Hey guys, here's another update. It's been quick because it's the holidays, try not to expect quick updates when Uni starts again in a few weeks. Thanks to kawaii01 for offering to be my beta and doing a wonderful job. Reviews would be nice :3
- Sinead
The first day was going as bad as Blaine had expected but for different reasons. He was sitting next to Jeff, so at least he wasn't alone in this. Jeff had been one of his best friends for years. Jeff's parents were in a vicious cycle where they got back together and then separated over and over. Jeff pretended he didn't care but it was obvious it affected him. You could clearly see it on his face any time they fought.
Blaine groaned inwardly as he recalled the scene earlier. He couldn't believe Nick and Maria were here. This was going to be a disaster. Not just for him, he glanced at Jeff.
"Shit man, what are we going to do? He's going to kill me. At some point in this camp he's going to attack me. It's just a matter of time."
Jeff snorted and laughed stopping when Blaine glared at him.
"He's not going to hurt you. Not while I'm around. I won't let him." Jeff said firmly. Blaine smiled.
"You're the man Jeff. I'm glad you are here. I don't think I could do this alone." He said glancing over to his family sitting at a separate table. Jeff smiled back at him.
"Likewise." His blonde friend uttered, dropping his head in embarrassment as his parents voices began rising at a table nearby. Blaine glanced around.
"There sure are a lot families with teenagers here. Do you think they do it like that on purpose?" Blaine asked scanning the room and not seeing many younger children.
"Yeah. I looked at the website before coming. They try to put similar families with similar problems together so that they can do group family therapies." Jeff said poking his salad with his fork curiously. "I think there's a slug in my salad." He said in the same matter of fact tone. Blaine laughed and leaned over to inspect Jeff's salad for signs of life.
"I don't see anything." Blaine said and shrugged pulling back and inspecting his own salad. Suddenly they heard a high pitched shriek. They looked up, both expecting a girl but instead Blaine found himself looking at the boy he'd made eye contact with earlier. The boy had soft brown hair accented with lighter pieces and was wearing the latest brands of clothing. He had fair skin and was pretty; genuinely pretty.
The boy was still shrieking and had thrown his plate across the room where it had fallen on the ground smashing. They heard Nick's voice ring out. "Calm down Kurt! It was only a slug." The dining room erupted into friendly laughter and Kurt, realising there was now no threat from the slug sat down again, turning a delightful pink. Blaine grinned and turned back to Jeff.
"Well there's definitely slugs in the salad."
Jeff grinned back and chuckled.
"That kid though. Shrieking like that. The poor slug probably had a heart attack. Look at these brutes killing slugs like they don't matter. Slugs matter too." Jeff said using a piece of lettuce to lure the slug out of his salad and onto his hand. Blaine smiled and shook his head.
"You always were the one to stop us from killing spiders in the choir room and to rescue them."
Jeff promptly inspected Blaine's salad and once he'd declared it slug free Blaine started eating it calmly. Jeff on the other hand stood and made his way over to the salad bar and began rescuing more snails by luring them onto his plate and once his plate had a few, walking over to the window and releasing them.
Blaine finished and took his plate to the dishes pile. He turned to begin walking, suddenly finding his path blocked by Nick.
"Why did you come?" Nick asked harshly and abruptly.
"I – uh… I -" Blaine stuttered and turned to look for Jeff. Nick followed his vision and they both watched Jeff freeing a group of slugs. Blaine turned back to Nick and for a second, just one second, saw the corners of his mouth twitch upward and his face soften but then Nick looked back at him and his face hardened again.
"Why did you come?" He asked again, sounding angry.
"None of your business." Blaine said, pushing past and beginning to walk away. He felt Nick grab his arm and try to pull him back but he yanked free.
"Leave me alone!" He said loudly drawing the attention of everyone in the room.
"I don't want to be here just as much as you don't want me here. So you know what? You stay away from me and I'll stay away from you and we can go home after this and go back to pretending each other don't exist." He turned and stormed out of the room leaving Nick standing there awkwardly.
Jeff abandoned his snail rescuing and walked out after him, only pausing to turn to Nick.
"Couldn't you just have left it? Why do you always have to start this? First at school and now here. Can't you just share the same space with him without verbally attacking him?" Jeff promptly walked out and jogged over to the tree Blaine was leaning against. "You alright?" He asked softly.
