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Only a couple of chapters to go unless you want more, this was going to be the last chapter but there could be one more.
Must admit I loved writing this chapter was one of the easiest.
Hope you enjoy it
The other one will be up hopefully tomorrow just a few adjustments for those reading the Bensidy one won't keep you waiting too much longer.
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Standing in the door way of the room she had walked around and ended up here seeing Evelyn look up at her smiling "I'm just going to the cafeteria"
His eyes moving to the door way seeing Olivia standing there her hair flowing down to her shoulders not moving from the door "just going to stand there Liv"
That one word was all she needed Liv, not Olivia no formality to it the name he had always called her since they first met even when he was annoyed at her all those years ago it was still Liv never Olivia walking over towards the bed hesitating at the foot "I'm not going to bite you Liv you can come closer"
Moving over sitting on the edge of the bed reaching for his hand her eyes looking into his "I'm sorry Brian"
Looking up into her eyes "I think we are both sorry here Liv, I never should of barged into your place that time and the way I treated you the other day"
Stroking his face "we both hurt each other Brian and I am sorry I never meant to hurt you not now or all those years ago when I treated you badly. We both haven't handled any of this well"
Looking into his eyes this was the man she was in love with and had never stop loving putting her hand on his shoulder moving her mouth down to find his the kiss soft and gentle.
Feeling Olivia's mouth on his her eyes looking into his a small smile on his face "that was nice"
it bought back memories to when they got together "you know I can't resist a guy in a hospital bed I couldn't 3 years ago and I can't now"
Smiling up at Olivia he wasn't going to get his hopes up again "Okay Florence Nightingale"
Watching him move his face showing some pain "did you mean what you said Bri, did you want a family and to grow old with me"
Reaching for her hand his other hand moving up to touch her cheek nodding "being apart from you babe made me realize a few things I had to imagine my life without you in it, and I hated it. I saw families and children everywhere and it made me realize what I was missing. I love you so much Liv and I want to try to work things out"
Her mouth moving down to his the kiss soft and gentle at first before becoming harder moving her mouth away slightly from his "I haven't stopped loving you Brian"
looking into her eyes "me neither Liv I think I will always love you"
Putting her hands on his sitting up on the bed looking up at the door seeing his mother there "don't let me interrupt you, I'll come back later"
Smiling at her mouthing "thank you" turning back to hold his hand she now had the hard part she had to speak to Declan
As if reading her mind "what about you and Murphy Liv"
Tilting her head sideways "I have to tell him I don't think he'll be surprised but before this goes anywhere I do need to speak to him"
Moving over to the chair holding his hand or stroking his forehead she had never loved anyone the way she loved Brian "when do they think you will be able to get out of here"
Turning to face her "be a few days or so yet, I need another CT scan to ensure the swelling has all gone down and the internal injuries and swelling has gone. I hope they find the bastards to repay them"
Moving the chair closer to him "do you want to move back into the apartment"
Trying to sit up on the bed the pain of moving "I'd love nothing more than that Liv, but for this to work properly this time maybe we should take it slowly, we both put our work in front of our relationship towards the end whatever happens we need to make time for ourselves"
Reaching for her hand "The doctors don't want me to be myself I need some care and I can't put that on you"
Trying not to show the disappointment she knew he was right her hands on his arm "you took care of me Bri after Lewis you got me through all those nightmares even when I tried not to wake you up, you always woke up holding me making sure I was ok even when I pushed you away. I want to do the same for you"
Shaking his head "I did all those things because I loved you I couldn't let you go through that all by yourself. I can't let you do that Liv, we are only just getting back together I don't want to put that pressure on you. The doctors have no idea what damage has taken place, what my memory will be like if or when I can return back to work. The tests are all looking positive, I want to be with you so much babe"
His hand touching her face "I want more than the odd hook up Liv I want this to work this time, and if that means taking it slowly then that is what we will do, I want to be with you I don't want to imagine you not in my life anymore. I want to live with you, to wake up next to you every morning, to make love with you. That first time I get to hold you again I won't be able to get enough of you. If you want I will move back in straight away with you but I think we should take it slowly at first"
Leaning over to kiss him "You can move in whenever you want Bri, I don't mind taking care of you"
Pushing the hair away from her eyes "I know you don't babe that is who you are"
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Walking into SVU she knew she had to talk to Murphy she had put it off for days, even before her and Brian agreed to give their relationship another chance she knew she had to tell Murphy when he pushed her away it was then she realized she was not over Brian and it was not fair to try to have a child with someone yet. Evelyn was right if she was in love with him she wouldn't have to think about it, she wouldn't be having doubts about it she would know. She had a few doubts when Brian and her agreed to move in together if their relationship would survive but she didn't have any doubts about how much she wanted to be with him, it was a perfect fit coming home to him each night.
Seeing the team's eyes on her as she walks in a smile on her face hearing Rollins voice "how's Cassidy doing?"
"he's doing well, he still has to stay in hospital for a few days or week but he's on the road to recovery and is stable and improving, still needs more tests and probably off work for a while before he is given the clear to go back but he's going to make it"
He could tell Olivia was relieved "that's great news Liv, give him our best"
Turning to face Fin nodding "I will"
Watching Olivia walk into the squad room for the first time in a while she had a spring in her step, a sparkle back in her eye watching as she sits down opposite him smiling up at her "good to see you happy again Liv"
Smiling up at Nick she was happy glancing at Lt Murphy's office she knew she had to face him she couldn't put it off any longer not here or now.
