I know this is a fast update but I know you guys don't mind ;p I just want to finish this story for you all just in case ff does something like remove it or whatever. I am going to try and see when I can take some time to de-lemoned (like one of my friends here on ff says) my stories but if I don't do it on time and they are all erased then you know where to find me on my profile page. Just so you know some of you will like this ending and some of you will not. I can't please everyone but I hope it's good anyways :p
Enjoy
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Every day he tried calling multiple times a day and texting her couple of times as well but no response.
He was mad now.
She was being immature and stupid for not talking to him.
Months and months passed and he decided to stop the calls and texts. He was tired of her acting juvenile and decided to confront her even if she didn't want to talk to him.
He went over to Quinn's hoping Rachel was there.
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Quinn opened the door and Puck smiled caressing her seven months belly and they walked to the couch.
"Is she here?" he asked with some kind of hope in his voice.
"Nope." She sighed rubbing her belly as she sat down on the couch.
"How are you doing?" He asked.
"I'm pregnant with twins how do you think?" she chuckled.
"And you're here alone? You look like you are ready to pop." He said.
"Wow thanks." She said sarcastically.
"Just saying." He shrugged his shoulders.
"What about you? Are you okay?" she asked leaning against the hand rest.
He sighed and took a deep breath. "I'm going out of my mind. Seriously I need to talk to her. It was one day. One mistake. Big mistake. I know that. I want her to know that. I miss her so fucking much and she's being a bitch about it." He didn't even know where half of what he just said came from.
Quinn smirked knowingly. "Why does it bother you?"
He was aggravated now. "Because. What she and I had was great. I loved her in bed and out of bed. Just being with her was enough."
Quinn forced herself from smiling. "And yet you had to go and screw it all up by having sex with that slut."
"Damn it. I am not in love with Christine. I am in love with Rachel." He snapped.
Quinn was grinning from ear to ear.
He realized what he had just said out loud. Everything he had been feeling made sense now. "Fuck I love her."
"Then tell her." She stood up and grabbed her phone.
"She doesn't want to talk to me." He said running his hand on his head.
"Fuck." She cursed as she felt water down her legs.
"Exactly." He said.
"No, my water just broke." She looked at him with wide eyes.
"Fuck." He whispered.
"Exactly." She said sarcastically.
"What do we do?" he asked as his heart skipped nervously not knowing what the hell to do.
She started breathing heavily. "Grab that bag and call Sam and Rae on the way there."
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Puck was pacing back and forth in the waiting room when he saw Sam, Rachel and Max run towards him.
"Where is she?" Sam asked.
"Is she okay?" Rachel asked.
"Where's mom?" Max asked.
"Guys she's okay. Nurse?" Puck called out.
The nurse came over to them and took Sam with her. Max and Rachel waited with Puck in the waiting room. They sat down in the chairs by the wall. Max sat in the middle and he started to bite his nails. Rachel moved his hand away from his mouth.
"Sorry." He put his head down shamelessly.
Rachel smiled and gave him a kiss on his head. "Hey it's okay honey."
"Where is mommy? Is she okay?" Max asked with tears in his eyes.
"Of course she's fine. She's having your baby sisters or brothers. You're gonna be a big brother." She smiled warmly trying to make him feel better.
Max smiled proudly. "I'm gonna be the best big brother."
"Yes you will."
She smiled at him and gave him a kiss on his forehead and Max hugged her back.
Puck noticed the exchanged and smiled. "You're gonna be a great mom someday." He didn't even notice he had said that out loud until he saw Rachel looking at him.
Max looked back and forth between his godparents. "Are you gonna kiss her?" he asked Puck.
"I want to." Puck answered Max but looked at Rachel.
"Auntie Rae, can he?" he asked excitedly.
Rachel glared at Puck and then looked at Max. "Not right now."
"Why not?" Max asked innocently.
Rachel sighed. "Why do you want him to kiss me?"
"Because you two belong together." Max answered raising his hands like it was the obvious thing in the world.
"Really?" she asked amused.
"Mmm hmm." Max nodded.
"Says who?" she asked trying to hide her amused smile.
"Me, mommy and daddy."
"I see." She hugged him again and the three of them kept waiting.
Hours later, Sam walked towards them with the biggest smile they had ever seen on him. "Two girls beautiful just like her mother. She's sleeping but you can come and see them."
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Quinn was sleeping while Sam sat on a chair next to her bed. Rachel was seating on the couch by the wall while Max rested his head on her lap. Puck stood by the corner trying to decide when he should talk to her. Then they saw the twin girls being wheeled in by the nurse.
Sam smiled waking Quinn up. "The nurse said it's time to feed the girls."
"Okay." Quinn agreed.
Rachel was being overwhelmed with all of this so she decided to leave for a little bit.
"I'll see you guys later." She was going to leave the room when she saw Puck held her elbow. "Let me go." She said without looking at him. He walked around her so he could face her. She had tears in her eyes and was trying very hard not to cry.
"Rach..."
