"This is Gene Simmons's Family Jewels! Look out, baby! He's breaking all the rules!" The theme song to mine and Andy's favorite show to watch together came on. Gene Simmons's Family Jewels. Andy and I were sitting on the couch in my tour bus as the other guys were sleeping in their bunks. We were on the road, on my birthday, heading to our next venue, on my birthday, which just happened to be our last show, on my birthday. Did I mention it was my birthday? I was turning twenty years old.
"Hey, I've been meaning to ask you, why didn't you stay on the BVB bus? Not that I don't enjoy having you on my bus. And, why have you been so nervous?" I asked. Andy had been acting really nervous as of the bus ride. He tightened his arm around my shoulder.
"No reason." He looked out the window, then shot up off the couch and into the compartment with our bus driver, Willis. Suddenly, the bus stopped. Andy came back in and led me off the bus.
"What are you doing?" I asked in confusion. He didn't say anything.
"Okay, stand right here." He said, positioning me. I looked behind him and saw the 'Now entering California' sign and I realized I was straddling the state line.
"Okay, what is this?" I asked, again in confusion.
"You're in two places at once. You're straddling the state line. Number fifteen on your list." Andy said, straddling the state line himself. I smiled at him, then walked up to him, and gave him a kiss.
"You're really sweet, you know that?" I asked, looking up at him. He smiled down at me and kissed me on the head. Suddenly, I felt something hit the back of my head. I turned around to see the BVB bus passing with Sandra and Cyn sticking their heads out the window and yelling something at us.
"Come on, let's get back on the bus." I said. We went back on and, despite our best efforts, fell asleep on the couch.
We woke up a couple of hours later when we pulled up to the venue. We were in Sacramento. Various buses pulled up in no particular order. First I See Stars, then VersaEmerge, then DRUGS, then ours, then BVB's. Andy and I separated, so we could help our various bands members get all of our crap out from the backs of the buses. We took all of our stuff into the green room and sat down. It was four o' clock, so we were cutting it close, as the show started at five-thirty.
While I See Stars got ready for their set, I went back to the MPOH dressing room and got ready. I put on a sleeveless, black shirt with a lightning bolt that showed each of my shoulder blades, ripped up, blue skinny jeans, and black lace up boots. I put on dangling metal earrings, a patterned blue and black, studded bracelet, multi-colored bangles, Batman and Superman rings, Life and Death rings, and a flower ring from Sierra's collection at PayLess. Add a little eyeliner and eyeshadow and I was done.
"Hey, Tide, you done?" I heard Kailee ask from outside. "I See Stars just started their set." Guess I had been in there longer than I thought.
"Yeah, I'm coming." I stepped outside and saw Kailee.
"Hey, you look great." She said. I thanked her and walked back to the green room where the other bands were waiting. Some of them had gone back to their buses to get ready there, but others were in their dressing rooms. I didn't see Andy anywhere, so I just walked over to Cyn, who was sitting by herself.
"Hey." She said as I sat down.
"Hey. You excited? This is your first concert. Well, not overall, but on this tour." It was also the last concert, but she had joined us on tour kinda late.
"Yeah, I am. You look hot." She said, looking at my attire. I laughed a little bit.
"Thanks, just don't let Sandra hear you saying that." I said, laughing. "By the way, where is she?" I asked, as Cyn looked at a spot on my back for no discernible reason.
"She's putting her warpaint on for old time's sake. What's this?" She asked, touching the spot she was looking at. I reached behind me and touched it too. I felt a raised spot and ran my hand along it. It was a rather large scar that I had accumulated from my last boyfriend.
"It's a scar. My last boyfriend gave it to me." I said, not looking at her. I had completely forgotten about it.
"Does Andy know?" She asked quietly.
"No, I haven't told him. He's not going to know either. I gotta go and change." I said, standing up, and starting to walk.
"Why do you need to change? You look great." Andy said, coming out of nowhere and standing in front of me in his warpaint. I started edging around him, trying to get to the dressing room where Kailee had just come out of and Ronnie was going into.