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Sitting on the edge of the bed one hand on his shoulder the other stroking his forehead their eyes not moving from each other "I can't stay long …. I can't wait for you to get out of here I've missed you"
Tilting his head sideways he can never get enough of looking at her "me too babe, I can't wait to hold you again to feel your body next to mine"
His eyes moving to the door before back at Olivia's "Lt Tucker" trying to sit up on the bed
Closing her eyes "shit" sighing before turning around moving off the bed "Tucker, any news on who did this"
She could feel his eyes on them both the only relief she felt was it wasn't Murphy or any of the SVU squad. Nodding at Brian "I'll see you later" before turning to Tucker her eyes looking up at him searching his for something, she knew he saw her on the bed her hands on Brian and she knew he knew about her relationship with Declan.
Going to walk out of the room hearing Tucker's voice "Moving back to your ex Cassidy now Sergeant, wasn't it that long ago that you disclosed your relationship with Murphy now your back with you Mickey of an ex boyfriend made up your mind yet"
Rolling her eyes at him a sigh escaping "maybe you should look after your undercovers better Lt Tucker, you mightn't be so lucky next time"
His eyes not leaving Olivia she had the same reaction as when Amaro and Munch caught her the first time at his apartment when they became public "Thanks for stopping by Liv"
Walking out of Cassidy's room wanting to bang her head against the wall, she had to talk to Declan and tonight she couldn't leave it any longer not that Tucker knew or thought he knew something.
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Hurrying to the restaurant, she was running late she had quickly dropped into the hospital which turned out not to be that quick, she didn't want to leave Brian she could still feel the touch of his lips against hers. She hated the thought of Tucker seeing them together but she wasn't going to let him go not now not ever.
There he was standing against the street pole waiting for her "Sorry I'm late got stuck in traffic"
Smiling at her as they walk along "what's happening here Liv"
Her hands in her pocket "what do you mean"
Stopping turning to face her "this, us I hardly get to see you anymore, you're either at the hospital even at work you are avoiding me. Whatever is going on Liv I can take it we're drifting apart. I'm sorry for what happened the other night I've been wanting to talk about it but it seems like you've been avoiding it"
Looking up at him "You helped me through a difficult time Dec, when I had given up on relationships of finding someone you came along" her eyes down before looking up at him "I think maybe there is something more right for us, I know we've been trying for a baby but if I am honest with you I'm don't think the relationship is ready for that. You said you love me and I can't say it back I wish I could and I have thought about it so much wondering if I did love you, but if I did I wouldn't have to wonder I would know"
Linking her arm through his as they continue "I'm sorry Declan I do think about having a family and kids but….."
She didn't need to say it "you thought about it with Cassidy not me"
Her eyes moving around before going straight ahead stopping facing him touching his face "I did and I thought he didn't want that but spending time at the hospital with him thinking I was going to lose him all those feelings came back"
Looking into her eyes there was something there something he hadn't seen much during their whole time together "you're going back to him'
Tears forming in her eyes nodding "yes we're going to give it another chance, I'm so sorry Declan I never meant to lead you on or hurt you. I really enjoyed our time together and spending it with you, I wish things had turned out differently as you are a wonderful guy and deserve someone who really does love you but that isn't me"
Reaching up kissing his cheek before rubbing it "I didn't want someone coming into SVU taking over but as we did I am glad it was you"
Looking at Olivia her eyes filled with tears "if I have to be honest with myself Liv part of me always knew you would end back with him, I didn't want to admit it but telling you he was in hospital there was a huge part of me knew that this would bring you together. There was something holding you back. He is a very lucky guy to have you I hope he knows that"
A small smile on her face "I'm the lucky one Declan for him giving me another chance. I tried and hoped but I never stopped loving him but I don't regret anything that happened between us and any woman is lucky to have you as their boyfriend and if I wasn't in love with Brian I would of loved to have kids with you"
Watching as she is about to leave "Liv, are you and Brian already started going out ….."
Biting her lips shaking her head "Not yet, I'd never do that to you until I had spoken to you, Bri knows that"
Watching Olivia walk away out of his life work wouldn't be the same would he be able to see her each day knowing she now was with someone else the one guy who she really loved the one that he had known deep down that one day she would go back to him. Not being able to hold her, make love to her or kiss her again knowing that someone else is doing that to her
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Sneaking into his room standing at the foot of the bed watching him lie in bed the small snores coming from him he looked so cute and innocent just lying there.
Opening his eyes a smile coming to his face "what are you doing here?"
Shrugging "listening to you snore, forgot that about you"
Tilting his head sideways "I'm not the one who snores here Liv"
Nodding her head at him as she walks over to the bed "yeah you are"
Looking around the room as she walks to the bed "how did you get in visiting times were over a while ago"
Putting her hand on his shoulder "I'm very persuasive you know"
Raising his eyebrows at her pushing himself to sit up on the bed "really going to show me how persuasive?"
Tilting her head sideways looking at him "once you are out of this hospital bed I'll show you my powers of persuasion until then" leaning down towards him her fingers gently brushing his lips before moving her lips down towards him the kiss gentle.
Moving her mouth away slightly her hand stroking his forehead "I met up with Declan tonight"
Moving his head to look at her his hand coming up touching her cheek "and….. "
Smiling at him her hand running down his arm "I spoke to him and told him"
His eyes not moving from hers "does that mean what I think it does then"
Nodding at Brian the love in both of their eyes "yes just need you out of this hospital bed"
Reaching out touching her cheek his fingers moving around her lips "I love you Liv so much"
Her head on the side holding his hand "I love you too Brian, always will"
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After things on twitter and rewatching Bensidy I couldn't have them apart they belong together and would love Brian to come back.