Finn was in his bed, just staring at the ceilling and thinking, something he had been doing a lot everyday after Quinn decided to leave. He just wanted to cry, but tears wouldn't come out of his eyes. He wanted to go over to Rachel's house and just be with her, but this time he knew he couldn't, she was the one who had ended things, and she was obviously hurt, he didn't want to ruin things more that what he had already.
He heard someone knocking the door. "Come in" he said, almost in a whisper. Kurt walked in with a weird expression. He knew everything that had happened between him and Rachel during the day, he had just talked to Rachel over the phone and she was just as broken as he was, she cried during the whole conversation and then she said that she had to hung up because Sam had arrived, she was helping him with his homework.
"What do you want, Kurt?" Finn asked him, still not looking at him.
"I.. I just wanted to see if you were okay"
"Do I look okay?"
"Well, you certainly do not." He said moving closer to sit on the bed. "Why don't you just go over to her house and apologize?" Kurt knew that if he did that, Rachel would forgive him instantly, she just wanted to know that he cared.
"Because she broke up with me, Kurt. I can apologize but that doesn't mean she will take me back" Finn almost sounded dead, and the last time Kurt had seen him like that was when Rachel had changed him for Jesse back in sophmore year.
Kurt sat there for a moment, trying to thing of something smart to say. "Why did you kiss Quinn?" maybe that wasn't too smart, but he still wanted to know.
"Because I'm stupid" he said simply.
"You are not stupid.. maybe a little" Kurt said trying to make him smile, but that didn't work. "Why didn't you talk to her after she asked you for some time? She told me that the first week you would be distant, and that after that you wouldn't even look at her."
Finn took a deep breath and thought of his answer, he knew why he had done that, but he also knew that as soon as he told Kurt, he would run to call Rachel and tell her everything, so he just had to be honest and hope that it came out right. "I stayed away from her because I know myself, whenever I try to fix something I end up doing exactly the opposite. I really love her more than anything, and I just though that the best thing that I could to was to keep my mouth shut until she decided that she loved me again"
"She never stopped loving you, Finn. She just needed time, but she thought that you weren't talking to her because you were the one who didn't love her anymore"
A small smile appeared on Finn's face, but it wasn't a happy smile, he was laughing at himself "See? Whenever I try to fix something, I end up doing the complete opposite" he turned his body around, leaving his face against the pillow, and started crying.
Kurt could feel him sobbing against the pillow, so he left the room quietly.
Rachel was fiishing her math homework with Sam sitting next to her on her bed. She was stuck in some stupid problem that she knew how to solve but her head was too busy thinking about Finn. She checked her phone every five seconds to see if she had any text or missed calls from him, but nothing. Suddenly she felt Sam's eyes staring at her. "Do you need more help?" she asked him, looking at his books.
"No, is just that I was thinking about what happened today"
"And what were you thinking?"
"That.. now that you are single, you could date other people, right? Sam asked, getting a little closer.
"I guess that's right, but why are you asking me that?"she could feel his body closer to his, but chose not to move.
"Because I know someone who would love to date you" his eyes were locked to hers, and he got even closer, she could even feel his breath against her skin.
"Who?" she asked, not moving an inch away.
Sam's hand touched her face so gently, she could almost feel it. "Me" he said, and without even noticing it, his lips were touching hers. She didn't pull away, but didn't move either.
When he pulled away, he noticed that her eyes were still closed and smiled.
"Why did you do that?" she asked once she recovered from the initial shock.
"Umm.. I kinda.. I really like you Rachel" he said, looking down at the books that were on the bed.
Rachel looked at him for a second, trying to figure out what to say. "Sam, I.. I just broke up with Finn, I'm not ready for anything else".
Sam looked back at her and smiled "I know, but I just really wanted to kiss you, I wanted to do that a week ago when we were watching that romantic movie, but you were still with Finn, so I stopped myself from doing it"
Rachel smiled a little after his confession, she wanted to kiss him in that moment too, but not because she wanted to kiss him, she missed Finn, and she thought that maybe kissing Sam could help her focus on something else other than Finn. "Well, I'm glad that at least you think things before doing them, but right now I think you should go, Sam" she wasn' mad at him for kissing her, but after that, she really needed to think things through.
