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In some reviews, a few of you mentioned possibly taking some individual days and turning them into longer one-shots. I think that's a pretty sweet idea. If you think it is too, in a review, please let me know what day you'd like to see as a one-shot! If I get multiple days, or think I can turn one into something substantial, I'll try it out!
Disclaimer: Wish I owned SHIELD, then I could meet the cast.
Day 77:
Part of me wonders what Leo would be like without the amnesia. Well that's a lie. A lot of me wonders what he would be like. Would he be this forward? Would he be this romantic? Or would his romanticism just be assumed? Since he basically sacrificed himself for me. I mean, I didn't say the words, "I love you" in the pod, and I haven't said it to him yet. Well…not while he's been awake. I know I love him. And I'm not sure if this new Leo loves me yet. He obviously likes me and feels a pull towards me, and is connected by memories. But does he love me?
Day 78:
Leo wanted to talk to me today. I was scared something was wrong by the look on his face.
"Jemma, do I make you happy?"
"What?"
"Do I make you happy, do you want to be with me?"
"Are you serious? Of course you make me happy you giant buffoon! Where is this coming from?"
He looked so small again. Like he was back in the hospital bed, unconscious, hooked up to all the tubes and wires.
"I just—-I know I'm not the man I used to be. I'm know I'm not the Leo from before. And I can't help but feel that I'm not good enough. I don't deserve you. You deserve more than half a man and—-"
I shut him up with a kiss.
Day 79:
I threw the no kissing rule out the window yesterday. Cat's out of the bag.
I couldn't take it anymore. And especially with him going off about how he's not worthy of me.
Kissing Leo is great. He likes it, I like it, and we're both much happier now.
Ok let's be honest, I REALLY like it.
As his lips caress mine in the silence of the BUS as everyone else sleeps, and his arms circle around my waist, I can't help but feel that it's so right.
Not just a little right, it's so perfectly right. I think deep down, part of me always knew that we'd end up together. There really was no one else for us, but one another. Meshing so perfectly, we were always each other's half.
I broke away from him to look into his eyes, I had to say it. Especially since what he said yesterday.
"Leo—-you know, even though you have amnesia, it doesn't make you any less of a person, right?
He didn't say anything, but the pain in his eyes was as clear as day.
"Don't ever think you're not enough, not enough for me, not enough to be part of this team. Because you are enough."
"But Jemma—"
"No buts. Don't ever think that again. You are not a broken man. You are not a shell of a man. Your just missing some memories is all. But you're still you. You are a perfect man in all your imperfections. You show me every day that you're more than your lost memories. You're so much more than that to me."
"You're so much more to me too Jemma."
Day 80:
Today Skye walked in on me and Leo kissing in the lab.
I had been looking through a microscope at one of my many specimens, when Leo came up from behind me and laced his arms around my middle, surprising me.
"Leo! What are you doing?"
"I just can't get enough of you." he said so simply, so full of adoration, and nuzzled my neck with his nose.
His stubble tickled me and I couldn't help the outburst of giggles that escaped me.
"You are so adorable, you know that, right?" I said, as I took off my gloves and twisted around in his arms, placing my palms on either side of his face.
"Well, you are too. And a bloody genius at that."
When our lips met, our hands bunched in each others lab coats, trying to get as close as possible.
Who would've thought. The two resident scientists, snogging in the lab. How cliche'.
We were just about to deepen the kiss when all of a sudden we heard, "WHOA SEXY TIME."
Great timing Skye.
Day 81:
"Jemma, every day I'm going to work towards being the man you want me to be. I'm going to prove my worth to you."
"Silly Leo, you're just perfect the way you are. Now kiss me."
He happily obliged.
Day 82:
Leo took a nap today. He has been doing a lot of work lately on the new prototype, so he's been a bit tired the past few days. It scared me when I heard a yell from his bunk. I quickly ran to his door, whipped it open, and found him looking angry and shaken up. I sat down on the bed and took his hand in mine.
"What's wrong Leo?"
He was blinking rapidly, like he was trying to sort something out.
"The man that saved you. Ward. I remember him."
My heart clenched in my chest.
He looked like he was going to be sick, but he continued on.
"He was our friend. And he turned out to be Hydra. Hydra! They're back, how is this possible? And—-and Ward- he killed Agent Koenig. And—-and Garrett turned out to be the Clairvoyant—-and Agent Hand is dead."
I couldn't believe my ears. Leo had a huge breakthrough. Not only did he remember bits and pieces, he was remembering tremendous amounts of information.
"And….SHIELD is gone."
I held his hand tighter while he worked through the painful memories.
"Ward….we went on missions together…he saved you….we had laughs. How could he betray us? He was our friend. There has to be a reason why."
This hurt to hear. This was exactly how he processed the news that Ward was Hydra last time. My Leo, always seeing the good in people.
Wait a second…he was remembering feelings too, instead of just stories.
"Do you remember anything else?" I asked, my heart starting to flutter more than usual when around him. Could he remember the pod? His confession? His sacrifice?
"Yes…oh Jemma," he said, and cupped my face in his hands. "I remember going to the HUB to save you, and not hearing from you and thinking you were dead. I remember feeling like every important part of my life had died. And that I may well have just died too, because there was no point in living without you."
Tears welled in my eyes after he said that. And then something clicked into place in my mind.
It doesn't matter anymore that Leo forgot some things. His feelings for me came back just as strong this time around, but now, he wasted no time in showing them. It was like the hidden part of him that remembered everything was telling him to waste no more time. The part of Leo that had been missing had been stopping me from moving forward and getting past the pain. I wasn't going to let that affect me anymore.
"Oh Leo…" I said as I held onto his shoulders, "I thought you had died too. I was more scared in that moment than in my entire life. I can't live without you either."
It's true. I don't know what I would have done if he had died.
"Jemma, when you ran towards me and launched yourself into my arms, I thought I had died and gone to heaven. But when I felt that you were real, I knew that I would be alright, as long as I had you by my side."
"Oh Leo," I said as I closed the space between us and pressed my lips to his. I remember grabbing the collar of his shirt tightly to hold him close, and I could feel his hand gripping my waist firmly. I never wanted to let him go. I would be content staying like this forever.
After a few minutes, I broke away and pressed my forehead against his.
"Anything else? Do you remember anything else?"
Like the pod perhaps. That will be even more of an emotional roller coaster than this was.
"No, that's all for now."
"There's no rush" I said with a grin as I captured his lips in my own once again.
Day 83:
We were sitting on top of Leo's bed reading a science journal together. Well, he was reading, I was watching him read. Actually, he stopped reading a while ago, and we were just enjoying each other's presence. We weren't kissing, we were just studying each other's faces, memorizing every speck, every freckle, every pore. We do this a lot now. I think it's because we came so close to losing each other. Leo still doesn't know what happened to him. We just called it an "accident". Of course I want him to remember, but I'm sad to think about the pain it will cause him when the time comes.
Day 84:
Tonight when were were all at the dinner table, Leo asked the one thing I had been dreading. He more like demanded it actually.
"Tell me how I got my amnesia. No more skirting around the issue. I need to know everything. Please guys, I need to know."
How do I possibly tell the man I love that we were trapped in an underwater pod, and we were going to die, when he selflessly sacrificed himself for me?
How do you possibly tell someone that?
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