Chapter 3 – Desire
Inuyasha refused to think about last night. He couldn't make anything of it anyway. He had just gone about his daily business. He was now catching some fish in the sea for dinner. Sesshoumaru's scent was still in the air. It riled him up, catching more fish than necessary. After he was done fishing, Inuyasha made a fire in the sand and roasted his fish above it. Almost as if it was a daily ritual, Sesshoumaru showed up again.
"You have made it a habit to walk away from me. I do not know if this is wisdom or stupidity." Sesshoumaru said.
"Either way doesn't matter seeing as you come right after me every fucking time." Inuyasha answered. He couldn't look at Sesshoumaru. So instead chose to poke the fire.
"Do you hate my company that much?" he asked. This caused Inuyasha to look at him, confused. But he remained calm.
"I know where you and I stand, Sesshoumaru. I stay away from people that do not want me near them. It keeps me alive."
"If I did not want you near me, it would be pointless for me to come find you, would it not?" Sesshoumaru said. Inuyasha didn't know what he meant. It sounded quite clear, but there had to be some meaning to it. He decided to play it safe.
"Whatever." He said and continued with his fish. Sesshoumaru went to sit next to him.
"I somehow expected a different reaction from you, little brother. Are you not pleased that this Sesshoumaru seeks your company?" Sesshoumaru asked curiously.
"Are you kidding me? I think you have a fever or something cuz you're spouting nonsense." Inuyasha said as he handed one of the fish to his brother. He had too much anyway. Sesshoumaru accepted it. But was confused by the bipolar attitude Inuyasha was giving him. He didn't want him near him but gave him food?
"This Sesshoumaru does not jest." This earned him another look from Inuyasha. What was his brother thinking? This joke was going too far. Inuyasha couldn't take any more trampling on his heart. Sesshoumaru needed to go away, before he could do any more damage. But Inuyasha could not deny, he enjoyed the company.
"Why is it that you do not believe me?" he said before taking a bite. Delicious, he thought.
"Why would you suddenly want my company. I haven't changed. I'm still a half-demon. Stop joking Sesshoumaru, it's in poor taste." Inuyasha took a bite from his fish, his puppy ears betraying his feelings. Sesshoumaru could see the inner turmoil going on in his little brother's head. For some reason Inuyasha was strangely affected by this. But how could he make his brother believe him?
"You have proven me wrong about your strength many times. Defeating great enemies alongside me. And even though of all the people still alive, I have known you the longest, you are still a mystery to me. Your monthly weakness, your beautiful singing voice. These are things I have discovered about you only in your 211th year. I wonder what else there is to learn about you." Sesshoumaru said.
Inuyasha looked at him in shock. Recapping everything Sesshoumaru had just said in his head, over and over again. He had complemented him. Acknowledged him and, and ..beautiful? He had said his voice was beautiful? Inuyasha looked down. Bangs covering his eyes, and the tears they held.
Inuyasha did not know how to respond. This was like a dream. Sesshoumaru had known Inuyasha the longest. He was his big brother. Even though he never acted the part. As much as Inuyasha denied it and had given up. He couldn't deny it any longer. He wanted his big brother to be a brother. To have a family. No, Inuyasha was getting ahead of himself. Who said anything about family. He said he 'wanted to learn about him'.
"I.. Just do whatever you want." He said awkwardly. He handed another fish to Sesshoumaru before he took a bite of his own. They ate in silence after that. Sesshoumaru decided he would let his words sink in for a little while. At least while they ate. The sun was setting. The two brothers stared at the sunset. It was pretty. Inuyasha couldn't believe he was 'having dinner' and watching the sunset with his brother.
Deep colors of red, yellow and orange covered the sky. The light of the sun warped into a beautiful magenta just before it stopped and the evening sky appeared. The color reminded Inuyasha of his brother. The color on his cheeks. Inuyasha looked at Sesshoumaru, only to find him staring back at him. Pink covering his own cheeks now, Inuyasha hurriedly looked away before he stood up. Covering the fire with sand from the beach, Inuyasha decided it was time to go. Though not spoken aloud, Sesshoumaru got the hint. He also stood up. He looked at Inuyasha, his eyes unreadable. "I shall visit again" he said before he left. Inuyasha's eyes traced him until he disappeared into the forest.
