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10. Goodbye Love
Rachel wakes up the next morning with a pounding headache and a weak body. What happened last night? She manages to get out of bed and stumble to the bathroom. She nearly screams when she sees herself. Her hair is this big, curly mess and her makeup has smudged. Pulling her dress off and taking her shoes off, she hops into the shower and cleans herself up. After brushing her hair and teeth tiredly she goes and puts on a fresh pair of pajamas.
Padding out with her pink floral pajama pants and solid matching pink t-shirt, she's surprised when she smells syrup. It makes her stomach grumble and her head throb even more. She goes to the kitchen, surprised when she sees Finn, Hiram, and Leroy all sitting down at the table.
"Rachel!" Leroy exclaims. "How's my sweetheart this lovely Sunday morning?"
Rachel forces a smile, "I'm alright. Finn, do you have any Tylenol?"
Finn chuckles and tosses her the bottle of pills.
"Weird how we both have killer headache, huh Rach?" He jokes.
"Baby, sit down. Finn made chocolate chip pancakes and they are absolutely delicious," Hiram coos.
"When did you guys get over here?" Rachel asks confusedly, sitting down and taking a few Tylenol, washing it down with her orange juice.
"We made a stop by at eleven because you were supposed to meet us for brunch. But you didn't show up, so we got worried and came over here. Finn said you were still sleeping, that you guys were out late and offered to make us some breakfast. It was lovely catching up," Leroy explains with a smile to Finn.
Rachel's heart flutters in her chest. How sweet is it that he offered to make breakfast for her dads' while they were here? So sweet. Adam was so rude to them when they came and insisted the two to get a hotel room, for his beauty sleep was so damn important.
"That's very nice of Finn," She looks up at him and he offers her a soft grin.
They all have breakfast together, and it's totally de ja vu, because all of them, Finn, Hiram, Leroy, and Rachel, can remember odd weekend mornings when Finn would just stop in and they'd have breakfast. Occasionally it'd even be chocolate chip pancakes.
"I'm so sorry for missing our brunch," Rachel apologizes once her dads' are ready to leave.
"No, it's fine. We're going home tomorrow! Do you want to come back with us?"
Rachel nods her head excitedly, "I really want to see the house. God, I haven't seen it since I left."
"I love you, princess," Leroy presses a kiss to Rachel's forehead and she gives Hiram a big hug and a kiss on the cheek.
"I love you guys, too."
-glee-
"I'm so embarrassed!" She exclaims after they finished cleaning up and retired into the living room.
"Why?"
"Because my dads' just saw me when I was hungover," She pouts. "I mean really, what happened last night and how much did I drink?"
"Nothing really happened… You had three shots and I thought you were done by then, but you ordered a few more martinis. Said some pretty interesting stuff," He dares to tell her the last part.
Her eyes widen and she looks up at him, "Oh God, what do you consider interesting?"
"I asked you about Adam."
"And?"
"And you said he was an asshole who called you a bitch," He quickly says.
She covers her face, embarrassed.
"I-I."
"You also said that you were only marrying him-."
"Please stop."
"-Because you wouldn't have the chance to ever marry me," He finishes.
She looks away, red faced and teary eyed. How could she have allowed herself to say those things to him? And she can't deny it, either, can she? Because it's true. It's so true. That's all she's ever been doing with herself since she left. She just did things because she knew she'd never have that shot with Finn again.
"Rach," He breathes out. "Please don't cry."
He moves over to the couch she was on and wraps his arms around her protectively and pulls her flush against his body in a comforting motion. He didn't intend to hurt her. He just wanted to know if it was true.
"I-I made a fool out of myself in front of you," She weeps. "I'm so embarrassed."
"Don't be," He shakes his head. "Y-You were drunk, Rachel. It's not like you actually meant what you said."
But she did, she thinks.
She settles for, "Yeah, that's true."
She pulls away from him and wipes at her eyes.
"I love Adam so much, Finn, and I really want to marry him."
Lies.
He nods his head solemnly, "Then what the hell are you doing here, Rachel?"
She looks taken aback and the tears just keep welling up in her eyes. He didn't say it harshly; he just pointed it out and it was valid. What was she doing with him?
She shakes her head, "I-I don't know. I just… I thought-."
"That it was okay for you to just barge back into my life, five whole years later, and give me mixed signs about what we're going to be?" He dumps out. "You ruined me when you left Rachel."