"No reason. I just need to change my shirt." I had just gotten around him and started backing up when he turned me around. I heard him gasp and I looked down at the floor.
"Come on. We need to talk." He led me out into the hallway beside the green room and dressing rooms. I didn't look directly at him.
"Tidal... Why didn't you tell me?" He asked, tilting my chin up so I had to look at him.
"I don't know. I just don't like talking about it to people." That was the understatement of the century.
"I would've understood." He bent down and kissed me on the lips for a second. "No more secrets. Okay?" He asked, his big blue eyes searching mine.
"Yeah, no more secrets." I sighed.
"Yo, Tidal, wish me luck?" Sierra said, coming into our little niche. "Am I interrupting something?"
"No, it's fine. Good luck." I said. She smiled, gave me a look that said 'I find everything out later', and walked off to perform.
"Come on. Let's go back to the green room." Andy said, taking my hand and leading me back. When we got back in, all of the bands except for VE were there, along with Sandra, Cyn, Scout, and Sammi. Andy and I sat next to the guys and BVB.
For the next couple of hours, we just talked and laughed. Up until it was our turn to perform. Ronnie went on stage first, then Kailee and Mor, who got the crowd pumped up, and finally me.
"Hey, everybody! How you guys doing tonight?" I yelled into my mic. I was met by loud and raucous applause.
"Hey, everybody! It's Tidal's birthday today! Wish her a happy birthday!" Kailee yelled into my mic, coming up beside me. Somebody started singing Happy Birthday to me, which caught on with everyone else.
"Thanks everybody! You guys are great. Now, I want you all to sing with me!" We did our set and walked back off stage while everybody started setting up BVB's stage. About half an hour later, BVB was on stage.
"Hello, Sacramento! We are Black Veil Brides from Hollywood, California! Before we start our concert, we're going to bring Tidal of My Pain Of Heart back out here! Get up here, Tidal!" I looked at the guys, confused, but they shoved me up onto the stage.
"Hey!" I said into the mic. Andy wrapped his arms around me.
"As you all know, it's her birthday today, and I just wanted to sing her Happy Birthday!" Andy sang Happy Birthday to me. "And, she's going to sing Knives and Pens with me!" I looked at him, confused, but sang the song anyways. Before I went offstage, Andy kissed me, very openly. "I love you." He whispered to me, away from the mic.
I smiled. So big, in fact, I thought my face would fall off. "I love you, too." I whispered back. I kissed him one more time, then walked off stage. I started heading back to the green room to tell the guys everything, but a voice stopped me.
"He doesn't really love you, you know." I turned around to see a girl with green hair and the same colored eyes.
"What do you mean? Of course he does." I said, wondering who this chick was. She stepped away from the wall she was leaning on.
"He doesn't love you." She stated again, enunciating each word like I was stupid. "While you were up there singing, he cheated on you with me. I'm not going to go into the details of what we did, but we did some things that you've never even heard of. And, he loved it." She said and walked off. I stood there for a minute, Perfect Weapon playing in the background.
I almost started crying, but I held it together and finished walking to the green room. I walked over to the guys and stopped in front of them.
"Hey, guys, I'm not feeling really good, so I'm just gonna go back to the bus, okay?" VE was supposed to do the signing that night, so I could pull it off.
"Yeah, okay. Before you go, what happened with Andy onstage? What did he say?" Sierra asked excitedly. I had to restrain myself from crying and work up to a smile.
"Nothing. I'll tell you later." I choked back my tears until I got to the tour bus. As soon as I walked on, I collapsed on the couch and cried my eyes out. I cried for forever, feeling like an idiot. I don't know how much longer after that it was when I heard the door open. I shot up off the couch, hoping to make it to the bathroom before any of the guys saw me. It was dark, so I thought that I could pull it off.
"Hey, Tidal, why are you sitting in the dark?" Andy asked, flipping on the light. He took one look at me, frantically wiping off my face before he enveloped me in a hug. He started stroking my hair and rocking me back and forth like I was a baby.