Before retiring to his cave, Inuyasha had gone to the river to drink some water. Walking through the forest, Sesshoumaru's scent had lingered. Powerful demons leave behind a powerful aura. Inuyasha tried to ignore it. But as much as he tried, he couldn't get his powerful as fuck brother out of his head. What they had today, was almost like a proper conversation. There was no fighting, though granted that Inuyasha usually started it. Inuyasha had always kept up a strong front, acting tough and provoking his brother. He thought that it was a way to show him he didn't care, that he was strong and to secretly spend a little more time with his brother. There was no other way he could. But after a while, Sesshoumaru did not seem to notice his strength. The insults Sesshoumaru gave became too much to handle. He didn't want to hear it anymore. So along with the mask, he dropped the act around Sesshoumaru. There was no point anymore. If Inuyasha kept his head cool, the Daiyoukai would just ignore him and walk on. That way, Inuyasha could also ignore it, the pain.
But never in his wildest dreams had Inuyasha ever imagined Sesshoumaru to be so ..normal? Inuyasha did not know how to describe it. Sesshoumaru had saved him, protected him, bathed with him and today had a normal conversation with him?
Inuyasha remembered the conversation. Sesshoumaru was interested in him? Maybe it was al some sort of ploy? Maybe he was just trying to hurt Inuyasha in a different way. Sesshoumaru had been pretty mild lately. Without Inuyasha provoking him, Sesshoumaru did not seem to have any interest in killing Inuyasha anymore. They had slain Naraku together. Each going their own ways and living their lives. Sesshoumaru had sometimes come to visit Rin, but he never made way to talk to Inuyasha as well. He always left straight after giving her his greetings and sometimes a gift. Inuyasha did not know what Sesshoumaru was up to since then. Did he have another powerful demon to slay? Or did he just wonder about, like Inuyasha had done? Maybe Sesshoumaru was just as bored as him? No there was no way. He was a Daiyoukai. He had to run the western lands, as their father did before him. But then, why did he come looking for Inuyasha?
Returning to his cave Inuyasha went to sit by the fire. His only source of light in the cave. Inuyasha had noticed the warmth pooling up in his stomach for some time now. Sesshoumaru's scent seemed to had an effect on him. Untying his hakama, Inuyasha found his cock standing proud and erect. The hanyou was confused. Why did he get erect every time he thought of his brother? It was sick. He was Sesshoumaru, male and not the slightest bit nice or sexy. Well.. maybe he could be sexy, unintentionally though. That ethereal beauty of his white skin illuminated by the moon. Inuyasha imagined him back in the hot spring. Bending over the edge, hair dripping to one side. One hand holding him steady on the edge as the other started stroking his huge cock. Precum leaking from the tip, lubricating his hand. His ass just above the water, creating ripples from the thrusting. Sesshoumaru's back hollowed as he came hard. His seed flowing away in the water.
Inuyasha looked at his hand. Again, he had come from imagining his brother. Inuyasha hated himself for it, but he could not deny it was the best feeling ever. That moment of pure lust and instinct as he came in his own hand. But why was it with Sesshoumaru? Inuyasha could think of multiple reasons; one he was into men, and there was no denying that Sesshoumaru was very handsome. Two, he was into power, some instinctual need to find a strong mate? Or three, he was just very frustrated and Sesshoumaru was the only person he had seen these past two months. Either way, he was screwed. Maybe he needed to find some woman? Just to relieve himself? It would be difficult. After all, Inuyasha was still a virgin. He couldn't just walk up to some woman and say: 'hey, wanna fuck?' Inuyasha decided to leave the subject for now. Sesshoumaru was gone and hopefully so were the urges. .
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Sesshoumaru was very confused. After everything he had said, Inuyasha seemed to get more and more upset. Had he said something wrong? He had spoken his true feelings. Yet somehow the hanyou had not reacted the way the Daiyoukai had expected. Was he not thrilled to have his older brother? Maybe that was just it. Inuyasha wanted an older brother but was too scared to believe it would actually happen? Sesshoumaru couldn't blame him. After everything he had put him through, now he suddenly wanted to get to know him? Sesshoumaru wouldn't believe himself either. The Daiyoukai decided that he would just persist, steadily. He could not force Inuyasha to believe him, it would take time. And then eventually they would be ..what, brothers? Is that his goal? To finally be a family? And then what? House visits, tea parties? The killing perfection was confusing himself. He did not know what he wanted. Ever since that night, when he had heard Inuyasha's true voice, he just wanted to get closer to him.
Sesshoumaru took off into the night sky, he would come back in a little while..
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Two very hot weeks had passed. Inuyasha had found himself masturbating to Sesshoumaru every few days. He couldn't help it. His thoughts would stray to the Daiyoukai and Inuyasha would feel that familiar heat pool up in his stomach again. He always imagined Sesshoumaru jacking himself off. Even though Inuyasha did not think it possible that the real Sesshoumaru would ever do such a thing, his imagination was happy to supply him with some hot images. After the fourth time or so, Inuyasha gave up on sanity and just went with it. It did not matter if he was into men or women, he wouldn't get either of them. It didn't matter if he was still a virgin, no one cared and no one would help him get rid of it. It did not matter if he imagined his own brother hot and panting. No one would ever know. It was his own secret. His own guilty pleasure. He could feel bad about it all he wanted, but it still happened and nothing would change that. He tried imagining another man but had no luck. Inuyasha was sexually attracted to his cruel, powerful as fuck older brother.
