Firstly thanks for the reviews, in response to them Varda Elena I found it hard to fit Blaine in as i wanted Kurt's closest friend to be Rachel. so at the moment Kurt does not Know blaine.

Ilovekc sorry if thats what it looks like I'm doing but the truth is i go for months without writing or even coming to this site so setting review targets keeps me interested and on the ball

The advice

"Brittany!, are you insane" she was looking at Kurt with such wild eyes that let him know she actually thought he'd gone crazy.

"If there's one person who can help it's her"

"Oh yeah I agree she's slut enough to help, but she's also a babbling idiot. We cant tell her."

"Don't you think you you're being a little harsh"

"Maybe, but at the very least she's going to tell Santana. She already makes my life hell she can't find out about this, she just can't."

"I've know Brittany better than you and she's a nice person. If we make her promise not to tell anyone then she won't. Don't forget that Brittany knows Finn well. She's been out with a few dates with him and Santana. We might need to offer her something but she'll help us." As he was saying this he placed his hand on Rachel's shoulder to reassure her. And to Rachel's surprise it worked. All the anxiety she had been feeling disappeared. She realised at this moment that she completely trusted Kurt, and if he thought it was a good idea she would do it.

"Ok, I'll try to talk to her tomorrow after glee club. Will you come with me?"

"I can't Rachel I have plans and they have to be done tomorrow. Besides don't you think it will look weird if I'm there." He could see she was visibly disappointed and he wanted to stay and cheer her up but it was getting late and he had to go. "I'll see you tomorrow Rachel"

"Yeah Ok". Rachel was still not a hundred percent sure of this. Last time she went to Brittany for assistance it backfired big time. She had paid Brittany to where clothes like hers so that her sense of style would catch on but she just ended up looking stupid. She could only pray that this plan went better. She did not sleep well that night. She kept dreaming that Santana found out and tortured her with this new information. "Berry is the last person I thought we be a slut, always had you down as a Dyke" The dreams continued throughout the night and when Rachel finally woke up to get ready for school she had a feeling that this was not going to be a good day.

When she finally made it to school to school the first person she saw was Finn. As soon as he saw her he sped up into a jog and ran right over to her. He leaned in for a kiss and Rachel's heart skipped a beat as she leant up to kiss him, but was disappointed to feel his lips touch her cheek. "Hey Rachel, I'm just letting you know that I'm probably not going to be able to see you for the rest of the week. We're coming to the end of football season and with the winning streak we're on coach Beiste wants us to practice everyday." Rachel just nodded meekly and said ok. Finn took a deep breath as he walked away. He had a lot to think about and a feeling of guilt deep in his stomach. He wasn't lying to Rachel. Coach Beiste really was making the team behind everyday and as Quarterback it was his job to lead the team. But deep down he knew there was more to it than that. He'd been feeling uncomfortable around Rachel lately and this was the perfect excuse to avoid her. He loved Rachel he truly did. Her personality sometimes made it hard to be around her for long periods of time but that's not what bothered him. He'd accepted her personality quirks a long time ago. What was really bothering him were the feelings he was having, feelings for Quinn. As much as he cared for Rachel Quinn would always have a special significance to him. She was his first girlfriend but it was much more than that. He fell in love with her the moment he first saw her. He was the school quarterback she was head cheerleader, it just seemed like they belonged together. She shattered his heart and after that he thought he would never care for her again, but he was wrong. As he slowly forgave Puck and gradually accepted him back as a friend he also without realising began to forgive Quinn. And without the hatred inside him any longer all he could feel were the old feelings back and as strong as ever. Seeing how beautiful she was, her smile her voice everything about her. He feared he was slowly falling in love with her all over again. And while he had these feelings he found it very difficult to be around Rachel. He hadn't acted on these feelings but he still felt like he was betraying her. He would never think about cheating on her. He still remembered the pain he felt when found out Quinn had cheated on him. He could never make someone else feel that pain. Especially someone he loved as much as Rachel. Plus there was Sam, Quinn's boyfriend. Sure they weren't exactly best friends but its another person who would get hurt. And that's why he was trying with all his might to fight these feelings.

