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I do not own any right concerning parts of the original spoken text taken directly from several episodes.
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Thanks to my wonderful Beta Amy.
Summary: What John and Teyla might have thought about the other and the possibilities of being together, covers the first three seasons, up to The Return.
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Chapter One
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Feeling of a Moment
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The Rising
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Attraction
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John could feel a surge of electricity travel through his body the moment his fingers touched the skin at her neck. Their eyes looked and he knew she felt it too.
Her eyes were so deep he had the feeling he could see her soul, a light in his dark world. He felt his heart respond and something touched his soul.
The moment he realized what was happening he closed the wall around him and stepped away. There was no future for them. It was foolish to think of her that way. So he returned his concentration back to his task of figuring out what was going on.
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Teyla couldn't believe it. He had come. He had walked into the wraith's den to rescue not only his people, but hers too.
Her mind snapped back to the moment in the cave when their gazes had met. There had been an openness that had taken her breath away. Sadly, the moment had been over so fast she almost thought she had imagined it, but here he was, to save her.
She wondered if maybe the future held more for them.
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XOXOXOXOXO
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Sanctuary
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Longing
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Teyla could not help but feel hurt by the open way John flirted with Chaya. She knew he was not interested in her. When they had returned he had been friendly, but not overly though, like he wanted to be friends, but only in a strictly platonic way. Teyla sighed. She was being foolish. John was from another galaxy and there was no guaranty he would stay forever. He surely was not looking for a longtime relationship.
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John wondered what had attracted him to Chaya, apart from the obvious reasons that she was hot. Maybe it was because she was no danger, she was no keeper. His mind forced him to the one he wanted to keep, Teyla. A part of him felt as if he had betrayed her.
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XOXOXOXOXO
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The Gift
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Realization
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John wanted to rip Bates' head off. It wasn't that Bates had said what he had; it was the fact that John wished, at least partly, that the man was right. More than once a week John dreamed of what Bates had claimed to be true.
But John also knew that Teyla didn't see him in that way. She saw him as her teammate, no more. Okay maybe as friend, but it stopped right there.
The incident with Bates also had hit another truth home. As much as John didn't care for military protocol, he needed to keep a few ground rules. And one was the rules about relationships.
Teyla served under his command and he needed to set the right example.
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Bates was an idiot. Not even meditating worked. Her blood boiled. Or maybe it was John's reaction, his categorical dismissal of any chance of a relationship between the two. Why could she not just accept that he was not interested in her? Teyla took another deep breath, trying to clear her mind, but every time she did John's angry face popped into her mind.
He would never court her.
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XOXOXOXOXO
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The Siege
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Incompatible
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All was calm and for the first time in many days she felt a sense of relief. They were safe once more. She had learned a lot about John, and for the first time in months had seen a side of him she didn't like. His easy dismissal of her friends and his willingness to sanction action she deemed dishonorable. Could she really love him?
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John looked over the ocean, glad they had managed to fight back. Many things had happened and for the first time he had time to think about it. He was a soldier and now Teyla had seen what he was capable of. He had seen the disappointment in her eyes and face. It had taken her long enough to see that he would not be good for her.
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XOXOXOXOXO
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Conversion
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Acceptance
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John was glad Teyla had accepted his apology, still he also felt oddly disappointed. This could have been the turning point; if he had seen any doubt in her, he would have asked her out. But she had brushed his apology away so fast he knew she didn't wanted to be reminded of what had happened. The incident had brought his feelings for her to the surface and now he couldn't shove them back. He would have to accept that she wasn't interested in him.
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Why in the world had it to be now? She had finally managed to bury her ever present feelings for John and then out of the blue he had kissed her. For a few wonderful moments she believed he wanted more than friendship, but when he had pulled back he had been confused. Still, it had awoken her feelings for him once more, and now she had to accept that it had mean nothing to him.
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XOXOXOXOXO
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The long Goodbye
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Hope
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Teyla tried to sleep, but was unable to do so. Thalen's words robbing her of every rational thought. Did John feel more than just friendship for her? That couldn't be. But this time he hadn't tried to deny what had happened. He had blushed when she had apologized, but not denied the truth of Thalen's words.
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John couldn't forget Teyla's face. The moment Phoebus had asked her to kill him. Her face had rippled in pain and he had been able to see into her soul once more like the day they had met. They had connected again. That had been the reason he had not denied what Thalen had said. Maybe there was hope.
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XOXOXOXOXO
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The Return
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Reasoning
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The moment John stepped through the gate he felt an empty hollow settling in his soul. This had been the reason he had never sought a relationship with Teyla. He always knew that he would have lost her. Either through his own disability to have a working relationship or to him being recalled. What he hadn't counted on was that he still missed her like crazy and felt like he had lost a part of himself.
All the reasons he had recounted over and over in his mind to convince his heart that he could not have a relationship with Teyla crumpled in the following weeks.
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He was back and all reasons to be glad to not have pursued a relationship with John went out the window. The moment Teyla heard his voice and knew she wasn't dreaming, her heart started to beat and for the first time in weeks she felt alive again. She wanted to throw herself at him, but reasoned that it wasn't the right time. Not with the others present.
Before she knew what was happening, she was back in action, saving their home. That accomplished things went back to their normal pace and their moment had passed and reason ruled her life again.
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Let's see where to now...