Because of You Chapter 3: Peeta POV, a hunger games fanfic

BECAUSE of YOU
Chapter 3
Peeta POV

[An: I am skipping 2 weeks in the story. But Thank you for Reviewing! I will write the next chapter when I get 10 more Reviews!]

[disclaimer: I do not own the hunger games characters I simply own the plot]

I am getting released from the hospital today and everyone is so excited but me. My parents are making me go to school and I am itching for a razor blade. My family and friends won't let me wear hoodies anymore but that won't stop me. I am also not aloud to close my bedroom door. The nurse comes to tell everyone that I can go now. I can finally go home and take a shower. The car ride is silent and I feel a song coming in my head. You see no one knows I play guitar and piano or know that I can except my family. The car comes to a stop and I realize that I am home. I hop out of the car and run to my room. My parents had the carpet cleaners come to clean my room. I head straight for my guitar and my music book. I start writing the lyrics and find the music to go with it. I sing it to test it out and I'm satisfied with the outcome.

When the days are cold
And the cards all fold
And the saints we see
Are all made of gold

When your dreams all fail
And the ones we hail
Are the worst of all
And the blood's run stale

I wanna hide the truth
I wanna shelter you
But with the beast inside
There's nowhere we can hide

No matter what we breed
We still are made of greed
This is my kingdom come
This is my kingdom come

When you feel my heat
Look into my eyes
It's where my demons hide
It's where my demons hide
Don't get too close
It's dark inside
It's where my demons hide
It's where my demons hide

Curtain's call
Is the last of all
When the lights fade out
All the sinners crawl

So they dug your grave
And the masquerade
Will come calling out
At the mess you've made

Don't wanna let you down
But I am hell bound
Though this is all for you
Don't wanna hide the truth

No matter what we breed
We still are made of greed
This is my kingdom come
This is my kingdom come

When you feel my heat
Look into my eyes
It's where my demons hide
It's where my demons hide
Don't get too close
It's dark inside
It's where my demons hide
It's where my demons hide

They say it's what you make
I say it's up to fate
It's woven in my soul
I need to let you go

Your eyes, they shine so bright
I wanna save that light
I can't escape this now
Unless you show me how

When you feel my heat
Look into my eyes
It's where my demons hide
It's where my demons hide
Don't get too close
It's dark inside
It's where my demons hide
It's where my demons hide

I also wrote another song but before I could sing it Katniss was in front of me. I just stared at her because she is the most beautiful girl I have ever seen. She sat at the edge of my bed with a bunch of papers in hand. My make up work for school. I inwardly groaned I hate make up work but I know I had to do it or I will fail. I thank Katniss and kiss her goodbye because she has homework to do too. Once I am finished I feel overwhelmed and stressed so I go in the bathroom with my pajamas. I sit on the closed toilet seat and grab my razor blade. I slowly slide it across my wrist over and over again until my leg arm is covered in cuts. I feel comfort as j watch as all the blood drip onto the towel I placed on my lap. I clean everything up and wait until the freshly made cuts dry so I can go to bed because I have to wait up early tomorrow.

When I wake up the next morning I slowly get out of bed and get dressed in a black tee-shirt and white skinny jeans with my black vans. Me and Finn have been working out in the weight room that is in the physical therapy ward of the hospital so my muscles are more defined then ever before. I check the time to see I am running late. I grab my book bag and rush down the stares running right into my brother rye. He notices my fresh cuts and gives me a disapproving look but I just shrug. Together we walk out of our house and walk to school because we only live down the street from it.

When we get there everyone stares at me. Probably because I am a suicidal freak I think as I walk over to Katniss. She looks up and notices me walking over to her which causes her to smile until she sees my arm. When I get over to her she grabs my face and makes me look into her eyes. She asked me to promise her to stop cutting I agreed because I can't say no to her. I start to get uneasy with everybody's stares.

"Why is everyone staring at me?" I ask all my friends.

"Are you kidding me?" Jo asked me surprised. I shook my head no and she continued, "You look hot! Without your baggy hoodie they can see your muscles and with jeans that aren't to big actually shows that you have a really nice butt."

I blush in embarrassment and i don't have to reply because the bell rang making us go to class. English. My favorite subject and I have this with everyone. When we all there I automatically go to the back of the room with everyone else

Let's just say all my classes are boring. I just got finished my third class of the day. Sadly I don't have it with any of my friends. I am walking down the hallway when I get pushed against the lockers. It is Cato, Ryes old best friend. A crowd is forming and before I know it Cato tried to punch me but I saw it coming. I quickly grabbed his arm twisting it around his back making him double over in pain. I let go of his arm and was going to walk away but I could see Cato get up and try to hit me again I ducked making him fall because he didn't expect it. I just stand there waiting for him to hit me
so I can hit him back. When he got back up he punched me in the stomach and I punched him in the face so hard he fell to the ground. I kept punching him and didn't stop when I saw blood pouring all out of his nose and all over the place.

The next thing I know I am getting pulled off of Cato and he is being led to the nurse. I don't get in trouble though because everyone has to report to the gym for an assembly. I get there and sit next to Katniss grabbing her hand. When everyone gets there all my friends gives me high fives for beating the crap out of Cato even Rye. The assembly begins and it is torture.

"Today we gathered all of you together to talk about a serious matter. Bullying. Bullying can lead to many things like Self Harm and Suicidal attempts. Rye and Graham Mellark may you please come to the stage? I know you both have something to say" our principal Cinna said.

