Title: Untitled
Pairings: fem!Kurogane/Fai
Rating: NC-17 (overall)
Warnings: sex, language, angst
Notes: Written by me and animeartist over at DA. ( me=Fai, her=Kurogane) There's a few things I still need to fix with this, but for the most part, I've gotten rid of the mistakes. Still looking for betas btw.
Summary: Fai runs a bakery right across from Kurogane's flower shop and it's a pain in the ass.

*heavy angst this chapter

~months later~

Everyone who knew and some that didn't know, Kurogane had been surprised to find a ring on her finger. It seemed most hadn't realized she and Fai had been dating, as there was usually a lot of threats flying around when the two were together at either of their jobs. Fai had been stressed to say the least when Kurogane had revealed the engagement to her parents, but they had taken it well and they were terribly nice people. If there hadn't been such a strong resemblance between Kurogane and her parents he'd have sworn she was adopted, what with her grumpy attitude and all.

Her parents were very excited to be a part of their daughter's wedding but Kurogane protested, which caused a fight which caused the stress the man was feeling. She didn't want a ceremony but her parents were very traditional and only wanted the best for their child. But of course she lost her temper and stormed out with the blonde. And now a few months later the two were off to go elope together.

They had made it to the court house over an hour ago, had filed and signed everything they needed and when everything was said and done they were married. Fai should have known Kurogane would have wanted this instead of a wedding, much the same as he had. Though thinking about what her parents would say had made him suggest taking a short vacation until things had cooled down between the three.

With his arm hooked with hers, Fai smiled. "Now where do you want to go? I can manage leaving the store in Watanuki's hands for at least a week."

She smiled slightly, "Sakura is covering the store while I'm gone as well….and it doesn't matter where we are going…" She took the blondes hand gently as they walked, "Anywhere."

"Hyuu~ Hotel it is!" He tugged her along towards his car, glad he had already packed a suitcase for them before hand.

Kurogane looked at the car and saw the luggage, "Wait…you already packed? You packed my stuff too?" She looked at Fai, "I don't think I trust your packing skills…there's going to be ruffles and pink things…and dresses…" Her eyes narrowed slightly as she entered the car.

"Do you own those things?" Fai asked as if surprised. He had packed a few lacey things, but it wasn't like anyone else was going to see them.

She sat in the car as the other started driving, "Just because I own them doesn't mean I like them or wear them…often." She mumbled the last word as she relaxed in the seat.

"I've never seen you in a dress. A camisole is the only thing I've seen you wear that even resembles a dress." He wondered where she stashed it.

"I'm sure you will at some point…It doesn't happen often, Funerals, Weddings sometimes, and some special occasions when it's required…maybe I'll wear one for you sometime if it's something you want to see." She smirked as she turned to look at the man.

As they headed out of the city, Fai glanced her way and smirked. "I bet Kuro-tan looks extra sexy showing off her legs~!"

"Why do I need to wear a dress to show off my legs? Shorts or even nothing at all work too." She looked out her window. "Were going pretty far huh? You had plans all along didn't you blondie?" She smiled slightly, "Where are we going?"

"I've never really seen you in shorts either, but I do like you in nothing at all." His smiled widened at the thought. "I didn't make reservations anywhere, just made a few calls to different places to see if they had rooms."

She looked at Fai with a soft chuckle, "I don't wear shorts often either." She looked back out the window again enjoying the scenery.

"We need to go to a beach then." He could only imagine how Kurogane would look in a bikini.

"I don't mind the beach." She stated as Fai continued driving, it was a long drive but once they got there the two settled down. Fai suggested dinner and had chosen a high end place which required Kurogane to wear a dress, part of the others plan she assumed but didn't fight it after all it was her wedding day they shouldn't fight. She stared at herself in the mirror for a few moments before opening the door to the bathroom and stepping out, wearing a sleek black dress.

"It was a good thing to stop by that outlet mall~" Fai said as he sat ogling the woman. He had decided on charcoal slacks with a grey-blue vest over a white shirt and a grey wool coat. They weren't dressed to the nines, but they had dressed semi-formal for their dinner date.

