"Ughhh" I moan climbing back into bed after coming from the bathroom.
I see Nick slowly waking up and turning to face me in bed.
"Mmm... How long have you been awake?" Nick asks sleepily, rubbing his eyes.
"Not long... I was sick, again" I sigh and he wraps his
arms around my waist.
"I'm sorry baby, I should've been there. You should've woke me up" Nick worries.
"It's okay babe, you can't wake up every time I'm sick. I'm fine honestly"
"I'm sorry anyway... It will all be worth it in the end though, ey" he say kissing my forehead affectionately.
I sigh and turn so I am lying on my back.
"Are you okay, I mean about today..."
"To be honest, I'm so scared Nick" I admit, closing my eyes.
"Hey, I promise you, everything is going to be okay, you and the baby will be fine" Nick says and I just sigh.
"You don't know that," I turn to look at him, "I, I don't think I could go through what happened last time again, I wouldn't be able to cope Nick" I admit shaking, close to tears.
"Everything will be great. We get to see our baby girl or baby boy for the first time. It might even be twins. Or triplets"
My eyes widen looking at Nick in horror and he just laughs.
"I'm serious though Carla, whatever happens today, you've got me. You'll always have me." He smiles at me before kissing me passionately.
"I love you so, so much Tilsley" I whine mid-kiss and I feel his lips smirking.
Nick puts his hand on my knee which is moving up and down continuously as I tap my foot. He can tell I am nervous so he takes my hand in his and holds it.
"I'm so scared Nick..." I admit, and I never admit things like this.
"I know baby, so am I" Nick also admits as well, which surprises me. "Look baby, just don't worry about it"
"How can I not, I'm 41" I sigh looking at Nick.
"And you are by far fitter than most the women half your age" Nick smirks.
"I'll try and take that as a compliment" I smile, slightly laughing, as does Nick.
"I'm serious though Carla, it will be fine" He reassures me, which also comforts me.
My thoughts are suddenly disturbed by a short, middle aged woman who calls my name holding a clip board. "Carla, Carla Connor"
Nick stands up quickly, followed by me standing up slowly.
The blonde woman says "just through here please Carla"
We follow her through to the scan room, I make sure Nick doesn't let go of my hand.
As I step into the small, rectangular room tonnes of memories come flooding back to me, as if I had been hit by a bus. The bed in the middle of the room is the same, with the same white sheet covering it. The machine and computer next to the bed are exactly the same. Even both chairs either sides of the bed.
"Carla, it's lovely to meet you. My name is Julie and I will be your midwife throughout your pregnancy" She says with a smile on her face.
"I'm Nick, Carla's fiancé," Nick says as she shakes both of our hands.
"Can you please climb onto the bed for me Carla please so we can start the scan" Julie asks as I do so.
"So is this your first pregnancy?" She asks before reaching forwards to look at my notes. As she looks over the notes, I see her face drop and turn into regret.
"I, I miscarried in June 2014..." I say quietly and she nods her head. Nick takes my hand back in his and squeezes it.
"I'm so sorry about that... Right, can you please lift up your shirt so I can start the scan"
"Yeah..." I say slowly whilst I lift it up.
"This will be cold now Carla..." Julie says whilst squirting the gel onto my stomach.
I look up at Nick who gives me a reassuring look, squeezing my hand once again. "It will be okay" he whispers.
I feel Julie running the stick across my belly, my thoughts are suddenly disturbed by a loud sound filling the room.
"What's that? Is it okay?" I begin to panic until Nick runs his thumb along my hand.
"Everything is perfectly fine, that's you baby's heartbeat... Nice and regular" she turns the screen so me and Nick can look.
A wave of emotion washes over me, and before I can help it tears are streaming down my cheeks, escaping from my eyes. Nick wipes my tears and I look up at him smiling, I notice his eyes watering as well.
"I'm so sorry" I say pulling myself together. I hate showing weakness.
"Don't be silly, it's natural" she smiles at me whilst I feel Nick kissing my forehead.
"Can you see the outline of the head there, and there's a hand up by the chin" she tells me and whimper in response through my tears. Still holding onto Nick's hand.
"So, is everything okay?" Nick asks and I look at her.
"Yes, everything is prefect! From what I can see, you are just over 14 weeks pregnant. Your next scan will be in around 6 or 7 weeks, and then you can you find out the sex off the baby" Julie says happily and I nod. "I'll just go and get you scan photos sorted,"
"Thankyou so much" Nick says and I nod in agreement still unable to process any words.
"I did tell you everything would be perfect" Nick says smiling, looking over my shoulder at the scan photo I can't take my eyes off which I am holding.
"I just can't believe it!" I admit looking up at Nick smiling.
"You've said that already! Many times!" Nick jokes and I slap him lightly laughing.
"I'm being serious Nicholas! I'm so happy"
"Well that's good, because I'm so excited" Nick says taking picture from me and looking at it.
"I think we should start telling people, before they notice before themselves,"
"Yeah, I agree" he plants kisses into my hair.
"Chelle will kill me, she will be annoyed that I've not told her," I worry.
"She will be over the moon, don't worry about it babe. There's also my lot to tell, and yours. They will all be happy,"
"Well I do hope so" I kiss him passionately on the lips.
I, Carla Connor, soon to be Carla Tilsley, actually wanted this. I wanted a family, I wanted to be happy. I've never wanted anything more, I just wish my little girl was with me to share this with me.
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