I watched as my two older brothers got up out of there seats and straight to the microphone. I knew what they were going to talk about and I really didn't want to listen but this assembly is mandatory. Graham spoke first

"In these last two weeks we both found things out about our baby brother that we didn't know. He was being bullied by almost have of the school most of them being my friends. I didn't know. Nobody knew because he kept it a secret because he thought nobody cared. People fed him lies and he believed them. Every lie he was told he thought was true and each one broke him a little more."

"First he started of with a couple cuts here and there but as the bullying got worse so did his arms. People told him to kill himself and that nobody would care if he did. One day he finally broke. He posted a warning and wrote a note and by the time we got there it was to late. He stabbed himself and was just waiting to die. We got him to the hospital in time but if we were a minute later our baby brother wouldn't be here today."

Graham had tears streaming down his face by the end of his speech and I guess it is now ryes turn. When I take a good look I realize he has my suicide note. He begins to talk

"I am going to take this time to read this note he left because it explains so much about what he wasn't telling us and I want to show all of you that your actions and your words do hurt and it makes an affect on many people in good ways or in this case bad."

"Dear Everyone,
I had to do this. I did it for all of you and i did it for me. I am bothersome and worthless. Don't even try to deny it, I get reminded every hour of everyday."

"Rye and Graham, I am sorry for being such an embarrassment to you. I tried so hard to stay away from you guys in public because I know you don't want to be seen with me because all I am is an embarrassing klutz. Well that's what all your guys friends tell me anyway. I didn't want to bother you with my problems, but your friends bully me. They jump me almost everyday but i got used to it. I deserved it. Don't think that it's all their faults because it wasn't just them. Mostly, the Sophomore and Seniors take part in bullying me but some juniors do too. So i kept it to myself because no one cares. I forgive you guys for watching mom hit me it wasn't your fault though. It was mine."

"Annie, Finn, and Jo, you guys are my bests friends and I am going to miss you all. I know you guys felt sorry for me and that's why we became friends but I am okay with that. Annie please don't be sad I am doing this because it is better for everyone. Finn be good to Annie. Don't hurt her because you have a keeper. Jo I know you are thinking I am stupid but I think I made the right decision. I and really going to miss you all. And Jo? Please try to not kill Katniss."

"Katniss, you really don't know the effect you can have on people. I really am going to miss you Katniss. Your beautiful face, you sparkling eyes, your stubborn attitude and your love for your family. I am going to miss the way you scowl when you get annoyed, and the way you are always determined to get your way, and the way you always have to be right even if you know you are wrong. I am going to miss your laugh, your gorgeous smile, and the way you blush and look down at your feet when your embarrassed. But most importantly I am going to miss you. Please don't be upset. I do my deserve you I never will. Don't blame yourself it is not your fault. Katniss, I love you, always"

"To the bullies, you guys won. You got what you wanted. If you tell me to kill myself enough times I will actually believe you and I do. No one should be seen with ugly me. So I did what I had to do to make that happen. Just know that this is all your fault. Everyone single one of you that bullied me you guys made me do this. When you call me all those names I believe every single word. I am just a worthless person that deserves to die because no one likes me. I just take up space and know I won't because right after I finish writing this letter I am going to end my life because of you.
Goodbye,
Peeta."

"You see what your words can do? It can make people believe that they have no purpose and that they don't belong just because you want to make yourself feel better by hurting someone else. But Peeta is back now and he won't go down without a fight this time because he now knows that people do care and he is loved. I was so close to losing my baby brother because of all of you."

Rye finished with his head high. Him and Graham walk back to their seats and sit down. I look at the stage to see Effie Trinket the school secretary wiping her tears. I then look around to see many people wiping their eyes. Cinna walks back to the microphone and calls me down saying that I have a couple songs I would like to share. I walk up to the stage confused because I said nothing about it when I see Rye smile mischievously. I grab a guitar and tell them that the first song is called Demons and when I finish everyone is silent because they didn't know I could sing let alone play guitar. I tell everyone the next song is called bully and I start to sing

[Intro]
Hey!
Hey!
Hey!

[Verse 1]
It's 8 A.M.
This hell I'm in
Seems I've crossed the line again
For being nothing more than who I am

So break my bones
And throw your stones
We all know that life ain't fair
But there is more of us
We're everywhere

[Pre-Chorus]
We don't have to take this
Back against the wall
We don't have to take this
We can end it all

[Chorus]
All you'll ever be
Is a faded memory of a bully
Make another joke
While they hang another rope
So lonely
Push him to the dirt
'Til the words don't hurt
Can you hear me?
No ones gonna cry
On the very day you die
You're a bully

Hey!
Hey!

[Verse 2]
Think it through
You can't undo
Whenever I see black and blue
I feel the past
I share the bruise

With everyone
Who's come and gone
My head is clear
My voice is strong
Now I'm right here to right the wrong

[Pre-Chorus]
We don't have to take this
Back against the wall
We don't have to take this
We can end it all

[Solo]

[Bridge]
It's 8 A.M.!
The Hell I'm in!
Your voice is strong!
Now right the wrong!

[Chorus]
All you'll ever be
Is a faded memory of a bully.
Make another joke
While they hang another rope
So lonely.
Push him to the dirt
'Til the words don't hurt
Can you hear me?
No ones gonna cry
On the very day you die
You're a bully

[Repeat Chorus]

Hey!

When u finished the applause was defining and I blushed in embarrassment. I watch as I see Katniss run towards me with tears streaming down her face. Before I know what's happening Katniss throws herself at me I easily catch her and try to calm her down. When she finally calms down she looks at me with her eyes sparkling.

"I am so proud of you" she says while beaming at me.