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Walking along the beach she knew it would be a while before he arrived she hoped she was doing the right thing, making the right decision she had thought about it, had gone away she needed to clear her head she had hoped going to Dr Lindstrom would help her instead it made her more confused about her feelings was he actually trying to encourage her to get back with Brian despite it all were they on the same page. What about her relationship with Declan did he want another child was it serious enough, was she ready to declare their relationship to make it public, it took a year with Brian and only then it was found out accidentally was she embarrassed about being seen with them.

Opening the door it wasn't long before he arrived looking up into his caring face she knew she had made the right decision the right thing for her taking his hand leading him over to the couch leaning over kissing him "I just needed to get away to think. I met Brian the other day for a coffee we did something we should of done in ages we talked openly it stirred up a lot of stuff, I'm sorry Dec"

Looking at Olivia her feet curled up under her "you're going back to him?"

Seeing the sadness in his eyes reaching out to touch his face her voice soft "no, I want to be with you, no more sneaking around I'm ready to disclose our relationship when necessary. I can't hold onto the past I need to move forward and that is with you to see where this goes"

Looking into Olivia's eyes he was expecting the worse "are you sure Liv"

Looking into his eyes not saying anything as her lips find his softly at first before her arms move around his neck kissing him passionately "does that answer your question"

His hand moving down her head feeling her lips hungrily find his "I still have this place for another night can you stay?"

Moving her down onto the lounge looking into her brown eyes he wasn't going anywhere not now or for a long time, his whole body was hungry for her, he had wanted her more than he had wanted anyone for a long time.

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Her head in his lap her feet curled up on the lounge they were staying an extra night away from everything just the two of them, her with a long shirt on, him with a robe the fire burning in the fire place looking up at him a smile on her face this was perfect just what they needed feeling his hand stroking her head.

Looking down at his girlfriend he was worried for a short time that she was going to choose Brian go back to him but with her lying next to him now he was content, he was falling in love with her. She was everything he had wanted she had compassion, a love for her job she was not only beautiful on the outside but the inside too, moving her hair slightly away from her he couldn't get enough of her.

They had explored each other bodies moving from the lounge to the bedroom spending all night and all day, getting a few hours sleep at a time before waking up and starting all over again. They had explored parts of each other bodies that they hadn't before her touch sent him wild. He wanted her like he hadn't wanted anyone before he couldn't get enough of her.

They had finally gotten out of bed late in the afternoon the following day both having worked up an appetite and moved to the lounge to wait for the takeout neither of them really wanting to get dressed and go out. She was happy here with Declan he was stirring up feelings in her again a feeling that had started to go away his touch over her body the way he nibbled her ears his tongue moved around her breasts, him sending her crazy

Finishing their dinner seeing Declan smiling at her putting their plates back in the kitchen the guest house was quaint on the beach small with just a bedroom and kitchenette just what she wanted, She was worried about the nightmares coming back from Lewis but this was nothing like where he took her she needed to do this.

Feeling his arms around her waist drawing her towards him feeling his lips nibble her neck her ears moving her head back feeling his hands move under the shirt his lips finding the right spots gripping the bench as his hands move down her body watching as her undies fall to the floor shit this felt so good, his tongue finding places that sent her wild.

Leaning back on the bench her hands gripping the edge feeling his mouth move around her body moving further down she knew she was moist down there but she didn't care all she wanted was Declan as his lips move her body losing control.

Watching and feeling Olivia's body tremble and quiver he wanted to be inside of her, he didn't care where they did it, he just wanted her, to feel her body pressed against his, for his tongue to be on her.

Moving her body to a sitting position his eyes fixed with hers his lips slowly finding hers as her arms move around his neck and slowly down his back landing on his bum it isn't long before he is inside of her their love making fast and furious.

Closing the door behind them his arm around her waist seeing Olivia look up at him, neither of them wanted to leave neither of them getting much sleep there was something new about their relationship it was like they were finally a couple she had chosen him over Brian he had to admit that he was worried that she only wanted to hook up nothing serious. He wanted to take their relationship to the next step to make it official

Looking at Declan "what are you thinking?"

Was he that obvious "you, me, us did you mean it when you said you wanted to disclose our relationship?"

