Mr Shue was writting something in the board and no one was really paying attention. Finn was sitting in the top row, between Puck and was talking about Prom, which was going to be in a few days, everyone was so excited, but him. He knew that Rachel was going to Prom with Sam, and Finn had no date. Puck had asked Lauren and Santana and Brittany were going together, and then he was out of girls to ask to prom because Tina was going with Mike and Mercedes with Kurt and Artie. The best part was that they had rented two limos to go to prom, and he had to go with the same group as Sam and Rachel. That was going to suck so bad.
He really didn't want to go with Quinn. From his seat he could see how Sam whispered something in Rachel's ear and she giggled, slapping him playfully. It made him feel sick, and only the thought of them slow dancing at prom made him feel even worse.
"Finn, you should stop that" Kurt said, noticing how Finn was staring at Rachel, again.
"Stop what? I'm not doing anything" he said, looking away as if he wasn't watching her fooling around with Sam.
"You are staring at her again with your puppy eyes, she's going to see you" Kurt was trying to help Finn get over Rachel, but nothing seemed to work, he was as in love with her as he was when they were still together.
"Okay, I'm sorry" he couldn't stop looking at her, he missed her so much, at it really killed him to see her with Sam, but he still hoped she would dump him and go back to him, it didn't sound to realistic, but but nothing did anymore.
Once the bell rang, everyone started to gather their stuff and Finn heard a little of Rachel's conversation. "I won't be able to help you today Sam with homework, I have to pick up my dress for Prom" she said standing up and looking down at him with a soft pout.
"Don't you want me to go with you? I want to see how my girlfriend will look so my tux with match her dress" Finn's jay dropped instantly. Did he say girlfriend? No, he had to be wrong, they had been together for a bit over a month, he couldn't have asked her to be his girlfriend already! And she couldn't have said yes!
"No, Sam, I want it to be a surprice! You can only know that it's going to be baby pink" Finn could feel his face turning red with anger. She was supposed to be his girlfriend and his tux was supposed to match hers, not Sam's!
Puck had also heard everything and when Finn stood up walking directly to where they were, he tried to stop him, but he saw the look on his face and let him go, he looked awful.
"You two are together now?" Finn asked them, and they both turned their heads to look at him after he interrupted their conversation.
"Y-Yes" Rachel answered with a shaky voice, looking into Finn's eyes, which looked like they were going to pop out of his head at any moment.
"Why? Do you have a problem with that?" Sam asked, he had seen Finn staring at Rachel more than once, and he knew the guy wasn't over her, but she was now his girlfriend, and he wasn't going to take his girl away from him, again.
Finn's face expressions changed when he heard Sam; he was crashed, two minutes ago he was feeling normal. He had lost her, to Sam. "No" he said, and he couldn't take his eyes away from Rachel's. She was almost sure he was over her, but she couldn't be more wrong, but she didn't say another word, so Finn took it as a sign that things were completely over between them.
"Congratulations Sam" he said with a broken voice, and Puck and Kurt who had stayed there, just to make sure Finn didn't go all crazy on Sam's ass, felt chills run down their spines. Finn's voice sounded so detached than it had five seconds ago.
Finn turned around and exited the choir room, maybe going with Quinn to prom wasn't such a bad idea after all.
Knowing that Rachel had a new boyfriend was like having a whole NFL team jumping on top of him, crashing every part of his body. And he made a decision right there, while Rachel looked at him as if there was nothing wrong in the world and Sam sitting there with his stupid face staring at him ready to fight him, he had to get over Rachel, and now it wasn't a joke.
He approached Quinn, who was putting her books back into her locker, getting her stuff ready for next period.
"Hey" he said, trying to sound as casual as possible.
"Finn! What a surprise!" she really sounded happy to see him, maybe she was the first person who seemed happy to see him in a long time.
"You know, I was wondering, do you have a date for prom?" the look in her face grew even happier when he asked her.
"No, not yet, I was thinking of going by myself, why?" she asked him, but she knew where the conversation was going.
"Well, I don't have a date either and I just wanted to know if you wanted to go with me" he asked her, giving her his lopsided smile, which he knew girls loved, so she was basically forced to say yes.
"I would love to go with you!" she answered almost instantly, and he regreted asking her instantly too, but at least was happy he had a date for prom.
The rest of the afternoon was pretty much like every other day, he didn't feel like going to Glee club so he left school without saying goodbye to anyone, he got home and went straight to his room and did absolutely nothing until his mum called him for dinner. He sighed and stood up from his bed, but when he was about to go downstairs, Kurt stopped him and pushed him back into his room, closing the door behind him with an angry face.
"What the hell is wrong with you?" Finn asked him, he wasn't in the mood to talk to his brother.
"You have to stop this crap! That's what's wrong!" he looked like he was between tired, dissapointed and angry.
"I don't know what you are talking about" he tried to gently push Kurt away from the door but he wouldn't move.
"You do know what I'm talking about, I'm talking about this pity party you are throwing! I'm tired of having to explain your mum why you are acting like this, I know you don't want her to know it's because of Rachel, but I'm pretty sure she already knows you two broke up" Carole loved Rachel, and Finn didn't want her to know what had happened. Rachel had changed him in so many ways and if she knew he had done something that much stupid and hurt Rachel, she would be really dissapointed of him. And he thought that by now he would have already gotten Rachel back, but things were going as he had planned, Sam wasn't in his plans.