She crossed her arms and turned her face away with a blush, "Yeah I guess so…" She paused and turned a deeper shade of red, "…You look nice…"

He shrugged off the coat, thinking it was bit too much and it wasn't like it had been cold outside either. Fai stood and crossed the short distance to Kurogane. "You really do look good." He offered his hand to her and grinned. "Let's go eat; I'm hungry after such a long day."

She took it and gave him a slight smile, "Let's go." She squeezed his hand slightly as they went off to dinner. The taller of the two got looks through the evening at dinner and heard people whisper which made her slightly angry but she tried to ignore them. She knew she didn't look like most girls but she had the blonde idiot and that was all that mattered.

Fai tried to take her mind off it. It wasn't that Kurogane wasn't attractive, most just noticed her height and glare before anything else. Dinner went by quickly enough, they both had a good time of it and Fai had even gotten a nice beginning of a buzz forming from the wine. Not enough to get drunk of course, but enough to enjoy himself even more than he already was and besides they both enjoyed a good drink.

She smiled as they walked back to their hotel room, "That was some good food blondie, and the drinks weren't bad either." When they got to the door she watched the blonde open up the door, "We've had a long day."

"It was a good one though." He replied as he walked in and started unbuttoning his vest. Fai knew better than to treat Kurogane like the woman she was, having gotten yelled at numerous times already.

Kurogane undid her pony tail and smirked at the blonde as he stared undoing his vest. "It was a good day Blondie…" she walked over to him and wrapped her arms around him from behind. "Probably the best day…"

"I'm glad." He countered as he tilted his head back against her shoulder to look up at Kurogane.

"Glad…is that all hmm? Only glad on your wedding day, I would've thought you of all people would be giddy with joy." She chuckled as she looked down at him slightly.

"Kuro-wifey did look stunning in a dress." He commented, knowing she'd get flustered. "And I'm always giddy when I'm with you." Shrugging, Fai smiled, thinking it had been a good idea to get married after all.

She frowned slightly, "Well enjoy it while it lasts because it won't happen again for a long while." She kissed the top of his head, "Maybe that's why I can't stand you most of the time…I hate giddy people." She smirked slightly.

"So cruel!" Fai bowed his head as his shoulders slumped. "First not wearing a dress for me and now saying she's hates my giddiness."

She frowned again, "Not wearing a dress…then what is it I'm wearing right now?" She asked as she chuckled slightly, "And that's right I don't like giddiness…idiot."

"I mean in the future."He said, seemingly coming out of his depression. "Hmm...What would you like to do now? There's a TV and room service."

She sighed, "Neither…I'm actually tired; I might be up for some TV or a movie but only in bed." She pulled away from the blonde, "Now help me out of this thing idiot." She said as she turned trying to reach her zipper.

Fai's eyes lit up at the chance as he undid the small hook and pulled the zipper down for her. He kissed her shoulder once before stepping back from Kurogane. "Bed sounds nice."

She smiled and held her dress up turning back to the blonde and walking toward the bed. When she got to the edge of the bed she let the dress fall and climbed into bed. There was only a glimpse of the undergarments that the other was wearing as she climbed under the covers.

Undoing the rest of the buttons on his shirt, he stripped down to his own underwear, leaving his clothes in a pile on the floor. He turned off the light, leaving just the lamp next to the bed on before following after Kurogane.

When the blonde got under the blankets she reached over and pulled him to her. "You sure getting married was a good idea? Things may get a little rough from now on? Think we can handle it?"

"I don't see how things could be bad." They would argue like any other couple, but they did that when they had been dating. "Kuro-orchid can do anything~"

She chuckled and pulled him closer, "For once you're the brave one, you're not nervous at all? Blondie…" She ran a hand through the back of the blonde's hair. "I'm proud of you…"

Hugging Kurogane he smiled. "So much praise tonight. I'm blushing." Cooed Fai and reminded himself that just because they had rings now it didn't mean things had to change.

Kurogane was nervous it was a large commitment the two had made. The two talked until Kurogane drifted off while in conversation with Fai. She had never thought she would've biome a wife, never thought she could be happy with someone else, she was always a loner, but here she was happily married.

