Heartbeat Ch2

"Learn some respect to the senior members, you little shit!"

I struggled from Hidan's grip on my hair. He pulled me closer, so close that I could feel his breath on my face. He bit me hard on the ear and licked my neck. I couldn't help but moan. He then tore off my trousers and yanked off my pants. Ignoring my cries for mercy, he slammed into me.

I woke with a scream, sweating and shivering. Sitting up and wiping away my tears, I caught sight of Sasori no Danna opening his eyes. He sat up as well and held my hand tight.

"What's the matter Deidara? Nightmares? "

I nodded in response. "Hidan."

His hand brushed my back in a gentle, caressing way. "What did he do to you?"

"It was just a dream. And a memory. I'm fine, Danna, I'm fine." I lay down to sleep again.

Sasori seemed to wonder about the way I address him, but threw it aside for a moment. "I can see you are not fine at all. Tell me. What did he do to you?"

I hesitated for a moment. This is a very personal thing to talk about. However, I couldn't hold it in my heart anymore. All these weeks in here… I have experienced too much pain.

"He raped me on my first night in the Akatsuki."

I watched as Danna's expression change from a consoling, gentle one, like a mother holding her baby, to its complete contrary. His eyes shone of hatred and yet with such sadness. I snuggled into his bare chest without a word. He felt sad and angry for me. He held me in his arms like a tigress protecting her cub. "I promise you," Sasori whispered, "Hidan shall pay for what he did."

I was wakened by a kiss on the forehead.

"Good morning, Deidara."

I smiled. Waking up to Sasori is like waking up in the call of an angel. "Good morning, Danna."

"We gotta get ready quick. There is something I want you to do with me today." Sasori said as he helped me put on my clothes. "I will not let Hidan do whatever he want. We're gonna show him what you're made of."

Knowing that I would not want to see other Akatsuki members, Danna took my share of breakfast into his room for me. I finished it like a hungry wolf, for I haven't had dinner last night. Within half an hour, I was ready to go out with Sasori no Danna.

We walked to a forest miles away from the hideout. The scenery there is mesmerizing. Specks of sunlight were filtered from the leaves of trees, and chirps of birds are heard in every corner of the forest.

"Sasori no Danna, where are we going?"I asked as Danna continued to walk in the same quick pace as before. I secretly thought we were going on a date or something, but it turns out that we are heading towards the other side of the forest.

Finally, he stopped. We were on a piece of flat, rocky land. There were some ruins of houses near the edge of the plain, along with some other remains of fences and gates. "This place used to be a nice town. Incredibly small population, and remarkably kind people... The people here never fought, nor learned to do so. That's why it became what you see at this moment. Deidara," He turned around and stared into my eyes, "I know you are a person with a kind heart, but this cruel world bullies the weak and fears the strong. To be honest, you definitely need to get stronger. Of course, I will always be here to help you with it."

In spite of the fact that Sasori's words hurt my feelings, I had to admit what he said was right. I was weak. I knew by heart that Pein was extremely disappointed on me. Everybody saw my potential, even myself, but I was too lazy to sharpen them and show people what I can really do. All I lack was training.

Danna, as if reading my thoughts, said, "Let's begin by showing me what you can do."

"You gotta C2 believe!" I cried.

"You're right, I have to C4 myself!"

We laughed. I have trained with Danna for three weeks already. Things were getting way better. I have installed the C0 inside my body, which would explode in my command. I have also mastered C1 and C2.(Well, perhaps not 'mastered'. I mess them up sometimes.) My training on mastering C3 is in progress too, but Danna suggested that we should take a one-week break.

We arrived the hideout. As usual, we climbed in through the window of Sasori's room. The two of us spent our whole day inside, chatting, laughing, talking. Night fell, and we went outside for dinner.

That night was a night that changed my life.

It was late at night when we returned. We found the hideout exceptionally quieter than usual. I felt kind of scared. Akatsuki being absolutely silent... something might be wrong. Even if the members recieve missions and had to leave during the night, someone must be left here to guard the hideout.

Sasori no Danna, being the braver one between us, went outside his room to investigate. I could not see him steps after he left for the sitting room. Watching him fade away into the darkness of the corridor, I started worrying. What if someone (who was crazy strong) came to avenge for the people whose lives the Akatsuki has taken? What would I do if Danna doesn't return? What if –

My train of thoughts were cut off by a hand covering my mouth. I felt myself being dragged along the corridor and into a room. I struggled against the arm's grip, but was punched on the face for that.

Once let go of in the pitch-dark room, I closed my eyes. Eyesight is unreliable now. I sensed for movements around me. Right behind! I hit on that spot with my elbow. Bingo. I heard a grunt right behind me.

"Learn some respect to the senior members, you little shit!"

Hidan!

Once again, he tugged on my hair. I was too shocked to fight back. All these time I stood in fear of Hidan. His words rang in my ears. His face are in my nightmares. And now, here he was, right in front of me. Ready to do that to me again.

"This time, I should torture you beforehand." He smirked.

Frozen in terror, I didn't even struggle when he tore off my clothes and rubbed his groin against mine. I moaned in discomfort. Why is this happening again? Why me? Hidan flung an arm right onto my forehead, causing me to fall backwards onto the floor. I was pinned down within the second. In the dark room, I noticed the gleam of a blade in Hidan's hand. I gasped in fear. The knife carved a line onto my neck. I cried in agony. It wasn't deep enough to take my life, but it hurt. I felt another pang of pain on my abdomen. Hidan was enjoying this. While I struggled under his grip, he pushed the knife deeper and moved slower.

"You are so fuckable."