I suddenly got an idea. I slightly moved over to one side, brought my knee up, and kneed him where it hurts. I think you know where I'm talking about. He grunted, grabbed his manhood, and fell on the floor, groaning in pain.
"What the crap, Tidal?" He asked, still groaning in pain.
"I never want to see your face again. Now, get off of my bus!" I yelled as he scrambled up, but kept his distance.
"What did I do? Did me telling you that I love you freak you out? Did I offend you? What happened?" He asked, reaching out for me, but I backed up.
"GET OFF OF MY BUS!" I screamed at him. He made the right decision and backed off, but not before I caught the hurt look on his face. I grabbed my phone off of the coffee table and got on Twitter.
AndyBVB needs to go die in a hole. :'( I posted, immediately getting concerned replies from my fans and a very confused reply from Andy.
TidalMPOH I honestly don't know what I did. Please talk to me. I love you. 3
AndyBVB Go die in a hole. /3
He didn't respond after that. Wise decision. The guys walked in, all holding their phones and looking down at them with furrowed eyebrows. They all looked up at me with confused looks on their faces.
"What happened?" Scout asked, holding her arms out like she was confused, which she probably was. Then, they all saw my face and held open their arms, which I walked into. I was mainly hugged by Sammi and I probably ruined her dress by crying on it. When I finished crying, I told them everything that happened, from what happened in the hall, to the stage, to the chick, and what happened on the bus.
"We'll be right back." Sierra, Scout, Mor, and Ronnie walked off the bus, leaving me with Cyn, Sandra, Sammi, and Kailee. Minutes later, I heard shouting.
"What is wrong with you? How could you do that to Tidal? You know, she's put up with a lot of crap with a lot of guys that didn't even love her! The thing is, she knew that they didn't care, but she honestly thought that you did! Never in my life have I been more disgusted with anybody! You are a lowlife piece of crap that doesn't even deserve to breathe the same air that Tidal does! You can go die in a hole!" I heard from various people. DRUGS and I See Stars walked on our bus.
"We walked on the BVB bus and Ronnie was freaking out on Andy. What happened?" Craig Owens asked.
"You'll find out soon enough." Sammi said. They walked off and a few seconds later, the guys walked back on.
"Well, we yelled at him for you." Mor said as they sat down around me.
"I heard." I said, sniffling. "I'm going to go and put my PJs on." I went to the back and put on sweatpants and a blink-182 sweatshirt. I walked back out and sat down between Scout and Kailee.
"Do you want to talk?" Sierra asked. I shook my head. They nodded in understanding and Cyn, Sandra, and Sammi walked back to the BVB bus, and Sierra to the VE bus.
"If you need us, we'll be in our bunks." Kailee said. I nodded as they walked back to their bunks. I grabbed a can of Dr. Pepper, a pint of ice cream, and a spoon and went back to my bunk. I turned on the little lamp that I always kept in there and started eating and drinking.
Suddenly, a stroke of inspiration hit me, so I put my food and drink on the shelf next to me. In place of them, I grabbed my notebook and pen. I flipped it open to an empty page and started writing.
Take me, I'm alive...
I paused just as my phone buzzed. I picked it up and saw Captain Smooth, as Andy had decided to nickname himself on my phone. I opened it up and deleted the message without looking at it. As the night went on, my song grew longer, and the text messages kept piling up. He tried to call me a couple of times, but I ignored them and renamed him Jerk on my Contacts. By five in the morning, I had finished my song, and was so tired I felt like I could sleep for the rest of the day. I slept for a couple of hours before I heard my curtain sliding open and light assaulted my eyes. I rubbed them and realized that I hadn't washed off my eyeliner. I ignored it and looked at who was there. Jerk.
"Go away." I said shortly with every ounce of pain, hurt, and anger I could muster in it and closed my curtain again. He opened it again and looked at me.
"We need to talk. You need to at least tell me what I did, because I don't know." He said.