"Don't worry, I get it" he said with a small smile on his face. "See you tomorrow at school, Rach" he stood up and gathered his things, then leaned down to kiss her cheek.
"See you tomorrow Sam" she watched him leave his room and layed on her back.
She loved Finn, she really did, but what if she also had feelings for Sam? Now she was single, and just like she had told Finn, she could kiss now Sam, and maybe she could even be with Sam if she wanted to. She took a deep breath and closed her eyes, her love-life was really messed up.
Finn was sitting in the choir room, everyone had left, including Mr Shue, but he liked staying there after school, it was quiet and he could think. Rachel had broken up with him almost a month ago, and he missed her more than ever. Every day he would sit in one of the corners of the room and wouldn't talk to anyone, and he would stare the whole class at her. He could notice how she and Sam had grown even closer now, and he heard Mercedes whispering once to Tina that they were dating and she was head over heels for him.
He couldn't believe she was able to forget about him so quickly and he couldn't get her out of his head, he wanted her back, but he couldn't have her.
The truth was that she wasn't over Finn completely, but her feelings for Sam grew and she wanted to forget about Finn. Now she was happy, or at least happier than she was in her last two weeks of relationship with Finn. Now she loved Sam. Finn kept avoiding her all the time, and she was tired of trying to make a conversation with him whenever Kurt left them alone when she had sleepovers with Kurt. It was only a month, but Finn's coldness made it easier for her to develop her feelings for Sam.
Finn saw how happy she was now that she was with Sam, that's why he stopped trying, it was killing him inside, but that was all he could do. Even Kurt told him to forget about her, he said that he had caught them making out too many time in her room and it clearly looked like she was over him.
At least Finn had stopped crying about her, he would do that every day and told Kurt he would hide his special creams if he told Rachel about that.
He was taking his books out of his locker when he heard them. Sam was putting his bag inside his locker and Rachel was waiting next to him. They didn't notice Finn was there.
"So, your place or mine tonight?"Sam asked her with a smirk on his face. Finn thought he could erase that smile with his fist.
Rachel bit her lips and looked up at him, leaning against the lockers "My dads won't be home tonight, so I guess mine" Finn knew that expression, whenever she was implying that they would make out all afternoon she did that.
Then they walked away holding hands. Finn could feel his heart beating fast inside his chest like it was going to explode. Why the hell that asshole could make out with his girl while he was alone thinking of her in his room.
They didn't bother in hiding that they were together anymore. At first maybe they did because of Finn, but lately they would even kiss in front of him without even noticing.
He went to his next class, one he shared with Puck and Rachel and sat down. Again, he was the first on to arrive, he was the first one to arrive to most of his classes now, before the only reason why he would arrive late to his classes was because he would be making out with Rachel in some empty class room and he didn't notice what time it was.
The bell rang and everyone started to go inside the class room, Puck as usual sat in the back and after almost 10 seconds all the seats were taken, except the one next to him. When Rachel went inside, she noticed that and sat next to him. Finn watched her as she walked to her seat and how she prepeared her stuff for the class to begin. She acted as if it didn't bother her that Finn was staring at her, but she did notice that. He couldn't stop looking at her, she looked beautiful as usual and she was using the perfume he gave her for one day just because he thought she would like it.
Suddenly Finn felt something hit his head and he turned around, Puck had thrown him a ball of paper. Talk to her, asshole Finn read on the paper. Puck knew that Finn wasn't over Rachel at all and he kept telling him to beat the crap out of Sam and take her back, but Finn just ignored him.
Mind your own buisness, jackass Finn wrote and threw him back the ball. He noticed that Rachel had seen what he did, so he tried to act normal.
You love her, aren't you going to fight for her? Finn looked back at him with a I'm-going-to-kill-you look on his face.
She has Sam now Puck read the paper and sighed, if he was Finn, Sam would be so dead now.
The rest of the class was pretty much like hell, she kept receiving text from Sam but he couldn't read what they said, and her smell was killing him. Even when she started to fight with the teacher because she thought that teachers shouldn't talk about abuse and discrimination as if it was a normal thing she looked so beautiful and perfect. He kept slapping himself mentally to look someother way, every time she caught him staring at her she would only smile and look back at the teacher.
At least she was over the awkward stage of their break-up.