After accepting it Inuyasha completely went with the flow. Every night he would get comfortable and imagine Sesshoumaru in a different setting. But the dog-demon was always alone. It was as if Inuyasha was peeking, but never participating in his fantasies. No , even that went beyond his imagination. Inuyasha was fully content this way. Sure it wasn't what he ever thought his future would be like. But considering his life so far, he didn't have it so bad. He was alive, had a place of his own and was left in peace. Occasionally some demon would attack him but Inuyasha was strong enough to fight them off. Though tonight would be a different matter. It was the night of the new moon again. Inuyasha was safe in his cave where no one had ever found him, yet. With the opening looking out over the sea, Inuyasha did not have to worry about anyone seeing the light of his fire. So he could keep himself warm while being human. Something he could not do in the forest. Even though the rocks were still warm from the sun, by nightfall it cooled down dramatically. Something that wouldn't bother him as a half-demon, but as a human it could be life threatening.
With his fire ablaze Inuyasha covered himself with a fur blanket and sat by the fire. The sun had set and his transformation had begun. Looking at his claws he saw nothing but blunt fingernails. Feeling a cold breeze, Inuyasha covered his bare feet. Shaking, he tried to get warm. The downside of the ocean, it would be cooler during the day, but at night it could get quite cold. But all in all, this place was totally worth it, Inuyasha thought.
Still shaking from the cold, Inuyasha decided to go with his new daily ritual, masturbating. Opening his hakama with one hand, while the other still held the fur around him, Inuyasha clumsily grabbed his dick. Still flaccid, Inuyasha tried to get a hot image in front of him. But it was quite difficult to just conjure up something new. He tried to remember what he had done this day. He had hunted and eaten. He had swum in the sea. Inuyasha imagined himself swimming in the sea. Coming above water, momentarily blinded by the bright sun, he saw a figure on the shore. Bathing in the shallow water, the figure was basking in the evening sun. Skin glistening from the water, he was wet all over. His silver hair all around him, being spread by the waves. The Daiyoukai caressed himself over his chest and stomach.
Inuyasha was rock hard by now. He imagined himself getting closer, he couldn't see good enough. Swimming towards the shore, Sesshoumaru's other hand became visible. One leg bent, de dog-demon caressed his own balls. Playing with them, tucking on them softly. Inuyasha swam around, so he had a great view right in between Sesshoumaru's legs. Getting closer and closer, Inuyasha could see everything. Legs even more parted now, Sesshoumaru stopped touching himself. Inuyasha looked at his face, shocked to see him staring back. Eyes full of lust. Inuyasha was almost in his lap now. Sesshoumaru looked with such desire at him. It made his cock leak with precum. Now crawling closer in the shallow water, Inuyasha got in between his legs. Sesshoumaru did not speak, for Inuyasha could not imagine what he would say in such a moment. But he looked so delectable. Getting closer, Inuyasha grabbed hold of Sesshoumaru's dick. Hard and slick with precum, it was twitching from Inuyasha's touch. The hanyou moved his hand, looking as if he held a lollipop. It looked delicious. Slowly he lowered his mouth onto the eyecandy. Sesshoumaru's body twitching from the pleasure. Inuyasha bobbed his head up and down, looking at Sesshoumaru's face. His face flush, mouth wide open, silently panting as he came hard in Inuyasha's mouth, triggering the hanyou's own ejaculation.
Inuyasha panted. He had certainly warmed op now. He cleaned himself up with a cloth before disposing of it in the corner. Thinking back, that was the first time he had ever imagined himself with Sesshoumaru. It was something that wasn't done, something impossible. But that's what imagination was for, Inuyasha thought. He thought back to the feeling of having a cock in his mouth, the thought aroused him. That settled his doubts about being into men. Though he wasn't shocked about it anymore, he was way beyond that. A cold wind blowing, Inuyasha had quickly cooled off again. He snuggled into his fur.
Having slightly dozed off, Inuyasha suddenly woke when he felt a powerful demon aura approaching. At first slightly scared, being powerless and all, he soon calmed down as he identified it as Sesshoumaru's. Having come across his brother multiple times in the last year, in various situations, Inuyasha was convinced his brother was not out to kill him, for now at least. So he wasn't worried when he saw Sesshoumaru enter the cave. Though slightly awestruck that his brother was here, yet again.
"Good evening, little brother"
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