AN: Hi! I can't thank you enough for the response you've all had to my story. I published this just for fun and it's incredible to see someone is willing to read it! So I hope you enjoy this chapter.

Chapter 1. Resolutions

I knew that leaving Escala would not be an easy task, as I was beginning to understand that having a husband like Christian Grey entailed some risks and also the certainty that even if I succeeded in ditching security, they would find me in a matter of minutes. After all, Christian's security followed after his stalker and control freak tendencies, so the only option available I saw was to talk to Sawyer directly.

Unfortunately, I was on my way to the security office when I ran into Mrs. Jones.

"Oh, Mrs. Grey, are you travelling also with Mr. Grey?" Shit. I didn't count on having to explain anything other than the necessary to Sawyer.

"Well... since Christian is not here at the moment, I thought I could go and visit Kate" Although I'd always thought I was a terrible liar I managed to sound pretty convincing this time around.

"That's wonderful dear, I'm sure it will do you some good" Mrs. Jones said with a look full of sympathy and love that broke my heart a little bit more, if that was even possible. I think she knew I was lying to her, and she decided to not say anything about it.

Once I made it to Sawyer, it was much easier than I had expected. Once he saw my suitcase and the look on my face, his eyes told me that he understood and he just asked:

"Where"

"The Heathman please"

With that, he simply took my luggage and guided me outside of the security office, as I took one last glance at the place where some of my most cherished memories had taken place. As much as I would have wanted to put some distance between me and Christian, I knew that he and Taylor would probably be home the next day and I had to talk to him. I just hoped that Mrs. Jones didn't tell anything to Taylor first.

"Do you think we can manage to get settled there without the press getting wind of it?" I asked Sawyer as he sorted through the late traffic. The last thing I wanted was for Christian to read about her wife staying at a hotel when I hadn't even talked to him yet. Since our engagement and wedding, the media were always lurking around us, trying to figure out what was so special about me that I managed to win the elusive Christian Grey's heart.

"I'll try ma'am" At that point I'd never been more grateful for Sawyer, knowing full well that by helping me he was jeopardizing his job.

Looking outside of the window car I couldn't help but notice that although I felt my heart tear to pieces the rest of the city seemed untouched, oblivious of my own pain. For me, it was as if the last few months had been moving at a faster pace, and now through the tinted windows of the car, everything seemed to move slower and blurrier than before.

When we arrived at the hotel, it was easy to notice the change in everyone once they realized they were dealing with Mrs. Grey. Sometimes, it was still scary to notice the effect the Grey name had on everyone. Even so that Laura, the young woman working on reception was incapable of understanding my insistence on not wanting to spend the night at the presidential suite. I guess I didn't feel she would be comfortable knowing that by wanting to put space between me and my husband, sleeping where he first admitted that he loved me didn't seem like the best idea. So, in the end we settled for the next best room and the one adjacent for Sawyer and Sawyer even managed to make her sign an NDA.

Surprisingly, I slept soundly throughout the night and when I woke up, I did it confident in my decision. While I had breakfast in my bedroom I thought about what I wanted to tell Christian. I felt that since the beginning of our relationship he had always fought his demons for me. However, right now I thought it was important that he fought for him and for his unborn child, more so than for me. I knew that in some ways I had encouraged the role Christian gave me as his ultimate savior, but now I understood that sometimes we need to save ourselves first. I remembered then Flynn telling him that we need to learn to walk before running and maybe that was the beginning of our problem. It seemed that Christian and I started walking and went directly into running a full marathon. I didn't doubt now that I was all Christian needed, as he had been all I needed, but this time it wasn't enough, I needed more from him. So taking advantage of my new resolve, due maybe in part to the high hormone levels provided by Blip I took my phone and texted him.

*When are you coming back?*

I didn't need to wait long to hear the sound of my mobile indicating an incoming text.

*We're due to take off in a few minutes. Going straight to GEH*

*Can we have lunch so we can talk? I'll come to GEH*

*Ok*

It was scary how one word could produce such a strong reaction in someone, but in that precise moment I wasn't so sure about keeping him at arm's length. I knew once I saw Christian it would be more difficult to stay in my resolve and not succumb into him.

Either way I decided to follow with my routine and worrying about Christian once I was in his office. I had a busy day ahead of me.

Sooo... How was it? how do you think Christian will react? My plan right now is to update once a week on wednesdays, so see you next week ;)