Warnings: flashbacks, naruto x ooc, a lot of oocs.

Note: On the last chapter, the last few lines, instead of 'stop going to orochimaru's house', I meant 'start' ... heh heh. *rubs head sheepishly* Sorry about that. Total opposite meanings. I hope I don't make any more mistakes this time!

Enjoy! :)

Naruto cursed as he went around the streets at dawn, eyes searching for a certain raven. Naruto had been looking since yesterday, when they'd last saw each other. He couldn't believe that Sasuke had such bad timing for everything. A growl rose in his throat as he looked back at the events that happened yesterday.

The blond boy sighed as he put his hands in his pockets, a dark cloud hanging over his face. He wasn't thinking, and one small move was his downfall.

But Sasuke was just too cute.

With his black-blue hair naturally falling over his beautiful onyx eyes, a pink hue colouring his milky complexion, eyelashes long and dark as he looked down at his lap as he subconsciously lifted his hand to lightly brush over his bangs, as if to hide his face in them, a habit that had formed without his conscious.

If just a tease was enough to make Sasuke look like this, hell, Naruto would tease him forever!

"Y-You're adorable, Sasuke." Naruto had blurted out, blue eyes widening as tan hands clasped over full lips. Naruto had been an idiot! What guy says that to another anyway? But words had just naturally tumbled out of his mouth, and he couldn't stop them. He had shut his eyes tightly, not yet ready for what Sasuke's going to say, not yet ready for the rejection. But nothing came.

Opening his eyes slowly, Naruto had slowly turned and stared at Sasuke. Instead of seeing the famous Death Glare of the Uchiha, he had seen the raven's eyes cast down, a darker shade of red adorning his soft cheeks. If Naruto was correct, Sasuke had been embarrassed, maybe pleased. A glimmer of hope filled Naruto's heart, and at that moment, nothing could stop him from speaking his next words.

"I … I know we swore not to have more feelings for each other than lust or friendship, b-but I … I'm sorry, but I broke that promise." Naruto had stared hard at the smaller boy, deciding that if he heard one word of rejection or one expression of disgust, Naruto would stop. To his surprise, Sasuke showed none of that.

"But … I … It's accidental, I promise! But I … kinda li… I … Fuck it. I like you, Sasuke! A-And when I say that, I mean I like you. More than a friend. More than … a friend-with-benefit." Naruto's voice had softened with each sentence, with each word, his heart racing in his chest. His eyes had searched Sasuke's face desperately for any sign of emotion, but was met with the back of his head.

"You … I …" Sasuke had finally spoken after a long period of silence, and for a moment Naruto thought that the shorter man was going to accept his feelings.

"I…I hate you, dobe." With those words, Sasuke had rushed away, not even bothering glance back at the blond. Naruto had stared hard at the ground, motionless, not even registering the full blow of rejection that had hit him.

That was yesterday.

Now Naruto was walking around, trying not to rip his hairs out. He had been so stupid, losing Sasuke over confessing his stupid feelings. If Naruto's stupid brain had registered the fact that it was a stupid decision, he would never have done such a stupid thing.

Frustrated with himself, Naruto sat down at a café, sighing as he ordered a cup of coffee, so caught up that he didn't notice a beautiful woman take the seat in front of him.

"Hey, babe." Naruto jerked up, a shudder wracking throughout his body as he tensed almost immediately. It can't be. The only person who called him that was…

Bo, aka Beau, aka Beauty.

Aka his ex friend with benefit.

A nimble finger traced the lines of Naruto's jaw, red lips pulled into an alluring smirk, hazel eyes gazing into blue, almost as if staring at his soul.

"…B-B…" His body began heating up even though he had no more feelings for her. Not anymore. His body twitched with desire when he took in her scent; she smelt the same, like cinnamon and jasmine. Unconsciously he leaned closer.

"What? Did you forget your crush's name? Or am I your ex-crush now?" Bo's lips twisted up into a pout, and Naruto hated himself for getting so addicted to her smell, her lips, everything.

Shuddering, he broke away from her trance and shook himself off, not risking to get too close to her again. "Nothing." He replied nonchalantly, and although his heart beat fast, it showed no true emotion for the beautiful girl.

"Am I too old for you now? I'm only 30, after all." She smiled a sickly sweet smile, and Naruto tried hard not to vomit. He kept his head turned away, not wanting to look into those eyes and be reminded of everything he did.

Everything he was forced to do.

"W-What do you want?" He choked out, keeping his face turned away. Why did his life always need to get worse?

"Aren't you happy to see me? After all, I came here to celebrate your most important birthday." She made to cup his cheek, but the blond pushed her away gently, and stood up. Thoughts of Sasuke filled his head, and now, even though his body was trained to be attracted to Bo's scent, he only found it revolting.