"That's my problem, not yours, now let me go" Kurt sighed at his words and opened the door, letting Finn go downstairs.
He felt really bad for his brother, he had never seen him like this, not even when he found out that Quinn's baby wasn't his. At school he would look normal, but only when Rachel was around, but as soon as she dissapeared, his sad expression would go back into his face, and at home it was even worse, he had even stopped playing with his video games.
Finn sat in the table and almost a minute later, Kurt came downstairs and sat next to him.
"Finn, honey, are you okay? You look really tired" Carol asked, passing him the salad.
"I'm fine, I just have a headache"
"You've been having a lot of headaches lately, Finn. Is eveything okay at school?" Kurt glanced between Carol and Finn, who's face expression hadn't changed from before, still expressionless.
"Yeah, everything is okay" if his mum kept asking questions, he would actually have a headache.
"Are you sure? Why haven't you invited Rachel over for dinner? She hasn't come in a really long time, I miss her company" Kurt noticed how finally Finn's face changed, and it didn't look better.
"Because we broke up" he said, shoving food into his mouth, he didn't want to talk about that, but he knew his mum would insist.
"You broke up? Why? What happened Finn?" Finn could feel his eyes filling with tears, but no one else notice because he had lowered his head.
"Because I'm an asshole! Okay? I'm the most stupid guy on earth and she broke up with me!"Finn yelled, looking at his mum, who now noticed the tears in his eyes.
"Finn, sweety, you are not stupid" she said, trying to calm her son.
"Yes, I am!" he yelled again and stood up from the table, leaving Carol a confused face., Kurt with a deep frown and Burt a little surprised.
Finn went back to his room and called Puck, his eyes were still watery, but he needed something to do. He didn't want to feel like this anymore, he wanted to be happy again and if he kept crying all the time about Rachel, he wouldn't go back to those things.
"Puckerman speaking, what's up dude?"
"Puck, can you buy some beer and meet me in the park in 15 minutes?" Finn knew it wasn't the right thing to do, but in that moment he wasn't thinking properly.
"I'll do it if you tell me you're over Rachel"
"I'll be over her if you do what I asked you"
"Then I won't dissapoint you" Finn hung up and ran downstairs. If he wanted to forget Rachel, the he need to make it right, and getting really wasted sounded pretty good.
When he got to the park it was dark, but he could see Puck parked, waiting outside his truck with a beer in his hand.
"A beer for the missy" he said, handing Finn a can. "May I ask the sudden need of alcohol in your sistem?"
Finn took the beer and opened it, taking a long swing. "Let's see, I'm tired of myself. I want to forget Rachel but at the same time I want her back. My mum finally knows that we are not together anymore and I didn't want to stay to see her reaction. Oh, and Rachel's been dating Sam for almost three months, so the 'getting her back' part is going to be harder" if that wasn't enough explanation, then he didn't know what was.
"Let me tell you that your life sounds pretty complicated, dude. Wanna go and erase that smile from the blondie's face?"
"Ask me once I've taken four more beers"
"If I were you I would have kicked his ass at least a week ago" Puck said, opening the truck's door to take a couple more beers from the front seat.
"Why a week ago? Almost a month ago you told me I should have beat him up" of course Finn wanted to shove his books into his mouth every time he heard Sam talking to Rachel, but why would a week make a difference?
"Didn't you hear what happened between pretty-boy and Rachel?" Puck asked with a surpised face. "Everyone's been talking about it for the last couple of days at Glee club, that's how I found out"
"I haven't gone to Glee club in a while. If you told me I would know, so speak" Finn didn't even ask Kurt about Rachel lately, so he really had no idea what was Puck talking about.
"Oh, I don't know if I should tell you, dude, it's pretty messy, to be honest"
"Tell me now or I'll make you drink that beer in one second" Finn said, grabbing Puck but the collar of his shirt, he didn't have enough pacience to talk about secrets, specially if they were about Rachel.
"Okay okay, I'll tell you, calm down" Finn let him go and Puck handed him another beer, he would need a lot of those after he told him what was going on. "The other day, like.. Tuesday, I was talking to Lauren about prom and that stuff and I asked her if she was going to let me have a little fun after —"
"Dude, you're gross" Finn interrupted him.
"Shut the fuck up or I won't tell you"
"Sorry, go on"
"Okay, so, we were talking about that, and just like you just did, Mercedes interrupted me to say that I was disgusting, and I told her that I wasn't gross, and that after prom was like the best opportunity to do the dirty, and she said that some couples thought that before prom was the best opportunity" Finn had no idea where the whole thing was going, but he kept listening Puck as he spoke.
"So I was like 'Are you talking about someone in special?' and she said 'Duhh, haven't you heard about what happened at Rachel and Sam's date on Friday?' and I was like 'No, why? what happened?' and she said 'Sam told us he and Rachel had sex for the first time because they wanted prom night to be perfect' or in other words, painless for her" Finn felt his heart drop inside his chest.
Rachel had sex? And with Sam? That was it, he was supposed to be her first, but now he wasn't, she was definitely over him. He was done with feeling sorry for himself, with missing Rachel, with wanting to kill Sam, although that feeling could stay for a little longer; with feeling like an idiot, if she changed him for Sam, he could change her too.