A/N: I'M SO SORRY. I haven't updated in a really long time. I know I promised a reviewer that I would update the next day and it's been like a week! I'm sooooooorrrrryyyyyyy. Please don't hurt me. I love you. :] I haven't updated because I lost all my motivation because I was feeling really depressed and I relapsed back into self-harm and I know none of you guys want to hear about my worthless babbling (you can PM me if you are curious, I don't mind). On to the story ^.^

Allen, Lenalee, and Kanda rushed into the reception area of the Black Order general hospital. Kanda sat in one of the many chairs lining the walls, while the other two raced to the desk. "Lavi Bookman, which room is he in?" Allen asked harshly. The receptionist eyed him warily before asking, "What's your relation to him?" Allen scoffed and ran his hands through his hair, tugging on it. "Does it matter?" he muttered darkly. "W-we're his roommates. I was told he was in a car accident." Lenalee said calmly, putting a hand on Allen's shoulder. The receptionist nodded and typed Lavi's name into the computer. "He's in surgery right now and he won't be out for a while." She tapped her finger impatiently on the desk. "How long is a while?" Allen said. "About 6 hours, depending how it goes. I'm sorry but you'll have to wait or go home. I can notify you when he gets out of surgery. Allen was scared to death for Lavi and he began to slowly unravel at the seams, hating himself for not doing anything, for not being able to do anything. Lenalee thanked the receptionist and led Allen back to where Kanda was sitting before returning to the desk and whispering about Lavi's condition so that the distraught Allen was unable to hear them.

"Kanda," Lenalee said quietly, beckoning for him to follow her.

They walked away far enough so that the sobbing Allen couldn't hear them. "Uh… Lavi… well… His legs were crushed and a rib punctured his right lung and he lost his eye and he got a really bad concuss-" Lenalee was talking so fast she could barely breathe and she began sobbing when Kanda pulled her into his chest and kissed her forehead before wordlessly walking back to the waiting area and sitting back down near the sobbing Allen.

_*6 hours later*_

"Miss?" the receptionist said, shaking the sleeping Lenalee awake. "Your friend is out of surgery. The doctors had to put him in a coma. I'm very sorry. You may see him in room 715," the receptionist gave an apologetic smile and retreated back to her desk.

Lenalee shook Kanda and Allen awake, relaying the information the receptionist had given her. Allen began crying once more and Lenalee wrapped her arms around him, leading him through the double doors and down the long, whitewashed corridor to Lavi's room.

Once they reached Lavi's room, a dark-haired nurse walked swiftly out of the room, nearly running into the trio. "Uh… ma'am, what's his condition?" Lenalee asked tentatively, motioning towards Lavi's room. "I'm guessing you're his roommates. Well, he's stable for now, but the doctor had to induce a coma due to possible brain damage from the concussion. His legs were crushed, but they'll heal with time and we're sure he'll be able to walk again. They've also repaired his lung and rib, but they couldn't save his eye. I'm sorry," she said with a small smile, then walked away hurriedly.

Lenalee felt Allen take a deep breath before releasing her arm and walking quickly into the small room, as if walking any slower would cause Lavi to die before he got there. Lenalee soon followed, dragging Kanda with her.

*Allen's POV*

I pushed aside the cream-colored curtains, and gasped at what I saw. There were wires connected to his heavily bandaged chest, an IV and what looked like ten more wires placed around his entire wrist. There was gauze wrapped around his forehead and covering his right eye. Casts covered each of his long legs, along with a tube shoved down his throat and taped crudely in place.

"Oh, Lavi," Lenalee sobbed, turning and pressing herself into Kanda's chest. He seemed surprised at first, but simply placed his hands – somewhat – comfortingly around her waist. I moved to sit in a chair on Lavi's left side. His bright red hair that somehow seemed duller than it had ever been fell over the gauze and covered his good eye. I leaned forward and swept it up out of his face, my fingers connecting with his cold, pale skin. It's all my fault. I knew he was following me. Why didn't I just tell him where I was going? "It's not your fault, Allen," Lenalee said. I flinched, not realizing I had voiced my thoughts. She put a delicate hand on my shoulder, squeezing it reassuringly. I didn't gain any comfort from the gesture, I was just plain numb.

_*about 3 hours later*_

Lenalee sat, curled up and sleeping, in Kanda's lap. "It's time to go, visiting hours are almost over, Beansprout." He said quietly. Allen sighed, still staring at Lavi's pale and ultimately lifeless face. "I… I'll meet you in the parking lot." Allen replied, wanting just a moment to get something off his chest. Once Kanda had gone, carrying the still-sleeping Lenalee. Allen held Lavi's left hand, one of the only parts of his body not covered in wires and gauze. The whitewashed room was silent despite the beeping machines and rhythmical dripping of the IV. "Lavi," Allen breathed, "I want you to know that I love you. And I'm sorry. I'm sorry for not telling you where I was going. I'm sorry for kissing Tyki in front of you, just to make you jealous. I love you, more than just best friends, more than brothers. This is my fault, and I wish I was the one lying here, not you. I'm s-so sorry…" Allen began to sob, squeezing the redhead's limp hand. He let go and cried into his hands, choking out apologies as he pulled his legs up and curled into himself.

Allen's tears dried, leaving stains on his cheeks. He felt his phone vibrate in his back pocket, signaling a text. He stood from the bedside chair and fished it out of his pocket. The screen read: 5 new text messages and 2 missed calls. He unlocked the device to find that all the attempts to contact him had been made by Kanda, who was probably waiting angrily in the car for him. Allen smiled weakly.

A/N: I really hope you enjoyed! I also hope this made up for the last chapters, since they were so short. I encourage you to leave reviews if you enjoyed, and leave constructive criticism if you didn't :D They're always appreciated and I love hearing back from readers. I always reply. Thanks again for reading! 3