"I have no time for you." With that, he put his money on the table and left, missing the furious look that twisted Bo's face into an ugly shape.

Naruto screamed with frustration as he tried hard not to throw his phone out the window. It had been two weeks, and Sasuke still hadn't replied to all his messages. They had seen each other during classes, and Naruto had tried desperately to reach him, but to no avail. Every time when the blond would try to catch the raven's eye, Sasuke would turn away, or find an excuse so they won't have to be alone together, or he would just quickly walk away. Recently this week Naruto hadn't seen Sasuke at all, and was starting to get worried. Naruto cursed; his birthday was today, and he wanted Sasuke to celebrate it with him. He turned 21 today, and he didn't want to spend it with anyone else. He decided that he would find Sasuke today, and he would force Sasuke to talk if he had to.

Just as he was about to get up and start looking, there was a knock on the door, making Naruto jump to his feet. It was Sasuke, it had to be. Who else but Sasuke? His heart thumped loudly in his chest as it synced with his footsteps. He hastily opened the door, lips parted as he was about to speak out his apology-

-when his eyes met with alluring hazel ones.

Naruto flinched, jumping almost two feet away. No, this wasn't what he was looking for. This wasn't what he wanted.

Not Bo.

"What …are you doing here?" Naruto tried hard to continue staring into the older woman's eyes. He didn't want to come off as weak, as who he was before he met Sasuke. The tall woman, with her red smirk, confidently strode up to the young man, until they were pressed up against each other. Naruto, too frozen and shocked to move, stayed motionless, and couldn't help but feel his body twitch as he breathed in Bo's scent, felt their bodies fit against each other perfectly. He took a deep breath, shutting his eyes tightly as he willed his body to cool down. He was stronger than this. All those years of training him into being one of their toys would just be in vain. That was what Naruto hoped would happen.

"It's your birthday today after all, babe." Naruto shuddered; that nickname again. He could feel her breath running down his neck, her lips nearly touching his throat.

"Happy Birthday, baby." Her lips trailed kisses all over his neck and all over his face, until it reached his forehead.

The part where Sasuke always kissed.

Immediately Naruto came to his senses, and just the very memory of Sasuke was enough for him to push Bo away. Her face turned into shock.

"I don't have time for you. I always have plans." He spoke, voice harsh. Bo's expression turned from shock into anger, and it seemed as if her hair would fly up like snakes in ire.

"What happened to our training?" She screamed, "What happened to the years of memories we shared together? I took care of you, I made sure you ate well!" Her words might sound innocent, but there was so much behind them. Dark memories from the past flooded into Naruto's mind, the past that he wanted so badly to leave behind.

"You … You didn't take care of me! You never loved me. You and …. And that man … raped me …" He choked out, shaking his head from side to side as he tried to shake away the images that have surfaced. "You drove away other people that I might've been friends with by spreading rumours about me … back then, I didn't know it was you, but now I do. You made my life miserable so I could cling to the love from both of you that never existed. You made me a toy that could please you in every way. You made every part of my body tainted." Naruto's body was shuddering. "For fuck's sake … fuck … I was only thirteen …"

His eyes were cast down, missing the satisfied look from the woman. She loved to make him feel this way, make him feel worthless. Soon enough, she would have him.

But her plans didn't go as planned.

Bo's sneer faded when Naruto's body stopped jerking as he lifted his eyes, and instead of the fear and lost look that she had expected in his blue eyes, there was instead confidence.

"But someone special changed that. When I ran from you, my body, after all these years of being your toy, needed relief. I needed someone … a friend with benefit, and almost immediately, he came. We had sex countless of times, and I didn't know that I was his first. He needed someone to pay attention to him, and I needed someone to relieve my sexual frustration … at least that was what I thought I needed. But instead, I guess I needed someone to love me too…" There was a faraway look in his eyes, and a small smile on his face.

"Although his past was twisted, his body scarred, he was still beautiful in his own way… in every way. At first he was an outright jerk, but when you get to know him, he's the sweetest thing, and very adorable too. Lust took over me the first time I saw him at a bar, but … the more I got to know him, the more I got to talk to him … the more I felt a different sort of attraction towards him. He wasn't just beautiful on the outside … he was beautiful on the inside too, in every way. My attraction towards him is nothing like mine towards yours. With you, I felt ugly and tainted, but with him, I felt pure and innocent once more. I only thought I loved you because you forced me to. I like Sasuke because I have no other choice-whoever got to know him to thoroughly like I did would like him too. I was just lucky that I was the first one who came by."

During Naruto's long talk about Sasuke, Bo had slipped a drug she had made between her lips, knowing that she might need it to win over Naruto. That idiot is completely infatuated with the other young man! Bo sighed; she didn't want to win him this way, but she had no other choice.