"I don't want to hear it." She said trying to move away from him but he didn't let her.
He snapped. "Well to bad cause I am tired of this bullshit. You are being a complete child avoiding and ignoring me. I am sorry about what happened six months ago with Christine. Okay? So sorry. It was a mistake and as soon as it happened I regretted it. I know I hurt you and I was so stupid for never telling you how I felt and made you think it was just sex. It was not. I mean yea in the beginning it was but soon it felt like more. I love you." He saw tears in her eyes. "I'm in love with you Rachel." Rachel let the tears fall not knowing what to say, so he continued. "Rae I'm in love with you since I can remember. I just didn't realize it until yesterday. I am so sorry for hurting you but I love you and if you give me another chance, I'll make it up to you for the rest of my life."
Rachel was in total shock. She couldn't believe it and she just walked away leaving an irritated Puck behind.
Sam and Quinn obviously had heard everything and they were shocked.
"At least you said your part." Quinn said.
"She'll come around." Sam added.
"Yea." He shook his head. "I'll see you guys later."
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Weeks passed and Puck had given up. He told her how he felt and now he hoped she would come to her senses.
Rachel was barely getting any sleep since the babies arrived home. She knocked and entered the room. "Hey how you doing?"
Quinn smiled tiredly. "I'm fine. They are finally asleep."
"Good."
"Listen, you need to talk to him. You're not getting any sleep and that can affect your performances. At least just move back in, you don't have to talk to him. Ignore him since you have mastered that profoundly."
Rachel rolled her eyes but knew Quinn was right. "I can't."
"Why not? You're being an idiot." Quinn tried to have her acknowledge it.
"Thanks." Rachel replied sarcastically.
"You welcome." Quinn replied back sarcastically.
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Puck was walking to work when he got a call and his heart skipped a bit seeing her name on the caller id. He answered cautiously.
"Here's the deal. I'm moving back to my room. I'm still paying for half of the rent so I might as well make use of it. I don't owe you an explanation but I need my sleep and with the girls it's quite impossible. So don't think I'm coming back to you. It has nothing to do with you. Got it?"
"Yes." He answered.
"Good."
He was still holding the phone to his ear even after she hung up on him. He couldn't believe it. She was coming back home. She said it wasn't for him but he knew he had a chance just with her being there with him. He smiled feeling a lot better and hopeful than he was just minutes ago.
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Rachel was outside the door thinking about going in. She didn't know if he was there or not but just thinking about seeing him, was making her nervous. She took a deep breath as she opened the door expecting to see him but when she closed the door behind her and she saw the dark apartment, she knew he wasn't there. She was feeling better not being there with him. So she headed to her room. As soon as she walked into the room, the memories of them together hit her like a ton of bricks. The room was just as she had left it when she moved out almost six months ago. She cringed her nose and started to remove the sheets from the bed.
She knew it was impossible to smell them, so her mind was probably playing tricks on her yet her heart ached just thinking about the times they were together.
Especially the night before he slept with Christine. They had had sex multiple times so passionately it scared her yet loved it so much. She loved him. The connection between them was amazing and it hurt her he didn't see that.
She knew she was heart broken because she couldn't control the tears from falling.
Hours later, the room was spot less and the bed with new sheets. She took a shower and then lay in bed. She closed her eyes in exhaustion.
Then she heard the main door open and her heart skipped. She heard the footsteps coming closer and saw a shadow by her door. She knew she didn't have to worry cause she had locked the door but the thought that he wanted to see her made her nervous.
She heard a sighed and knew that he was changing his mind and then saw the shadow retrieve from her door.
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Rachel soon found out Puck was the one avoiding her. He knew her schedule very well so he tried his best to stay away from her in every way.
She liked it that way so she wouldn't have to try to avoid him. She's not gonna lie, she did miss him so much but of course the thought of how much she was hurt that night always changed her mind about talking to him.
For a whole month not seeing each other worked for them.
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When Rachel got home one day not thinking about what day it was, she saw a stunned Puck in only his unbuttoned jeans holding a cup of water standing between the kitchen and living room.
"Sorry, I thought you were getting home later." He apologized.
She had to take a deep breath cause just looking at him was getting her nervous. "Well," she cleared her throat, "the show was canceled."
He tried not to smirk at the way she was acting. "Oh." He was happy he still affected her some way.
"Yea." She needed to get to her room before she did something stupid. "Excuse me." She started to walk but he stopped her.
"Wait."
She shook her head. "Noah."
"I miss you." He saw the emotions running through her face and soon saw the unshed tears.
"I can't." She tried to get away again but he didn't let her.
"Why not?" He asked so frustrated.
She was frustrated as well and snapped as her voice shook. "You broke my heart."
He felt so bad cause she was crying.
She finally told him how she felt.
"Rachel baby I'm so sorry. I didn't know you felt the same way and I was so stupid. Why didn't you tell me?"
She took a deep breath to try and calm down. "Because you told me you didn't feel the same way so I didn't want to be a fool and ruin our friendship."
"It did anyway."
