On the day when Tomoyo encouraged Syaoran to confess his feelings to Sakura
Dear Sakura,
I am an idiot. An absolute, helpless idiot.
I know I have no chance from the start. Then why should I let others have chances to have you? I am shattering my last hope. God, how can I be so stupid?
I am telling my enemy to woo you, Sakura. Yes, I am asking other person to woo you. And this other person is Syaoran Li. I am helpless. I am hopeless. And I know he has won your heart already, even you still have not notices it yet.
Knowing hopelessness is one thing. Seeing my hope shattering is another. Can you imagine how hard it was for me to hold myself as one when encouraged him to confess you his feelings? I felt like a million swords piercing through my heart. Again and again. Back and forth. Nobody can help me. I still need to hold my tears back and smile and lay out the whole situation to him.
I do feel very angry with myself. Why do I love someone who won't love me back as I want to? Why should I let others have my beloved one? I am crazy. Yet I also know why: you are in love with him, not me. You two can make each other happy and become a better couple. My lifetime wish is to make you feel happy until the end of your life. This is the only reason that can explain why I let Li have you.
Promise me, keep being happy, Sakura, okay?
Yours
Tomoyo