Quickly, she smashed her lips against the slightly taller man, in the process, quietly slipping the drug that she had put between her lips onto Naruto's, then knocking him unconscious.

As he fell to the ground, she pulled the curtains closed until the room became dark.

"Sorry it had to be this way." She said, even though her voice left no trace of sincerity.

Naruto opened his eyes, and was greeted with heaven.

"…Sa…Sasuke …?" The blond sat up and rubbed his eyes. "Is that you?"

"Yes, Naruto." The raven spoke, his expression full of smiles, which was unusual. Sasuke never smiled this much, and when he did smile, it never looked like this.

"S-Something wrong, teme?" Naruto squinted. There was something … a little off about Sasuke right now. Shouldn't he be angry at him? It wasn't like Sasuke to come here when they were in awkward situations, and never, ever smiling.

"I'm just a little …" The raven was suddenly pressed up to Naruto, and his voice suddenly sounding a little … husky. "…aroused."

Naruto blinked in confusion. Sasuke was never this blunt about situations like these. Usually, when he was ready, he would lightly kiss Naruto's Adam's apple, then his collarbone. What has gotten into him?

"Uh … all ri-" Before Naruto could finish his sentence, though, Sasuke's lips were already pressed with the blond's, suddenly straddling him.

Yes! Bo thought as she kissed Naruto feverishly. The drug was working. She had made this drug so that the user would see Bo as someone they love. An illusion. It wouldn't work unless the user was in love with somebody, so Bo had to take the chance.

The blond idiot was in love after all.

The effects of the drug was working. Soon … after they had physically connected with one another, Naruto would be Bo's forever. That was the other effect of the drug. Bo was proud of herself for successfully making it. She was pretty good at acting too, it seemed, as she had never really met Sasuke before, but Naruto still bought it.

It was a huge risk, acting like that, but she had been successful.

"Uhn …" She groaned as she started grinding down to Naruto. The blond grunted in response.

"Sasuke … M-Maybe we should …" Naruto tried to push him off. Why was Sasuke being so … aggressive today? He was never like that unless he was drunk. But Naruto smelt no alcohol in his breath, tasted nothing but jasmine and cinnamon. Sasuke never smelt like that.

"Sasuke … seriously …" The blond tried pushing this strange Sasuke off with more force, but he pressed on.

"Un … Naruto … put it in me now …" He breathed, and Naruto could almost swear that Sasuke's voice sounded too feminine.

"…Stop, Sasuke!" With that, Naruto pushed him as hard but then as soft as he could, and finally Sasuke was off. "What's up with you today?"

There was a twisted look that shown on the raven's face, but it disappeared in an instant. Naruto blinked in confusion-the ugly expression looked to hideous to be on Sasuke's face, but it looked familiar at the same time …It must've been fake. Naruto must've imagined that expression from another person onto the raven.

"…Naruto… I-I want you …" Sasuke whimpered, and even though that was too needy to be Sasuke, Naruto didn't care. Lust took over him immediately at those words, and he pushed Sasuke down and ravished him.

But this didn't feel right, Naruto now realised. Sasuke's lips, Sasuke's body, Sasuke's hair … His lips were too womanly, his body was too …long, and his hair too dry. Just as he was about to pull away, Sasuke's arms (ones that felt too rough) wrapped around his neck and pulled him closer.

Too shocked with Sasuke's new … feel, and how strange he acted, and how this wasn't like Sasuke at all, Naruto didn't hear the door creak open. It was only the rustling of papers falling through the air that broke Naruto's trance. Immediately he broke himself off of this Sasuke and turned around-

-to see another Sasuke by the door.

The emotion, everything, and just one glance at the raven before him made Naruto fall head over heels again.

Yes, just in one glance, the blond was able to tell which was fake and which was not. He would smile if it weren't for a situation like this, smile at the beauty that just radiated off Sasuke.

But Naruto couldn't, because of the utter pain that emitted through Sasuke's dark eyes along with the beauty.

Naruto, too immersed into picturing the horror in Sasuke's expression, didn't hear the small apology that came through those lips. He could feel every word though; each syllable a thousand little pricks to his heart.

The pain he could feel from Sasuke was too much for him.

In a flash, Sasuke was gone, leaving behind the shock, the horror, and the pain. Naruto took a while to register, then pushing the fraud of a Sasuke off him, biting his lip from anger as he realised who it really was.

"Bo…" He growled out, words dripping with venom. With a swift movement, he grabbed her arm harshly, not caring right now if her arm broke. He pulled her with tremendous force, then threw her outside his apartment, stepping out and locking the door behind him. He couldn't risk her getting in-she might try something else again, that sly woman.

