Mary approached Tom, trembling, and hugged him again, "Let's go to the bedroom?" Tom felt the goose bumps, he imagined that she would blame him, curse him for that kiss, never invite him to go up to the bedroom;

-Mary, what are we doing?" He held her tight … "That's crazy! What we are doing!"

"-I don't know, but I want to understand! I need! I tried to fight against it to the max, but it happened and now you know, so, I need to discover what happens. I'll go up and I'll leave you alone for a few moments, but if you do not, I'll understand you perfectly" and then she climbed the stairs, step by step with heart in hand and saying"-This is the craziest thing I ever done in my life! This time you outdid yourself Mary! "

Tom leaned over the banister of the stairs more than once

"-I kissed her, my God I kissed her!" He covered his eyes with his hands and down the neck "This should not have happened, I'll go up and apologize" he climbed some more stairs "But she's waiting for me, she wants that to happen, how can I say no if I want too? "he descended the steps again, and after much thought, decided"-there is no escape, and now I need to find out what happened between us, and she also needs, the kiss happened and no further back, This Never be like before …. Oh God, will never be like before! "And now he went without looking back.

Tom opened the door and Mary was barefoot, taking some clips of your hair; She got up and went to him, he was leaning against close to the fireplace, staring at the floor, he pulled her by the hand and stared into her eyes for a few seconds as if two beasts fought inside him. "-Are you sure?" He said holding her chin

"-I am sure that I can not resist anymore, I've spent my whole life resisting about everything" and then she threw herself into his arms and kissed his again, Tom also could no longer fight, he wanted offer all he was to her;

They never had experienced anything so intense, they kissed as if the kiss was the air that they needed breathing,

they pressed a body each other, they were holding into each other as if only physical contact was not enough and wanted to somehow reach the soul. Whole body burned them and from that moment, not heard another word, this already were not needed, their looks absolutely say everything that they wanted to say.

Could not narrate the scene as romantic, she did not seem so … there was a magnetism that forced them against each other so sometimes nothing delicate, more seem like two hungry beasts, decided to completely devour its prey.

He touched her, seemed to want to memorize every inch of her body, she devoured him with her eyes and was determined to surrender herself with all the strength of heart to him,

it was impossible to tell where one began and the other ended, were just a only one person … and when it was over, they continued intertwined, trembling, panting and surrendered to love, to fall asleep without having a real sense had spent only a few minutes or hours.

When Mary woke, found Tom seated across the bedroom , looking at her, they were both silent, and it seemed that only now they understood the magnitude of what had happened

"-You should be there watching me, thinking that I am the more easy woman that you ever knew, is not it?"

"-If there's something you're not, it's easy … nothing is easy with you" He smiled and walked over to her, feeling her heart speed up again "-My heart doesn't work well, you know I could die at any moment , and it is your fault, I come to you and it shoots! "

And after hearing that Mary smiled, sighed, despaired.

"-Maybe we drank too much?" she asked

"-Do you think all this happened because we drink too much?"

-"No, it was not because we drank too much … may even be that we had the courage to let happen because we drink too much, but I know this would happen sooner or later!" she answered her own question and Tom;

" -You know Tom, since that day that you said sometime you will leaving Downton, how everything would change if one day there was someone among us, realized I didn't want another life, without you" She paused, touching his hand "-Do you have any idea how I fought against it, hated me for it?" she said shaking her head "-You just like me, you should know how much it is inappropriate!"

"- Yeah, I know, and I feel guilty all the time," he took her hand and continued "-And if it was not enough to hate ourselves so it, everyone will be willing to make us feel even more guilty, until not only I hate myself and you hate yourself , but to the point of hating each other . I don't want you to go through this, I don't want you to feel despised all the time to the point of despising yourself and then also, you despise me … I've been too reckless in my life so far, I do not want you to pass for more suffering "

"-So, after all, will you give up?" she said with tears in her eyes

"-With me you will never have peace! Do you think I want to give up the only person who can make me love again? But I'm telling you, I could not bear to make you suffer! Not after everything you've been through, not when we have George and Sybbie! These things are easier when you are young and have nothing to lose … how I wish it was possible to love you without making you go through horrible things … but this love is a shock, Mary! I'm your brother in law! If is to us, who discovered gradually, struggled against this feeling and know the purity and sincerity that is within us, think for others? Your grandmother? She would die! "

Mary always been a rational person, she knew that everything he said was true, and now, she thought not only in her, but Sybbie and George, her heart shattered to imagine what they might suffer due to this union; had fear that her grandmother disliked so much of life, and could end up surrendering to death, because she already hated this new post-war world this news could end at all for her.

It was crazy, it was crazy … in fact was a doomed love misfortune, fated to hostility and cruelty of people, "Now I understand what Jack Ross felt when he talked about giving up the love of Rose. Tom, our love is like theirs: Impossible!" and her face looked like a grieving person! "-We have to bury one more love in our lives! That's the truth! My heart is a grave! " She then stood up "-was better than we had not approximate that way, is not it? That we don't had enjoyed any bit of this passion! But I do not regret it, it was inevitable "

"-Me neither regret it, I'll never be able to forget it all, but the flame that burned here, we will put out it here. I'll have to give up on you, even once you have tried you, and one day, I'll see you follow another way" (he was only sorry ) "Now, is closed, we will not talk about it, we need to go, let's go back to real life and try to erase from our memory all that we live in this place. "

"We need to go back in silence until one day find a way out of this suffering," she got out of bed, resigned "I need to George and you need Sybbie, they will be our cure!" she smiled sadly and took her bag, ready to pack your things.

Tom wanted to say so many things, but he could not … he wanted to say how he loved her, as he wanted her, as he thought of her, but if he could do her a favor, it was simply shut up. Then went to the other room packing your things.

They left in silence, and began to avoid thereafter; Everyone thought they had quarreled, Mary invented an justification, it was because of pigs and soon solve. When they were lonely in their rooms when sleep would not come and tormented memories arose, they're still inconsolable;

what a lovely world so hostile to the soul of the people they live …. they knew that, how they knew …