I gave her the spare key to my trailer….and my car…and my apartment. She looked as adorable as ever. So peaceful. I suddenly got nervous, knowing she must have been waiting for me. Probably to talk to me. I made my way over to Heather.
"Heather," I whispered while I gently nudged her shoulder. "HeMo…" I sing-songed as I reached my hand up to stoke her cheek. Then, her eyes fluttered open and she looked at me. I got lost in an ocean of sparkling blue. Then I felt her hand reach up and grasp mine, holding it in place. I instantly regretted showing her any form of endearment. Yet at the same time, I missed it but then she started to lean her face against my hand, so I pulled away. I walked over to the counter and grabbed my purse and keys, getting ready to leave for the day. She sat up on the couch. Slowly waking herself up.
"I'm sorry to crash in on you like this." She said as she stood from the couch.
"It's okay Heather." I felt myself tense at the word. I never called her Heather when I was trying to comfort her. Never. I saw her whole body tense at the word as well. She began to look around nervously and fidgeting with her hands. "What's up?" I asked, trying to sound as if it was no big deal that she was in my trailer.
"Um..well…I was just…I was just wondering if – if you wanted to hang out later? Like at my place or-or something."
"Heather, I-"
"It would just be as friends." She said quickly. Cutting me off. "I wouldn't try anything, I swear. I just want to see you." She added quietly. Somehow she thought this comment would help, as if she thought her "trying something" would make me not want to come over. I don't think she gets that I want her to try something, only if she feels the same way about me. But the words "as friends" rang through my ears and stabbed my heart.
"I don't think that's a good idea. We can still be friends but we should only hang out around other people." I said, meaning every word but feeling slightly angry and hurt by the blonde.
"Oh, okay. Yeah…I mean…that's cool. I…I understand." Heather said, running her fingers through her golden hair. "I guess I'll see you around then." She said as she headed towards the door.
"Yep, I guess so." I answered lamely, feeling my heart beat so fast, as if it might explode. See you around? Really!
"Naya." I turned and looked at her. "You did a great job filming today. Breath-taking every time." And with that she turned and walked out the door.