She nodded. "It's for the best."
"Rachel look at me and tell me you don't love me? Tell me you don't want me and I'll leave you alone forever."
"I can't." she admitted again as her voice shook with small sobs.
"Why?" He closed the distance.
"Because I do. I love you and I..." He didn't let her finish as he kissed her.
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Rachel was lying half of her body on Puck's both blissfully fucked. He looked down at her and saw the crease in her eyebrows. "What are you thinking about?"
"I..." she sighed, "I love you."
"But?"
"Nothing... it's not important."
He moved so he could be facing her while he rested his back against the headboard. She sat up and covered her body with the sheets.
"Talk to me." He said.
"I'm just... it still hurts." She admitted.
"I know baby. And I'll make it up to you for as long as I can. You are probably tired of hearing this but I am sorry."
"I know. And I'm sorry if I seemed insecure and weak."
"Rae you are none of those things. You are going to be careful around me. I know that. Hopefully not forever but-and you shouldn't feel bad about it. I deserve it."
"Thank you. And I do want to be with you. I'm just gonna need some time."
"Good. I understand," he smiled caressing her cheek.
"Okay." Her phone went off and she looked at her messages. "I have to go." She said getting out of the bed.
"We still have more to talk about," he insisted.
"I know" She walked to the bathroom and he moved down the bed so he was lying on his pillows. He really hoped everything would be okay between them again.
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Two months had passed and Rachel was still a bit hurt. Yea she loved him with all her heart but sometimes she would just hear that bitch's moans and screams and it all comes back and she just hates it. Yea she could have left right away as soon as they had locked themselves in the room but she didn't want to risk being caught leaving or whatever. She shook her head noticing she wasn't making any sense. She needed rest. That's what she needed to do. Go home and get some rest. She has been feeling nauseated her boobs have been hurting and she was exhausted all the time.
She stopped walking and her eyes widened.
Holy
Fucking
Shit
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Quinn was smiling as she held one of the twin girls.
"I tell you I think I'm pregnant and you are smiling?" Rachel asked.
Quinn laughed. "Why are you freaking out?"
"Because Quinn, this was not in my plans."
Quinn snorted. "Everything that has happened in the last two years of your life hadn't been planned but it did. That's what happens Rach. We can't control our lives." She noticed Rachel started crying softly. "Sweetie…"
Rachel shook her head. "I don't know what to do."
"What do you mean?"
"How can I have a baby with someone I love and yet I have a hard time trusting?"
"I thought you had forgiven him?"
"I did but I haven't forgotten and that's worst."
Quinn sighed putting the baby on the crib next to her other baby girl and sat next to Rachel. "I know you're having a hard time with this but you both are probably going to have a baby together and if you do love him then you can move on eventually but it will have to be your decision. Okay?"
Rachel nodded. "Thanks Q," she sniffled.
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Puck was at the pub with Sam drinking beer and watching the game. Yet Puck couldn't really focus on the game. All he could think of was Rachel. He was beyond frustrated cause yes they lived together, slept together but he felt like she had a hard time trusting him and that bothered him. Okay she had a reason and he had been an idiot but he thought they were past that.
"How are things with Rach?" asked Sam.
Puck shook his head. "I don't know man."
"That bad?"
"I don't know what else to do, it's like whatever I do isn't enough."
"Sorry man," Sam pats Puck's back.
"Enough of this shit I feel like I'm growing a vagina."
Sam laughed and they went back to watching the game.
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That night Puck got home to a nervous Rachel pacing back and forth by the entrance of their bathroom. "Babe?" he asked cautiously. She looked up at him and glared as she kept pacing. "Umm what's wrong?"
"I've been calling and texting you, where the hell have you been?" she asked.
"I told you I was with Sam at the pub watching the game, you okay?"
She stopped pacing and looked at him. "Of course I'm not okay. I'm trying to reach you and you don't fucking answer."
"Rachel relax it was one night. I'm sorry I forgot to call."
She was about to say something when a ding came from the bathroom. He watched her walk into the bathroom and walk out with something in her hand and his heart started beating faster than ever before.
"How can I be with someone who doesn't pick up their phone when I'm freaking out? How can I count on you when I'll be pregnant with your baby? Can I rely on you to pick up your fucking phone when I need you or our baby needs you?" by the time she stopped talking she was hyperventilating.
He walked up to her and held her until she stopped freaking out. "I'm sorry baby. I promise you that I will be here for you both. I wish I could make you believe that you can trust me. I don't know what to do but I know that I love you and that I am not going anywhere. Do you hear me?" he asked as he rubbed soothing circles on her back.
Rachel was finally calming down and held him for dear life. "I love you too and I'm sorry I totally went all psycho on you."
He chuckled. "Yea you did but it's cool. You're still sexy as fuck when you get like that," he whispered against her hair.
She laughed. "You're an idiot."
"As long as I'm your idiot."
"And as long as I'm your only psycho," she said.
He laughed which made her laugh. "We're gonna have a baby," he smiled.
"Yea we are."
FIN
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