"Yeah." Blaine said with a slight nod before letting out a sigh.
"I know he's angry. I mean all that stuff with Maria but…" He drifted off not really knowing what he meant.
"You both promised that no matter what you wouldn't let that come between your friendship." Jeff said firmly.
"I deserve this." Blaine said dropping his head.
"No. Sure you deserve some anger but you do not deserve to be harassed and bullied. Especially not when he knows all that stuff you told us about your last school." Jeff said angrily turning away and looking out to the lake.
"I thought he was better than that." Jeff said so softly Blaine almost didn't catch it. Blaine looked at Jeff and opened his mouth but then closed it again. It wasn't his place.
"You know as well as I do that he would do anything for Maria. He would die for her." Blaine said grabbing a twig and tossing it across the clearing. They both watched it hit a tree and clatter to the ground in silence.
"So my parents felt guilty about fighting and let me bring my PlayStation. Wanna go play?" Jeff asked suddenly. Blaine glanced at him and shrugged.
"Which games did you bring?" He asked with a grin. Jeff laughed.
"Yes I brought Mario Kart."
"Hell to the yes." Blaine said standing straight and letting his stress roll off him. Jeff chuckled and led the way to his cabin. His parents weren't back from dinner yet, which was probably a good thing because if they were they would be shouting at each other. Jeff turned on the PlayStation and tossed Blaine the other controller flicking through the menu quickly. Both of them stiffened when the list of high scores showed up. It was all Nick; every last one.
Blaine watched as Jeff started the game, acting as if he wasn't fazed. He sighed, feeling partly responsible. After all, it was his fight that had caused his two best friends to stop talking. Nick and Jeff had been close. They had been best friends. They were the unstoppable duo, you rarely saw one without the other. Blaine had been close to both of them but not as close as they were to each other. And now… Now that was over and it was Blaine's fault. He watched as Jeff raced past him.
"What are you doing? I'm winning and I'm freaking Princess Peach!" Jeff said, looking over at him with a grin and Blaine shook himself out of his thoughts. He grinned back and started playing properly.
"I wanted to give you a head start so you wouldn't feel as bad when I annihilate you." Blaine said, dodging a banana. Jeff snorted.
"How is it that I never win at this game? I'm the one who owns it but I can never beat anyone." Jeff said in disbelief as Blaine sailed past him.
"Because you always pick Princess Peach." Blaine said with a grin and steering so that he spun over the finish line. "Boo yeah! 1st place."
"Did you just day boo yeah?" Jeff asked not bothering to hide his laughter.
"Blaine Anderson you are indescribable… You – " He stopped abruptly as they heard raised voices outside. Jeff sighed and stood up. "You better go. I don't want you stuck here while they verbally abuse each other."
Blaine nodded and squeezed Jeff's shoulder softly before walking out. He smiled brightly at Jeff's parents.
"Hi Mr and Mrs Sterling." He said happily and waved at them as they abruptly stopped arguing and appeared embarrassed. He knew it probably wouldn't stop the fight but he had to try. That look on Jeff's face when they argued was too much.
He walked past them and towards his own cabin. When he opened the door his parents were sitting on the sofa together. Blaine walked past and into the smaller bedroom without a word. Cooper had unpacked his stuff already and was sitting on his bed doing some kind of weird thing with his face. He glanced at Blaine.
"Acting exercises. They help with facial expressions. It's also a warming up exercise." He said in a friendly tone. Blaine sighed and collapsed onto his bed and pulled out his phone shooting texts to most of the Warblers, hoping they would respond. He sighed and stretched his back wincing as he heard it click.
He heard movement on the other side of the room but refused to look over. He didn't want to have to deal with his brother today. He knew that at therapy or whatever shit was on tomorrow he would have to so, for now he just wanted to pretend he was alone here or maybe alone with a certain light brown haired boy that shrieked over slugs. Kurt, that was what Nick had called him. Kurt. Blaine let the thoughts of Kurt wash over him and laid his head on the pillow feeling his eyes begin to close and dreams begin to take hold.
When Blaine woke it was morning. He stumbled out into the kitchen blearily heading towards the jug to make himself a coffee. He grabbed a mug and the container of coffee and making his drink, taking a sip before turning around and freezing, as he saw his father sitting at the table looking back at him. His father quickly glanced back down at the paper, avoiding Blaine's vision. Blaine awkwardly sat down at the table and grabbed himself some cereal. He ate his cereal and drank his coffee in silence.
