There the two men sat. Attempting to control themselves. Never the less Dean's hand crept up towards Cas' hair and Cas' lips edged closer to Dean's neck. Each man so caught up in trying to control himself that they didn't notice what the other was doing.

What are you thinking?! Dean asked himself. You're straight and Cas is your friend. What the hell do you think you are doing?!

(Will it upset Dean if I kiss his neck? We are friends... friends aren't supposed to kiss each other right? But what if...)

(How did this even happen?!)

Cas' will broke. He pressed his slightly chapped lips to Dean's jugular. He liked it.

Dean pulled back.

(Why did I pull away?)

(Why did I have to kiss him? I upset him.)

Cas just didn't understand. Dean had gone much much further with women whom he had only just met, why was it not OK for them to kiss? Was it because they were just friends?

Or did Dean simply not want to be with him?

The angel felt more isolated and nonplussed than ever. He just wanted to be close to Dean.

"Cas" Dean said hoarsely.

"No, I'm' sorry Dean. That was... inappropriate." Cas' voice was stiff and sad and already withdrawn.

"No Cas really I just-"

Cas began to get up. His heavy heart aching.

(If only I could tell Dean how I felt.)

(Do I really feel that way about Cas?)

The hunter had no idea what to think.

On impulse he grasped the sleeve of the worn light brown trench coat to stop the forlorn angel from leaving. He sat back down slowly next to Dean.

"I don't want to be lonely" Cas muttered. His eyes were resolutely looking anywhere but Dean's face.

(I hope Dean understands.)

"I don't want you to be alone." Dean for some reason reached out and placed his hand under the other man's chin, forcing him to look into his eyes.

(Cas, I have always cared about you.)

Slowly Dean's hand slid down the angels' throat, his fingers curled around the loose blue tie wrapped around his neck. The hunter tugged the tie forward. Cas leaned in closer to Dean obligingly.

(Thank you Dean.)

(Don't feel lonely Cas. You're never alone.)

They kissed.