Thank you for all the reviews and favourites of the story, I had to break this chapter up it had another ending but was too long, hope you continue to enjoy it
I cannot guarantee she won't return to Cassidy who knows what the future chapters will hold as I am a Bensidy huge fan so you will wait and see if I can write her with someone else or she ends up in Cassidy's arms again and there will be Bensidy again.
Olivia I have not put her drinking problem in even though this chapter might seem like it but it is her reaction to her and for the next chapter to happen
Enjoy reading it and please review again thanks
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Watching as Olivia runs out of the ballroom his eyes on the group of people he had to see that she was ok, the way her body was he knew she wasn't. Looking around outside the crisp night air it didn't take long for him to see where she was he could tell that she was trying to keep herself in control but her body shook, she was crying. Standing on the spot wanting to help her but did she want it
Walking tentatively over to her tapping her shoulder "Liv"
Brushing the tears away from her eyes she didn't want anyone to see her cry especially not Lt Murphy "I'm fine, I'll be in there soon"
His hand not leaving her arm "if you need to talk Olivia I'm here"
Turning around to face Declan her eyes slightly red "there is nothing to talk about I over reacted to a situation"
Guiding her arm moving her away slightly "Cassidy that's his name"
Looking up at Lt Murphy "don't let me ruin your night, I'm fine the fresh air is all I needed"
Not believing what she is saying hearing a worried voice "Liv"
Turning to look up there he was in front of them the man who he was sure caused this "maybe it is better for you to go back inside"
Shaking his head what was it with Olivia and her team "I need to speak to Liv"
Looking up at Lt Murphy a small smile on her face "I'll be fine, I'll see you inside" turning to face Brian not saying anything her eyes upon him why did it hurt to see him when she was the one that broke up, why did she still have feelings for him she thought she had let him go
Looking into her brown eyes this was the only woman he had fallen in love with the only woman he had said I love you too "Liv, I'm sorry what happened in there"
Looking up into his caring hazel eyes "let's go back inside"
There it was not opening up again "you don't change do you Liv, not opening up it was a simple question you didn't even say anything then went running outside"
Turning to face Brian seeing slight anger there "you really want to know"
Nodding his head he did want to know, he wanted to know what was going through her gorgeous head "I thought I would be fine seeing you that I could say hello to you see how you were, but it hurt Brian I know I pushed you away I broke up with YOU but seeing you again it all came back, you said I love you and it was too late, I love you Brian and always will but it was too late it was all too late. I went through the worse imaginable thing with Lewis and I wanted you there so much"
Interrupting her "I wanted to be there for you Liv, but you said not to come over you didn't want me there you never opened up about what he did to you and the trial you weren't protecting me I saw what he put you through I was there when you had the nightmares every night, woke up screaming eyes wide open in fear, all I could do was imagine what he put you through, do you think that was worse than the images if actually knowing, I was there when they tried to find you, when Amanda said what he did to his previous victims you never opened up then and I didn't think you would again. I was so worried about you Liv and I wanted to be there so much to hold you and protect you but you pushed me away I didn't think I'd be wanted"
Blinking back the tears she knew she had put him through a lot and he was there every stop of the way every time she woke up in a sweat he was there holding her not asking questions "I'm sorry, I still wanted you to come over to hold me you got me through one of the worse times of my life and I don't know what I would of done without you but I couldn't tell you I didn't want those images in your head of what he actually did to me for you to think any less of me, it was hard enough telling my therapist and now here all these people knowing what happened to me, last time and now it all became too much. I thought I could see you here tonight and all would be fine but it wasn't it was hard seeing you here"
Reaching out to touch her arm feeling her pull away "I wanted to be there for you Liv , I would never think any less of you, you didn't ask him to do any of this to you"
Looking at Brian she went to Lewis she was armed and in a vest but she still knew what he was like and went to save Amelia her hope was that they would find her car in time and his car but she knew that she could get killed and that was a risk she was willing to take, "that's not exactly true"
His head tilted sideways confusion on his face "you didn't ask Lewis to kill anyone to kidnap you and torture you" he didn't want to think about if he raped her this time he knew last time he didn't but that was all he knew "
Shaking her head "I want to forget about Lewis about everything I'm moving on with my life and that is with you not in it"
His eyes not moving from her she was so vulnerable "I never wanted to break up with you but I'm not ready for a family I liked what we had we were out of sync but I wanted to work on that, I wanted us to grow closer but we were growing apart and I didn't know how to fix it" his hand reaching up to her face "I still think about you all the time and I'm sorry I wasn't there for you I wish I was more than anything" looking up into her eyes touching her cheek "I still love you Liv so much"
Moving away from him "don't Brian please don't" turning away from him walking away blinking back the tears walking inside the ballroom she couldn't stay she couldn't be here
Walking back inside up to the bar she couldn't leave as much as she wanted too she couldn't "a double of vodka and bottle of red wine" sculling back the vodka taking the red wine back to the table if she had to be here she would have as many drinks as possible she never wanted to remember this night his touch on her cheek again or what he just said to her, she had opened up to him but it meant nothing she wanted him so much but they didn't share the same dreams.
Sitting down at the table seeing the eyes upon her the same look she had gotten so many times before "I'm fine"
Looking at Olivia she was rattled, something happened out there that had rattled her gotten under her skin what ever Cassidy said to her had some effect on her, he could tell that she was trying to keep it all together her eyes were staring at the table leaning closer to her "if you want to go, we will understand"
Smiling at Lt Murphy "I'll be fine" and as long as she had a few glasses of red wine she would forget Cassidy, forget what he said she would enjoy the night without him forget the pain he was causing her.