"I hate you and you can go die in a hole. You know very well what you did and I never want to see your miserable face again. Now go, before I punch your face." I said, closing the curtain, and turning on my other side. It opened again, but I ignored it. He started dragging me out as I started kicking and screaming, but apparently the guys were either heavier sleepers than I thought or they were already out.
"What happened? What did I do?" He said, setting me down on my feet. I slapped him, causing him to snap his head to one side. "Ow!" He exclaimed, touching his cheek.
"That was for touching me! Which you had no right to do! This-" I started, stomping on his foot which was bare, "is for playing the idiot that you are, and this-" I said, pushing him over while he grabbed his foot, "is for ripping my heart out. Now, get out!" I yelled, pointing to the door.
"You can't ignore me forever! I will talk to you!" He yelled as he walked out. I grabbed a boot that was laying on the ground and threw it at him as he was almost out the door. "Love you!" I sat down on the floor and cried. Eventually, I got up and got dressed. I grabbed my wallet, and went downtown. I went into the first grocery store that I found.
I immediately went to the refrigerators where I got another pint of ice cream and a bottle of Dr. Pepper which were my comfort foods. I walked up to the cash registers and I realized that I was getting a lot of funny looks, because I still hadn't washed off my smeared makeup, I was wearing the clothes from last night, and I was chewing about five pieces of gum at once. But, I didn't care though. My heart was shredded into a million pieces. The girl at the cash register was wearing a set of MPOH bracelets, an I See Stars necklace, VE earrings, another set of DRUGS bracelets, and a BVB shirt with his face on it. It just made me start crying again, which got me more weird looks. I put my head in my hands, alarming the girl.
"I'm sorry, did I do something?" She asked, which just reminded me of him and caused me to sob harder. About five minutes later, I calmed down. I looked up and wiped my eyes.
"I'm sorry, you didn't do anything. I'm just going through a pretty bad breakup right now." I said, surprised that security hadn't been called.
"Holy crap! You're Tidal from My Pain Of Heart. I went to your concert last night. It was amazing." She said, which caused me to smile faintly. "You and Andy seemed so happy last night. What happened? Does this have anything to do with those tweets that you sent out?" She asked in a string of questions.
"We were happy, but he had to go and mess things up. It's kind of a long story, but needless to say, we broke up. I'll get over it though. It's not like he told me he loved me or anything." I said sarcastically, and sniffling.
"Do you need a hug?" She asked. I nodded, so she came out from behind the counter and gave me a hug. "I'm sorry. If it makes you feel any better, I like My Pain Of Heart better than Black Veil Brides and I think you're a better singer." She said, rubbing my back.
"It does. Thanks." I said, my voice sounding jacked up due to my crying episode.
"No problem. Any member of the Seven Nation Army would say as such. Here, let me ring those up for you. And, I know this isn't the most appropriate time, but could I get an autograph?" She asked, taking the items from my hand and going back behind the counter. She rung them up, so I paid. When she gave me a pen and napkin, I signed it and then left.
I walked back out and stopped on a bench a block away from the store. I sat down, drank my Dr. Pepper and ate the ice cream with a little spoon that came with it. The only men I needed in my life were Ben and Jerry. Somebody sat beside me, but I didn't look up as I took another sip of my Dr. Pepper.
"Hey, how you doing?" I looked over at the person beside me and saw a guy with red hair, green eyes, and quite a few freckles. "Whoa, what happened to you?" He asked, looking at my makeup.
"I've been crying, smart one." I said, eating another scoop of ice cream.
"Well, why don't you let me take you out to dinner and you can tell me why?" He said, putting his arm around me, which I shrugged off.
"My boyfriend cheated on me. If you wanna know why, ask him." I said, getting up and walking back to the bus. Nobody bothered me for the rest of the day.
A/N: I know that most of you like Andy better than Tidal, obviously, but this chapter made me wanna kill him. I still love him though. :) Writing these stories make me feel like I'm betraying Juliet though, because I love her too. The next chapter is going to skip to Warped Tour. Please, review!