When he was almost finished his breakfast his mother walked out.
"Good morning." She said to both of them. Blaine nodded in her direction and his father grunted. His mother sat next to his father and looked at him.
"Blaine, what was all that stuff with that boy?" Blaine looked up surprised.
"Oh you mean Nick. I know him from school. He hates me." Blaine said with a shrug. His mother frowned.
"Oh, why? And who was that blonde boy you spent all day with? Is he…?" Blaine sighed and rolled his eyes.
"I don't want to go into it. And no. He's just a friend. Gay guys can have friends too." He said more abruptly than he meant to. He stood and put his dishes in the sink.
"We have to be at the clearing in ten minutes." His mother said softly, pouring a bowl of cereal and taking it into where Cooper was sleeping. Blaine sighed and walked out of the cabin to the camp site. There was no harm in going early and it got him away from the awkward situation in the cabin. He glanced around, as there were a few people scattered around the clearing. He spotted a blonde head and headed towards it flopping down next to Jeff. He knew not to say anything. Jeff was not a morning person and currently looked like he would kill anyone who talked to him.
A young teenage kid, Blaine couldn't tell if it was a boy or girl, sat down on the other side of him and nodded in greeting. Blaine smiled back.
"Hey. I'm Blaine Anderson."
"Hi. I'm Tyler Morgis." The kid replied. Blaine nodded, it was a typically male name but it could be female. He knew it would be rude to ask so he didn't. He didn't think it really mattered anyway.
Sally, who it seemed dealt with all the speeches, stood and clapped her hands calling them to attention.
"Well, day one is here and I for one am excited!" She exclaimed grinning at them all. Blaine couldn't help but smile. She was so bright and happy, it was kind of contagious. Although it seemed she had no effect on Jeff who still looked homicidal.
"Today will be a quiet day, where we will do our first evaluations. Family therapy sessions and activities don't start until tomorrow. So, spend lots of time making friends. Going first will be the Adam family, followed by the Anderson family and so on in alphabetical order. The times are written on the notice board outside the dining hall so please check that. We have board games available from the front office and the sports shed will be open all day so, feel free to use those. We must ask that you don't go into the lake as our lifeguards are not here yet and there will be plenty of time for this once activities start. I hope you all have an amazing day and make some new friends but don't forget to spend some time as a family too."
They all clapped as she stepped down. Blaine sighed.
"What do you think will be in the family therapy evaluation thing?" He directed the question at Jeff but he just shrugged. Tyler spoke up.
"They want to know why you're here. What problems your family has and come up with a strategy to deal with." Tyler smiled at Blaine and Jeff who were staring blankly.
"Sally's my mum. I'm here every summer."
"Oh, does she make you come?" Blaine asked curiously.
"No. I choose to come. I like to help out and it's nice to see families leave happier than they came." Tyler said with a smile.
"So, everybody get's better?" Blaine asked.
"Not everybody, but like my mum says; even if we just help one person it's a success, so we try our best and usually people leave at least more willing to accept each other. There have been families so broken apart that one summer wasn't enough. Some families come back, some don't and that's hard you know. It hurts to see families break apart, when they are supposed to always love each other, but the world isn't perfect." Tyler said.
"Wow, Sally really is your mother." Jeff said, his tone abrupt.
"Don't mind him. Jeff is homicidal any time before 10am." Blaine said with a grin, ignoring Jeff's glare. Tyler smiled back.
"Oh I see. Yes, my father is like that which is why he isn't here right now."
Blaine chuckled but felt his face fall as he spotted his family.
"Looks like we're up soon." He said gesturing to his family standing as a group near the therapy room. "I'd better go." He said resignedly.
"Good luck." Jeff said with as much sincerity as could be mustered at that time of morning. Blaine smiled.
"Thanks. It was nice to meet you Tyler and Jeff I'm coming to your cabin once this is done. Something tells me Mario Kart might be needed as a distraction."
Tyler smiled and raised a hand in response. Jeff nodded and also waved. Blaine walked over to stand near his family. He was nervous. That was an understatement; he literally had no idea what was going to happen. He hoped it would help but remained realistic. He hadn't spoken to his father or brother in two years and had no plans to anytime soon. His relationship with his mother was strained as well. He knew that was partly his fault but couldn't bring himself to feel guilty.