~months later~

Fai lay on his back in bed, exhausted, but far too happy. He stared idly up at the ceiling of their apartment while Kurogane had gone off to the bathroom. After they had returned from their impromptu honeymoon, they had moved all of Fai's things to Kurogane's apartment. There hadn't been any thoughts to move anywhere else as they both still worked on the same street and it was easier. Her parents had been disappointed and he was sure she had gotten an ear full, but they had wished them well none the less.

Kurogane felt sick to her stomach as she entered the bathroom, as her breakfast came back to say hello. She exited the bathroom after a few minutes her face pale and exhaustion taking over. She leaned against the bathroom door frame not saying a word, to stubborn to say something was wrong.

Fai had been no the wiser, still sated from earlier that morning after he had made her breakfast. It was one of the few days they had off work and he intended for both of them to enjoy it.

After Kurogane felt good enough to walk again she pulled herself away from the door frame and walked toward the blonde. After a few steps the room felt like it was spinning, "…Fai…" Were the only words she said as her knees buckled.

The blonde sprang up and out of bed immediately when he had seen her fall. Lucky he had at least put on his boxers earlier as he knelt down beside her. "What's wrong?" He pressed his wrist against her forehead, hoping she hadn't suddenly started having some kind of fever.

She shook her head, "…I-I'm fine…I just don't feel too good…" She looked up at the other, "…Fever?" She asked slight worry in her eyes.

"You're a little flushed." Fai smiled as he helped her up and back into bed. "Maybe it was a bad idea to follow sex after breakfast?"

She nodded, "All…that rocking must have messed my stomach up…I'll be fine once I rest…"She said as she was helped into bed.

Slipping in beside her he sighed and wrapped an arm around her waist. "Sorry."

She smiled slightly, "It's not your fault…it's…" She pushed the blonde off of her and got out of bed quickly and was back in the bathroom. The next few days Kurogane stayed home from work spending most of her time in the bathroom or sleeping.

Fai had worried over her the entire time, trying to get her to go to the doctor as he made her tea and cooked meals that would settle her stomach. But it seemed more or less sometime during the day, though not every day, she wouldn't be able to keep down any food.

After two weeks of the on and off symptoms Kurogane finally agreed to see a doctor. After they did test after test on her and making her wait impatiently the doctor finally pulled her in to give her, her results.

Being pregnant should have been an obvious answer to why she had been so ill lately. Though it seemed as if she hadn't wanted to believe so had shoved the idea far away from her. It wasn't as if they had used protection all the time, and they hadn't wanted kids so it made them doubly so to remember things. Sometimes however in the heat of the moment or late at night when they were too wrapped up in each other to care things, important things, tended to fall between the cracks.

When they left the doctor's office Kurogane stayed silent, she was angry, upset, awestruck and speechless. Pregnant…She was gonna have a kid…she couldn't have a kid…they couldn't have a kid…not now…they weren't ready.

Fai didn't like the look she had, but didn't ask as they left the hospital and drove back home. He couldn't imagine what it was, a stomach virus would have only last a few days, not over a week.

Kurogane walked past the store as Sakura leaned out the door, "Kurogane how did you-" She was cut off by the look the other gave her a look she had never seen before from her boss…she was crying. Kurogane quickly went into the apartment and into the bedroom. She sat down on the bed and buried her face in her hands.

Fai followed after, giving Sakura an apologetic smile before he raced up after her. "Kuro-rinta...what is it?" He stared with wide eyes, starting to panic at seeing Kurogane so distraught.

"…Fai…I'm so sorry…" She said her voice trembling. She had never been so terrified, "I'm pregnant." She was too worried to look up into her husband's face as she spoke.

He felt liked he'd been struck. "Pregnant?" He croaked as the color drained from his face. All too suddenly he felt dizzy and took a few steps to the bed before plopping down on the edge of it. "You're sure?"

She nodded, "Yes…they were sure…" Kurogane kept her face hidden in her hands her body trembling, "…I'm so sorry…"

"It's my fault too..." /Stupid/ he thought to himself, he shouldn't have been so lax, shouldn't have let his want for the other to cloud his judgment, but it had and they had had consequences."Don't be upset." He frowned, not sure who his words were meant for the most. A baby, they were going to have a baby, Kurogane was pregnant and it was partially his fault.

