By the time I went back downstairs, Charlie and Renee had already left to go do whatever "errands" they wanted. Probably just going to the diner to go eat a steak dinner, even though it's only 3 o'clock. As Charlie says, "Anytime is good for steak". If it wasn't for chicken, I'd be a vegetarian.
Rose came within the next 2 minutes, which was weird, since Alice lives closer to my house. But I wasn't going to complain. I was going to start screaming if no one showed up in the next 30 seconds. She was barely getting out of the car when I opened the front door of my house, then went to the kitchen for 3 bowls and a carton of ice cream. Balancing those with one hand, I went into the fridge and got chocolate and caramel syrup. I saw the piece of paper which had the Denali's number scribbled on it left on the kitchen counter. On my way back to the living room, Rose was already sitting in Charlie's recliner, and quickly took the bowls and ice cream and set it down on the coffee table, before going back to her chair. Whenever Charlie isn't here, she loves sitting there. Its so worn out, the seat probably goes down a foot when anyone sits there. I don't like sitting there because... well, it's Charlie's chair. It just feels weird. And if Alice sat there, she probably would be lost, because she would go down so far; all we would see is her head.
I went back into the kitchen because I forgot the ice cream scoop and spoons. While I was opening the silverware drawer, I heard an engine ahead of me, so I looked up through the kitchen window, and I saw Alice cutting of the engine. She checked herself out in the rear view mirror, then jumped out and she beat me to the living room.
I sat down on the couch with Alice, and started dishing out the ice cream. It was pretty frozen, so my arms were getting quite the workout. I was already so frustrated and angry and confused, that I was using my anger to get out the ice cream. I was getting more violent, then once I demolished the carton and had ice cream all over my hands and table, I just gave up. I let out an exasperated sigh, then slammed myself back into the couch.
"Soo..." was all Alice said, but for some reason, that just pushed me off the edge and I flipped.
"Can you believe them? Asking us to move hundreds of miles away, to probably the most busiest city in the world, to reenact the most loneliest girl on the face of the earth! Or WAS the most loneliest girl on the face of the earth! I mean, when they said you guys were involved, that made me happy, but the more they went on about it, the more crazy they seemed! It's like, why would they want us to do this? If something bad happened to us, they're going to think something similar happened to Tanya! They're going to start seeing us AS Tanya! It's just going to remind them how much of a depressing life she lived! This is not our fault, but we're paying the price! We can't say 'no', because then it seems we don't care, but I don't want to say 'yes' either! Why did she have to kill herself in the first place? She's just an overreacting bitch!"
I shut my eyes, and took 3 deep breathes, thinking "in... out".
When I opened my eyes, Rose and Alice were staring at me, both shocked, but Rose had a hint of a smirk. Neither of them suspected I would just explode like that, and neither did I.
"Ummm... Bella... we kind of already told Tanya's parents that we would do this for them... and we thought that you would've wanted to do it too! I mean, think about it. We're going to be in LA, the complete opposite of Forks. Forks is boring, and LA is everything but boring. Its full of opportunities! Its full of orchestras, theaters, and well... auto-shops? I think? Maybe? And they just lost a daughter, and for all we know, we could've unintentionally caused it. I honestly don't think we did, but you never know."
"Yeah Bella, I mean, really what is there left for us here? One theater, one restaurant, one gym, one store, one everything. In LA, we can go to a place that doesn't just serve steak and cobbler! We can go Chinese, or Italian, or Mexican, or French, not just American. And more importantly, more than one set of boys that we've known since kindergarten. There's at least a hundred times more options in LA. Here, you either chose between the weirdos or the pervs," chimed in Rose, before going off in some daze. Probably imaging all the different kinds of guys there.
"So, there won't just be weirdos and pervs? We'll also have the creepers, serial killers, jerks, nerds, child molesters, and burglars? Gee, can't wait for that," I said, rolling my eyes. They don't seem to get the point. In LA, we could just be walking down a street and get kidnapped. Or, since there's thousands of more cars, larger chance of getting into a car accident. They don't get that here, we know everyone, and there, we know no one.
"Bella, I love you, but you're really starting to get on my nerves right now. We can do anything we want in LA. We could get discovered! We can finally live a life that isn't stuck in this little town. Don't get me wrong, I love Forks, but we need to take a break. Because I don't know about you guys, but I don't plan to stay here for my whole life. We need the outside experience. And we can get one! We're finally in a place, where no one knows us, and we can start fresh! We can -"
But I cut Alice off. She obviously doesn't understand.
"ALICE! You don't get it! Yes, in LA, no one will know it, and it's a fresh start, but it's not a fresh start for us! Because we're not going to be ourselves! We. Are. Going. To. Be. Tanya. No one will be able to know the real us, and Rose, sure, there'll be bunches of guys, THAT WE CAN'T DO ANYTHING WITH. No relationships, no friendships, not even really TALKING. We're going to have temptation all around us, but we can't do anything about it. We're going to be just as trapped there as we are here."
That shut them up. I was finally getting my point across. Going there, will be just like staying here, except here, we can stay the way we are, but there, our life would be a lie.
"Soo... how are we going to break the news to them?" I asked, finally taking a bite of my ice cream. Well, more like milk-shake.
"Um... we? Bella, we already told them yes! We can't just back out! You're the only person that can say no. We're sorry, but we're going to LA."
That's when I realized the seriousness of this. The only one wanting me to stay in Forks, is me. And that's only half of me. The other half wants to stay with Rose and Alice of course, and also please my parents. And getting that million dollars can help get us back on our feet. And I'll be able to play violin at school, in the school orchestra. A whole hour out of the school day for me to play. Living with Alice and Rosalie. Being put in a movie. And the Denali's already went through so much trouble trying to put this together... I don't think I really have another choice.
"Charlie and Renee have been keeping something from me..." I started, looking down, watching the chocolate chips swirl around the melted ice cream.
"Whoa, wait. They're getting a divorce? Oh my gosh, Bella! If I -"
But once again, I cut her off.
"No Alice! They're still happily married. Umm... apparently we're having, financial issues? And Charlie and Renee really want me to do this, because it could get us back up on our feet."
Alice and Rose looked at each other with a knowing look, then turned back to me, and at the same time, said, "Us too."
Alice continued, "But Bella, seriously, this is your life. Just think about what you want to do, and just you. Pretend we don't exist. What do you want?"
I sat there, staring at the flower design on the spoon, already knowing what I'm going to say. I know what I want, and I know what I should do. But life's about risks. And you have to risk going too far to discover just how far you can really go.
I got up and started walking back into the kitchen. I grabbed the piece of paper off the counter and a phone, and dialed the number written. I heard Alice and Rosalie slowly walk into the kitchen, but I didn't look. It was halfway through a ring, when someone picked up.
A small voice came from it, with a small, "Hello?"
"Mrs. Denali? Hi, it's Bella. I'm in."
"Oh Bella! That's wonderful! Thank you so -"
But I never heard what else she had to say, because the next thing I knew I was being tackled to the floor with arms wrapped around me, and all I could feel was spikey hair tickling my face.