Chapter 18 - Love leads to Hate.

Trembling in fear, I heard loud footsteps approach the door. As I feared, that navy blue, dark eyed samurai 4 years older than I had indeed come to put an end to my current relationship with my lover.

The door was forced open, as the knob hit the adjacent wall; it vibrated through the entire house from the strength behind it, causing a loud BANG to reach our ears.

"Oy! Moyashi! Fu**ing Usagi!"

I cowered in fright as said rabbit approached him boldly.

"Yes?" However, he was who the intruder had come to vanquish.

"Heh, having great time together I see." He grabbed my boyfriend's collar. "Well, I hope you enjoyed your last moments together since they'll be your last you thief!" The one who had been grabbed hadn't flinched at all, it was like he had been expected it since he had all known his attacker for many years.

"I never stole Allen away from you, I let him choose and I am sorry for your loss I never knew about it." No fear was shown in his voice, I could never think of why this was happening, no, the better way to put that is that I knew but didn't want to accept it: Lavi would die because of me, because I had to go and love him after I had dumped someone who was incredibly violent. How could I have been so stupid to not notice that Kanda wouldn't ever let it go if he had ever found out why he had his heart broken? In the end, I was about to lose another precious person and it would again be my entire fault just because I didn't use something called 'logic'. But of course, being how I am I always try to get them back no matter what the means, or at least stop them from going away in the first place. But how was that going to happen now? My lover could be easily killed by his predator before I could even move to try on attempt to stop it.

"Don't lie to me!"

Slice. Blood was shed along with my tears as I saw what had taken place.

Screams of pain and my pleas echoed throughout the room in which red paint had splattered across its walls.

"Kanda! Stop it!" I was either not heard or ignored, whichever way it was he never stopped.

"STOP IT!" I yelled. My whole being shock from what I had just seen, my heart beats were quick and my breathes were short and raspy. Despite how loud I had wailed, Lavi was still asleep and, to my fortune, still in one piece, with all forms of cuts non-existent in reality and stayed locked in my sub consciousness. I don't want to lose him, or anyone else ever again, I want this conflict to cease, but how can I think that when I am the cause. I settled back into bed with Lavi, seeking for his warmth which had always helped me from awful nightmares, but also feeling guilty that the reason Lavi's life would end sooner was the one who was hugging him right now, which would seem to others that said person only held him in a cold embrace that held no warmth which was only striving to steal his heat. Although, I could have sworn as I snuggled up to him I had felt his arms tighten around me. But never the less, I was cosy in his embrace.

*POV Switch*

I had heard but pretended not to. Even if I did reveal I had awoken, what could I have said? I knew exactly (well, maybe not fine details, but the general idea) what he had dreamt about: Kanda killing me and him seeing all of it. I could also guess that he would think it's his fault, which only added fuel to the fire after what happened with Mana as he had told me which he had carried the entire blame for. All I could do was help him believe that I wouldn't be dying any time soon, but how can I convince him when I'm not even sure myself? I mean, sure, when at the Order I'd be constantly threatened by Kanda with Mugen, and even that time when he attacked me and Miranda when we were all on a mission together with his Hell Insects because of some stupid argument about which Akuma he was about to fight, but that was when the reason wasn't strong enough to actually kill one of his comrades. This reason, however, was one of the things Kanda was touchy on. Within my thought, I felt his arms wrap around me tightly, but that wasn't the only thing, he was trembling violently. It must've really shaking him up. Now even I'm feeling like it's my fault. I guess this is how Allen feels, knowing that you're the cause of someone else's suffering, especially when it's someone you love, it's like the closer you are to that person, the more it hurts when you see them upset, even more when it's your fault. I'm sure Allen's going through much worse because I'm only upset because he is, he's upset because I could be dead on this day and last I checked, I'm pretty sure that is much worse because once someone's gone like that, they've disappeared forever. What should I do? What can I do now? Well, I may not come up with an answer, but, that was suddenly pushed to the back of my mind when someone came through the door. Allen could here their feet pounding against each individual step. He turned his head towards the door, eyes widening in fear. He was so close to me that I could feel his small heart beating quickly.

*BAM* although, despite his worrying, it wasn't who he was expecting, it even caught me off guard.

"Idiot Apprentice!" Of all people, why did he have to come in? Also, how the hell did he get in my house? The way he slurred his syllables showed that he had drunk way too much last night for Christmas. Speaking of Christmas, my little beansprout ate like a beast despite his gentlemanly ways, even I was surprised. As said beansprout saw who had stormed through the door, he went pink in the face.

"M-master?" He quickly let go.

"I knew you had something going on between you two." He looked directly at Allen with his single eye, well, guess I ain't the only single-eyed one around here. "Where were you last night?"

"Here." Allen said bluntly.

"Obviously. Why weren't you at home?"

"For the sake of my health." Wow, he could put up a good argument with this guy. "Besides, you'd just be asking me to get more wine even though I'm a minor." After hearing that, I'm sure one could feel sorry for Allen, but he was just brush it off as normal.

"You can't just keep leaching off this guy."

