Disclaimer: I don't own Naruto and do not make a profit out of the writing of this fanfiction

Warnings: Yaoi, self-mutation, suicide attempts, death (?), some OOC. This story is meant to be very dark and sad. So if you don't like major angst, turn back now.

AN: No, I do not hate Naruto (the character). I have warned in every chapter that this is going to be a sad story.

"Everyone can be great because anyone can serve. You don't have to have a college degree to serve. You don't even have to make your subject and verb agree to serve...You only need a heart full of grace, a soul generated by love."- MLK

Naruto tossed and turned in his sleep, remembering the cruel words Kakashi spoke to him during the rape. It hurt, it hurt so much and there was nothing Naruto could do about it anymore. Nothing was going to heal him, and no one was going to comfort him.

"You want to know something funny, Naruto?" Kakashi asked as he thrust forward once again, earning another broken sob from the blue-eyed blond beneath him. Naruto shook his head slowly and closed his eyes. He didn't want Kakashi to speak anymore, because every single word was like a stab to his already broken heart.

"Even if you go into a relationship with someone else, or even if you let someone comfort you, it will not matter, because you will be using them just as I have used you. They will be a replacement, and you won't really love them. Do you really want to hurt someone that much?" Kakashi asked, and Naruto opened his eyes wide, taking in everything. He believed it was true, he couldn't let anyone get close to him, because he would just be hurting them in return.

Naruto wasn't the only person in Konoha who was having sleep problems. Hatake Kakashi was also tossing and turning. However, his nightmare was very different from Naruto's.

"Kakashi-sensei!" Naruto called out, tackling the older man. Kakashi laughed as he fell to the floor, letting the blond hug him. After a few moments, Naruto pulled away, and leaned forward to kiss his lips. About a millimeter before their lips touched, Naruto was ripped away from him, into the darkness.

"Kakashi! Help!" Naruto yelled out as the shadows began to consume him. They wrapped around his body and pulled him away from Kakashi. Kakashi stood up, and tried to follow Naruto into the darkness, but it kept going further and further.

"Naruto!" Kakashi called back as the darkness consumed him at an alarming rate. At this speed, he'd never catch up!

Kakashi picked up his pace, and Naruto reached out with his hand. Kakashi also reached out, and their fingers grazed each other before the darkness engulfed Naruto completely and he was gone.

"Kakashi! Wake up, you're having a nightmare!" Obito shouted, shaking the gray-haired man harshly. Obito was awoken a few minutes ago by Kakashi, who was shaking and kicking. It wasn't really the shaking that bothered Obito, because Kakashi kicked off the covers, or the kicking, because Kakashi did that every now and then, but it was the crying. Kakashi was crying in his sleep

Kakashi sat up quickly with a start. He was freezing, but he was sweating immensely, and he was shocked that he was crying. He brought his shaking hand up to his eyes and wiped them. In the moonlit room, she stared in shock at the teardrops on his fingers.

"Are you alright?" Obito asked, worried. He gently rubbed Kakashi's back, in attempt to soothe him. He was a little disgusted that his shirt was slick with sweat, but he continued the massage none-the-less.

"It was only a dream." Kakashi sighed, truly happy that it was.

"Want to tell me about it?" Obito asked. He pulled his hand away from Kakashi's back and wiped the sweat on his pants.

"No, I'm fine. Go back to sleep." Kakashi said as he rolled onto his side, his back facing Obito. The Uchiha smiled and pulled Kakashi into his arms, as if trying to silently comfort the man. Kakashi had been acting a little sad lately, and he wondered why. He briefly thought it was because Naruto was ignoring him. Although, Obito didn't blame Naruto, because Sasuke was back, and Obito was sure that the blond wanted to spend time with his best friend.

'I wonder if Sasuke told Naruto how he feels for him.' Obito pondered as he gently caressed Kakashi's hip. From the way the man was breathing, Obito could tell that he had fallen asleep.

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"Dobe!" Sasuke yelled, pounding on the blond's bedroom door. Sasuke was shocked to find that it was locked, because the only time Naruto ever locked the door was when he was cutting himself. However, the blond kicked the habit already, so why would he have the door locked? Was it for privacy?