He managed to push all of that to the back of his mind for a quick session of afternoon football practice. He took his role of team leader very seriously and when he was on the pitch concentrated only on football. But as he sat there in the changing room after the training all he wanted to do was go home and get some sleep. Unfortunately for him he still had glee club rehearsals to go to. It was at that moment which he heard Sam

"So Puck you still doing the Pool cleaning business"

"Are you kidding I'm never giving that gig that give up. The moms are insane. I get more action than tiger woods, and most of them are surprisingly hot."

"You lucky bastard. Sometimes being with Quinn is like being with a nun. But you understand that right Finn." Finn was barely listening when he realised Sam was talking to him.

"Huh"

"I mean its killing me how uptight Quinn's being when it comes to sex and I bet Rachel's the same."

"What!"

"I'm just saying Quinn is not letting up at all I'm getting no closer to breaking her in and with the fact she's in the celibacy club I'm guessing Rachel's exactly the same"

"Don't talk about her like that" the rage obvious in Finn's voice as he leapt up and pinned Sam to the lockers.

"Hey man calm down"

"How dare you say things like that"

"HEY!" coach Beiste's booming voice echoed through the room "Both of you take a shower to cool of, NOW!"

Finn managed to calm down and as he got dressed to get ready to head of to glee club he ran back into Sam. He was not in the mood and was about to walk right past him when Sam surprised him

"Hey man I'm sorry. I was only joking around but I still shouldn't have talked about your girlfriend like that."

"Oh, its ok. Sorry I reacted like that lets just forget it."

As Finn walked away he felt the knot of guilt in his stomach. He'd like to pretend that he snapped because Sam had said those things about Rachel but he knew deep down that he was upset because he said them about Quinn. What he didn't know was what was he going to do now.

As he entered glee club he saw that everyone was already there. Rachel was trying to focus on the music but she was so distracted. Distracted to the point that she didn't even bother to fight for a solo. For once she wanted nothing more than glee club to end. Thankfully when it did everyone left rather quickly and Brittany seemed in no rush so that in the end they remained in the room alone. She took a deep breath and walked over to the blond.

"Brittany could you help me"

"Get lost man hands, we have plans" the voice catching her by surprise she turned around to find Santana in the doorway obviously waiting for Brittany.

Rachel knew it had to be now and looked deep into Brittany's eyes and pleaded "Please Brittany" to which the blond hesitated for a moment before responding "Ok. Go ahead Santana I'll catch you up. Ok Rachel what is it"

"Look I want on advice on something you know a lot about."

"I know a lot about lots of things. Did you know the tallest man in the world is actually an Eskimo."

"I'm pretty sure that's not true….never mind that's not the point"

"Did you know…"

"I want to talk about sex!" she shouted much louder than she had wanted causing her to place her hand over her mouth before slowly removing it to finish "about blowjobs actually" in a much quieter voice

"I do love giving head. I like to count sheep in my head and see how many sheep different guys can last, you know before they.."

"Are you going to help me or not"

"Ok Rachel I'll help you but I wanna know why" This question took her back a little but she quickly composed herself

"No reason, I just think it will be good for me to know these things"

"Ok, I understand. I'll tell you everything you want to know but first I have some advice. Love and sex are not the same thing Rachel. And you can't substitute one for the other. I know that better than anyone. I've had sex with lots of guys and some girls but I've only ever loved one person, Artie. And that relationship isn't about sex at all. So if you're doing this for Finn offering him sex won't bring you his love" Rachel sat in a stunned silence. Amazed that something so profound could come out of Brittany but also realising that she was right.

"Thank you Brittany, I should go" as she got up to leave the cheerleader gave her a smile and said

"Ok, let me know how the Blowjob goes" As Rachel was walking down the corridor and trying to process what just happened she noticed someone was standing in front of her. It was Kurt.

"Hey how did it go"

"You were right all along Kurt. The whole plan was stupid sex isn't the answer." Kurt placed his arms around her and brought her into a hug. "It's ok we'll think of something else. Then something dawned on Rachel.

"Wait I thought you said you had plans, important plans."

