Preface: Hi. Outright, if you can't handle fan fiction and don't understand the definition of it or what the two words mean together, you can read the story, that's up to you. Just understand that you are ignorant to the events of my life and I like to include that in my stories. So fuck all of you "critics" out there. Anyways, hope you enjoy and remember, I write what I want. Not you fucks.
It was a gloomy, downcast day in Beach City. We'd been having showers for two days now. I sat up on a rock by the beach, reflecting upon what had happened last week. Peridot and Jasper intruded on our adopted home planet, in a big ass hand or something. We thought Jasper killed Garnet for a second, but she's a fusion. Whoa. I didn't even know that. Jasper was an asshole. He kept me backed into a corner, surrounded by a bunch of Peridot's drones that he could command to attack and end me at any moment. Then Steven rushed in to save me... Sweet, benevolent, considerate, sometimes irrational, awkward, loving, always the greatest. Steven. Just the other day, he found me locked in my chamber, destroying shit and crying. That could have been the end of something great.
"Amethyst, no! What are you doing? Stop! Please! Let me help you."
He seized my arms and brought them to my side. I was still screaming, but his face, his lips were in asymptotic motion towards mine. I felt the warmth of his heart in every breath.
"Amethyst, I need you to understand that I'm your friend and I'll always be here for you. You're like a sister to me. I love you. Don't you ever forget that." But, he never kissed me. He withdrew himself slowly and gathered me in his arms. I started crying, but he stayed with me. It was an everlasting gesture of what could be but would never be. I cherished that moment in my heart, because it's the closest I'll ever get to him. I care too much. And, he has his own life apart from me. I wasn't a priority. I was just an expendable friend. Our relationship was terminal. As I was lost in my meditative state, I felt a hand caress my face. It was Steven. Back to reality now.
"Hey, I just wanted to say, thanks for, um, talking to Connie for me."
Oh yeah. I forgot to say. Steven had me talk to Connie for him the other day. I gave a piece of my heart to him when I agreed to further the disappointment of our slowly dying relationship. It would never be the same. Not since our emotional schism... After Jasper attacked... And after he consolidated me. I don't know why I was wrecking everything. Something just came over me, like it always does. I was just listening to Slipknot on my stereo, then I found myself on my feet, charging towards the Great Pile of Amethysts' Shit and began to wreck it. After Steven played with my heart again, unintentionally, as he is ignorant to my feelings, I went to the busted hand of Rose's massive sculpture in the mountain and sat there. I just sat there, and I started screaming. I was furious! But for what? For what? Steven must have heard me going crazy, because he rushed over to me.
"Amethyst, not this again! Come on sweetie, please, stop!" He tried to pet my head, but I pushed him away. I scratched him, and left a huge gash. Fuck. I forgot how strong I was. He turned and stomped away. I heard him sigh in disappointment. "I love you, Amethyst." I know we said we loved each other alot, but it felt different this time. I stayed there, playing with a few pieces of Rose's broken statue. I was a mess.
Later that evening, he came back up the mountain, and almost fell on a slippery stone. He looked at me,half in tears,half angry, and said,"Amethyst, after tonight, I realize that you are too much for me to handle! Too much drama. I'm sorry, but you have to understand at some point." As he walked out on me, my heart fell into the pit of my stomach, exploding in the lava that was the acidic liquid in my belly and being lost forever to the flames. But not yet. I had to try and recover what I could from the ashes.
"Steven, wait! Come back!" I ran after him, my heart racing, my feet kicking sand up into my face. "Please, give me another chance! Tell me what I do to fix it!"
I grabbed his arm. He whipped around to face me.
"Look, there's nothing you can do. I'm done. You are making my life stressful. I'm sorry, but you have to find a new friend."
It started to rain again as he walked away, leaving me there on the beach. I couldn't differentiate between my tears and the rain drops. When the clouds that were my eyes couldn't rain anymore, I got up and went inside.
I went into my chambers that night and cut my wrist up. The blood mesmerized me as it dripped from the slits. It was like being a stoner, but for pain. I got high off the pain, the blood. But he'd never know. I did the cuts for him. To punish myself, like I always do. On every mission I avoided him as best as possible, even when he was shooting crystals at corrupt gems and one backlashed and hit me. I sucked it up. Maybe he'd glance at me, but never speak a word. His beautiful green eyes always fell on me, and when I'd catch them, he'd look away to my everlasting disappointment. Maybe he'd begin to love me one day. Maybe. All of that thought and I never even knew Steven was calling my name.
"Amy? Amethyst! Amethyst, are you alright? What's wrong?" I slowly gazed up at him, and a hint of a smile crossed my face.
"You're welcome." That's all I said. Then I got up and walked away.
"Welcome for what?" Steven asked, puzzled. I don't know what I was saying that day. Steven started towards me, but Garnet grabbed his arm. I turned around and walked away.
"Just give her some space, Steven", she said, in her beautiful British accent.
I woke up around twelve in the morning. I heard something outside. Like, the roar of an airplane's engine. I got up and went to investigate. I observed an unmanned plane, glowing blue. Nobody was around. I checked the entire one mile radius of the area. No one. So I climbed inside. It was my friend Luce.
"Luce! Look at you. About to be out of school, aren't you?"
She jumped in her seat and froze. When she realized who I was, her pale face turned red.
"Goodness, you almost scared the life out of me! Hey sweetie! How are you? How are the missions? Anyone hurt? That bitch Peridot dead yet? How's Steven?" And when she finished that statement, tears began to well up in my eyes like a depressed cloud showering it's agony onto the earth below.
"Oh no, I'm so sorry, I forgot..."
"It's okay. Just... Fly me to the Kindergarten, will you? I need to get back there. I feel whole at the kindergarten." The engine revved up and then we took off into the stratosphere, a million thoughts racing around in my head.