The door opened and the Adam family walked out, not looking very happy at all which increased Blaine's nervousness significantly. They all walked in. The seating was obviously the first test as there was more seats than necessary. Blaine watched as Cooper sat down on one of the chairs in the middle, his mother sat next to him and his father sat next to her. He knew he should but there was no way Blaine was going to sit next to his father so he sat down putting two empty chairs between his father and himself.
The woman looked on and smiled at them.
"Well, now that you are all settled I would like to introduce myself. I am Maureen and I'm the therapist here. I know that you must be nervous but please relax. I'm here to help, so if you could all introduce yourselves that would be great. Let me know where you live, what you do, and why you are here."
Blaine's mother spoke first in a shaky voice.
"My name is Helen Anderson. I live in Newark, Ohio with my husband and son. I'm a stay at home mother although since my sons are all grown up I guess I'm just a house wife. I'm here because I want to be a family again but my husband and elder son are not currently even speaking with my younger son and it hurts to see that. I want us to be able to sit at the dinner table and talk. I want us to live in love. I want my family back." Maureen nodded and took a few notes before looking to Blaine's father.
"My name is Doug Anderson. I live in Newark. I am the CEO of a business that ships things across America and internationally. Like Fedex but better. I'm here because my wife asked me to come and I… I miss my son."
Blaine frowned knowing the son he missed was the son he wanted, not the son he had.
"Hi, I'm Cooper Anderson. I live in Newark with Mum and Dad but I intend to move out to LA next year. I have a job at Dad's company but I'm going into acting. I'm here because I don't want to hear Mum cry herself to sleep anymore. I don't want to hear awkward silences. I want to see Blaine in the holidays. I want to repair the damage done."
Blaine cocked his head slightly. Cooper sounded genuine but it was hard to tell. He was after all his father's son. Blaine sighed and spoke up.
"I'm Blaine. I live in Westerville, Ohio at my school. I'm a student at Dalton Academy for boys. I'm here because my Mum begged me. I don't really see this going anywhere but I thought I'd at least try. After all I've got nothing to lose." Blaine said honestly.
Maureen looked up from her notes.
"Okay, well I can see we've got some work to do. I would like to ask a few questions to establish where this came from and how we got here. Firstly, Blaine you live separately from the rest of your family. Why is that?"
"Mostly because it's easier for school. I used to live in Newark but I got bullied at school so, I transferred." Blaine said not really wanting to talk about it.
"Okay, and I'll ask you this Helen because you are the only one with a somewhat functional relationship with everyone in this family. What happened? You all speak of wanting it back the way it was before. What changed?" Maureen asked looking up with a polite smile.
"Well…" Blaine's mother hesitated. Blaine sighed.
"I came out." He spoke up. "Not to everyone. Just to my family. They are supposed to be the accepting ones who love you no matter what so, I told them and they didn't approve. I wasn't going to sit there and be treated like that so, I stood up for myself. He didn't like that. So, it was just easier for us to pretend I wasn't part of the family." He said pointedly, feeling triumphant when his father's anger began to show.
"Alright. So, Doug you didn't approve of Blaine coming out?" Maureen asked looking at his father.
"No." He said simply. "I thought he'd grow out of it but I guess…" Blaine flinched knowing his father was just saying it to get to him.
"And what about you Cooper?" Maureen asked looking over to where Cooper sat.
"I – I didn't approve. I reacted badly and I'm…" He stopped talking as he received a glare from his father.
"Okay. This will be a subject we will continue to discuss over the weeks and hopefully make some head way. For now we will leave the topic behind us. Are there other issues you would like to discuss?" Maureen asked.
"Well… Doug and Cooper spend an awful lot of time at the office. I think part of the reason I feel so alone and like our family is broken, is because I'm always at home alone." Blaine's mother said. Blaine sighed and tuned the rest of that discussion out. He finally tuned back in just to hear the ending.
"Okay, we'll discuss that as well next time. For now you can go. I hope you can spend some time together before our next session. It was nice to meet you all." Maureen concluded with a smile. Blaine smiled back weakly before heading out and straight towards Jeff's. It was going to take some serious Mario Kart to make him forget that discussion.
