CPOV
As I sit here watching my best friend dance with her husband, I can't help but be a little jealous. The way they look at each other with so much love and adoration makes me wish I could have that with someone.
"Nice speech sis" Heather sat behind me and put her arms around my waist. "I've missed you. I know its been hard on you too but I hope you do reconsider and move back". She gave me a kiss on my cheek and walked off to her fiance that was dancing on the dance floor.
I feel really guilty leaving my sister and my best friend but I felt I needed to get away. Nothing was right back then and now it seems like everyone is moving on and I'm still lost.
I spent a yr in London and now I'm in the middle of renegotiations of whether I will stay another yr or move back here.
I knew the impact it had on Tess and heather as they never fail to remind me especially during the missed holidays and birthdays. I tried to make a life for myself there but nothing beats being home. But now that they have their own "life" I just feel that I wouldn't be missed at all or get in the way of them.
"Penny for your thoughts?"
I was startled by his voice, but yet it was soothing all at the same time.
"Nothing really. Just thinking about what I've missed since I left." I shrugged my shoulders and looked at him.
Vincent had this power over me that makes me forget about everything else around me as soon as I look into his eyes that I didnt even notice he took a seat next to me. I've dreamt several times about them wondered if I was going to be able to see him again. When I found out that he was the best man I was excited and terrified. Excited because I wanted to see him but terrified that what feelings I've tried to ignore this past yr would come crashing down.
"But now that everyone has seemed to move on, I don't really think Ill be missed if I leave again."
I surprised myself on how I'm being honest with him. I normally hold back and keep in my feelings.
He moved a little closer on the edge of his seat and leaned towards me. He tucked a strand of my hair behind my ear and cupped my cheek.
"I've missed you and will do so if you decide to leave again." Looking into his eyes I can tell he was being sincere.
"Thanks Vincent. That means a lot." I sighed and shook my head trying to get out of this almost depressing funk that I've put myself in the last couple hours. "So... Did tori finally leave you alone?"
I knew he noticed me changing the subject but thankfully left it alone. He just shrugged, "Think so. Not that I was really looking or concerned for her this evening. There was only one person I wanted to be around tonight in hopes maybe we can start over."
Ouch ... And he's back. I still don't understand how his words can pierce through my heart like that.
"Hmm. Well I hope you find her I'll leave you to it." I started to get up and I felt him tugged lightly on my hand.
Confused as to why he did that, I looked at him.
"You do know I'm talking about you right?" He chuckled. I'm sure he noticed my deer in headlights look.
Are you kidding me right now?
I notice that the ballroom lighting has been dimmed and one of my favorite songs started playing.
"Dance with me?" He got up and started walking to the dance floor. He stopped a few feet away from me and gave me a slight nod.
What the hell.
I started walking towards him and he grabs my hand and he held my right hand in his and his left found the small of my back.
You know I'd fall apart without you
I don't know how you do what you do
'Cause everything that don't make sense about me
Makes sense when I'm with you
Like everything that's green, girl, I need you
But it's more than one and one makes two
Put aside the math and the logic of it
You gotta know you're wanted too
He let my hand go and wrapped both hands around my waist. He gazed into my eyes and smiled.
'Cause I wanna wrap you up
Wanna kiss your lips
I wanna make you feel wanted
And I wanna call you mine
Wanna hold your hand forever
And never let you forget it
Yeah, I, I wanna make you feel wanted
He leaned over against my cheek and whispered, " You're beautiful. Always have been."
Anyone can tell you you're pretty, yeah
And you get that all the time, I know you do
But your beauty's deeper than the make-up
And I wanna show you what I see tonight...
When I wrap you up
When I kiss your lips.
I wanna make you feel wanted
And I wanna call you mine
Wanna hold your hand forever
And never let you forget it
'Cause, baby, I, I wanna make you feel wanted
I felt him suck in a breath and sighed. " I don't know how to make you stay, but I sure hope you would think about it."
All I could do was hold him a little tighter. All I wanted right now was to feel him and take him in.
As good as you make me feel
I wanna make you feel better
Better than your fairy tales
Better than your best dreams
You're more than everything I need
You're all I ever wanted
All I ever wanted
He leaned back and tuck a loose strand of my hair. " I don't know how I survived not seeing you for so long. I missed you Catherine." He confessed. I saw the sadness and ... Hurt? His lips was so close to mine that I could feel the warmth of his breath.
And I just wanna wrap you up
Wanna kiss your lips
I wanna make you feel wanted
And I wanna call you mine
Wanna hold your hand forever
And never let you forget it
Yeah, I wanna make you feel wanted
Baby, I wanna make you feel wanted
I dont know what came over me, maybe its the song, the ambiance, the fact that I missed him too ... I don't know but i ended up grabbing his shirt to close the gap between our lips as i stood on my tiptoes and I crashed my lips against his.
Even though we have kissed before, for me it seemed like the first. I think because I just realized that I'm falling for Vincent Keller ... Again.
Crap. What am I going to do now?
You'll always be wanted.
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