N/A: I was actually stuck in a car in July, travelling with my family, as I began to write this. 'Balada do Céu Negro' by Zeca Baleiro is a song of a Brazilian musician that was playing at the time and just seemed to fit. It's one of my favorite songs and this is one of my favorite chapters also, so they're just the perfect match. I also really like to listen to 'Secret' by Maroon 5 while reading it just to laugh a little bit, as it's my favorite song of all. And, oh, originally this chapter was called 'Indigo', but with the 5x01 promo, 'White' seemed better.

White

Pra onde vão desejos? Palavras sem razão. Pra onde vão palavras? Versos ao vento vão.

White is the color of his sheets.

Kate almost died, but she didn't care. All she could possibly think about was him. She just wanted him. Castle tried so desperately to save her during the last year, and what she did do as a reward? She almost died again. If it wasn't for Ryan, she would be dead by now. He gave up on her. He gave up on her because it was too painful for him to see her risking her life against her mother's killer once more. He gave up on her because he loved her.

She was walking in the rain. Kate was on the same park they went after her recovery. She sat on one of the swings and tried to put things in perspective. He loved her. He hid things about her mother's murder case to protect her. She was the most maddening, challenging, frustrating and remarkable person he had ever known. But he still loved her. He loved her despite the fact that she was broken. He loved her with all her faults. He loved her for what she was. But what if she was only another one in his list? Alright, he would never say 'I love you' if she was just another one. But he would also say anything to try to take her off the case. Kate was confused. She loved him, of course she loved him. How could she not love him? He was all gorgeous and funny. He bought her coffee for four whole years just to see a smile on her face. His stories made her get better on a phase that there was no hope. Hemade her get better. He made her want to get better. He. And Castle didn't even know that. She smiled at the thought of him discovering she had an autographed book of him before they met. He would be so convinced.

She wanted to tell him. If anything, she wanted to see him. She came back to her car, and tried to call him while heading to his house. He didn't answer. Of course he wouldn't answer. He was angry with her. But she continued to drive to his house despite everything. She was impatient during the trip in the elevator. But when he opened the door and she saw all of his anger, she didn't know what to do. And most of all, she didn't know what to say.

"Beckett, what do you want?" It hurt like hell seeing him angry with her like that, but she had to try to repair everything. She had at least to try.

"You." Next thing she knew, she was kissing him. And, oh, it was so damn good!

"I'm so sorry, Castle. I'm so sorry. I'm so sorry." She didn't know how many times she would have to say this to him to make him forgive her, but she would say it until he did.

He made her stop.

"What happened?" He was holding back, but she could understand him. Castle wanted an explanation. Kate smiled; and she was crying, for heaven's sake!

"He got away and I didn't care. I almost died, but all I could think about was you. I just want you."She tried to kiss him, but he was still holding back, trying to see if she was serious about this. She caressed his face, and next thing he did was to shut the front door using her body. She would laugh of the irony if she was thinking straight. But she wasn't. Not with his lips all over hers. He was all over her.

His body was all over hers, his mouth was doing things to her that should be forbidden. His mouth sucking her pulse point was making her all shades of crazy. She was almost sure she moaned when he opened her blouse. Then, their speed slowed down when he saw her scar. She was impatient and he could appreciate it sometime else. Even if it made her heart race even more, she was impatient. She wanted him inside her at this very moment. She took her hand and his and left there, but his lips had to be over hers. She remembered for a moment where they were and smiled. Kate held back for a minute just to take his hand and go to his bedroom. Martha and Alexis weren't there, but what if?

Once his bedroom's door was closed, she jumped on him, her legs around his hips, his arousal not touching hers only because of the clothes. She moaned his name and he almost lost control. Castle stopped kissing her for a minute, trying to breathe and asking her if she was sure of what they were going to do. She wanted to laugh, but she moaned instead. "Rick, you have no clue, do you?" she kissed him. "I want you." She thought for a second and then just chose for the truth. "I love you, writer-boy."

I love you, writer-boy. Nothing could possibly stop him now. Nothing. Not even the tempest out there. She loved him. She really loved him. Her cherry scent was making him dizzy, but she loved him. Oh my. He placed her in his white sheets and started to take off her clothes, one by one, and with every little piece discovery, he placed a kiss. She was almost screaming his name out loud when he kissed her clit. She was so damn wet and smelled like cherries even down there. He continued to please her until she screamed his name in an orgasm and then got back to her lips so she could taste it for her own.

She almost ripped off his clothes, saying she needed him inside her. She was desperate. Her orgasm only made her want him more and more and more. And he was just the more she needed. She wouldn't be satisfied until he filled her and made her see stars again. Once he was naked, he kissed her, but stopped for a second while calling her name.

"Kate..."

"Oh, for Christ's sake, Castle! We can do the slow motion version afterwards. Now, I need you buried inside me."

He got a condom his drawer and ripped the paper, but Kate was too impatient and did the rest of the job for him, changing positions after and burying himself inside her in one fast movement, getting to feel all his length. It almost sent her over the edge, but she held back, wanting him to come with her. They changed positions again and he was in the top of her, in and out, in and out with an even speed.

"Oh, c'mon, Castle! Faster… oh… faster!" He did was he was told and when she was almost jumping in the abyss again, he slowed his pace.

"Say it. Say it, Kate. Say it!" She knew what he was referring to, but she didn't know how to manage words out of her mouth anymore.

"I love, ohhh… I love you, Rick! I love you!" She broke into a billion pieces then and felt him lying over her body, coming at the same time she did.

"Ohhh, I love you too, Kate."