"I'm not leaving you this time," She tells him.
"You're getting married. You're leaving me. You know what, I'll just… I'm going to go to my room now."
"Finn, no!" She holds onto his hands. "Don't, don't be mad. Please. I just got you back."
"You love him," He repeats.
She doesn't answer. Instead she presses her lips against his roughly in a deep and passionate kiss that'll probably leave bruises on both of them, but neither really care. He deepens the kiss, pushing his tongue in and wrestling it around with hers.
God, did he miss this. Nothing is better than kissing Rachel Berry.
Rachel whimpers by the force and straddles his legs. He stands up, his hand on her ass protectively, and lifts her up with him, her legs wrapped around his waist as he stumbles his way back to his room. He slams the door shut and presses her against the wood, pulling away and kissing hungrily down her neck and on her chest.
"Finn," She breathes out, her fingers tangled in his hair. She's trying to get him to stop, but she can't. She doesn't have the heart to.
She doesn't want him to.
He whirls them around, his hormones and feelings taking over completely as he goes over to his bed, dropping down onto it so they are both on their sides in one strong, passionate kiss. Rachel hooks her leg across his waist and moves so she's straddling on top of him, her body moving with their kisses.
He can't help but already have a major hard on at this and he puts his hands on her hips, pressing her against him. She rubs her hot center against his in terrible need of some friction. Leaning back, she pulls her shirt off to reveal her pert breasts.
Finn's hands immediately go up to them and he touches her, loving how they feel in his hand and how soft they are. As he pinches her nipples softly, she tosses her head back with pleasure and lets out a squeak. His hand trails down the valley between her breasts and smoothing caresses her skin before putting his hands back on her hips and pulling her down, rolling over so he was on top of her between her legs.
She pulls his shirt off and he drops his face down to her breasts once the garment is off, sucking on each one and causing her to squirm underneath him. He slides down the bed and lets his tongue leave a hot, wet trail all the way from her breasts and down to her belly button, circling around the navel twice before going to the waistband of her pajama pants.
"You're beautiful," He tells her, breathing on her skin and looking up into her eyes. "You've always been so beautiful."
That made her heart just practically explode with love because she'd never had someone tell her that while having sex.
She decides that it's different because this just wouldn't be sex; it'd be making love, and that was more intimate. An activity she and Adam had never engaged in.
He's about to pull the pants down when her cell phone rings loudly. They ignore it for the first five minutes.
He continues on and pulls his own pants down, now being painfully hard. He's nipping at her thighs and soothing the bites by gentle, sweet kisses.
The phone rings again.
She lets out a load, frustrated moan.
"I-I should answer that," She says.
"I'll go get it," He tells her, running over to her room and grabbing her phone. He goes back to her and hands it to her.
Rachel looks at the ID and sits up, answering it.
"Adam, hi," She breathes out, trying to catch her breath.
Finn's eyes go wide and he turns around, going into the bathroom.
"Where the hell are you, Rachel? When are you going to come home?" Adam whines.
"I," She breathes deeply. "I don't know. I'm going to my old home tomorrow with my dads'."
"Come back tonight," He begs softly. "I miss you."
She almost believes him because the tone of voice he's using.
"But I can't, I-I don't have a ticket."
"Good thing I already got you one."
She can practically hear the shit-eating grin he's wearing.
"I really wanted to see my house," She says weakly.
She really wanted to be with Finn.
"Can't that wait? I want to get you back here and I want to marry you. Right now. We don't need a wedding, we don't need fancy dresses and stuff. We'll get married and then we can start the rest of our lives. Maybe even have a couple of kids."
"Really?" She whispers.
As much as she wants to stay, she knows that Finn's not going to give her this. He's not going to marry her and he's not going to have kids with her and he's not going to grow old with her. They won't buy a house and they won't have Christmas parties with their friends and family every year. They won't start new traditions together. They're not going to raise a family together.
They're not going to work out.
And she has her shot right now; so she has to choose.
Does she go with being friends with Finn and having sex with him? Something that will die down as soon as it started. Should she go with the boy who is sweet to her and her family, who takes care of her and makes her smile and laugh and feel like she's on top of the world? Or does she go with the easy way out; the boy who is already willing to marry her and is going to give her children. The boy who may be mean and rough with her on occasion, who is uptight about everything, and treats her poorly. The one who will accept her right away and they can start their lives right away.
"I'm going home."