"How can I not be upset…We…we can't…were not ready for this…" She looked up at the blonde, this was side that Kurogane had never showed anyone including Fai, she never cried, she never showed weakness…she was strong. But right now she was terrified.

"It's okay." Fai sighed and moved, albeit shakily, to her side. "We both have jobs that pay well and can afford a baby; we're married and have everything in order." Financially and physically they were more than qualified for a child, but he wasn't so sure about the rest. He had never thought himself as a father and knew Kurogane shared the same thoughts about herself. "Whatever you decide to do I'll help."

She turned and wrapped her arms tightly around him and cried on his shoulder. "…Fai…I don't know what to do…I'm scared…I've never been so scared in my life." She tightened her hold on the blonde. Over the next few days Kurogane stayed home with Sakura working the store and worrying about what her boss was going through. After a while Kurogane slowly returned to work but didn't mention anything to Sakura just telling her not to worry about it.

Fai had worried, burning loaves and cakes as his mind wandered during work. He seemed to always be looking out across the street to the flower shop, thinking of Kurogane and of the baby growing inside her. They hadn't told a soul yet, trying to figure out how they felt about all of this.

Kurogane was more quiet than normal for the next two weeks. She seemed constantly lost in thought, she had almost no temper, hardly eaten, no anger just lost in thought. But one day Kurogane turned to Fai, "…I've decided to keep it…" She looked up at the blonde, "…It…will be tough…but…" She reached out taking the blondes hand and placing it over her stomach knowing that he couldn't feel anything or see anything yet. "We…can do anything together…" Their eyes met, "…Right?" She asked looking for reassurance.

"I said I'd help Kuro-chan and I meant it." He kissed her cheek and grinned. So they would be parents, it was strange and felt like an out of body experience, but he would manage. He did like kids after all.

She pulled the blonde to her and hugged him tightly, "I Love you." Kurogane hardly ever spoke those words but felt it was right to say them now. "You're going to be an amazing father…"

"Kuro-sama's been so sweet lately. Maybe it's the baby?" He teased lightly, testing to see how she would handle it.

She smiled softly, "Sweet? How I have been sweet I've hardly spoken a word in the last two weeks." She looked down and ran a hand through his hair gently.

"Saying things like that." He replied before kissing her. "We'll have to do a lot of shopping and you'll be wearing dresses near the end of it. There's a baby shower too."

"I'll have to tell my parents…and Sakura she'll be so relieved." She sighted softly, "Yes…I know…shopping and dresses but a baby shower really? I hate parties…"

"Your mother will insist since we didn't have a wedding." Smiling, there was a sense of relief over the baby. It would be hard and things would never be the same, but they could manage. "At least it happened after getting married. Now do you want something to eat? Kuro-daddy should eat lots if she's going to take care of the baby."

She smiled, "So I'm the daddy now? Does that make you the mommy? If that's so shouldn't you be carrying the baby? And yes let's eat." They wandered off to eat. Over the next few weeks the two broke the news slowly to others. Sakura was ecstatic and relived, Kurogane's parents were overjoyed, Watanuki was thrilled and of course the parents of the expected child had finally come to terms.

Fai smiled deviously as he walked up behind Kurogane and cupped her breasts in his hands. "Hyuu~ baby-chan is making Kuro-mam's chest even bigger than before." He tried not to laugh, imagining the put upon look by the woman. It had been almost three months of them running around, working, and shopping for what the baby would need.

She stood up straight quickly and slapped her husband's hands away, "Hey back off blondie!" Kurogane had turned almost back to normal besides the slight awkward cravings every once in a while. "Leave my tits alone." She smiled slightly before she felt a sharp pain in her stomach making her double over for a moment.

"Kuro-san?" Fai stared, brow furrowed in concern. "Is it the baby? Did you pull something? Sick?" He pelted her with questions as he touched her back.

She took a breath as the pain subsided for a moment, but just as she was about to stand again another wave of sharp pain came again. Kurogane winced and made a horrendous noise signifying that her pain was strong. She held her stomach and looked down and that's when she noticed the blood on the inside seam of her pant's. "…F-Fai…Call….call 911...n-now…"

Fai looked at where her gaze had fallen and stared in horror for a moment before he ran towards the phone. The operator had barely understood him as he frantically tried to tell them something was wrong. When the paramedics arrived they had insisted Kurogane leave on a stretcher, not wanting to chance her walking. Barely able to lock up behind him, Fai jumped into the back of the ambulance before it sped towards the hospital.