"I did but I decided this was more important. I wanted to make sure you were ok and things didn't backfire like you were dreading, you know Santana finding out. Things like that"

"Thanks Kurt. But wait you've been going on about these plans all week what exactly are these plans of yours."

"Oh its nothing really just a date"

"A DATE!" Rachel's face immediately lighting up with joy "Tell me EVERYTHING"

"There's not much to say, I met him at a coffee shop we got talking and he asked me out"

"I can't believe you got a date. You're going to have to tell me all about after"

"There's not going to be a date Rachel."

"What why not?"

"I've cancelled on him three days in a row, he told me I wasn't worth the hassle."

"Wait, you mean the times I made you cancel those plans…I ….I cost you your first date. I'm so sorry Kurt." looking at Kurt she realised that he'd made a huge sacrifice for her. He was more than just a friend, he was a truly special person.

"It's ok Rachel you needed me. Besides it's not like he was anything special. But I am sad I never got to kiss him."

"Why what's so important about a kiss?"

"I don't know. It's hard to explain. I sometimes worry about my first kiss, what it's going to be like. But lately I've been wondering if its ever even going to happen at all. Or when it does happen I'll be so desperate that it will be with some loser I don't even like just to get it over with."

"Kurt you're being stupid. You're an amazing person and I know that if the guys at this school had the courage to come out of the closet you would be at the top of the list of guys they want to date.

"Thank you Rachel but that doesn't help me does it" Rachel opened her mouth to try and comfort him and without thinking what came out was

"I'll kiss you"

"What, Rachel I'm GAY!"

"Yeah I know that. But you're worried that your first kiss is going to be with someone you don't care about and who doesn't care about you. And well I care about you…A lot. So I could be your first kiss. Plus how can you really be sure you're gay if you never kiss a girl." Kurt couldn't believe what he was hearing. There was no way he was having his first kiss be with a girl. It was just crazy. But then he started to think about it. He'd been thinking more and more about his first kiss lately. In fact he was starting to obsess over it. He would think about it when he was alone and when he was trying to get to sleep at night. He was sick of it. He didn't want it to be an issue anymore. Maybe it would be best just to get it out of the way. And the more he thought about it Rachel was the perfect choice. She was someone he really cared about and someone he planned to be friends with for the rest of his life. It's not like it was going to be some loser he'd regret. As he was running this over in his head he heard his own voice say

"yes" It took a moment for that to sink in for Rachel. She'd suggested the idea without thinking and once she had realised what she'd actually said she thought there was no way Kurt would actually say Yes. But although his answer was a big surprise she knew she would do anything for him, and so she would do this if that's what he wanted. Rachel looked deep into his eyes to make sure this was what he wanted and he responded with a meek nod. Taking a deep breath she leant in and pressed her lips against his. She was amazed and the softness and the warmth of his lips, it was unlike any kiss she had experienced before. Part of her wanted to reach up and grasp his face with her hands and feel his skin but she quickly realised that that most likely would freak him out. When she first leant in Kurt found him self almost paralysed unable to move or do anything but after a few seconds he found he quite enjoyed the feel and taste of her lips, it was quite pleasant. And then his heart started to beat faster, and faster until it was beating faster than it ever had before. He told himself it was just from the excitement of his first kiss, finally doing it. That's all it was. But then he felt the hormones rushing through his body. He felt his body stiffen and his pants seemed to tighten as he was experiencing things no woman should be able to do to him. And then after what seemed like an eternity but at the same time only an instant she pulled away. She was smiling sweetly looking deep into his eyes.

"Was that ok for you?" Kurt's brain was screaming at him. Half of it was saying Grab her and kiss her again and the other half was saying run, as fast as you can. He just managed to squeak out

"Yes, thank you. I should go" With that he set of, and as soon as he was out of sight he started running fasted than he thought he could. Once he reached his house he sprinted up to his room collapsed on the bed and he only had one thought on his mind. Oh My God! Do I have feelings for Rachel?

The reason a lot of the chapter was from Finn's P.O.V is because he is going to become important later on. Hope you're all liking it so far, leave reviews so i know what you're thinking. and the next chap will have a little bit of M rated goodness