"I'm not!" This was starting to get out of hand.

"Allen, he's got a point, I'm not saying that I don't like having you here, but you do have to go home at some point." Allen pouted, but he understood.

"Fair point."

"Right then, get you butt outta bed before I drag you back home in your boxers." He threatened.

Never in my life have I seen Allen get changed to fast and before I knew it, he was already at the door.

"I'll see you later Lavi!" Then he was gone.

*POV Switch*

How I could have done that to him I don't know, but Lavi wanted me to go back to my house and so did Cross, so I didn't have much choice in the matter. I ended up going back home even though Kanda's threat still hung in the air. All I can hope is that Kanda doesn't go round when I'm not there and then find some excuse or wait until Master's gone out so I can sneak back to Lavi's and make sure he's still in one piece. Then the thought just occurred to me: there's an incredible creation called 'MSN'. How I hadn't thought of that any sooner was beyond me, it's probably me thinking that I'm in the 19th century again because I'd never seemed to get all the bits and bobs of the modern world. (If anyone got that, consider yourself a -man fan). That only hastened my pace on my way home.

However, my plan didn't go as smoothly as I had originally hoped it would.

As I stepped in the house I instantly bolted to the stairs until a large hand, belonging to a furious red-head who was supposedly my 'Guardian', grabbed me by the scruff of my neck.

"Where do you think you're going Idiot Apprentice?" His eye gleamed with pure evil, a true demon in my eyes. "Gonna talk to your gay boyfriend?" Crap, I was done for.

"Ah...well...about that...erm" Here it comes.

"YOU TOLD ME NOTHING WAS GOING ON BETWEEN YOU TWO!" Only a simple maths equation is need to describe what happened to me next:

Hammer + Head = K.O

Well, so much for my previous idea, because now, instead of looking into the light of my laptop, I was staring at the dark behind my eyelids as they snapped shut on impact.

*meanwhile, a certain redhead frets*

Sitting alone playing on Kingdom Hearts 2 after completing it again for the who-know-how-manyth time (last he checked, it was about 20, but something told him he had exceeded that amount), a rabbit trembled. It was so unlike him, and many others would agree, but considering his current situation, one can be assured this isn't unusual, even if the reason why was. I won't die, but I won't kill Kanda, I need to settle this somehow. If I had known beforehand I would of already been through this so we'd come to a conclusion (if a violent one at that). But now that Allen knows about his death threat, that's only made Allen worry about the outcome.

What to do.

What can be done?

The same questions ran continuous laps in his mind. He tried to focus back to his game to prevent himself dying against Twilight Thorn on The Third Day of Roxas's story, which, to him, was quite easy but when he was thinking elsewhere, it became difficult. As he was a good player and had practically memorized his opponent's fighting pattern, he defeated it obscenely quickly which many reaction commands, perfect timing, and speedy attacking. Not a great victory in his eye as he had seen this too many times, so much he even knew what he received from it. Why he still had an addiction to this game he had no idea, maybe it was just a distraction for when he wanted to avoid thinking about something, which was indeed the case. However, his idea hadn't proven successful so far, so thus, he saved his game at the Struggle tournament and switched off his PS2. He then logged onto MSN on his Laptop that was resting on his desk which was surrounded by books containing all sorts of history. Hoping that Allen was online, said red-head stared at screen, wished that it would hurry up and give him access to communication with said Beansprout. Speaking of him, another person had come to mind, but not in a good way. He eventually logged on and saw Allen had already. He went to click on his username.

Almost as if on cue, there was a knock - no, a bang - at his door, and a forceful one at that...

*a few minutes earlier, he finally awakes...*

Cold.

He had just been abandoned on the floor, quite typical since this was his master's doing, which was indeed cold. Slowly, he managed to get into a sitting position without much difficultly, and then rose into standing. He dragged himself all the way upstairs before a certain 'guardian' of his decided to knock him out again. He then returned to what he had originally planned, and saw that a certain someone had yet to go online. It was perfectly understandable, he was just hoping, but then again, Lavi had a lot on his mind right now. Tremble. After all, one would want to avoid the one who would cost him his life because of stupid mistake that could have so easily been avoided. A shaky smile curled his lips, a fashion that was rare on his face. Yeah, no wonder Lavi wasn't talking to him, right? His cheeks became soaked from a clear fluid from his silver eyes. Being his cause of death, no, it's not like he's gone already! His mental state wavered. He's still here and it's not your fault! He tried to remain stable, but it was difficult. Don't go thinking like that! Could he be sure of what he was saying? But, if it weren't for me, if I hadn't met him, if I had tried to sort things out with Kanda before things got like this, if only... He couldn't suppress them any longer; his eyes became blurred and soggy. If only...

...I hadn't existed...

"NO!" Allen screamed, quite glad that no one else heard over wise questions would have arisen. He couldn't let himself fall so far, no one would forgive him, and he of all people wouldn't either. He couldn't take this any more, he had to be there for Lavi, if he was the reason his life was in danger, then he should be the one who should end that danger, and assure Lavi's life was saved, it meant everything. So, with his determination at the highest level, he left his room, oblivious to that the one he was waited for had been signed in for the last couple of minutes.