When they got to the hospital Kurogane was wheeled off letting go of the blondes hand as she was taken away, leaving Fai alone in the waiting room. A few hours later the doctor came back out giving Fai a sad look.

Fai had been anxiously sitting in the empty waiting room, watching the minutes tick by. He stood up curiously before the doctor shook his head. "I'm sorry, but she's had a miscarriage. Sometimes it just happens, we ran a few tests and there was nothing wrong with her. They're likely to occur during the first trimester and a good deal of them just happen." The doctor went on to explain things, but Fai wasn't listening anymore. A miscarriage. All that blood, Kurogane must have been terrified and now to lose the baby...

"You can see her now if you want to Mr. Fluorite?" The doctor said as he wrote something's down on his clip board. "I know this will be hard on the both of you. She will be in a bit of pain Mr. Fluorite both physically and mentally."

Fai nodded once leaving after he had been told her room number. It had been over an hour since he had seen Kurogane and when he spotted her lying in a hospital bed with a simple blue gown on he could barely stand it. When he walked up to her he reached for her hand. Kurogane wouldn't be in for long, maybe a few more hours or until the morning, he wasn't sure, but he wanted her home.

Kurogane sat their staring down in her lap her eyes moved up to look up at Fai when he took her hand. Her face was pale and her face expressionless, "F-Fai…" her voice unsteady as tears suddenly rolled down her cheeks.

It was the second time he had ever seen her cry and it unnerved him. "It's alright." Carefully he hugged her, unsure of what to do as his mind raced.

When Fai's arms wrapped around her she started to sob as her arms came up and clung to him. She almost melted into the others arms every part of her trembling from both fear and her sobs.

He petted her hair and tried to comfort her as best he could. "It wasn't your fault." There was no reason for why it happened, it just had, but he knew Kurogane wouldn't get over it for some time if ever.

"…I-I…know….I…know…." she held him tightly. She stayed like this until exhaustion took over with her falling asleep clung to the blonde. In the morning Kurogane was released but was not allowed to return to work for three days doctors orders. When she got home she sat on the couch and stared at the ground.

They had been afraid of a child, but to lose it in the first place and in such a sudden way had been devastating. Fai stayed with Kurogane so they could console each other. He rested his head against her shoulder and sighed. "It'll be okay." He wasn't used to being the strong one, that was Kurogane, but now he had to step up.

"…I'll be fine…Now that we're home…I feel a little better…" She stood from the couch and walked into their bed room and saw the items they had recently bought for their new child. She walked over to the small pile of clothing and ran a hand over them. "We…should return these." She pulled her hand away, "…I…also have to tell my parents…and Sakura…she's doing a good job with the shop…"

"I'll do it this week." Fai knew he should get everything out as soon as possible so as not to upset Kurogane any further. "And you don't have to tell them, I can do that too."

She sighed, "You shouldn't have to deal with this all on your own…it was our child…we'll do this together…I'll call my parents…it's something that only I can do." She turned and looked at the blonde, pain in her eyes. "…It was our child…" Kurogane felt her heart break at the word but held herself together only letting her eye become moist.

Shaking his head, Fai went over to her. "We have plenty of chances to have more children Kuro-min. It'll be hard to get over this, but we're tough right?" He offered her a smile, not wanting Kurogane to cry again.

Her hand formed a fist and it trembled, "Were not ready for children idiot! What if this happens again!…I can't do this again!" She closed her eyes tightly as her voice started to falter, "W-We are strong…but were also human…"

"You misunderstood. I mean years down the road. I would never force you to have another so soon after this."

She ran a hand through her hair, "…I-I know you meant in the future…I just don't know what would happen if this were to happen again." She turned and walked out of the bedroom brushing past the blonde. "I'm going to call my parents…I just want to get this over with."

To think only yesterday they had been happy, looking forward to starting a family and joking around. Now things had fallen apart.