Sasuke also knew that Naruto was a heavy sleeper, but he was banging on the door and yelled loud enough to wake the next-door neighbors. When Naruto didn't answer after about ten minutes of pounding and yelling, Sasuke went downstairs to get the key. Of course, it would have been easy to break the door open, but Sasuke didn't want to scare the blond, nor did he want to have to repair the door.

"Naruto, why are you still sleeping? It's past noon." Sasuke said to the sleeping lump in the bed. For a moment, he feared that Naruto was dead, but he saw the lump moving, which meant he was just sleeping.

"Dobe, come on! Get up!" He said. He pulled the blanket off the blond, and stared down at his friend. Naruto was curled up into a tight ball on his side. The wraps around his wrist were off, and Sasuke concluded that the sheets must have irritated the wounds at night, causing them to bleed onto the sheets once clean sheets.

"Dobe!" Sasuke called out again, shaking the blond to wake him up. Naruto whimpered slightly and opened his eyes. The two blond orbs looked up at Sasuke in sadness, something that was extremely rare in Naruto's case. He never showed his sadness to anyone.

"Naruto, what's wrong?" Sasuke asked immediately, wanting to help his best friend in anyway he could. He wanted so badly to tell Naruto how he felt, to hold him in his arms and say 'I love you', but sadly, now wasn't the time.

"Nothing." Naruto responded, sitting up. He winced ever so slightly at the sudden and intense pain that shot up his spine and into his chest. Kakashi had been really rough last night.

"Don't give me that, Naruto! Tell me what's wrong! I can help you." Sasuke shouted as he crawled onto the bed, and pulled the blond into his arms. Naruto's eyes widened and he pushed Sasuke away, remembering what Kakashi had said to him the day before. He didn't want to hurt Sasuke, and he didn't want comfort if it meant he was only using someone to comfort him.

"Stop struggling, Naruto! What happened to you when I was gone?" Sasuke asked desperately. After Naruto pushed him away, Sasuke took him into his arms once again. Naruto resumed his struggle, but no matter how hard he tried, Sasuke would not let him go.

"Nothing! Why do you keep asking me? Just…leave me alone! I want to be left alone!" Naruto whined, still trying to get out of Sasuke's arms. But it felt so nice, and Sasuke's body was so warm against him. And his hands were rubbing his back in a soothing manner. He really didn't mind staying like this.

"You're just using him." Kakashi's voice said inside his head; and with a sudden jolt of energy, Naruto pushed the raven away, hard. Sasuke gasped in shock and fell backwards onto the floor. There was something seriously wrong with the blond.

"Dobe, what the hell is wrong with you? Are you going to tell me, or am I going to have to force it out of you?" Sasuke asked, standing up. Naruto frowned. Did it really matter if Sasuke knew everything? Yes…of course it did! If Sasuke knew about Kakashi, than he'd go to the silver-haired man and hurt him. It was possible that he may even tell Obito everything, and than Obito would leave Kakashi. Naruto didn't want Kakashi to be sad, because despite everything, he still loved him.

"Does it really matter, Sasuke? Who cares? Because I don't…" Naruto said slowly as he stood up. He had originally planned to train today, but what was the use? He wanted to become Hokage to make people acknowledge him, but now all he wanted to do was disappear completely off the face of the earth.

"Naruto, get back here!" Sasuke called out from the blonds room as Naruto made his way down the stairs and out the door. He was slightly shocked when he literally bumped in to Sakura, who seemed to be running some errands for Tsunade.

"Hello, Naruto." She greeted, smiling slightly.

"Hi Sakura-chan." Naruto greeted back. There was a slight smile, and right away, Sakura knew that something was wrong with her blond friend.

"What's wrong?" She asked immediately.

"Nothing." Naruto responded.

"Don't tell me that. I know something is wrong. Are you sick?" Sakura replied, wanting to help her friend feel better. Although, she realized it looked like something that had nothing to do with being sick.

"Wh…why won't anyone just leave me alone? I want to be left alone!" Naruto yelled as he pushed himself away. He turned heal and ran as far and as fast as he could, until he bumped into someone, and fell to the ground. His blue eyes stared into the face of the person he bumped into.

"Ka…Kakashi…"

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