"Never come here again." He spat out before taking off after the one he truly cares about.

Naruto sprinted much faster than before, faster than he had ever run in his life. Stupid Sasuke, why did he always have to appear at the wrong time?

It didn't matter though, because if Naruto didn't find Sasuke now, who knows what Sasuke might do to himself.

But no matter where and how far Naruto searched, he couldn't find Sasuke. To places where Sasuke might go, like by the lake, or by the swings of a primary school, by a restaurant, in a shop, anywhere and everywhere. Naruto still couldn't find the raven.

Naruto searched for hours and hours, looking everywhere that Sasuke had ever been to, but his search was in vain. Naruto searched for the rest of the day, searched until midnight did he finally reach home.

With a sigh, he unlocked his door (relieved that Bo wasn't there) and stumbled inside the room, body heavy with fatigue. He climbed on the bed without brushing his teeth or changing his clothes, or even showering, but as he closed his eyes, he couldn't sleep.

After an hour or two did he finally sleep, but his dreams were filled with horrible nightmares of Sasuke, with Sasuke hurting himself again, attempting suicide, and leaving him. Ignoring him. Naruto not being able to help Sasuke. Watching as Sasuke leaned towards Darkness.

Each time his nightmare came to an end, Naruto would wake up in cold sweat, and it was until 6am in the morning did Naruto give up on sleeping and made to search for Sasuke again.

As the blond dragged his feet towards the kitchen, he forced his eyes to keep open as he sighed.

So much for the most important birthday.

The blond came back with a sigh in the evening, once again his search in vain. It was the day after his birthday, and a Sunday. Naruto had classes on Monday. Maybe … Maybe Sasuke would be there. Naruto could only hope that. He could only wish that Sasuke would be there, unharmed.

He crouched down and picked up the papers that Sasuke had dropped on his birthday. It must've been something about the project they had to do together. That wasn't important now, though. He sighed; it was so like Sasuke. To pretend nothing happened if he needed to get things done, especially their projects and homework. Naruto put the papers in the drawer, not bothering with any homework right now, missing a glance of an orange envelope as he kept them away.

Not bothering to shower again, Naruto brushed his teeth and climbed onto his bed.

Teme, you better be there tomorrow. That was the blond's last thought before he drifted into a dreamless sleep.

Naruto woke up just as his alarm clock sounded. He rubbed his eyes and hurried to take a long shower, his thoughts lingering on Sasuke. I hope he's all right. That jerk better be. He thought, as he hastily got ready for class.

He blinked in confusion as he walked down the hallway. Strange, since Naruto was always either late or on time. Never early. Extremely strange since Naruto was able to wake up on time but hadn't had enough sleep. Something big must be happening today … Naruto thought. He could almost feel it in his bones. He just prayed that Sasuke was here. If he wasn't, then Naruto would have to contact the principal and then the police.

Naruto closed his eyes as he walked in the classroom and made to take his seat. He was so accustomed to always doing things without opening his eyes that he would be fine being blind. That would be troublesome, though.

"Oi, get off my seat." A familiar voice that made Naruto cringe spoke accusingly. The blond opened his eyes and glared up at a man with black hair and red highlights.

"What if I don't, Daichi?" He spat out. He didn't want to deal with anyone right now.

"Ice prince told me I could sit next to him today." Daichi replied swiftly, a huge smirk on his face. Naruto's anger almost faded-was Sasuke really here?

"No … He… wha…" Naruto was lost for words. Hope filled inside him and he almost smiled. Daichi wouldn't lie about something like this, after all, he got beat up by Naruto once.

"That's right." Daichi must've mistaken Naruto's speechlessness as defeat and denial instead of hope. "He came in 'ere, wearin' all sexy and shit, couldn't keep mah eyes off of 'im."

"Sasuke's … here?" Sasuke couldn't be. Could he?

"Leave him alone, Daichi. He's not worth pestering." A voice came from behind. Naruto turned around, not because of the words, or because of the sudden appearance, but because of the voice itself. The smooth, velvety voice that was like music to his ears, now slightly hoarser but just brought a sort of sexiness to it, the voice that he longed to hear each morning when he woke up; the voice that he had missed after devoid of it for so long.

And when his face was brought up to look at the owner of the voice, his eyes were wide. Dark hair glossy and messy at the same time, a black tank top that contrasted to that milky pale complexion, a dark hoodie thrown over and slid down so his shoulders, giving him a sexier look than he already was; tight jeans that clung to the flesh of his perfect legs and thighs, some areas ripped to show his inviting skin. Even though it was a huge change, it was still a good change. At first glance, Naruto almost didn't recognise him. Almost.

Naruto's eyes were as big as saucepans, his nose bleeding slightly, his lips parted as he spoke out one word.

"Sasuke?"