He checked to see if his master was in. He looked left. Nope. He looked right. Nada. So, he was about to bolt out the door, until-

Well you are the one, the one that lies close to me, whispers hello-

"Lavi?" He had known straight away who it was.

"Allen? Why did you leave your MSN on if you're just going to ignore me?" Lavi had been online and I didn't notice?

"Erm...I was distracted..." Technically, this was true.

"Whatever get your butt back on MSN."

Bang! Allen could hear it through the phone.

"What was that?"

"Someone's at the door just wait a sec, 'kay?"

And so he waited. He managed to catch small snippets of whoever had barged in, leaving him stunned.

That person was the one and only Kanda Yuu.

"Yeah, you know what's gonna happen, better be ready for it." Said samurai growled.

"Kan-" The phone was cut off.

Allen didn't plan his next move, he just knew he had to be there, so with no thought required, he ran like lightning through the door and all the way to his endangered friend.

His legs never stopped, they just kept going, even though they were growing tired by the second, he demanded that they continued until he arrived at his destination.

Upon his arrival, there wasn't a pleasant sight for the eyes to feast on.

Blood had splattered all over Lavi's white walls, painting them red, just as he had dreamed.

The source of said paint was laying half-dead at his predator's feet.

"Kanda...you didn't..."

"Of course I did, he stole you away from me." He stepped away from his 'defeated' enemy. "But now that he' gone...!" He turned to what he thought he had finished, which had replied:

"I'm not dead yet."

"Then prepare to be." Lavi was too quick for him as he slashed downwards towards his neck. Lavi reached for his black size-shifting hammer that had always been strapped to his right thigh. His hammer grew so it would be on par with Mugen. His single eye wishing Kanda would just back off, but he wouldn't allow that. "Kanda! Don't do this! Think about Allen!"

"I am thinking about Allen!" Kanda lunged towards this prey with murderous intent. Lavi made no move to attack him, he was only on the defence, he didn't want to kill one of his friends, but he wasn't just going to lie down and die, especially not in front of Allen. Said albino had only stood there, shocked at how everything was the same as his dream.

Blood was shed along with my tears as I saw what had taken place.

Why had it come to this?

Screams of pain and my pleas echoed throughout the room in which red paint had splattered across its walls.

No one should have to die for my sake, not again.

"Kanda! Stop it!" I was either not heard or ignored, whichever way it was he never stopped.

I won't let him kill Lavi. Why he had done what he did was something even Allen wouldn't have known himself. Lavi took on offensive, but wasn't aiming for any vital points, only thinking of ways to stop him without ending his life, Kanda, however, had warded it off after parrying. He used his deadly precision to strike directly for Lavi's heart.

That's all it took before Allen intervened.

Kanda had only just saw Allen move in to protect Lavi from his strike, upon seeing that he slowed down, but knew he wouldn't of been able to stop in time. As said protector was indeed shorter than who he had planned on killing, instead of his heart, he had pierced his right shoulder.

"Allen!" One screamed, when said person had been cut. Allen had only stumbled back slightly, clutching his fresh, deep wound in pain.

"I'm fine." He said bluntly.

"You're not fine, you're bleeding!"

"Of course I'm bleeding!" Came the reply, which only implied 'obviously'. He turned his tear-stained face towards the one who had stabbed him. "Kanda, I'm sorry, I love Lavi. It just never worked between us, and I'm sorry about that. But please don't kill Lavi." He pleaded. "I know it's my fault that you're hurt." Behind his tears were eyes of fire. "So I should be the one to be killed!"

Everything was silence apart from the gasping breaths of the injured.

Kanda's glare of daggers widened into a rarely seen shocked expression. He had just been asked to kill his first love by the person himself. It was an impossible task for him, he had killed many people in the past without a second thought, but this was one of the many few he couldn't even lay a hand on.

"Tch." As the other two looked back at him, his head lay low, his dark eyes covered by his neatly cut fringe.

"Kanda?"

"Keep him then."

"Huh?" They said in unison, both equally confused.

"I said keep him, but" He pointed an bony finger at so called "Rabbit", his face again having it's usual features, eyes that held a sharp glance, a mouth that only spoke insults and harsh words. "If you ever hurt Allen, I won't hesitate to make him mine again." With that he turned and left, leaving the couple completely bewildered.

So, he's fine with it then? Well, Kanda was complicated to understand, but he still somehow got his messages across, even if it took slightly longer for another to know what he meant. But what confused them the most was that he started a fight, and he just leaves like they only had a petty argument.

They looked at each other with puzzled faces, but when they came to the conclusion that Kanda had allowed them so they together they were overjoyed.

But despite that, only more barriers would cross their way, some maybe even tougher and more difficult to overcome than this.

Author's note: well, what do you think? I've never wrote a violent scene before so yeah I'm not sure if it's amazing or not, but I tried my best. Anyway, review please if there's anything you liked or didn't like or even anything for the next chapter, I'll read all of them.