Sorry for the wait. I had a bit of writer's block and this is more of a filler. I am not very happy with it.
This was never planned to be a long story and only has a few more chapters to go.
Disclaimer: Not Mine.
Ziva woke up the next morning and was faced with an empty bed. She was still in Tony's bedroom, just he wasn't there. She stood from the bed and walked to the kitchen where Tony was seated.
"Good morning," She greeted.
"'Morning," he replied, "Um, can we pick the conversation up from last night?" he asked.
"The one where you wanted to ask if you could sleep with others?" She asked as she put toast in the toaster, "okay,"
"Does Ray know about us?" He asked.
Ziva avoided his scrutinizing stare, "No," she quietly replied.
"Are you going to tell him?" He asked.
"Why is that your concern?" She asked.
He looked at her for a moment, studying her before sighing, "It's not I guess," he answered. She came around and dragged a chair next to him.
She didn't say anything, but she looked like she wanted too, when she spoke it wasn't the words she wanted to say, "We need to get ready for work," She whispered. He nodded and stood as Ziva went back to the toaster to butter her toast to eat.
Once they arrived to work they began digging around in missing person's files and looking for any time frame that the Captain could have gone missing.
After an hour Ziva's desk phone rang. This left her no escape from the person across the small walkway from her as she answered the phone and began talking to her boyfriend.
"Ziva. I have been called in early. Meaning that I'm leaving earlier than I intended and that I will be gone for longer," he informed her. Was it wrong for her heart to skip a beat at this, and be thankful that he boyfriend was leaving for 'longer than intended'?
"Important?" she asked.
"Yeah, emergency. I have to fill in for some idiot that got sick," she could almost hear him roll his eyes.
"When will you be back then?" She asked.
"Not for at least a month," he replied, "I have to go. I will call you soon," he said as he hung up.
"What's wrong?" Tony asked.
"Nothing. Just found out that I'm free for at least a month,"
"Really...?" Tony said, clearly letting his mind wonder.
It wasn't long before they were told to leave. They had tracked down the captain's family. They were visiting family interstate and were arriving the next day. They couldn't do any more until the next day.
Ziva followed Tony to his apartment and as soon as he shut the door his lips were on Ziva.
Afterwards, Tony was lying under his bed covers with Ziva next to him. He could feel her foot on his lower leg.
"I can't keep doing this Ziva," he stated.
She turned to look at him; she didn't get a chance to talk before he was, "With you I have always known where I stand. Partner, friend, nothing, but I don't now Ziva and I hate this feeling. I enjoy being with you, but I can't be the 'other man' for much longer Ziva," he said.
He heard Ziva sigh, "I will deal with it when he gets back Tony," she said.
"No you won't," he replied, "You need to make a decision before he gets back, or I will make it for you. It's been two months. And to be honest I don't want to share you," he said the last sentence quietly. So quiet Ziva though she had misheard. But she knew she didn't.
She stood from her place on the bed and gathered her clothes from around the room and redressed.
"What are you doing?" he asked.
"Making my decision," she replied and she fixed her bra and threw her shirt over her head.
He wasn't quick enough to catch her before she left his apartment.
Ziva walked to her car, thinking. She had to choose she knew this had been coming. But now she had to make the decision before he got back.
She sat in her car and paused for a moment before hitting the steering wheel in frustration, so hard it hurt the palm of her hand. She turned on her car and looked at the clock on the dashboard. It had the time illuminated in green. Two in the morning. She had work the next day. She had to interview someone's wife. She knew that she could be bitchy when she was tired.
She turned on her car and began driving; she had no particular destination until she found herself driving down a familiar road as she came to a stop in front of her boss' house.
This was stupid. He wouldn't be awake. This was something that she needed to do by herself. It was her decision to make. But still she stepped out of her car and made her way down the drive way, opening the unlocked door and heading straight for the stairs that took her to his basement.
She was surprised to see that he was still up. She hesitated at the top of the stairs, what would he say when he found out that she had been sleeping with his senior field agent while dating someone else. He would be disappointed in her, wouldn't he? Yes.
Before she could turn around and turn back she heard his voice sound from the basement, "What do ya need Ziver?"
She slowly took the stairs down until she hit the concrete floor. She hesitantly took the few more steps forward until she waste reached a seat that looked to be left there from another visitor.
"Expecting someone?" She asked.
"No. But whatever your here for must be important if you're here at two," he said.
"I have screwed up Gibbs. Big time. I do not know how to get out of it," she began.
"What did you do?"
"Two months ago I started sleeping with someone other than Ray. Ray does not know. But I find it strange that I only feel guilty when I am with Ray, but not when I am with... This other person. He told me I had to choose. I know I do, but I don't know how. How am I meant to choose between my boyfriend and a person that I am beginning care about more than just a friend?"
"Do you love him?" Gibbs asked.
"Who?"
"Ray?"
"I want to say I do but I get the feeling of guilt and it makes something shift uncomfortably inside of me Gibbs,"
"There has to be a reason that you as seeking the same thing from two people. What is wrong with him?"
Ziva sighed, "He is never here. I need someone who is here for more than half a year," She said.
"Then that should make your decision easy,"
"Gibbs. I am here to be yelled at. What I have done is disrespectful in any religion, any country. I have committed adultery," She said pleading, "I deserve anything that happens. I don't deserve either of them. Do you not have an opinion on this? Are you not disappointed?" she said.
"What would you like me to do Ziva, arrest you?" he asked, "I am disappointed in you; this is something I would expect from Tony. But you are doing a good enough job beating yourself up. I don't need to help," he said.
Ziva turned around and left after saying goodbye. She went there for advice and got it, she also went there to be yelled at. He didn't do that. He said all he needed to calmly. It made Ziva feel worse. She slowly made her way back home.
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