Looking at Declan it had taken a year with Brian even then it was an accident "I don't know if I am ready for the squad to find out but I do want to be with you and if that means disclosing it to 1PP and IAB then I'm ready for that when need be"

Smiling at her "let's just give it a bit more time, but I do want to be with you Liv and for the record I do want this to work out between us"

Smiling back at him meeting his lips her voice soft "me too"

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It had been a month since she had gone away and their relationship was stronger neither of them had gone to 1PP yet, they knew they had to but kept putting it off, she was happy and didn't want to ruin that, she didn't want people to know their business but also she wanted the creeping around to stop it was different to Cassidy both of them putting work first their relationship second at first until they moved in together to grow closer.

It had been over 3 ½ months now nearing 4 months since they started going out, casual at first, now they both were getting serious he was nothing like Cassidy this was more than a hook up they spent many nights together more together than apart, dinner most weekends spent together, they went out to museums and places.

Did she want her squad to know she wasn't ready for that yet for her private life to become public for everyone here to know that she was going out with him, that was holding her back from disclosing it knowing it would come out having them all look at her differently wondering about them.

Watching Olivia walk out of SVU where was the Sergeant who stayed back until most of them left, the one that came in extra early, there was something about her, she had a spring in her step colour back in her face she was happy, the happiest he had seen her in a while. He had hoped that she hadn't gotten back with Cassidy, it was no secret he didn't like the guy.

If he made her happy he was happy, he knew she had gone out with Haden even though she never admitted it and here she was acting the same way.

Watching as she picked up her bag "you look happy Liv"

Looking at her partner "huh"

Seeing Olivia look at him "I'm just saying you look happier lately than you have in a while, It's great"

Shaking her head "go home Nick, we have crims to catch tomorrow"

Looking at Olivia "where is the Sergeant Benson that would stay here until late"

Shrugging at him "I'm not in charge of here anymore so I can leave early, have a night off"

Watching as she walked out she was seeing someone that much he was sure off, he just had no idea who, did Brian move back in, would she actually tell him if he did. He was glad and happy for her, she had been through so much she deserved some happiness, even if he thought Cassidy was the wrong person he had seen that at one stage he did make her happy.

Looking up at Lieutenant Murphy walk out of the Captains office he still couldn't take to him still had issues with him, he thought he would be gone by now but 10 months later he was still here hearing his voice "see you tomorrow Amaro, go home"

Picking up his jacket from his desk "just about to leave" watching as Murphy walks out of SVU even Olivia seemed to work well with him now, was he the only one to see that he didn't belong in SVU.

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Hearing the phone ring rolling over half asleep picking it up "Benson"

hearing Nick's voice on the other end "Liv, is that you I thought I'd call Murphy's phone"

Looking at the phone in her hand "shit" she had picked up the wrong phone in her sleep her eyes wide open looking at him sleeping next to her his hand running down her arm.

Hearing Liv's voice on the phone did he ring Olivia's number looking at his phone, no the number he dialed was Murphy's "Sorry Liv, must of dialed your number by mistake" even as he said it he knew she wouldn't believe it

Seeing Declan look at her the shock on her face at hearing Nick's voice, confusion on Declan's as his fingers run over her body as she pushed his hand away. She knew Nick could see what number he dialed "I'm, ah …. Sorry we were working late on a case last night, I must of picked up his phone by mistake instead of mine, they were both on the table" she knew she was rambling now "he probably has my phone, unless I left it at work"

He knew Olivia was lying but he didn't want to admit the truth either that Sergeant Olivia Benson was sleeping with Lt Declan Murphy, she had been acting secretly lately and was happier than she had been in a way he was a slight step up from Cassidy but only just.

Did she hear right did Nick just stay Liv her eyes on Nick she was sure she did "I thought you were ringing Murphy"

His eyes staring at his phone before looking up at Rollins "I dialed the wrong number, I called Liv by mistake" he didn't want to look up at Amanda or Fin he didn't want to see the disbelief in their eyes he knew that it was a weak reason he could only hope they would believe it but his eyes still moved up to them seeing both eyes on him "I'll call him now"

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Will the rest of the squad find out and how will Amaro act.

Do they now go to 1PP and disclose or is it too late.