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Grabbing Liv's hand Amaro takes her out on the dance floor "Nick, I don't want to dance"
Holding her around her waist "c'mon Liv just the one dance, I'm your partner you owe me a dance"
Shaking her head "just one Nick that is all, leaning her head against his shoulder it was all she could do to keep her balance"
Looking out on the dance floor his eyes narrowing seeing Liv's head resting against Nick's shoulder his arms protectively around his waist, he had seen the look's he had given Liv the way he didn't like him at all the way Olivia stood up to her partner he had her back and for that he was grateful but he still didn't like Amaro watching as they sway together.
Her eyes looking up from Nick's shoulders there he was only a few feet in front of her his arms wrapped tightly around her, she had no idea who she was some blonde that he couldn't get closer to if he tried, seeing her arms wrapped tightly around her neck her face inches from his, watching as the dance ends as he takes her hand blinking back the tears could he move on that quickly, had he found someone else what about what he just said to her.
Walking up to the bar she needed anther drink "double vodka" she already had too much but she really didn't care turning to walk away there Cassidy was in front of her the blonde bimbo next to her, her dress short above the knee, her body she was younger than her by 15 years or more maybe "excuse me" pushing past them she needed to get out of there, away from it all she needed to get away from Cassidy for once and for all to forget he even existed.
Grabbing Nick's hand wrapping her arms around his neck pulling him closer to her, her body swaying to the music feeling Nick's hand reach around her waist pulling her closer to him she wasn't thinking she didn't want to think.
Feeling a hand on her arm "Liv" looking up "go away Brian"
He didn't want to make a scene but he didn't want to hurt her either "don't do this Liv, not with Nick"
Moving between Cassidy and Olivia "go away Cassidy Liv doesn't want you here, she's woken up to what a jerk you really are"
Not wanting to get into a fight with Nick in front of her "You really think holding Olivia whilst she is drunk is going to make her have sex with you, what were you going to take advantage of her drunken state, look at her Nick you as her partner should of taken better care of her, how much has she had to drink, she can hardly stand"
Reaching out to hold her "c'mon Liv, I'm taking you home"
Pushing him away from her "I'm not going anywhere with you Bri" her voice rising "both of you just stop it" moving off the dance floor over to pick up her bag "just go Brian, I don't want you here"
Moving away from the table and the people around them looking up at him tears in her eyes it all coming out her voice soft "why didn't you want to grow old and have a family with me"
His hazel eyes looking at her he just wants to hug her put his arms around her his voice soft "I'm so sorry Liv for all of this, if I caused any of this, for what Lewis did to you I didn't want to break up with you, if I could I would of tried to work things out somehow" he couldn't answer her question
Picking up her bag her brown eyes watery hating that she was showing her vulnerability walking away she couldn't even say goodbye to anyone she just needed to get out of there.
Turning around outside seeing Brian still standing there "you don't need to take care of me anymore Brian, I'm going back to what was our apartment, I'm fine I'm moving on, getting over it all, Lewis is dead he can't hurt me again"
Looking into her brown eyes seeing the hurt there "I never meant to hurt you Liv, I'm sorry how tonight turned out maybe I should of stayed away"
Shaking her head at him "You had just as much right to be here as I did Bri" looking into his hazel eyes shrugging "I just didn't handle it well to start with I thought I'd be ok with seeing you again, I was the one that broke up with you but it was harder than I thought, the feelings I had for you are still there and haven't gone away"
Pulling her towards him kissing the top of her head "I will never stop caring for you Liv the feelings I had for you are still there too, can we catch up and talk?"
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Watching as Olivia walks out as Brian follows her hearing Fins voice "someone should go with her make sure she is alright and gets home alright"
Amanda watching Cassidy following her "I think Cassidy will do that"
Nick his voice filled with anger "Cassidy wants to do that, he wants to weasel his way back into her life and her bed, Liv is the way she is tonight because of him, because of what he did to her"
Hearing Rollin's voice "none of us know the reason they broke up or who broke it up, Liv never said, maybe they just need to work things out"
Lt Murphy Watching Olivia stumble out "how many drinks did she have tonight, does anyone know, she looks like she can hardly walk"
Amaro his eyes not moving from them "I think she had more than we realize, someone needs to make sure she is ok and gets home ok, I don't think that someone is Cassidy, he is the reason she is so upset.
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Walking outside seeing Cassidy kissing the top of Olivia's head her face looking up at him stopping in his tracks, was there more to it, was something going on between them. His eyes glued as she moves away from him a smile on her face should he call out.
Hearing her name looking up as one of her team walks towards her, turning to Cassidy "I don't know Bri, it's too much tonight, I think maybe we should I don't know"
Turning towards the voice "why aren't you still inside?"
Shrugging at Olivia what was he to say he was worried about her "time to get out of there, I'll walk you home"
Looking up at him a smile on her face she knew what he was doing "I'm ok to get home"
Nodding at her "I know, I just want to be sure"
Watching as Olivia walks off, he needed to give her space he wanted to walk her home to know she was ok. Watching her retreating back he wished he could of answered her, deep down he did want to spend the rest of his life with her but he just couldn't bring himself to say it, it took him nearly 2 years to say I love you and by then it was too late and now it is too late, he wanted her back but she broke up with him could he win her back.
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I actually had another ending but this chapter turned out longer than I thought so had to split it
Will she catch up with Cassidy and give him another chance or will she move on
Who is walking Olivia home and what happens when they do?